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❝ HE SETS FIRE TO THE WORLD AROUND HIM, BUT NEVER LET A FLAME TOUCH HER. ❞

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(!) WARNING (!)
this chapter contains scenes (smut) which may be uncomfortable to some of the readers. you can freely skip the scene if uncomfortable.

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sixteen.

LUNA

Felix's face slowly went closer to mine until our lips touched. He gently made me lay on the bed and now he was hovering over me. The kiss started out as soft and tender, soon our tongues were tasting each other, fighting to assert dominance over the other.

I could taste the beer from his mouth. I'm not fond of the taste of beer, I don't like how bitter it tastes. Maybe it's because I'm tasting it from his mouth but the beer tastes sweet that it makes me want to taste more. It's very addicting.

He pulled away and I subconsciously pulled my face towards his to somehow chase his lips, longing more to taste it and feeling empty when it's not pressing on my soft lips. I stopped when he starts to laugh. My eyebrows furrowed, "Shut the fuck up"

"You're adorable" He smiles, eyes almost disappearing when it reached his eyes. I could feel the heat rushing over to my face as I avoided meeting his gaze, "I just wanted to tell you that there's no going back once you do this with me"

Both of his hands were beside my head, pinning me down to the bed as his face slowly leaned in on my neck. His breath tickling my skin, and he whispered while his other hand tuck a strand of stray hair behind my ear, sending shivers down my spine like puffing smoke from a cigarette.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" He asks. I couldn't help but gulp. I could feel him under there, as hard as a rock. Despite the clothes separating us I can still feel him.

Until now I am still hesitating, scared, and overthinking. I was scared that I'll regret this, scared that this might have consequences that I can't take, scared that It'll end up hurting him.

I froze, since when did I start to feel this way for him?

There was no denying it, it's as clear as day. There was no point in shoving what I'm feeling to the side, disregarding it. Even if this feeling was unfamiliar to me I'm not dumb enough to know what this feeling is.

I'm in love with this man.

"Fuck it," I say and pulled myself closer to him, my hands on the back of his head, pulling him closer to me, deepening the kiss.

I could feel him smiling while he's kissing me. He gently took off my clothes as I took off his, unbuckling his belt. He planted soft kisses on my neck as I inhaled due to the weird feeling he's giving me.

I was already on my underwear under him. My clothes was easy to take off since it was a night gown, what the maids would usually make me wear. I don't know if I should thank them for this.

Before I knew it he had already took his top and bottom clothes off and stared at my almost naked body. I also couldn't help but to notice how beautiful his body looked like. Beautiful doesn't even cut to describe it.

His eyes explored every inch of my body as if he was remembering every little detail of it.

"Stop staring or I'll pluck your eyes out" I threatened but he didn't feel the slightest bit threatened because looking at my state right now, it would be even hard to lift a knife. I was a mess under him and we haven't even started yet.

I had no idea I was this sensitive since I had never done this before. I felt a heavy feeling rising in my chest when I realized this wasn't his first time.

I wasn't his first and that makes me uneasy.

My thoughts were cut off when Felix started to plant soft kisses on my stomach and it continuously went down. It made my back arch. I was sensitive when someone touches my stomach let alone plant kisses on it.

He brought his face in front of me, "You're beautiful." His eyes looked so sincere that anyone could get hypnotized by it, and I was it's first victim.

He went down again and slid his fingers on the side of my underwear as he slowly pulled it off. He brought his eyes to look at mine and went for my neck, leaving marks on it as he took of my bra.

His tongue trailed off on my chest and to one of my nipples as he nipped and sucked on it. I bit my lip and closed my eyes from the pleasure. His hands made it's way down to my now exposed pussy and rubbed his hands on it as I grabbed his shoulder for support to overcome the pleasure I'm feeling.

He kept on rubbing it mercilessly as he sucked on my nipples that it's slowly turning red. I could feel I was close but he stopped, eyes lidded, I looked at him and my eyes widened when his face was now in front of my pussy.

His breath on it was delicious enough. He stuck his tounge out and started to lick it and kiss it. "W-Wait-" When I was about to tell him to not do it because I don't think I can take it, he suddenly started to suck on it. I pushed my head back as my hands made its way to his hair, grabbing on it as he was focused on making me feel good.

He started to lick fast on my clitoris as I could feel him inserting his fingers inside me. My hand was grabbing his head while my other free hand was gripping on the pillow my head was resting but somehow it wasn't enough. For a virgin like me, this is very stressful as well as very pleasurable.

He started to pump his fingers in and out of me as my hips met every thrust and lick he does on my clitoris. His hands grabbed both of my legs and forced it to open for him to give him more clear access to my pussy. He was so focused on pleasuring me that he didn't notice how a mess I was right now.

