So I've been thinking over the time I've been away, and I think I'm not bi. I think I'm lesbian. Guys are just kind of... disgusting to me somehow when I think of dating them (don't worry. Guys make awesome friends. I just don't want to date them.) I'm still not entirely sure though. My parents know because they read everything I had posted but they're in denial and I think my dad is disgusted with gays :(

I have told a few IRL friends about the depression. They're kind and supportive about it. Plus I told my friend about being lesbian. 

I won't be going back to my old school next year. I'll be going to a school called E. A. Young Academy. It currently has 12 high school students total. It's tailored to the students and it's going to be much better for my anxiety. I got to be a faux student there for 2 days and it's perfect. I've even come out and talked about my depression!

I have a new diagnosis: dysgraphia. It makes it much harder for me to write on paper and even now, typing on a computer, my hands hurt. I've always had a hard time writing and my hand would always hurt. Plus my handwriting looks absolutely terrible (even I can't read it sometimes!) so I'm not surprised. It certainly explains my inability to draw.

My depression has gotten better little by little. I'm still suicidal sometimes (but not often) but I don't tell my parents because they'd send me back to Springwood. I also still have self harm thoughts but I haven't acted on them. I think it's my... 75th day without self harm? Something like that. It's whenever the date is on my old profile. 

Note: do not post anything or acknowledge that I'm back on my old profile. I'd probably be banned from the internet entirely. And if I ever disappear again it's because my parents found this profile, not because I'm dead.