Q. What does every person, whoever they are, all over the world have in common?

 I know the answer now but first I'm going to tell you a story.

"How do you cope?" 

"What?"

 "How do you cope? With everything? With your thoughts and feelings?" 

You know how dark I am? The first thing I thought was, I don't. But I do. Or I wouldn't be here.

Then I thought. Wattpad. Talking to people, showing the side people never see. The dark side. The one who isn't afraid to ask for help.and while it does help, a lot, it can't always be there. I can't always write it down, sometimes it is too far away to reach, and there are so many problems with writing.

I cope by looking at other people. If I feel myself going into that quiet dangerous place, that I haven't properly explored I can't get out. So I give up on myself, and look to other people. My friend (s). My family. Strangers.   Acquaintances. Enemies. Celebrities. Nobodies. 

 A. Everyone, everyone has pain.

Anywhere you look.

Your friend? Her brother is suicidal, and her family is tearing itself apart.

That man you see everyday walking his dog past your house? That dog is the only friend he has.

My gran? She watched her dad die when she was twelve. My age.

Your mum? Had nothing. Fought her way out a poor family, went to a completely foreign country, found a man who loved her, moved county AGAIN, then had her daughter mess up the life she fought so hard for.

That girl who looks like she has been crying, that you saw in the hallway? She has.

That celebrity that everyone knows is a slut? She really isn't.

When I watched children in need, on BBC a couple of weeks ago ( if you aren't british it is basically a really brutal charity event where they show you people who have friends and kids that died in horrific ways, make you cry them say softly at the end "you can help people like Charlie, by calling 754754653;31428997756565. Then you sob down the phone to the operator that it is so sad while donating every penny you have). So it is essentially emotional sucide. On this show I saw people with horrific stories on how they slightly put their shattered lives back together, and about how they couldn't have done it without children in need. There is so much wrong with my world, with your world

In Europe:

Obesity, depression, anxiety, car/plane/train crashes, unemployment, low minimum wage, can't get a girlfriend/boyfriend/partner, s/he/ it hates me, not enough likes or followers on social media, don't have enough data, cancer, disease, riots, racism, bullying, not enough money...

In Asia: 

Over crowding, diereses spreading quickly, not enough jobs, not enough fuel,  not enough people, too many people, pollution, trains not fast enough, trains too fast people die, suicide, armies, dictatorships, not democracy, racism, sexism, not enough food, too much food being wasted, technology being created that WE DON'T NEED, children being brought up without choices, marrying without love, prostitution, forced into jobs without choice...

In Africa: 

Drought, disease, starvation, prostitution, child abuse, animal attacks, attacks on animals, low level democracy, dictatorships, political unease, riots, low level society, not a stable economy, no electricity STILL for some, and for some no basic sanitary items, or even water....

Australia:

Droughts, disease, wildlife being destroyed: coral reefs, wild animals being killed forr meat and pelt, relying on tourist industry, knowing they will eventually be sumerged complelty by global warming, most of their in land population has to stay around the edges because inside is too hot, deforestation, illegal overfishing, pollution, bullying, disease, racism, violence, 

South America:

Defirestation, over population, starvation, enormous amount of underpaid workers, racism, corruption, sexism, pollution...

North America: 

Basically the same problems as Europe but on a bigger scale with a potato in a wig in charge.

Everyone knows pain. Everyone.

Global problems:

With our current knowledge, if we die, all life in the universe and beyond dies. There are millions of ways we can die. Global warming is a big thing. People don't have water and food, and hundreds of people have their homes and lives destroyed, because of natural disasters.

After thinking about this I stop calm myself down and think about MY problems again:

My parents hate me.

Everyone at school hates me.

My brothers gate me.

My one good friend hates me.

But out of approx. 7.4billion, that is a pretty small number.

I have internet friends.

I have my one good friend.

I have other, not so good friends.

I have my family.

I have me.

I have about 7.4 billion people I haven't met yet, and 100's of languages that I dont, and probably never will understand.

I have the whole world to explore.

And I want to be one of the people who help save my species, all of us with our problems, from the problems that are too big for us to notice yet.

I want to have a solution to the worlds joint pain.

I want to be a solution, and not a problem.