My Own Reason 2


The first day of World Tour was a huge success. Even though we finished late and got back to the hotel, we are still happy. Even though we are very tired, the smile on our lips cannot be erased. Even Barcode fell asleep with a smile earlier while we were traveling back to the hotel.


I look at Bui sitting quietly on the bed. We are sharing a room and our managers are on the other room as well. Yes, it's just the two of us here and silence is filling the room because Build is busy on his cellphone.

We have finished taking a shower and we are just waiting for our midnight snack to arrive, then we will take a rest to get ready for Day two of the World Tour which is later. It's past 1am already.

I slowly approached him. I looked at his phone and my guess were right. He is checking all of his social media account. He is checking all the messages from his fans, tags and everything. He was like this even before he went on hiatus. He keeps tabs on all social media platforms for the posts, comments, and tags of his fans, our fans. He's the one who updates me on what's happening when I can't check social media accounts.

"They are happy you're back." I sat next to him and also looked at the tweets on his phone.


"Hmm. But still, there are a lot of people who hates me."


He kept on scrolling and yes, there are still hate posts about him. They hate that he came back and took part in the event. They are questioning the company why they let Bui be part of the event. They said Bui just ruined the atmosphere of the concert and the likes.


"Let them be." I took his phone from him. I clicked on the profile of the account who posted a hate message about him and I blocked it. "Don't focus your attention on them. There are still many people who love you."

I feel angry, but I try not to let Build see it. He deserves all the love. He also deserves a second chance. He deserves everything. The company already addressed the issue. That's enough. Build suffered already and that's enough.


I gave him his phone back after I blocked all the haters accounts. He doesn't need to see that. What happened a while ago already healed his wound and reopening it again is not part of the option. Such accounts should also be ignored. They just want issues. They want to gain attention and that should not be given to them.

We keep on looking at the tweets. So many! There are also many tags for us. The hashtag that our fans created for us is also on the trending list. I was really overwhelmed by their responses and support, especially with Bui's comeback. I know Bui feels the same. His silence tells me everything about how he feels.


Build is an energetic person. We are even wondering where he gets his energy from. And if he is silent, that only means two things, he is either asleep or overwhelmed by what he sees.


I stopped looking at his phone and turned my gaze to him. He is crying but I found it cute. My heart is beating loud and fast but I can't stop smiling with the view in front of me.


I wasn't born yesterday so I know what I feel. I know I'm falling for this guy ever since our eyes met. I'm not that sure how deep my feeling is. I'm trying my best to control myself from falling harder and deeper because I don't know if he will catch me or not.

I'm afraid, yes. I'm afraid for the pain if Build doesn't feel the same. I'm afraid of rejection because I've been through it several times in different situations. I'm afraid that what I have with Build will be wasted now and most especially, I'm afraid that I'll lose Build.


"Bib, look at this post." I was cut off from my trance when Build turned to me. My hand automatically moved and wiped the tears on his cheeks. How can he manage to cry, smile and be cute at the same time?

"What is it all about?" I couldn't look back at Build's phone. I couldn't take my eyes off his face. His smile, his genuine smile is back, finally.


"You ran back to me and I found it cute." That made me look at his phone.


What Build is talking about is a video of me running back to him. He is on the same spot holding his sax because he is part of the cumulus band. I run back because I want to be by his side when he plays sax alone.


"I want to be by your side, always." I told him.



"Thank you Bib. I really appreciate it."


"You're always welcome." I smile at him. I ruffled her hair and gently pinched her cheek.


Right before after the Cumulus band performance, I made sure I'm always by Build's side. I don't want him to feel alone so I follow him wherever he goes. I might leave his side for a while but I'm still coming back. At that time, Build was really on my mind. I want him to show all the LED board with his name or our name. I want him to know that not only the fans are happy about his return, but also me. I want to show the fans in the Impact Arena that there is no divorce between Bible and Build. No matter how hyper he was earlier, I joined him. I stay with him. Because of that, I was so drained. He's hyperactive. The word tired is not in his vocabulary.


"But Bib, what if it didn't happen like this? I mean they didn't like my return?"


As I thought. Build has this what if in his mind.


"I'll stay with you."


"Why?"


"Do I need a reason to stay?"



"People stay for a reason, Bib."



"But not me. I'll stay with you no matter what happened. If fans will hate your comeback, I'll stay with you. If they don't want us to be an on-screen couple, I'll fight for it and stay with you. I don't need a reason; I just want it to be you."


Build starts crying again. "Thank you."



I wipe his tears and pull him to me. I hug him tight, and rub his back.



"No need, baby. No need to say thank you. Just promise me that you will never disappear like that again."


"I heard that from the fans earlier." Build laughed.


"I know. I just wanted to tell you that."



"But I didn't disappear. We saw each other every day, right?"


"Yeah. But still, for me, you still disappear. My comfort zone disappeared. My sunshine baby disappeared. So, promise me, you will never do that again."


Build nodded quickly. "Not anymore. I'll stay. I stay with everyone for a long time."


"Good to hear that baby."

We stayed in each other's arms until someone knocked on our door. Build immediately stand up and check who it is. While I just followed him with my eyes.


I don't think I need to ask myself how deeply I feel about Build. Because I fall deeper and deeper and it will keep going. I don't think I can get out of here.



Will you catch me Build?


"Bib, our food is here." Biu said while gently placing the food that was served to us on the table. I just shook my head because he couldn't let go of his phone. He is putting down the food on the table while his eyes are on his phone and his finger is scrolling in the screen.


I stood up and took the bento box from him. I arrange it in the table and pull him down to sit beside me.



"Do that later. Let's eat." I said. I put the spoon on his left hand.



"All right." Build answered but his eyes were still on his phone.



"Biu." I called him in a serious voice.


"Huh?"



I heaved a deep sigh. He's too busy checking our fans post.



"I said, let's eat. Stop what you are doing. Let's eat first so that we can rest after."



"Okay." He put down his phone on the table and started eating. I shook my head again and started eating too.



"I have a question Biu." I asked in the middle of our meal.



"What is it?" Build looks at me.



"Just a hypothetical question. What if someone close to you confesses his or her feeling to you. What will you do?" I took a lot of courage to ask this.



"I'll say thank you."



"Then?"



"Well, it depends. If he or she just said he likes me or loves me, then I'll say thank you. But if he or she asked me to be with him or her, that's a different story."



"What will you do if with the latter situation?"



"I don't know. Maybe, if I like him or her too, we'll be in a relationship instantly. But if not, I don't know. I've never been in that situation.



I just nodded.



"Why did you ask? Did someone confess to you?"



"It's the other way around."



"Huh?"



"I'm thinking of confessing to someone."



"Then why don't you do it."



"You know my weakness Build. I never confess to anyone. I'm scared of rejection."



"Who is that? If I'll be on the place of that person and you confess to me, I'll immediately say yes. Coz, why not. You're Bible Sumettikul, a man that every girl dream of."


I put down my spoon and look seriously at Build.



"What if I said I like you, will you accept it? What if I said I love you, will you be my lover?"




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