"Okay...? Park Hana, what do you want from me? Why am I chained? Where is this place?" with all the questions Kai threw at her, she gave a sigh of irritation.

"I'll make this brief. Lee Felix betrayed me a couple of years ago. If he hadn't betrayed me, the man I loved would've been mine. The girl I hate took my rightful spot as his wife!" She says, while stirring the pot rather very aggressively, thinking of the people she want to crush so badly.

Kai blinked a couple of times, eyes furrowed as he sends the woman a weird judging look, "Okay?"

"I know you have your own problems with Lee Felix so how 'bout helping someone who has the same enemy as you?" Honestly, for Kai, her proposal wasn't bad but the problem is the background of this woman.

Was she really useful for him? How much can she contribute to destroying Felix? Juding from her state, she's not in the right mind to carry out a revenge plan for a mafia.

She's just driven by plain anger by the betrayal of Felix which will actually make her a great sacrificial lamb.

Kai chuckled, "Sure. What's your plan?"

Kai had judged Hana to be mentally unstable so he's going to use her as he see fit.

-

It's been a few days since I'm here in the hospital getting treated for my wounds, especially my wound in my palm. The doctor said it will leave a scar due to how the knife punctured my palm.

I could still feel the lingering hatred Kai had inflicted as he pushed the knife on my palm. Somehow his betrayal towards me hurts more than the knife.

I wanted to know the reason why he was so angry. I feel like half of my life is a lie because of the new side I've seen from Kai. He was always easy going, he was all smiles which annoyed the hell out of me, and I don't know... I guess I just really didn't expect that it was all a facade.

Now I can't even remember what he's like before he went maniac on me.

The hospital room opened, revealing felix with a bunch of food with him, all kinds of food. "Heh..." he laughed awkwardly as he held the food he bought, "I didn't really knew what you liked so I just bought everything I thought would suit to your taste." He smiled.

I gave him a smile and pat my bed, "I'm still a bit full, you can eat with me." 

He sat on the bed and pouted. I titled my head in confusion, why was he so down? He sighed as he looked at the food he bought, "I just realized that I don't really know much about you, well, the real you after someone deceived me." he rolls his eyes.

The attitude this guy has...

I snorted, "Okay then... let's start from the very beginning, a proper introduction." I cleared my throat, straighten my back, and reached out my hand towards him.

"Hi, I'm Ri Luna. Born in the slums of North Korea, turning 21 in February 1. I don't know who my father is and I have little memory of my mother maybe it's also because of the excessive torture they did to me back when I was young when I was fooled and captured in an auction at North Korea. An agent — well, I guess an ex-agent at the secret organization Elite and your prisoner." I smiled.

Felix listened, remembering every information I gave him. "You were tortured? Is it too late now for me to say that I'll make them pay?" He tilts his head to the side.

I chuckled, "You're too late. That was years ago when I was still 7. Kai was the one who saved me because of that I thought I owed him my life..." I say, looking down.

"If I hadn't met you, I would have let him kill me. After all, my life would be the only price to pay when he saved me from that hell, right?" I looked at Felix. He had his eyebrows furrowed.

"You don't owe him anything." He said, his voice was serious. I smiled at him.

"It's your turn. My arms are aching" I pointed out cause he still hasn't accepted my handshake.

He extended his hand and held my hand, "Hi, I'm Lee Felix. Born in Australia, lived there for a couple of years and then my parents decided to move to South Korea so I spent most of my childhood in South Korea. My mother hated me, she blamed me for every misery in her life, and my father's a dickhead. I'm a mafia and I am in love with you." he says.

I cringed at the sudden cheesy pick up line that escaped from his pretty mouth.

I laughed. Felix, on the other hand, was still serious as he held my hand and squeezed it tight.

It made me stop and looked at him.

"... I also want to spend my entire life with you. Just the thought of spending the rest of my days rotting in this world with you makes my heart race." He says, observing my hand as if it's the most delicate thing he has ever held in his arms, his eyes were soft and filled with love. It made my heart feel warm.

His thumb caressed my palm gently. I gulped. Somehow I know where this is going, what he's going to say — and I'm scared as I prayed to the heavens that it's not what I think it is.

"Forgive me for hurting you when we first met. We really didn't have the best impressions of each other. Fate had intertwined us in the most non normal way possible, it doesn’t even count as a romantic first encounter." He chuckles, recalling the time we first met. "But despite that... I fell in love and would always choose to fall in love with you even if I repeat this life all over again."

He stops, brought his eyes to mine and smiled, "That's why, here I am, asking for your hand in marriage."

I stayed silent. I already knew he was going to do this and I already knew that I would not know how to respond — or rather, I was too scared.

Throughout my whole life I had never even considered marriage because I couldn't see myself being happy, being in love, having a family of my own.

A killing machine doesn't get to have a happy ending, not with all the lives she took.

And I'm sure I won't be a good wife nor a good mother to my children.

Felix notices my state and he panicked, "Well, uh, if you're thinking about finances I'm pretty loaded! I swear that you won't have a hard time. I also don't have any family or relatives to be able to oppose to this marriage, I'm free to marry whom I want. Status isn't a hindrance. Is that not it?" He asks, worried when I still didn't respond.

