For hxpeless_rxmantic

Y/n POV
My heartbeat is getting quicker, and I feel dizzy. I'm feeling trapped, and I need to get out of this situation. This all started a little bit ago.

Everyone else is planning on ganging up on Cody... don't get me wrong I'm not a fan of Cody, but trying to provoke him is wrong, if he snaps who knows what will happen, and no one should be getting hurt. "You guys don't have to like Cody. But provoking him like you are planning is wrong! If he were to snap and hit one of y'all it wouldn't just be him at fault you would too." I try to reason with them. "Y/n just SHUT THE FUCK UP! No one gives a fuck!" Josh yelled at me while rolling his eyes. "Y/n, Cody has bullied people in here so why shouldn't we just give him a taste of his own medicine!" Christmas backs him up. She looks annoyed at me....

I'm standing towards the fish and Josh corners me. "You don't have to like what we're doing, but your not participating anyways so shut your fucking mouth!" This is when my heartbeat started to quicken. I started to feel my hands shake and I felt trapped. I felt like everything around me was spinning. I start to chew at my lip and try to get around Josh. "Boo boo where do you think your going... you never acknowledged my last statement." I looked down at my feet. I felt my eyes well up with tears, "Please let me leave..." "Awe poor baby, your gonna cry," Josh trapped me between his arms. "Josh why can't you just acknowledge that I don't think what your doing is right, why don't you acknowledge that I care about your guys' well being, and don't want you getting hurt!" I feel the need to cry but I can't in front of them.

I duck under Josh's arm, running out of the room. I run to the apple room and shut the door behind me. "Babe!" I can hear Paul call. I sit in front of the door and start crying... Why couldn't that just acknowledge that they should be cautious about what they say. "Babe, y/n, please open the door..." I try to calm down the noise of my crying, "Baby, please open the door." I get up and open the door. I look at my feet, and the tears fall on my feet. I immediately felt Paul's arms around my body. "Babe, what happened?!" He pulled me into his lap, when he sat down. I told him everything that happened... down to my anxiety attack. He held me and ran his fingers through my hair. I felt my body relax and release the tense feeling. I listened to his heartbeat and felt myself feel less anxious. I looked up and Paul and see him smiling, "What?" I feel my cheeks heat up. Paul chuckles and kisses my nose. "Your so cute," I laugh and get up... "You know what will really make me feel better??? ICE CREAM!" I run to get some and sit on a stool. Paul grabs a spoon and has some with me. We talked and laughed. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I tensed up. My heartbeat quickened and when I turned around I saw Josh. My heartbeat wouldn't slow down I had to walk away from him to feel more calm... "Y/n why are you walking away from me... I just came to apologize," Paul looked annoyed, "You don't get it do you? When you cornered y/n in the HOH room, she had an anxiety attack!" Paul looked pissed. Josh's eyes widened and he looked regretful. "I'm so sorry! Can you forgive me?" "I don't know... I need time Josh..." I felt Paul's arms wrap around my body and I felt safe... Anytime after that Paul helped me. Paul would hug me. I would feel safe.