Carbine's pov:

"Carbine.." I think someone called my name but I wasn't sure about that. I wasn't sure of anything. I knew nothing for now. Everything was just blurry and I just stared forward. "Carbine!" I heard someone calling me again while I felt someone helping me slowly up from the ground. Then I felt another pair of hands around me like someone was hugging me. His scent woke me up and I saw Vinnie hugging me tightly while crying.

"You are hurt pretty badly, we need to get you to the hospital!" Niv said while.. I think she was probably checking my wounds, I wasn't sure about that either. Had she helped me to get up? Probably, but I wasn't sure about that either.. "Carbine.. Do you hear me?" She asked which got me to turn to look at her emotionless. Then I felt Vinnie ending the hug which got me to turn to look at him. "At least her trembling stopped.." He said, which got me to turn to look at myself. I was covered in blood, but then I realized it wasn't mostly mine. It was my husband's blood..

"We need to get ourselves out of here!! The Enemy is not backing up!" I heard my uncle shouting somewhere a bit far from us while I felt Niv and Vinnie helping me to walk to someone's bike. But when they tried to help me to sit on it, I refused. I just stared at the horrible view. All over the ground was blood and small pieces that once were a black Harley Davidson. There were also torn pieces of tan colored fur, black leather and entrails. One antenna there, an ear here.

Soon I felt something else too than just the pain. I threw up. The View was so shocking for me that it caused me to empty my stomach completely right there. I felt someone's hand on my back while I heard someone shooting as they were probably covering me. I didn't know. I didn't care. I.. I felt nothing.. Except the pain..

"Carbine ma'am, are you alright?!" I heard Modo asking when he drove to us after Niv had helped me to wipe my mouth to a tissue. I didn't answer him. What a stupid question. What a horrible question. "We need to get out of here! Retreat 51!" My uncle shouted when he got to defend us too. "No.." I mumbled but no-one seemed to hear me.

When I felt Niv and Vinnie trying to get me to sit behind Vinnie again, I slapped both of them and pushed them away. "NO!!" I shouted from the top of my lungs that all of them turned to look at me. "Carbine, we need to..-" Stoker started while I heard Niv throwing up too. She started to tremble too after realizing the view properly now too.

"NO!!" I shouted again while shaking my head. I felt heavy tears running down my cheek and soon I saw nothing from them. When I felt someone's hands on my shoulders again I pushed them away and started to run. I didn't know if I would survive, but I ran. I ran to my husband. I ran to my husband who had got into a terrible accident.. And I needed to find him. I needed to go to him.

No.. He wasn't dead.. He couldn't be. This was a nightmare and if I ran enough, I would wake up next to him and it was still our honeymoon in Jupiter. It has to work out that way.. But it didn't. Even a shot to my ankle that was already sore from the falling, didn't make me stop. Or actually it got me to fall down, straight to my husband's blood and fur.

I cried. I just cried. I screamed from the top of my lungs. I was shouting his name. I felt my body trembling when I grabbed a piece of his fur into my hand. "Throttle.." I felt like someone was choking me. I didn't care if the enemy was shooting towards me or not. I just cried and laid there. And soon I found his star-shaped earring laying there on the ground near one of his red scarves. I recognized it to be the one he always wore around his neck. He had got that from his mother he never got to know. I still remember it being like yesterday when he had told that to me.

"Why don't you wear that scarf I bought you, around your neck? It would suit you better there.." I had asked after handing him a present for his promotion to become a commander. It was the blue scarf he had ended up wearing around his forehead as part of his green uniform. "I.. I have promised myself that I'll never take it off if I don't really have to.." He had answered, making me cross my arms and lift up my other eyebrow. I had demanded an answer from him, which I regretted later, especially now.

"Why? You don't shower with it, do you?" I had chuckled sarcastically, but his glare felt like I had just told him that I was seeing someone else or killed his bro or something as bad as that. "No.. But.." He had said, which had got me sigh of frustration. I had acted like a jerk back then. "But what? Why can't you just say it? What is so important in that scarf? It's practically the same one that you have around your right wrist!" I had said which had got him mad and he had left for another room, leaving my present there on the table of the military base's lounge area.

"I can't believe you act like that for a scarf?!" I had shouted to him when he had slammed a door close between us, leaving me outside of the meeting room where he had gone for some reason. "Is everything alright?" I heard Stoker asking me when he and Modo had walked to me. They had probably seen at least part of that when they had come back from helping new soldiers with the bikes. "He got mad at me for some stupid reason.. Didn't even say anything!" I had growled at them while kicking the door for once as a try to get him out of there.

"What was it about? What happened before that?" Modo had asked which had got me to sigh deeply. "I bought him a scarf as a promotion present.. But when I asked him to change it to the red one to keep it around his neck for a change.. He just.. He just shut down and walked away!" I had said that had got them to turn to look at each other and sigh deeply. Modo rubbed behind his neck while nodding to Stoker to answer.

"No wonder then.." My uncle had started which had got me to lift up my other eyebrow. "What do you mean?" I had asked, before I heard Modo talking. "The Scarf around his neck is from his mother.." He just said, making Stoker continue. "And the scarf on his wrist is from his father.." He explained, making me sigh deeply and slam my head to my forehead. I had heard they probably were dead since he was an orphan, but he never actually talked about his parents. Sometimes a bit, but not much.

