A/N: Using a cover of the song that goes with the chapter because I love the song but I don't like the original singers voice. Sorry XD 
Caution: This chapter has A LOT of different kind of feels in it, you are gonna feel every emotion under the sun and its a long one. so buckle in. 

Killian looked down at his phone at the three missed calls from Anna and sighed. It was almost midnight. He looked over at Lyric who was sleeping next to him in her bed before he swung his legs around to the edge of the bed and stood slowly trying not to wake her. He picked his pants up off the floor and put them on and buttoned his shirt.
"Where are you going?" Lyric mumbled and propped herself up on her elbows watching him.
"I have to go home.." Killian said.
"To.. her." Lyric sighed and looked away.
"Look, I promise you I will tell her as soon as I can and we'll be done. Okay?" Killian asked.
"You promise?" Lyric asked and tucked her knees under her chin. "You really promise this time?" She asked. Killian smiled and leaned in and pressed his lips to her temple.
"I promise love, we'll be together soon and then we can do this the right way. I love you." He smiled.
"I..I'll let you out." Lyric said. She wanted to say it back, she wanted to scream it at him, but there was still that part of herself that wouldn't allow it. Lyric got up and pulled a tee shirt on
"Come on." She whispered and opened her bedroom door, she felt like she was a teenager again sneaking him in and out of her room. Killian stopped short in the hallway looking at Symphony standing there.
"Lyric.." He hissed. Lyric stood next to him.
"Shit.." She sighed. "Shes sleepwalking she does that sometimes. Just be very quiet going out and I'll lock up when you leave I'm going to get her back to bed.
"Okay." He smiled and kissed her on the cheek. "See you soon." He said and walked around Symphony. Lyric started very gently guiding Symphony back to her room as Killian let himself out.

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The next morning, Sarah had gone to work early and Darren was making breakfast for the kids. Lyric walked into the kitchen yawning.
"Long night?" Darren asked.
"Oh.. Uh.." Lyric paused. "Yeah Sym was sleepwalking..so.. Yeah." She said awkwardly and then kicked herself mentally. It was half truthful at least.
"Mommy, wheres Killian? Grampa will make him breakfast too." Sym said.
"Killian went home last night."
"But I saw him coming out of your room." Sym frowned.
Darren turned to Lyric and raised an eyebrow.
"You were dreaming honey.." Lyric said. Darren started carrying plates to the table.
"We'll talk later." He said in his you're getting a lecture whether you want one or not voice.
Lyric sighed and sat down.
"Is Killian coming back today?" Symphony asked. Lyric didn't know if it was a good or bad thing that Symphony was already so attached to Killian.
"I don't know baby. We'll see. Eat your breakfast." Lyric said and looked down at her phone and smiled.

Killian:
I want to see you tonight. I can get us a room if your house is too risky.

Lyric:
If you can pull the honeymoon suite at Granny's we will talk. ;)

Killian:
Since when did you become so high maintenance?

Darren cleared his throat.
"What are you doing?" He asked. Lyric dropped her phone on the floor.
"Nothing dad!" She said.
God I really do sound like a teenager again..
"Mmmhm. Eat." Darren said skeptically.

Darren came up the hallway after getting Sym and Quin down for their afternoon nap.
"So. I understand you and Killian have history.. But hes engaged Lyric. This is not a good idea."
Lyric rolled her eyes.
"I told you Dad, Sym was sleepwalking last night. Killian left after we put them down." Lyric lied.
"Don't lie to me Lyric." Darren sighed. "You're too old to lie to me like this."
"Dad.. just..let it go."
"No, okay you are making a huge mistake. I get it, seeing him with Symphony, and seeing him getting excited over the new baby makes you want to be with him. But he doesn't appear to be in a hurry to leave Anna and you are setting yourself, and Sym up for heartbreak if this goes south. Think about what you are doing."
"I'm not going to think, because I'm not doing anything!" Lyric grumbled and then looked down at her phone again.

Killian:
Honeymoon suite booked. You and me tonight 6pm. Don't be late McKenna.

Lyric felt a blush spreading across her face.

Lyric:
Even fashionably late?