"I think... I'm..." I couldn't let the words out as every minute his tounge's pace on my clit fasten as well as the pace of his fingers entering and exiting my entrance. My mouth fell wide open and my eyes rolled back as I met my climax.

Felix looked at me who's laying on the bed, out of breath, and full of sweat. He smirked to himself. To him, I was like his artwork and he's the artist who's satisfied of how his artwork came out. He wiped his mouth that had my load smeared on it with the back of his hand, "I'm not done with you yet, sweetheart."

"Wait!" I manage to shout and he froze, surprised by my sudden shout. I sat straight up and looked at him in the eyes. He gulped, scared if he went too far or if I changed my mind and didn't want to do it anymore because he did something I disliked.

With his mind filled with anxious thoughts, I pushed him to the bed. Now he was the one pinned down, "I want to to take the lead now." I confidently said, I didn't want him to do all the work and I like being the one dominating.

Felix blinked for a couple of times, taking the image in front of him. To him, I looked like a Goddess — an incredibly sexy one. From all the girls he had slept with, no one actually wanted to dominate him and take the lead. This was new to him and he liked, no, loved it.

"Are you sure? You're a virgin, rig—" I slammed my lips on his to shut him up and pulled my face away from him. He was taken aback again but smiled, "Okie dokie~" He chuckled.

I might be a virgin but I had eavesdropped countless of times whenever my co-workers from elite talk about stuff like these so I have knowledge on it. Though, it's only on words and not by experience.

I pulled his underwear off, his rock hard cock sprung out as if it's finally satisfied it's free from the confinement of the underwear. I came face to face from it, hiding the gulp that I did and slightly regretting my decision on taking the lead.

I applied kitten licks on the tip as he groaned. I noticed he was fighting with himself to not aggressively grab my head to take the whole thing in because he can't take it anymore. Weirdly enough, I find it cute that he's restraining himself so I won't get hurt.

Reaching to a decision to finally stop teasing him, I took the whole thing in without any hesitance. I could tell he wasn't expecting that since he hissed in surprised. I eventually gagged when I reached the end of his cock, I was confident I could take it all in without any problem but he's bigger than I thought. I've completely underestimated him.

I started to bob my head up and down, careful not to accidentally bite on it or let my teeth graze on it. Felix couldn't stop his hand anymore as he grabbed by head and took control over my pace.

I could feel the head of his cock hitting the back of my throat as I tried my hardest to keep up with his pace. His hips started to cooperate with his hands as he basically fucked my mouth.

My tounge didn't rest as I continued to lick it even if it was inside my mouth. I was pretty skilled on using my tounge despite it being my first time.

"I'm close..." He said along with a huff of breath.

As soon as I felt him twitching I pulled my mouth away from him, making a popping sound, which Felix found hot. He came and some of it even went to my face which had me blinking my eyes. He chuckled at the sight, finding my reaction to be cute. He dragged his thumb on my cheeks and wiped it off from my face. "You still look good even with cum on your face." He joked and somehow he meant it as a compliment.

I stared at him, realizing what I had just did, not even giving his joke the least bit of thought. I never knew I had it in me, to actually do a man a blowjob. I was reminded again of what we were doing and my face started to flush.

"Kiera..." He called. I looked at him, observing what he looked like. He was all sweaty but somehow it made him look more handsome, he's so breathtaking that I was starting to ask how he was real.

"You want to take the lead, right?" He asked. I slightly shook my head up and down.

"Then, hop on for a ride"

I already knew what he meant despite him not saying it clearly. I got what he meant immediately that I'm starting to feel ashamed of myself.

"Before that," He sat up and went to the drawer beside the bed. He opened it and got something out from it, a plastic square shaped product. "Don't want to become the next hyunjin"

I raised my eyebrow at him, not knowing who the person, Hyunjin, is. I decided not to ask any more questions. He ripped the plastic off with his teeth and rolled the condom up his still hard and erect cock.

He laid back down on the bed and I crawled over him, "I.." I let out, biting my lip as I hesitated if he needs to know it.

"What is it? Do you want to stop?" Felix asked, his voice sounding sad despite his best effort to not make it sound like it.

"No. I was just— " I closed my eyes tilting my head away from his view, "I don't know where to put it" I blurted out.

Felix was silent for a moment causing me to get embarrassed. He suddenly burst out laughing as I faced him with my eyebrows knitted together. He laughed, wiping his joy of tears in his eyes, "That's okay, I'm here." He said

That honestly lifted my mood a little bit.