"Is it children? We don't have to have children, I won't force you to! It's your body and if having children is too much of a work for you then we won't have children. Having you is already enough — although it would be cute to have mini versions of us roaming around the house — but it's not necessary!" he continued to talk, panicking.

I cupped his face for him to stop blabbering. "That's not it... I just... I don’t think I'm ready for marriage." I say, looking down.

Felix was silent for a moment before nodding his head, "Okay, then... We'll take it slow. Baby steps, hm?" He brought his face close to me and tilted his head. I swear he made puppy eyes at me which made me giggle.

Baby steps, how cute. I thought.

"Baby steps." I repeated and we cuddled.

-

In the next few days, Felix took care of me. Compared to what he was when we first met, he was very soft and warm towards me now. Because of that, I was also starting to change.

Our relationship seemed to improve all too naturally. Ever since we decided to take things slow, things were different. It's a good difference.

Today, I got discharged from the hospital and was heading towards home.

It's weird calling Felix's house as my home, technically I don't have any place to call home since Elite is gone but Felix insisted for me to treat his house as my home.

His words, not mine.

As soon as I went inside I felt a sense of familiarity and nostalgia at the same time. It's only been a few months since I've been away from this house but it seemed like an eternity had already passed.

I was oddly comfortable.

As much as I wanted to rest cozily in Felix's house, I still had unfinished business to do.

I lifted the picture and recalled what Felix had said to me regarding the picture. We haven't really got to talk regarding the picture since a lot had happened.

I feel like I should talk to him about it now.

I was on the couch while Felix was at the bathroom to have a quick shower. I waited for him to come out. I felt like a little puppy waiting for her owner to return home.

As soon as the door from the bathroom opened, Felix came out with a bathroom robe, his hair was wet as he rubbed it with a spare towel to dry it.

He didn't do anything that would make it extraordinary but the image in front of me seemed like it came out of a masterpiece of a painting.

Is it just me or is he extra hot when his hair is wet?

I gulped as I mentally slapped myself to distract me. He must have felt me staring at him when his eyes met mine, a smug look appeared on his face as he continued to tilt his head and dry his hair off.

"Hi." He says, grinning ear to ear.

I smiled in response, "Hey," I manage to say but felt as if my voice was stuck in my throat. Since when was I this nervous around him? — No, scratch that, since when was I ever this nervous around anybody!?

Again, another emotion that I had never felt. Only he could make me feel these unfamiliar emotions.

"I was just... thinking..." I stuttered and looked away at him. I brought my attention to the picture I was holding in my hand instead. "Your uncle, does he have any connection with anyone from North Korea?"

He sat beside me, still occupied in drying his hair. He glanced over the picture, "Hm, I was too young back then to even be included in adult topics so no, I have no idea."

I groaned, feeling the dead end of my search for the man my mother told me to look for. "Then, do you have any idea how to find him?"

Felix was in deep thought when I asked that. I gave him some time to think. "He disappeared when I was old enough to remember. I have plenty of reliable connections in Korea that could find him with ease. I could have easily found him but I guess I was still angry at him for leaving me like that and a part of me was scared of knowing what happened to him..." He chuckled dryly.

He turned to me again, "I've been meaning to ask you... What is your connection to my uncle?"

I caressed the picture, "I don't know either. The last and only memory I have with my mother included her giving me this picture and telling me to find this man. She didn't tell me the details."

"So you're looking for him to find answers on your life before the auction and before you lost most of your memories?"

I sighed heavily. I don’t know how to answer that. To me, it was my mother's dying wish. It was more like a will of hers. I didn't know much about my mother for me to feel any special attachment to her since I did lost most of my memories, she was like someone only her past self knew, and that past self of her is lost and gone.

For years, the picture was the sole reason I kept going with my life. I killed people, endured the nightmares, and lived like an empty vessel. I was searching aimlessly, it wasn't what I wanted but what my mother wanted.

Although I may have lost my memories of my mother, doing this is a way for me to thank her for giving me life and to respect her. Maybe this was also a way for me to apologise for losing my memories of her.

"I don't know... It would be nice if finding him means finding out what happened to my mother and what kind of person she was." I smiled rather bitterly.

"Hey, if it cheers you up, I never felt like I had a mother even though she was physically there but she was shit." He chuckled.

I smacked him behind his neck, "That doesn't cheer anyone even me, sicko." 

He laughed, at this moment he had stopped drying his hair. He leaned his head to my shoulder, resting on it, his cold wet hair was ticklish against the side of my neck but I didn't mind. "Don't worry, I'll help you find my uncle. I do have a few words and questions I have to say to him myself, it's just like hitting two birds with one stone." he reassures.

That made me feel assured. It was scary how I have depended on Felix and how much I trust that he's capable with anything.

Well, it may be a scary feeling but I'm willing to embrace fear if it means I get to be with him.

I smiled and also rested my head on his.

A/N: YAY! I haven't updated in a month(?) or so. WRITER'S BLOCK IS SO BAD. It's my mortal enemy on wattpad. I hate it so much! But anyways, ya'll are in for a surprise hehe adios~