Killian:
You are killing me, you minx

Lyric:
;)

Lyric tucked her phone in her back pocket. Everything about what she was doing felt so wrong, but it felt so right at the same time.
"Can you watch Sym tonight? Tink may have gotten me a job at Granny's and I don't want to be late." Lyric said.
"Is that what you are really doing?" Darren asked.
"Dad! I'm not 16. I don't need you to check up on what I am doing. Give me the benefit of the doubt."
"You are acting like a child, and the last time I gave you the benefit of the doubt you were dating your music teacher." Darren said and folded his arms.
"Please. Just watch her tonight?"
"You know I will Lyric..Just be careful. Please." Darren pleaded with her.
"Yeah. sure. I'll be careful." Lyric said and looked away from him.

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Lyric took a deep breath. Maybe she should just go home? Her Dad was right this was wrong. So why did it feel so right?
I have to see him. She thought and tapped lightly on the door to the room at Granny's. She heard shuffling on the other side of the door and then the lock clicked and the door pulled open.
"Room service?" Lyric smirked. Killian put his arm around her waist pulling her in the room with him.
"Just what I ordered." He purred into her ear making her blush.

They laid tangled up in eachother and the sheets on the bed in the room.
"So did you get in trouble for coming home late?" Lyric asked.
"Yeah, she bitched a bit, I just told her you were having trouble getting Sym down."
"Oh." Lyric said and half smiled.
"What?" Killian asked.
"Nothing..Its nothing." Lyric said and sat up. "My Dad is suspicious. I'm pretty sure he knows I'm not actually working at Granny's."
"You worried?" Killian asked.
"I don't know Killian? Should I be?" Lyric asked.
"What is that supposed to mean?" Killian asked sitting up now.
"I just mean.. Maybe instead of telling Anna you were helping me with Sym, you could have told her the truth... and ended things with her." She said.
"Its not that easy Lyric."
"It is. I could do it..in fact lets tell her now?"
"What? No!" Killian said and shook his head. "Lyric I will do it you just need to give me some time. Please." He said and leaned in and kissed her.
"Okay.." Lyric said and smiled.
"You hungry? You should probably eat. I can go across the street and get you something." Killian offered.
"No, I'm fine. I haven't really wanted to eat today. Everything sounds horrible." Lyric laughed a little.
His phone rang on the dresser He got up and walked over to it and looked at it and then looked at Lyric and put his finger to his lips as he answered the phone.
"Hey Anna." He said. Lyrics heart dropped into her stomach.
"I told you I was working tonight.. Liam needed my help. I can't just come home." He said and pinched the bridge of his nose and pulled the phone away from his ear.
"Christ.. Okay okay calm down. I'll see what I can do. Yeah.. Love you too."
Lyric felt like she would vomit.
Love?
Killian hung up the phone.
"I have to go.. Before she sets my house on fire.."
"You...love her?" Lyric asked.
"No.. Lyric no I don't."
"Then why did you say you do?" Lyric asked.
"It was out of habit Love.. I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you. I love you. I promise you this will all be over soon. Trust me?"
About as far as I can throw you Jones..
"Yeah." She smiled and stood up getting dressed.
"Do you want me to drive you home? Its getting dark."
"No. I'm fine. I'll go over to Granny's and wait for Tink. You better get home. Maybe come see Sym tomorrow? She missed you today."
"Yeah, of course." Killian smiled and kissed her on the lips. "See you tomorrow?"
"Yeah." She she pulled away and bit her lip and slipped her shoes on. "Tomorrow." She said and left the room.

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"You want me to what?" Tink asked.
"Get me a job." Lyric shrugged. "I can work the bar, I have waitress experience too.. I kind of told my Dad you were getting me a job.."
"What were you lying for?" Tink asked and put her hands on her hips.
"I..was seeing Killian.." Lyric said.
"You..Lyric!" Tink hissed.
"Please.. Don't judge me, just talk to Granny for me?" Lyric asked.
"I will talk to Granny for you because you DO need a job, but I don't support what you are doing. I love you Lyric, I always will but this is..crazy."
Lyric knew it was crazy but nothing about Killian Jones ever made sense.

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It had been a week, Lyric and Killian had seen eachother every day. He came to see Sym often and they would sneak away when they could. Today the kids were at preschool and both Darren and Sarah were out So Killian and Lyric had her house to themselves and they had been taking advantage of it for the last 4 hours.