"I am an idiot!" I sighed deeply but then I felt Modo's hand on my shoulder. "Aren't we all sometimes?" My uncle chuckled while walking to the door. "You couldn't have known.." Modo said but it didn't help me at all. I felt horrible. "Here.." I soon heard my uncle saying which got me to turn around. He had opened the door to the meeting room for me since he had more access than me, and he could open even blocked locks that Throttle seemed to know how to get them blocked. "Thank you.." I sighed, but when I was about to enter it, I heard Modo talking again.

"Just give him some time.." He smiled gently, making me smile and nod to him before they left and I closed the door behind me. "Throttle look, I.." I started when I saw him sitting there on the edge of the longest table, his back facing me. He was there at the other side of the room when I thought, should I stay there or go to him.

"I'm sorry.." I sighed deeply while looking at the floor and dropping my ears down. For a moment, neither of us talked, but when he talked, it got me a bit surprised and made me lift my head up to look at him. "You couldn't know.." He said, making me walk to him. "You heard us?" I asked and got a nod as an answer. "I should have told you myself.. We wouldn't have had this argument if you knew earlier about these.." He said while rubbing his right wrist's scarf with his left hand. I lifted my hand up as meaning to lift it in his hands, but then I started to doubt it.

His nodding got me to nod at him and do it after all. She took my hand in his before taking the other one too. "I'm sorry.." I said again, making him nod at me again. "It's alright.. But.. These scarves mean everything to me.. They are the only things I got from my parents.. Or.. Except one more thing too.." He started, making me just listen to him and not force him to tell more if he didn't want to talk about this.

"I also got a rather big legacy from them.. From which I bought my bike.. So.." He said, making me turn to look at his red eyes. I smiled at him and nodded. "Your loyal partner reminds you about your parents too.." I said which got him to sigh. "Like they're with me wherever I go.." He said while turning to look down at the floor. "That's.. Beautifully thought.." I said while looking away from him to give him some privacy if he felt like he would need that.

"Thank you.." He said while looking at me which made me turn to look back at him. "I.. I can change the scarf for something else if you want.." I blurted out, making his eyes widened. "No.. No! Why?" He said while getting down from the table to lean against it instead. He pulled me closer to him while I sighed deeply. "I mean.. If you.. If.." I stuttered, but then I felt his other hand under my jaw when he made me turn to look at him again.

He shook his head before smiling. "Your gift meant more than I can describe.. My parents left these scarves for me, and now I got one more from you. From a female I'm very much interested.." He said, making me blush and nod at him while smiling. "I'm glad to hear that, Throttle.." I had said that before he had kissed my cheek gently. We hadn't been a couple yet back then, but we knew both of us were interested in each other very much and we had admitted that we liked each other. It was the time when we were still each other's crush. But now.. That time was gone.

Even if after that kiss on my cheek, we had gone to the lounge area to get his new blue scarf from there, which luckily no-one had stolen from there, maybe because thanks to Modo who had stayed there to do some reports and to guard Throttle's gift, he ended up wrapping it around his forehead that had got me to smile and kiss his cheek back then. But now.. I had nothing left to kiss him ever again.. He was gone.. The Male I had just gotten married to was gone..

"CARBINE!!" Stoker's yelling got me to wake up again. I had fainted right there on the ground, but for some reason I had seen that memory for now. "Did you get hurt badly?!" He kneeled down to me while Niv commanded Vinnie and Modo to defend us. "We don't have much time! These fish faces won't leave us alone even if they took one of us!" Vinnie growled while I could tell from his voice that he was still crying. Like Niv was too.

When I lifted my head up to turn to look at my uncle, I saw that he had been crying too. As well as Modo had been doing too. He still was. All of us were crying. I had never yet in my life cried as heavy tears as now, and this much. They didn't stop even if my uncle lifted me a bit up so he could hug me tightly. "We need to go.." He said after we had hugged for a while. I felt my body trembling when I shook my head.

"No! I won't leave him! I can't!" I cried but then I felt him trembling too. "We need to take him to the hospital!" I shouted before I saw him shaking his head. "There's nothing left to do, Carbine.." He said, which got me to turn around to look at him again. Even if I knew he was right, I couldn't just believe it. He was lying. This all was just a lie. He couldn't be gone! He just couldn't!

We had just gotten married and we were coming back from our honeymoon when the spaceship had gotten hit. Just this morning we had woken up in each other's arms before I had gone to swim. If I had known about this beforehand, I wouldn't have gone to swim. I would have stayed there in bed with him. I would have made sure we stayed there still for another week or rest of our lives if that kept him safe.

"Take her.. If we don't leave now.. We'll all die.." I heard my uncle saying when he got up from the ground and I felt someone lifting me up from there. "NOOOOO!!" I screamed while crying when I saw Vinnie lifting me up from there. "Carbine we have to go!!" He shouted back at me that got me to start punching his chest while crying. I didn't accept this, not any of this. Nothing about this couldn't be true. I wanted to go back to this morning and stay in Jupiter with my husband.

"I'll make sure this will be taken care of during this day.." I heard my uncle saying which made me turn to look at him. He was talking about my husband. "NOO!!" I cried while I tried to get up but then I felt Vinnie's tail tightly around me. "Release me or I'll cut it off!!" I shouted but he just shook his head while crying. I saw Modo picking something up from the ground before Vinnie started to drive away right after my uncle and the princess. Niv was in shock too and everyone could clearly tell she probably wanted to throw up again.

I couldn't say much about our way back to the Freedom Fighter's headquarters, but when we got there, Vinnie carried me to one of the resting areas that was empty and gave some privacy. On the way I just kept punching him while crying and shouting. He was crying as well but not because of my punches. He was crying for the same reason I was crying too. Like Modo, Stoker and Niv did too. One of the Biker Mice was now gone..