fifteen.

LUNA

I was unconscious, I know that, I know the feeling all too well. A feeling I frequently experienced in my past. I'm unconscious but I can still feel my surroundings.

It's like I'm underwater. I couldn't move nor speak.

"Why isn't she waking up yet?" Felix's voice echoed. It sounded cold, an unusual tone in his voice that I had never heard him use. Another voice echoed, responding to Felix's question but it was muffled and inaudible.

"If she won't wake up for a week, you will pay with your life." What Felix said made me want to scoff. It looks like he's taken a whole new personality just because I'm unconscious for a few days.

Why is he so desperate to wake me up? He's going far as to take the doctor's life away just because I still was unconscious. I don't care about the doctor's life nor do I want to save him. I wish this deep slumber of mine will last for a week.

No, maybe it's even better for me to not wake up at all?

I'm tired.

Every day I'm only living solely on someone's order. I have no reason nor will to live at all. Well, there was that person my mother told me to find but I'm not entirely curious who the man she wants me to find even if he turns out to be my biological father.

What would change? What will I do after finding him? Will these nightmares stop when I find him? Will I finally become happy?

I already know the answer to my question. My life's too fucked up for me to be happy, I've killed hundreds of people and will forever be hunted by their souls as I slowly break and fall.

I guess I'm not that of a psychopath because I'm bothered by how many people I've killed so far, may it be innocent people or those people that didn't deserve to live. Whatever it may be, I've already long realized that someone like me can never become happy, never find peace.

The truth is, I'm vulnerable. I've always been vulnerable. I enjoy killing but also live with the nightmares I get from it. My past self openly showed the world how vulnerable I was, and I am still the same person as I was before, vulnerable. I just learned how to hide it from the world to survive, to live.

Why do I still continue to live? For what reason do I keep on living?

Now that I think about it, I've only held on to my life until now because of the person my mother told me to find. I didn't keep on living because I wanted to, but because to accomplish my mother's commands I need to be alive.

But I'm tired, so tired that I just want to throw away everything I have and be done with everything.

"Kiera..." Felix's voice appeared again. He sounded drunk. I knew he knows how to control his liquor but I guess he wanted to get wasted on purpose. I wonder why, "My mother... she told me she was going to remarry some douche she met while she was busy living her life while also abandoning her son" His hoarse voice made it obvious that he was drunk.

"She even... invited me! So- obviously I went to their wedding to send my special congrats and also to bless their wedding but you know what I saw? She called that douche's son "son"! She looked at him like... what she was supposed to look at me like. She... She treated him like her real son. THEN WHAT THE FUCK AM I?" It was pretty much hard to understand what he was saying because he would randomly laugh then starts to cry then laugh again in between his sentences.

Ah, do I really have to listen to all of this? That boy who shot me should have shot straight to my heart instead so I'll immediately hug death.

"She always looked cold. I had never felt her love but to see her easily showing it to someone who doesn't even carry an ounce of her blood nor she gave birth to? It felt like a slap to me." There was a long pause before he continued, "Why... why wasn't she like that to me? I just don't understand. Was I really undeserving of her love? Was I asking too much from her? I know what she thought of me, I know she hated me, but I waited for her to love me back even if it was too late. When I saw her again after a long time I was hoping for her to say that she was sorry and wanted to properly become my mother now to make up for the times when she was not."

His voice was breaking and I can feel that he, as a person, is breaking as well. "But... she still didn't. What irks me the most is that if she did say what I was hoping for her to say... I would still accept it, I would still accept her apology, I would still allow her to finally be a mother to me, and I would still love her just like I always did before."

He finally gave in to his tears and started crying.

Ah, damn it.

-

FELIX

He cried. His face was buried in the bed sheets. He was sitting beside the bed Kiera was currently at and knowing she was unconscious and couldn't hear what nonsense he'll say, he ended up confessing his problems to the unconscious woman.

His body froze when he felt a hand on his head, stroking his hair gently. He looked up to see Kiera already sitting up on the bed and looking at him with a blank expression. "You... how long were you awake?" Feeling embarrassed by what he just said earlier made him slightly stammer.

"Just now" Kiera shrugged, "You were crying so isn't the obvious thing to do is to offer you my warmth of comfort?" She explained still caressing his head. Felix sniffled and stood up, stumbling while doing so.

