You were a reaper like Grell your best friend. You were his partner all the time and was always having to take care of him not to do something stupid and stick to his mission. You hated William for turning Grell gay. You ended up developing a crush on the gay man. He didn't have a boyfriend or a girlfriend...yet. You were slightly depressed because of that, you knew he wouldn't love you if he found out. He loves Sebastian, but he's not gay like Grell. You had a crush on Grell ever since you met him. I few years. Three or so. But you were his partner and his friend, you were quite close to the grim reaper. It was love at first sight for you. When you were alone in your room, you would cry when you thought about it, you cut yourself once. But knew you shouldn't do it again. Fail.

You were I your room crying in your bed, Grell's room wasn't far from yours. You were shaking holding the razor in your hands. You placed it on your soft skin and pressed the sharp object against it. As blood trickled down your wrist, more tears ran down your cheeks.

"why...WhY...WHY?!" You screamed. Your door was locked so no one could come in. Or so you thought so. It was midnight and everyone was asleep. Your red blood dripped onto the floor as you wanted to cut again but stopped yourself.
'I-I need to stop this before I do this everyday....' You thought not wanting to think about suicide. You didn't want to die, you just wanted it to stop. You dropped the razor and walked towards your large open window you hopped onto it and just as you jumped, you heard someone enter your room. You shrugged as you landed on the floor and ran off.

"(Y/N)?" A familiar voice rang in your ears.
'Grell... Don't follow me if you see me..' You thought hoping he won't come after you. You looked for a place to hide.
"(Y/N), why are you outside?"
'Shit..' You thought and ran as fast as you can.

"I want to take a walk alone!" You lied. You wanted to runaway and never return. It was to get rid of the pain. He looked down at her wrist, it was bleeding.

"Why is your arm bleeding?!" He alarmed.

"I accidental cut myself when I was cutting paper!" You called out, he was at a high window from where you jumped off. You had the highest room. He was able to see you clearly even from a far distance. He knew you were lying. He looked behind him to see the bloody razor in the floor. He frowned.
He jumped out running after you. Your screaming in your room rang in his ears.
'This is just great!' You sarcastically thought knowing he probably figured it out already. You tried running faster. You jumped on a house as he followed close behind you. You were one of the fastest with Grell... However,  he was  faster than you. You tried you best to get away by jumping off the house and onto the grounds of London. You drifted turning as Grell crashed into a house trying to drift after you. You hopped onto a house and continued running just to realize he was right behind you.

Suddenly, you felt something heavy jump on you, it was Grell. He jumped on you and pinned you to the muddy floor. When he jumped, it caused you fall to the ground. You struggled out of his grip trying to get away.

"Why did you cut yourself?" His emerald eyes staring into your (E/C) ones.

"I didn't, I told you was cutting paper..." You denied eye contact.

"Your skin isn't paper.. Don't cut it. But why did you do it?"

"I told you I was cutting paper!"

"No, you cut yourself..."

"How do you know?"

"The bloody razor on the floor."

"Shit..." You mumbled.

"Why...?"

"Because... William turned you gay and I loved you ever since I met you but you like Sebastian that demon guy..." You softly whispered feeling a tear slip down you face. You bit your lip. He slowly stood up as you also got up, just as you were going to walk away, you felt a hand reach out to grab yours causing you to freeze. You turned around seeing him smile.

"Why are you smiling?" You asked raising an eyebrow before calling out.
"Look there's a dead bird!" You pointed as Grell was looking where you pointed, you ran off when he wasn't looking. You hid behind a house hoping he wouldn't find you. You didn't want him to see you again. You felt useless. You knew you would be rejected. You regretted the fact even telling him. When he was smiling, you thought that he was going to start laughing at you and reject you. The only thought in your mind was hoping that he wouldn't find you.
'I bet he's going to reject me and just walk off and continue being gay...' You thought holding the tears back and blinking them away.
"I'm so weak..." You whimpered pressing your hand on your chest. You looked at your wrist. Cuts. You saw a house, it was old and you knew no one has been in the house for years, so you hid in there.

Grell looked behind him only to see that you were gone.

"(Y/N)?" He called out. He looked everywhere until there was only one place left. An old house that no one dared to step in. He stepped in and called out your name.
"(Y/N)! Where did you go?!" He called out running upstairs. His voice rang in your ears as you jumped out of a widow. You had quite the fall but you were fine. Grell spotted you.
"(Y/N)! Stop running away! I'm trying to tell you something important!" He called out as you stopped on the roof of a house. You turned around to see Grell on the roof behind you.
He slowly walked towards you and smiled. He hugged you as you froze in place.

"G-Grell..."

He pulled away and just then, you felt a pair of lips warm your soft ones, your eyes widen as he hugged you again. As he pulled away, he opened his emerald eyes to look into yours. Your eyes soften.

"I love you, (Y/N).... I always did and I'll never ever leave you...please don't cut yourself or harm yourself again..." You smiled and hugged him.

"I love you too... Grell.. I promise I'll never harm myself again..." You hugged him before you both passionately kissed each other.