I sat on the sand, not far from P'Mile's group. I tried to calm myself down while looking at Pokie's message. I don't know how I will feel. Pokie is a guy and here he is claiming that he was pregnant. Like, how? Is he having delusional lapses?

Pokie has depression and anxiety. That is also the reason why I stayed as his friend and we became closer. Because I know, people like him need love and care. It doesn't have to be in a romantic way, because it has to be genuine. But as I observe, he is getting worst. I don't know if he noticed it. He is being delusional sometimes. I wanted to tell him to do a check-up again but I was worried because he might take it the wrong way. He doesn't like his depression at all. Of course, no one like it. But it's getting worst to the point that I have to hold onto it just for him not to lose his sanity. But I realize that he is getting worst and I am losing my own sanity while keeping his. And this is all thanks to Ivan. That man is the reason shy Pokies mental state is getting worse.

That damn man, abused Pokie physically if he didn't get what he wants. The last time him and Pokie meet, he punch Pokie because the latter didn't by him the leather jacket and shoes he wants. I hate him to the core. I want to smack Pokie also for letting that man do those things to him. I mean, yes, you love that person but if he is hurting you physically, that's a different story.

I heaved a deep sigh and dialed Pokie's phone number.

"Build."

I close my eyes. Pokie's voice is hoarse. I think he is crying for an hour already.

"What happened?" I tried to sound concerned. I am getting annoyed already by his voice. He cried because of that guy and know he sounds like a frog.

"I'm pregnant, Build."

"How come? You're a guy."

"I'm not. I am a girl."

"What?"

"Sorry, Build. I hide it from you. Can we have a video call? I will show you the real me."

I massage my temple. Now what? Was P'Tong and Bible's guess of Pokie's gender correct?

"I need to go to the room first because I'm outside. Stay on the line."

"Thank you Build."

"Hmm."

I stand. I clean the sand on my shorts and I approach Bible who is currently talking to Us. I tapped his shoulder and mouthed to him that I am going back to our room. I need to do it because his introverted ass will surely turn upside down if he finds me nowhere.

I run towards the room and find a better place where I can open my camera and talk to Pokie. I choose the chair beside the bed that me and Bible using. I also open the the entire light of the room.

"Accept my request Pokie." I said when I pressed the video icon on my phone.

"Build."

I seriously look at Pokie. He suddenly looks like a girl. Long blond hair, messy makeup; well he always applies make-up; but this time it's quite different. He looks like a girl.

"Explain everything to me." I seriously said. I calm myself down because I have so many ideas in my head about what Pokie will say and with so many, I'm getting annoyed because I feel like I'm going to go crazy in no time.

"I was a boy who has the heart of a girl. You know how my father disagreed with it to the point that he hurt me just to make me a man again, right? I got to the point where I was angry with him. I left as soon as I finished studying and strive hard to reach this status."

I just nod my head. I am aware of that. I am aware of his trauma that's why I don't understand why he let Ivan abuse him that way.

"5 years ago, I met Ivan. He likes cute guys and girls. He also said that he wants a family of his own. So I decided to work hard so that I can start changing myself while slowly gaining his heart. And I achieved both. I undergo operations and got Ivan's heart."

"So, where does your pregnancy come into this?"

I'm slowly losing my sanity here.

"I am taking hormonal pills Build. I am having my menstruation every month but I got nothing for two months already. Build I don't have my monthly menstruation for two months. It only means one thing, I am pregnant. I am a full woman right now. But when I told Ivan about it he just laugh at me and called me crazy. He also said that I should remove the child."

The fuck! Damn it! Someone send help, please.

I close my eyes tightly, inhale, and exhaled sharply, trying to calm all my nerves because I am afraid I might snap at Pokie. This is not the right time to be mad at him because his mental state is not stable at all.

"Pokie, calm down okay? Calm down, rest and tomorrow go to the doctor. I'll ask Yankie to accompany you tomorrow."

"Really? Do I need to go to OB tomorrow?"

No. You have to go to a psychiatrist.

