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This chapter is the longest chapter out of all the chapters of my stories so far. I just kept on typing that i didn't notice that it was already too long. lol. Anyway, i hope you like this chapter. Enjoy!

ENRIQUE's POV

I stared at the bottle of alcohol in my hands and cursed irritably when I realized that it's already empty. I put it onto the coffee table in front of me and then tried to stand up from sitting on the carpet miserably.

"Damn!" I hissed when I almost face planted on the floor because I felt like the world spun around at a high speed. I held onto the coffee table in order to regain my balance. I couldn't see properly because I was so drunk. I heard the bottles fell to the floor as I accidentally shove them with my hand.

But I didn't care about all the broken bottles on the floor. I was stumbling while trying my best to go to the room and just sleep my tired mind. Yes, sleep. These past 1 month since Blake left me, all I've been doing was to drink and sleep. I wasn't even going to work.

I've been a total loser again and did nothing than think about what happened between me and Blake.

I felt like my world ended the day she left me. I wanted to go to her and convince her to come home with me but I held myself from doing that. I knew she needed the space because of what happened but I still couldn't help but to get hurt.

I knew very well that it was my fault that she went through all that and until now, I still couldn't forgive myself. Because of my irresponsibility, carelessness and selfishness, we lost one of our supposed children.

I already had the gut feeling from the beginning that Jake was dangerous and he has an unhealthy obsession towards Blake but I didn't give much attention to it. Instead, I busied myself dealing with what happened in the past and forgot that Blake was my present.

Now I realized that the regrets are felt when it's just too late. I couldn't take back what happened even if I tried to. I couldn't change the fact that Blake got kidnapped and she miscarried one of our babies.

I opened the door but instead of going straight to bed, I remained standing there while looking at our empty bed, before I slowly stared at our wedding picture hanging on the wall above our bed. I smiled bitterly. Just like our room, my heart felt empty as I stared at our smiling faces on the picture.

"Angel eyes...Blake...Come home already" I whispered while looking at her on the picture, like she was right there in front of me and smiling at me.

"Please come back to me already...because I can't take it anymore...I missed you so much" Tears fell from my eyes. I chuckled to myself humorlessly.

I got drunk because I wanted to forget about the pain and guilt that I was feeling but the pain Is still there. Instead of going away even just for a moment, I felt like it doubled instead. My chest felt so heavy.

I slowly walked towards our bed and sat on its edge. I felt like I was going crazy as I stared at the side of the bed where Blake used to lay down. I took her pillow and hugged it before I laid down and closed my eyes.

I imagined that I was holding my wife in my arms until I fell asleep.

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The incessant ringing of my phone woke me up. I groaned irritably and reached for my phone at the bedside table. I looked at the caller and when I saw that it was my mother, I rejected it.

When Blake got discharged at the hospital, my parents went back to Colorado because I couldn't stay at the same place together with my mother. I told them to go home. I knew that I hurt them because of that but I really needed to get away from them, especially from my mom. After all the things that I discovered about her, the way I see her changed just like that. I felt like she suddenly became a stranger to me and the pain of discovering what she did in the past was still etched in my heart.

She had been calling me since then but I never answered her calls. My father calls me from time to time too but I just answered his call once.

Instead of getting up, I stared at the ceiling of the room. I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I groaned inwardly when I felt my hangover struck me. I was about to get up and go to the bathroom when I heard the doorbell rang. Blake?

Just thinking about Blake came back made me excited.

I jumped out of the bed and strode my way to the door. I quickly fixed my hair by combing it with my hand. I then opened the door with a smile just to be surprise when I saw who it was. My smile and excitement suddenly faded and replaced by disappointment. But at the same time, I didn't know what to think of my mother's presence in front of me.

"Quen" My jaw flexed as I stared at her emotionlessly.

"What are you doing here, mom?" I asked as I turned my back on her. I went to the living room and sat on the couch. My head hurt so I leaned back my head on the headrest and then closed my eyes. I knew she followed me because I heard her footsteps ticking on the marbled floor.

"You look miserable" She commented which made me laugh humorlessly.

"Yes. I am miserable so please just tell me why you came here and leave" She sighed deeply before she sat next to me.

"Quen...I-I know you're mad at me but please listen to me. I w-want us to talk about happened in the past" I instantly opened my eyes as I heard what she said.

"There's no use of talking about the past. It's already finished and we can't change what already happened" I said coldly as my as jaw flexed tightly. I was about to stand up and leave her there when she held my hand and stared at me pleadingly.

"Quen, please"

"Please what, mom?" asked with a stoic face.

"I-I'm sorry, Quen. I know I did a lot of terrible mistakes that I couldn't take back no matter what. I know I disappointed you and you're mad but----"

"Yes, mom. I am mad right now. Actually, I am beyond angry because I felt so betrayed. I grew up looking up to you. You were the best mother for me and Jasmin. I thought me and Jasmin had perfect parents but I was wrong. You deceived us! Why mom? What made you do that? You betrayed dad and us too!" I couldn't keep all my resentments in my chest anymore.