"I- This isn't tears, my eyes are just sweating." He said as a ridiculous excuse while his back facing her as he rubbed his eyes. If he wasn't drunk right now he would have come up with a better and much believable excuse other than the eyes sweating.

"Yeah, wow, how surprising." She sarcastically said while clapping her hands. Felix faced her to glare at her. He sat back down, crossing his hands over his chest. After a long silence, Kiera decided to break the ice, "How long was I asleep?"

"Five days" Felix says, he was slowly regaining his composure and control on himself back. Kiera hummed in response. "You're weaker than I thought. Collapsing from a mere gunshot on the shoulder and not waking up for five days" Felix snickered

Suddenly, his usual annoying self is back which made Kiera's eyes twitch in annoyance. She rolled her eyes, she didn't tell him that she heard everything for him to not get embarrassed but she's rethinking her life decisions right now.

She glanced over at her shoulder. It's been five days and her shoulder is slowly healing so it doesn't hurt that much. She sighed, with all the failed escape attempts she did she's thinking of giving up and just behave until Elite rescues her. Though, their rescue might be take lot longer than she thinks it will be.

She froze when she looked at felix again and found him to be inches away from her face.

"What are you thinking about so seriously?" His face was flushed because he drank too much, with how close his face was from hers she can almost smell the alcohol, and she noticed something.

He wasn't wearing any foundation to hide his freckles anymore.

His freckles struck her that she couldn't take her eyes off from it. Felix noticed it and gave out a soft chuckle, he had a very deep voice but due to the fact that he's drunk it's deeper and hoarse.

She froze, her eyes met his gaze, and she gulped.

Her heart just skipped a beat.

"Can I kiss you?"

Hearing his question made her blink for a couple of times before she finally got what he said. She didn't take him for the type to ask permission, maybe it was because he was drunk. Oddly enough, she liked this side of him.

"If you give me permission I can't gaurantee that I'll only stop with a kiss" He says, glancing at her lips.

She wanted to avoid his gaze, she wanted to push him away and kick him out of the room, but a part of her wanted to say yes to him.

Which scared her.

Felix was barely holding himself back while waiting for her response. She slowly adverted her gaze somewhere else and he observed her as she pursed her lips. She's hesitating, he thought and pulled himself away from her.

I won't pressure nor force it on her, he was about to leave but he felt a slight tug on the hem of his shirt. He stopped and looked at Kiera. She was meeting his gaze confidently.

"Fine." She says "I'm giving you permission." A small smile appeared on Felix's lips as he wasted no time and dive in to capture her lips.

-

KAI

Jooyeon and Kai were currently on Jooyeon's van doing something related to the rescue mission. Jooyeon was currently hacking into one of the cctv cams around Felix's house to use it as evidence that he had kidnapped or is holding Luna as hostage.

Yes, that's right. They're going to involve the police in this mission.

Rescuing Luna is the main and top priority they have but they don't know how capable the "Mad Dog" really is so they're going to drag the police in this situation. The police will be the distraction and they will all attack Felix from behind and safely rescue Luna from his evil clutches.

Kai already know the location in the house where Luna is being held in since Jooyeon mentioned it so it's going to be a piece of cake finding her.

"Ah, here." Jooyeon finally found something on the cameras he hacked and played the video. It was Luna disguised as a maid, trying to escape, and the guards were chasing after her.

What happened next made Kai's eyes widen. She was shot. Jooyeon's heart dropped when he saw what had happened. Both of them has the same question running in their mind, she's dead?

"No..." Kai murmurs, grabbing the laptop. He forwarded and rewinds the video, hoping to see if Luna's alive. There was nothing.

"Is there a cctv inside the house?" Kai frantically asked as he gave Jooyeon the laptop, waiting for his answer.

"N-No, there's nothing." Jooyeon stuttered. He was also shocked of what he saw. Seeing someone's death doesn't really bother him, he has seen people die right before his eyes but he didn't feel anything. It was a different case for Luna.

"That bastard..." Kai clenched his fists, cursing under his breath. "I'll kill him. I'll kill him with my own two hands" He gritted his teeth.

A/N:
Yes, I have finally returned muwahahahaha. Anyways... I am contemplating whether or not to put a smut scene LMAO I AM SO BAD AT WRITING SMUT (makes me wanna jump off a cliff) comment if you want me to put the scene — I'll try not to make it cringe af 🤡