Killian walked into the room with a bowl of ice cream and cold left over chicken. It was an odd request but he brought it to her anyways.
"I'm starting to think there is an alien in there. Who eats Ice cream and chicken?" Killian laughed.
Lyric just smirked and dug into the ice cream. Killian sat down on the bed.
"So.. I was thinking.." He said. "Maybe.. We can tell Sym i'm her dad tonight?" He asked.
"I..don't know." Lyric said and put the ice cream on her night stand and took a bite out of a chicken strip.
"Why not? I'm here all the time. She actually called me daddy yesterday. Maybe she should know." Killian pressed.
"Maybe Anna should know that we are having an affair and I am pregnant with your second child.." Lyric shrugged.
"Really?" Killian sighed. "You wont let me tell my kid, that I am her father because of Anna?"
"Yeah. Pretty much." Lyric said. "I want to know that you are 100 percent committed to me, and this family before she knows." Lyric said.
"Thats not fair."
Killian knew by the look in her eyes that he had said the wrong thing.
"Fair?" She spat and stood up. "Are you fucking kidding me?"
"Lyric.." Killian sighed.
"Whats not fair is that You have promised me that you would tell her and you would break up with her and you haven't! Whats not fair, Killian, is that you are fucking USING me and I'm tired of it."
Killian went to say something but his phone cut him off.
"Anna?" She asked.
"Yeah.." Killian sighed.
"Just go. You're going to anyways.. But maybe stay this time." Lyric said.
"Lyric come on.."
"No! I am tired of sharing so until you can decide who you really want.. You can stay over there."
"What about Sym?" Killian asked.
"Until you decide what you are doing.. Keep your distance I don't want her heart getting broken too." Lyric said and looked away.
"Lyric you can't do this.." Killian said.
"Just go." Lyric said. Killian sighed and stood up and picked up his shirt from the floor and pulled it on over his shoulders.
"Don't keep her from my Lyric.. Please."
"Then make up your mind Killian! But do it away from me." Lyric said and stood up pulling her clothes on.
Killian didn't say another word he just left. As soon as the front door slammed. Lyric burst into tears. She didn't want him to go, she wanted him to stay more than anything, but she couldn't do this anymore. She couldn't share him.

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"Mommy why are we here?" Symphony asked looking up at the bar. "Is Killian here?"
"No hes not." Lyric sighed looking at the disappointed look on her daughters face. It had only been two days and Symphony missed him so much.
"But, Killian's brother is here." She smiled trying to cheer her up.
Symphony smiled a little.
"Mommy?" She asked.
"Yes?"
"Is.. Killian my Daddy?"
"Why do you ask?" Lyric asked trying to breathe. Her daughter was way too smart for almost 5.
"I look like him. My ears, and nose."
Damn those adorable elf ears..
Lyric knelt down to Symphony.
"I don't want you to be upset baby and he wanted to tell you himself, but.. I can't lie to you. Killian is your daddy." She sighed.
"Why hasn't he come to see me?" Sym asked. "Doesn't he like me?"
Lyric felt her heart shatter into pieces. Her eyes welled.
"Killian loves you. More than anything honey. But he has some choices he needs to make."
"I didn't mean to make you cry." Symphony frowned.
"Mommy is weird these days. Bunnies make me cry. Its okay. Do you wanna meet your uncle Liam?"
"Yes." Sym smiled. Lyric smiled and stood and opened the door to the bar. Liam was wiping down counters and smiled at the two of them.
"This must be the little lass I hear so much about." He smiled.
"Hi Uncle Liam." Symphony said and waved cutely at him.
"And.. she knows?" Liam asked confused.
"Yep." Lyric smiled. Symphony stretched her arms out and Liam picked her up.
"Hello sweetheart." He said and looked at Lyric "No stranger danger here." He chuckled.
"Nope. She loves everyone." Lyric smirked.
Liam carried her over to the bar and set her on a stool.
Lyric walked over and sat beside her. Liam poured some sprite into a plastic cup and put a lid on it and a straw through the lid and passed it to Symphony.
"Thank you." She said and sipped from it. Liam turned on the tv on the wall and put on a cartoon.
"Mommy can I go watch?" She asked.
"Yes. Just be careful. Don't spill your drink." Lyric replied. Symphony hopped off the stool and wandered over to the tv becoming entranced in the cartoon.
"So. what has he done now?" Liam asked.
Lyric sighed.
"I don't know if I should get into that.."
"Come on Lyric, its me." Liam said.
"Yeah, at one point you didn't like me. Remember?"
"But I do like you now, I miss you. You were good for him. Anna.. She's a damn leech." He sighed.
"That's a polite way of putting it.." Lyric mumbled and put her head in her hands. "I just don't get why he won't leave her?
"He wants to Lyric.She's crazy. Last time he tried to dump her she threatened to throw herself off the bridge."
"Oh.. no." Lyric said sarcastically.
Liam raised an eyebrow.
"Sorry.. Hormones." Lyric mumbled.
"He just doesn't want her to hurt herself. He should have told you that."
"Yeah. Would have saved a lot of trouble.." Lyric sighed.
"If shes so crazy why isn't she.. Somewhere?"
"I don't know." Liam sighed. "Look.. don't give up on him okay? He loves you, and the only thing hes talked about since you came back is that little girl, and how excited he is for the new baby."
Lyric smiled.