I felt like my heart was so going to explode any moment now if I wouldn't let it out.

I wanted to hear her explanation and I was hoping that if I hear her explanation, the anger in my chest will probably lessen. I needed a closure from my past so that I could move on with my life with Blake without any negative feelings.

If Jasmin was still alive, she wouldn't like what's happening to me. I know she would be angry because I've been living in hatred and many what ifs.

I stared at me mom carefully. She looked like she aged a couple of years. I could see her eyes began brimming with tears as she stared back at me.

"Okay, mom. I'm all ears. Tell me everything" I said with a mellowed voice. She nodded before she heaved a deep sigh.

"Gregory was my first love. When we were in college, I was happy being in a relationship with him. I thought he would be the one for me and be my husband because we really loved each other. But after graduation, I met your father. I got confused. All the things that Gregory couldn't give me, Julio gave it to me. I didn't know what I was thinking back then but I found myself being happier whenever I was with Julio. I knew I loved Gregory but I got blinded by material things that Julio gave me. But even so, we remained friends. But one day, I got shocked when Julio suddenly confessed to me. I didn't expect it because I thought we were just friends.

"Julio was very persistent on courting me that he became the reason of many misunderstandings between me and Gregory. Even though I was happy being with Julio that time, I never passed through my boundary. He was like a friend to me that time that I could lean on but Gregory was getting jealous of him. I understood him that time though because he had the right to get jealous.

"Then in order to prevent further fights between me and Gregory, I told Julio to leave me alone. But then an unforeseen event came. My mother, your grandma, had a heart attack and died. Dad, fell ill because he couldn't handle mom's death. He had a weak heart from the beginning too. The doctors told me that he needed a heart bypass surgery. I didn't know what to do until Julio appeared in front of me again and offered his help.

"I couldn't decline his offer because my concern was about the welfare of my dad. He helped me and paid all the hospital bills and medications. I was so thankful to him that he was there. Then one day, he asked me to accompany him because he had a problem. I went there and listened to him because I thought I must return the favor. He helped me when I needed him so the least I could do was accompany him and listen to his problems. That night, we got drunk. We didn't plan it but something happened between us. I was full of regret the morning after that. I loved Gregory but I betrayed him.

"I didn't tell Gregory about what happened but then I got pregnant. Julio asked me to marry him and I accepted. I broke up with Gregory even though I loved him. I thought I didn't deserve his love because I was already tainted. He was furious at me because of betraying him of course. But even so, he begged me not to leave him. Of course, I declined, even though it hurt a lot.

"I married your father. I tried my best to love Julio but when I saw Gregory after a couple of years, I realized that I still loved him. We got into a secret affair and that's when I got pregnant with Jasmin. Helen, Gregory's wife discovered our forbidden relationship so we had to end it. Julio discovered about it too but he forgave me with the condition of never revealing to Gregory that he was the father.

"I followed what Julio. When Gregory came to me and asked me about the paternity of the baby, I denied the truth. I didn't see him after that. Years had passed again and we accidentally met again. I didn't know why but even though it has already been a long time, I still love him. Even though I tried it not to succumb into temptation, I did it again. We had an affair again which med me to get pregnant. I was so confused and afraid that time. I told Julio the truth and of course, he was so mad. We had a terrible argument about it. He asked me why I kept on betraying him and I couldn't answer him because I was confused and guilty at the same time.

"Gregory told me too that Helen warned him that if he wouldn't cut off his relationship with me once and for all, she and their daughter would leave him for good. I didn't want his family to be ruined because of what we did. I knew he got scared too so I ended our relationship. He was against it at first but I stood on my ground firmly.

"I was so down at that time because we ended our relationship to the point that I got depressed which led me to lose the baby. When Gregory heard about what happened, he came to me again. He was so mad at me and even accused me that I got rid of the baby by purpose. He was beyond furious that he told me that he's going to get his revenge because I kept on hurting and using him many times.

"I was guilty and I knew I hurt him so much so I accepted his threats. I was very depressed about what happened to the baby inside me that I couldn't think straight. I didn't care about his revenge anymore because I thought I deserved his wrath. I thought he was aiming for me solely for his revenge but that was the biggest mistake in my life by thinking like that. Six months after that, that terrible accident happened where J-Jasmin died. I thought he must have just threatened me out of anger but he wouldn't dare to harm me. But it never occurred to me that he would harm you and Jasmin.

"It was already too late when I learned that he was too furious to harm my children. Jasmin died without even knowing who her real father was. When Gregory got sentenced to jail, I visited him. Even though I loathed him because of what he did, I told him the truth and he cried but at the same time, he was blaming me for hiding the truth from him. He was so hurt and that was the cause for him to take his own life by suiciding. After what happened, I blamed myself. If I didn't hide the truth, Jasmin might still be with us now.