He put his hand on my waist while his other hand grabbed his cock to guide it from where my entrance is. "This might hurt." He warned, as he pushed my waist to bury his cock. It was completely sheathed in that it almost looked like it dissapeared. My mouth fell open as I took him in, I felt so full and complete? It didn't hurt, everyone in elite said their first times hurt at first but I didn't feel any pain, it did feel a little weird.

"Are you alright?" Felix asked, concerned if he hurt me. "Hey? Kiera? Why aren't you—"

He let out a groan when I started to grind on him, first at a slow pace but the pleasure it was giving me eventually made me fasten my pace which earned a grunt from Felix.

His eyes were on me, never leaving me as I was busy pulling my body up and down, taking him in again and again. He started to laugh in amusement, normally I would glare at him but I was too occupied with pleasure to even care.

I bit my lip, not allowing any weird sounds to come out from my mouth. I looked at Felix who was under me, both hands on my waist, as he enjoyed the view he was getting. I felt the urge to dive in to his lips so I did.

I leaned in to kiss him, our chests touching. He took this advantage to switch our positions, now I was the one under him. "That's enough of you taking the lead, sweetheart." He says, lifting my legs over his shoulder as he thrusted deep and hard inside me.

The sensation made me let out a soft moan but I immediately bit my mouth with my hands, biting back the moan that was threatening to escape. I felt Felix's warm fingers caressing my bottom lip to stop me from biting it.

"This room is soundproof, inside and out, so don't worry about anyone hearing us having our lovely time here." He says, whispering on my ear. I finally gave in and when he started to move in and out in a pace faster than earlier, I started moaning loudly non-stop, my hands gripping the bed sheets as I tried to stop making unholy sounds.

Arousal swirling inside my stomach as he buried his nose on my neck and soft groans escaped his mouth. His hips continued to grind in me, pushing his cock inside and out of me. His pace getting faster and more desperate to reach the peak of his paradise.

My hips were also grinding towards him, meeting his every thrust inside of me, deepening it as it drove me crazy every time the head of his cock hits my core which makes me feel a wave of uncontrollable pleasure. Nails digging on his back. I didn't know where to grab support nor was I in a right state of mind to think properly so I just dug my nails in his back or grip on his hair.

He pulled his face to look at me and devoured my lips. The kiss was fast, rough, and wild as it also matched with the pace we were in. "You're really enjoying this, aren't you?" he said in between the hot and steamy kiss.

I scoffed breathlessly, "May I remind you that you're the one who wanted this." I huffed. He chuckled.

"You can't deny that you want it too" He says. I was about to argue back but he pulled me up with him so now we were sitting up. My legs were wrapped around his waist as I mewl at the sudden change of position.

He tuck a strand of stray hair behind my ear so he could see the side of my face and plant kisses on my neck. "Can you hop for me, yeah?" His ragged breathless voice was hot against my skin.

I couldn't let out a word so I just nodded at him, immediately following his request. I pulled myself up, taking him out and inside again making me drop my head down to his shoulder, burying it in his neck and tightening my hold around his neck as I clenched around his cock whenever it goes in.

The position we're in made it feel much deeper which drove the two of us crazy, crazy for more.

His hands went to my hips as he traced it up, touching both the sides of my body, and he stopped near my breast. My breath hitched when he cupped it with both of his hands and played with my nipple. I moaned out, eyes fluttering from the pleasure.

He grabbed my waist and helped me fasten my pace. His cock was reaching right where I wanted him to, hitting it continuously. I could feel myself climbing higher and higher towards my release. We were both sweating but I felt like the most wrecked between the two of us. Felix, even if he was sweating, still looks incredibly handsome. Like a character from a lewd painting. His eyes lidded as he never left his eyes on my face.

Felix cursed under his breath when he felt that I was clenching tightly around him. "Felix," I breathe out, not doing it on purpose to call his name in a seductive way. I couldn't even finish my sentence when he suddenly kissed me and pulled away.

"I'm close too, baby" I couldn't even react to the pet names he's giving me. With a few hard, deep, and slow thrusts, I felt a gush of wetness come out from me and is released around his throbbing cock, hugging it.

"Ah, fuck" Felix groaned, feeling something rising inside of him. With one last hard thrust, he came and released his load inside me. Although, he was wearing a condom I could still feel the warmth of his semen inside me. He slowly pulled out of me, my body trembling from the sensation of him leaving my inside.

I plop myself on the bed, arms spread, as I stared on the ceiling, panting, and sweating. As soon as I laid my back down on the bed, Felix pulled out the condom that was still inside me — with his load in it. "Mm..." I let out a soft moan, feeling the condom going out of me.

Felix took care of the condom and I couldn't wait for him to lay down beside me because my eyes were giving up on me and I fell into a deep slumber, tired and completely drained of the intense workout we did.

