"Pregnant? what do you mean pregnant?"

I sigh and throw my head back to hit the mattress, "you're as stupid as victor"

"No—no—that was a stupid question. It's just—"
The line went silent.

"Casper? You okay?"

"Yeah", he whispers, "Yeah, I'm okay. I'm just really—I don't even know how I feel right now"

"You're not happy" I say softly.

"No, no, I am happy. Fucking elated but It's just I never expected it to happen so fast", he chuckles.

"We've been fucking for a long time with no protection what did you expect", I chuckle along with him.

The line goes silent and I only hear his deep breathing.

"What are we going to do now?"

"You're coming back love. As soon as possible. Not a second to be wasted"

"I don't think Fabian can pack that fast"

"He can and he will", he growls before he whispers on the phone, "I just miss you and your presence"

"I do too"

"I don't think it's as bad as mine. You just really make my day you know? I could be having this long as fuck day and I'll just come home to you with Javier or Sebastian or you'd be on the phone talking to your mother and your voice will instantly calm me down. Then you see me and the biggest smile lights up your face and I feel like the luckiest guy in the world", he takes a deep breath, "I don't know what I did to deserve you"

I could feel my eyes getting teary and I didn't even realize that I was crying.

"Odetta? Odetta? Are you okay? Fuck, did I make you cry?"

"No. Goddess, no, you didn't", I wipe my tears. "Your words just made me so happy"

"Is it because you're pregnant?"

"I don't think I'm supposed to be experiencing pregnancy hormones now"

"We don't know how far along you are or if you are. That's why you need to come home now"

Home.

"I'll start packing and getting ready. Expect us home tomorrow alpha"

"Only you can make that sound so sexy"

"Get your mind out of the gutter"

I hear him laugh, "Goodnight love"

"It isn't night time here"

"Well it is for me" he yawns.

"Love you", I whisper and I hear him say it back before the call ends.

I toss the phone on the bed behind me and bring my knees to my chest.

Pregnant.

I might be pregnant. I might be pregnant. I might be carrying a child. I might be carrying Casper's child.

Oh my god. Our child. A child might be growing inside me right now. A child from Casper and I.

I stand up and walk to the full length mirror. With shaky hands, I raise my shirt and place a hand over my stomach. I couldn't feel anything but the thought that a child might be growing inside me just felt so overwhelming that I to started cry.

I see my shoulders shake before I hear my sob. I smile at my reflection and rub my stomach affectionately.

First Javier, then Casper and now this little bean. I felt so lucky.

"Hey", I whisper.

I didn't get a reply,not even a little noise and I can't hear any heartbeat but I'm so sure that I'm pregnant.

The door behind me opens partly and Max pokes her head into the room with a knock. "I heard you crying just wanted to check if you were okay"

"I'm fine", I sniff and try to wipe my tears away with my free hand. She raises a brow at my hand softly caressing my stomach. I quickly move my hand away and lower my shirt with a small chortle.

"You sure?"

I bite my lips contemplating telling her or not.

"There's nothing wrong but there might be something happening"

Her face contorts into one of confusion, "what happened?", She asks as she walks over to me and presses her palm to my forehead.

I laugh and push her hand away. "I just wanted ask you if you wanted to come to the capital with me"

She moves back and gives me a sad smile, "I don't think I can"

"Don't you want to see everyone else?"

"I do but definitely not now. I'm needed here with my mate and kids but I have no problem visiting . I hear that the capital is beautiful in the spring time"

It seems that I didn't hide my disappointment better because she hugs me. When she pulls back,she looks at me and smiles, "I promise and besides I'm definitely looking forward to seeing Noel."

We laugh together and I think about telling her that I think I'm pregnant. I needed to tell someone.

"Look max"

"Hmmmmm" she hums

"I think we need to sit down for this"

"You're okay right?"

I nod, "it's just something I need to talk to you about"

"Trouble in paradise with Casper?", She questions as we sit.

"No. It's not that" I shake my head and nervously play with my fingers. "I think I may be pregnant", I blurt out.

There is a pause before a large smile stretches across Max's face, "that's great news" she exclaims. "Have you told Casper? He must be elated"

"He is happy"

She frowns a bit, "but are you?"

"I am happy, so fucking happy"

"But...." she says.

"But I'm scared"

"Come hear, it's okay", she says and pulls me into a hug.

"A child might be growing inside me max. A child that will grow to be the size of a watermelon" I started breathing heavily. "I'm going to be waddling around with a watermelon"

"Calm down sweetie", she chuckles.

"Will I be a good mother?"

"I see the way you are with Javier. You're going to be fucking great"

"It's different. Javier is a kid. I don't know if I'll be good with babies"

"If you have any problems, your mother is there for you,bCasper is there for you,  your whole family is there for you and if you feel like getting long distance advice, I'm going to be there for you anytime. You're not alone and you won't ever be."

"It's so unbelievable", I whisper to myself.

"I know", she kisses my forehead while caressing my shoulder.

"Did it hurt?"

"When I fell from heaven or when I gave birth?" She laughed at her own joke.

"Be serious max", I couldn't help but to laugh along.

She turns serious and looks at me, "it's not easy, So is childbirth and motherhood. I remember dealing with post partum depression. I couldn't look at my kids. couldn't even be in the same room as them. I ate less and cried more. I remember looking into the mirror and crying all the time. Zane had to feed the kids from the bottle of milk I kept around.

"It wasn't easy but I persevered. I did it. I got help and I became healthier. I love my kids and my body. You're lucky, you'd probably get to give birth to one. I had three at once" she exclaims in laughter. "You don't need to be scared okay? Take it easy and it'll be alright"

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Hi guys,
How has your summer been?
I have so much to share with you guys.
-I'm done with my first year finally🎉moving to my second.
-I had my nails done on Sunday and honestly surprised at how good I'm getting at not poking myself to death.
-I finally watching captain marvel yesterday and it's definitely one of my best marvel movies. And I love Brie Larson so much. Still don't understand why people hate her and captain marvel so much.Been catching up with my anime and mangas too.
-Rewatched legend of korra and loved it. Also watched euphoria and the umbrella academy,definitely a must watch from me.
-My mum is so worried about my health. She says I look thinner and I swear that I'm still fat. I've been eating a lot lately and she's still says she doesn't like how thin I'm getting.
-I found this song(not from tik-Tok) called dissolve by absofacto and new light by John Mayer.I spend my days just listen to them on repeat.
-I have a crush on someone finally after so many years. People don't believe me when I say that it's been four years since I liked or even had a crush on someone. It's hard to find guys I like but this guy is so everything(there's a huge smile on my face right now) and he's sweet and caring,very funny and he seems so interested in me,like he listens and doesn't mind sharing stuff with me. I don't want to act on it because I recently rejected a friend of his and I don't want things to be awkward and even if I did try to act on it,I don't know what to do. I'm so useless when it comes to relationships. I haven't talked to my friends about it because I'm so embarrassed(I don't know why)