"I'm sorry, Quen, that you're suffering because of my mistakes in the past. After we lost Jasmin, I was so afraid to lose you too. When I learned that you and Blake got back together, I got scared that she might take you away from me and at the same time, whenever I see her, I kept on remembering about what I and Gregory did in the past. I'm sorry that I was so selfish. Please forgive me, Quen"

I looked at my mother for a couple of seconds but I couldn't even utter a single word. The things that she told me kept on replaying on my head. I already heard all that from Blake's mom but hearing my mother's side of the story brought me an unknown feeling about the past.

"Y-You never loved dad?" was all I could say when I found my voice. I wanted to laugh out loud. Here I was thinking that my parents got married because they loved each other from the beginning, but no. They got married because of a mistake and that mistake was me.

"I l-love him, Quen, but...but---"

"But you love Gregory more?" She smiled bitterly and nodded her head. I shut my eyes closed. I suddenly felt exhausted. I didn't know what to feel and what to say about all that.

"I'm sorry, Quen" She said again in an almost inaudible tone. I opened my eyes and met her teary-eyes.

"Is that why you keep on opposing about my relationship with Blake?" She heaved a sigh and chuckled softly.

"Y-Yes and maybe because of my anger of what happened. I loved Gregory but at the same time, I resent him because of killing our own daughter. Whenever I see her, I feel angry because she reminds me that Jasmin got killed by Gregory. Blake and Jasmin looked a like too because they had the same father. I don't know. The frustration of what happened keeps on rising inside me whenever I see her face. I hate her but I knew that deep within me, I was being unfair. She didn't do anything wrong but I couldn't help but to remember the bitter past just by seeing her"

I took a harsh breath and stood up.

"Now that I hear your side of the story, I think it's time for me to let go. I don't care about the past anymore, mom. I don't want the past to affect me anymore because the last time I let my anger ruled over me cost the life of my own child. I don't want to live in frustration and anger like you. Blake is mad at me because she's been blaming me of what happened to her and our baby. I want to fix my relationship with my wife but I don't know what to do to make her listen to me. All of these happened because I let the past affect our relationship" I felt her hands held my hand.

"I'm sorry, son. Please forgive me. You're all I have and I don't want to lose you too. I am willing to accept Blake and forget about what happened, just forgive me" She pleaded.

"You tried to hurt her, mom and I won't tolerate that. If you want me to forgive you, let me be for now. I want to fix my relationship with my wife first without you and the past in between us" I said and turned my back on her.

"I know what I did was wrong and I am regretting it badly. But believe me, I never planned on hurting her. Yes, I admit, I wanted her out of your life but I never wanted that to happen to her. If I could just go back, I would never plan anything against her because I know you would be hurt. I'm sorry, Quen, that your mother is selfish and a sinner. I'm really sorry" She said before she sobbed.

My heart melted. This was the first time I saw her like this and it hurt me. A lot. Instead of comforting her, I tried my best not to look at her and remained on my spot.

"I'm sorry too, mom, but I think we need a break from all these. Go back to Colorado for now" I said and went to my room. I sat on the bed for I didn't know how long. Tears threatened to fall from my eyes but I held them back.

I felt so miserable. I wanted to run away but I didn't want to be a coward like what I did before. I sent my mom away because I honestly don't know how to react and what to do. I wasn't ready to forgive her yet too.

I then heard a knock at the door.

"Quen, I-I'll be going now. Please, I'm always be here for you if you need me. I knew everything that happened between you and Blake and I am telling you to follow her. Make her anger towards you melt. Show her how much you want to be with her. If you really love her, go after her and prove to her how much you love her. You already gave her the space she wanted so I think it's time for you to go and take her back. I love you, son" I then heard her footsteps towards the main door before I heard the opening of the door and then closed.

I stared at nothingness. I felt so empty. But then my mother's words about getting Blake back came back into my mind. I suddenly stood up. What have I've been doing this past one month? I've been a total failure and weak. Instead of fixing myself so that Blake would be happy when she gets back to me, I became a total drunkard and a loser.

I should've followed Blake and talk to her.

I quickly picked up my phone and dialed Ken's number. He was the one who's been managing my businesses this past one month that I became irresponsible.

"Hello, Mr. Dixon?" My eyebrows creased.

"How many times do I have to tell you to call me by my first name?"

"But you're my boss, Mr. Dixon" I heaved a defeated sigh. Ken has been working for me since I was in first year college. He was my bodyguard while he's going to the same University as me. My family was the one who paid all his expenses in college. He's 3 years older than me. We treated each other like best friends but he would never call me by my first name because according to him, I'm his employer and it doesn't look right for him to talk to me informally.

"You're very stubborn. Anyway, you can have your vacation. I'll handle the company from now on. Thank you for supervising it upon my absence.

"Is it okay if I take a month of vacation?" His voice sounded excited but he remained serious.

"Yes" I answered and he thanked me. I then ended the call. I smiled to myself like a fool.

"Wait for me, Angel eyes. I'll get you back no matter what. This time, I'll make sure that no one will get in between us and I'll never let anyone hurt you again. I'll fix myself and a new me will appear in front of you soon. I promise you that".

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