We talked breifly while eating... I hardly ate anything because... 1. When I have meat, you don't want to see me. And... 2. I hate eating in front of other ponies. It just... Bothers me. I think I'm going to be judged by everything I do, so most of the time, I just stand off to the sides and do nothing. ...Well, except breathe. Sometimes I forget how to do that, too. It's weird.

"...So, where's your family?" Blackberry finally asked. My eyes widened and my heart dropped. My heart then managed to shattered into even more pieces than before...

I blinked back tears as I just looked at my food. When I finally thought I wasn't at the breaking point, this pony just came into my life and now I was back at square one. I was indeed, still grieving. I was always grieving. I had bottled up my emotions like I do with everything... Anytime somepony mentioned my parents, my family, or anypony related to me... I just... Broke. 

I looked up at him quickly and spoke fast. 

"I don't want to talk about it." 

I knew from then on, I would begin to either do my Yin/Yang transition...

This is what happens when somebody makes me emotional.

I either 1. Grow distant, detached, unemotional, cold and aloof... That pony will be forever be my acquaintance and nothing more. Or 2. I grow emotional, clingy, weird, adventurous, quirky, quiet, introverted, shy, and I grow close to that pony. That pony would now be my best friend.

That's just how it works with me. I'm a paradox of emotions, a never ending void of nothingness, a black hole in space, the rain drops at night, the winter in spring, and a contradicting contrast of everything. 

Blackberry noticed and he gasped quietly. 

"Oh... I'm so sorry..." He had noticed. 

Would it be one or two? Yin or Yang? Which one would I transition to? 

I sighed. 

"I-It's alright. It was a long time ago..." 'Guess it would be one. I liked being a Yin person, but I was also very insecure about being Yin.

I smiled as I closed my eyes as I let the rest of the tears fall. 

"I suppose we shall get going. We have a long journey ahead of us."