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I woke up the next morning with my whole body aching. Maybe it was due to the fact that it was my first time and my body wasn't used to it. When I looked beside me I didn't find the person I was hoping to see.

Felix wasn't here beside me.

My nose caught a delicious smell coming from outside of the room. I was reminded again that I was still in Felix's bedroom. I stood up, walking slowly and carefully to the door. I grabbed the doorknob and twisted it as a small smile tug on the corner of my lips when I saw that the door wasn't locked.

I went out and made my way downstairs, seeing Felix in the kitchen, cooking something. His back was facing me and it seemed like he was talking to someone through a video call?

"How's the baby?" Felix asked, joy evident on his tone. I stopped on my tracks and I immediately hid behind a wall, eavesdropping on the conversation of Felix and the person he's talking to.

"She's doing fine!" A voice of a woman erupted. "When are you coming back here in Korea? You need to be there when she comes out. She'll really despise you if you don't come!"  The woman jokingly says. Felix laughed. I could tell he has a very close relationship with the woman but... a baby?

Is it his baby?

My body went cold as my eyes while all sorts of question went roaming inside my head.

"Yes, yes, I'll be there. I don't want to make her hate me, you know?" He assured the woman while he was cooking breakfast.

"Are you sure? From what I remember you're not the type to keep promises!" The woman laughed and Felix also laughed, "Seriously though, you need to come here before the exact date of her due date and I missed you!" She says.

"I missed you too"

My whole entire body went cold hearing their conversation. I felt a sharp sting inside of me, something that I couldn't explain. I had just admitted to myself, stopped disregarding my feelings, and stopped being denial about my love for him last night only to wake up and get my heart shattered into pieces like this.

"Sam missed you too!" they continued to have their talk while I was occupied with my thoughts.

Well, would you look at that. First love immediately turns into a first heartbreak. What a pitiful situation.

I mean, really, what was I expecting? What happened only happened because he was drunk, it was out of pure lust, no sort of complicated feelings like love tangled in it. I may have professed my love for him on myself but it doesn't gaurantee that he feels the exact same way as me.

and he already has kids for fuck's sake, a family of his own, and I have no place in that family of his. My throat felt dry as I turn to my heel, walking away, back to Felix's room and greeted the bed again.

Why did I even catch feelings for him?

I sighed on the pillow, groaning at the realization that just when I thought I had finally found someone I love why does he have to be someone who already have kids? and he's on good terms with his woman too.

So, why did he do that with me when he already has kids? My eyebrows knitted as I questioned myself, finding reasonable answers that could solve my question. The only answer I've come up so far is that he had done that with me because he's an asshole who thinks with his dick.

I went stiff when I heard the door opening. I shut my eyes tight, trying my hardest to pretend to be asleep and to make sure that I look convincible. His footsteps grew closer and with each step he took, the more I wanted to jump up and slap him for being an asshole who cheated on his woman.

His breath was suddenly close to my ear as he exhaled which sent electric shock waves throughout my entire body. "Wakey, wakey" Saying those words with his deep voice didn't help my situation at all because it just made me felt, what people call, 'butterflies' in my stomach.

When he saw that I'm not waking up he chuckled, "I know you're awake. It's obvious." He says, almost in a teasing tone.

My eyebrows furrowed as I instantly shot my eyes open and glared at him. "Asshole." I murmured right in front of his face. His face shifted to a confused one, wondering why I was suddenly angry at him, retracing his steps if he did anything to make me angry.

I sat up and stood up. Felix blinked for a couple of times, still confused why I was acting that way towards him after the night we shared. "Where are you going?" He asks. I didn't bother facing him to answer his question but just continued to walk to the door as I answered his question.

"You were going to wake me up for breakfast, weren't you?" I say, not batting an eye at him.

"Yeah, but—"

I went out before he could finish his sentence any further. It might be petty or ridiculous, whatever you would like it to call but I can't help it. He fucked me when he had kids from another woman? I can't bring myself to tolerate men like him nor even love him.

Falling for him was a mistake, a mistake that I can't undo.

A

/N:
yay! update! it took a long to publish this bcs we're starting to have our face to face classes. school sucks but i can't do anything, education is important smh. oh and don't even wonder how they did that "workout" with her shoulder injured. i guess the only explanation that can answer the question is that she's a psychopath who's used to feeling pain? Physical but not mental pain.

It's my first time having a chapter that reached 4244+ words. It's an achievement, honestly. Also, uh, I had also learned that I have no absolute talent in writing smut fiction but perhaps this can help me improve? idk. half of this chapter was filled with the smut scene so if u skipped it, it might feel like this chapter is short. I really wanted to make it longer but I still have classes tomorrow (T.T)