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Lyric had decided to go to her next appointment alone.
"No Dad?" The ultrasound tech asked
"No.." Lyric said quietly. "Can we just.. Do this?" She asked.
"Of course." The woman nodded and started the ultrasound.
"Lets see if we can find the heartbeat.." She said and turned up the speaker. "Oh there it is." She smiled. Lyric smiled and let a tear slip out of her eyes. Killian should have been here. Why didn't she invite him? He should have been here to experience this.
"Can.. I get this on a disc? For the babies father?" She asked.
"Sure! I'll make one now." She smiled.

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This was perhaps the stupidest idea Lyric had yet. Here she was, at Killians house to bring him the disc with the ultrasound and the heart beat. She knocked on the door and Killian answered.
"Lyric..what are you doing here?" He whispered.
"I brought you the ultrasound from today.. With the heartbeat." Lyric whispered.
"What?? I was supposed to be there!" He hissed.
"I know. I know.. I feel horrible..just please take this."
Killian took the disc.
"Who is it?" Anna asked walking to the door. "Oh..Lyric." She said and smiled that stupid fake smile.
"Lyric was just bringing me a recording her father made for me." Killian lied.
"Yeah. I'm leaving now." Lyric shrugged.
"No. Please come in." Anna said.
"Uh.." Lyric started.
"I insist." Anna said. Lyric sighed and stepped in.
Yes. walk in the house with the crazy lady you are just full of smarts today Lyric..
"I'm just going to put this in my office." Killian said and walked down the hall.
Lyric followed Anna to the kitchen.
Why are you following her where they keep the knives?
"Can I get you anything?" Anna asked.
"No.. I'm good." Lyric said. "I really should go."
"No. I wanted to talk to you. Just.. us girls." She said and narrowed her eyes.
Shit.
"Uh. Alright.. Whats up?"
"Oh you know whats up." Anna sneered and pushed her cellphone across the counter. Lyric looked at the pictures of her meeting with Killian.
"Anna.." Lyric sighed.
"Want to explain to me why you are sleeping with my fiance?" She asked.
"No.. I'm just going to go. I'm shouldn't have come here."
"No. You shouldn't have come back period. So you can leave, and you can stay the fuck away from Killian. Or I can make you."
"Are you.. Threatening me?" Lyric asked.
"Do you really want to find out?" Anna asked.
Killian walked back down the hall.
"Whats going on?" He asked feeling the tension.
"Nothing. I was.. Just going." Lyric said and turned to leave. Anna stepped forward and Lyric tripped over her foot Falling hard on her stomach into the counter. She groaned holding her stomach and stood.
"Christ.. Are you okay?" Killian asked and helped steady her. His eyes full of concern.
"Yeah.. Yeah. I'm good." She said and went to step forward but felt stabbing pains through her whole lower region She cried out and held her stomach.
"Lyric??" Killian asked.
"I.. I'm okay." She breathed and tried to step forward again and dropped to the floor in agony crying now.
"Somethings wrong!" She cried.