"Maybe. They will refer you to another doctor if they can't handle your case. So stop crying. It will not help you at all. Take a rest okay."

"Okay. I follow your advice then. I don't want to harm my baby also."

"Hmm. I end this call okay. I try to call Yankie. Hope he is not sleeping yet."

"Okay. See you soon Build. Take care."

I didn't answer anymore. I ended the call and threw my phone on the bed.

"Was it Pokie, again?"

I was surprised when I heard Bible's voice near me. I look to my right and saw Bible sitting on the edge of the bed looking so hot and gorgeous with his tank top and broad shorts.

"Yeah." I massage my nape. "He said that he is pregnant just because he is not having his monthly bleeding."

"Seriously?" Bible loop side smile is always one of my weaknesses. Why is so sexy with that kind of smile? And why I am being spicy? This is not the right time for that! Fuck!

"Yeah. He gave me massive stress."

Bible shook his head and chuckled. He stands up and approached me. He sat in front of me. He grabbed my hand and squeezed it gently.

"Ble?"

"Someone is stressing you but why I found you cute when you are like this?"

"What are you talking about?" I curiously asked. My heart suddenly pounds hard and my brain cells are in feral because of his touch.

"Build, I like you. Don't you notice it?"

"Are you drunk?" I approached him to smell his breath. What he did next caught me off guard and made me speechless. He kissed me on my lips.

"I'm not drunk. Pond didn't allow us to drink. I am sober Build. I know what I am talking about. I like you and I want you to be mine. Can I?"

Everything went blank to me. Everything stopped. I found nothing around me, just me and Bible. I don't know if I suddenly went crazy with what he said or if this is really how someone who got a confession feels.

I mean, I never experienced it before. I was straight before I meet this man in front of me. I was the one who is doing this thing to a girl. Was it feel like this? Were they feel like this when I confessed to them?

"Is there someone else? Do you like someone else?" Bible cut my thoughts and bring me back to reality.

I immediately shook my head. "None."

"Then, can you be mine?"

"Are you sure?"

"Of course I am. I took all my courage to ask you about this. I want you to be mine and I am sure about this. I know this is not a romantic way of asking you, and I am sorry for that. I don't ...

"Yes." I cut off his explanation. Bible and his nervousness always result in a mess. His explanation most of the time doesn't hit the bat accurately.

"Really?"

"Hmm. I also like you. I don't know if you are noticing it, but yes, I like you. So it's....."

I didn't finish what I am going to say because Bible pulled me towards him, making me sit on his lap and claimed my lips.

I am getting goosebumps because of his hot and soft lips. I kiss him many times during the filming of the series but this one feels different. This kiss is not because he was asked to do so, but because he wants to do it. And I can feel his feelings in his kiss.

"You're mine now, right?" Bible asked as soon as he let go of my lips. He rested his forehead on mine as he cup my face.

"Yes. All yours Bible."

"Thank you. I love you my kitten."

He claimed my lips again without waiting for my answer. I respond to his kiss. I want him to know my response to what he said.

I am happy. This is not romantic confession as the others want it to be, but who cares, right? As long as I have Bible, I don't care about his way of confessing to me. As long as he is mine, fuck those romantic ideas for confession.

TOK! TOK! TOK!

"Come out you two. P'Pond is asking you to go down. We are going to learn the fire dance!"

We stop kissing and both of us look at the door. It's Us. Luckily, Bible locked the door. His habit somehow saves us. I don't want anyone to see us like this. I mean, I want to tell everyone about our relationship now as long as Bible wants it also, but I don't want to be caught in this kind of situation, especially Us. Not him.

"We're coming." Bible shouts back and looks at me.

"Let's learn how to fire dance now, before I asked you to play fire with me."

I didn't get what he said but then Bible smirked and it gave me all the idea.

"Bible!" I was shocked at what he meant by those words.

"You're not aware of how sexy you are right? Then let me tell you kitten. You are damn hot and sexy to the point that I am willing to be burned with your hotness."

"Shut up, Bible." I immediately left his lap and left the room. He and his straightforward mouth made me shy as fucked right now.