"Bezmialem Hatun, Sultan informed me to tell you that he is going tonight on dinner to Humasah Sultan and Zulfikar Pasha and he wants to take you with him," Meleki said to me and those were already beautiful news when I woke up. I didn't know was Humasah Sultan satisfied with his decision but thing that made me happy was that he was bringing me with him wherever he would go to.

I knew I should get ready as soon as possible because I did not want to be late. Zulfikar Pasha was the most loyal man to Iskender and they were really close. When Iskender first came to Istanbul into janissaries to search for his family, Zulfikar was Head of Janissaries and since then they were always in a good relationship. After Zulfikar married Humasah his loyality grew even bigger and when Sultan Ahmed died Zulfikar was the first one with his janissaries who made sure Iskender would inherit the throne that belongs to him.

Zulfikar and Humasah had no children since they married when they were elder. Humasah was at least 10 years elder than Iskender, if not even more. Even though she didn't like me that much now, she was the person that motherhood would fit perfectly.

"You look beautiful my love," Iskender said when I arrived to the carriage where he has been waiting for him. I giggled at his words and he was the person who could make me happy even when I was the saddest. He made me feel so good in my skin and he was reason of my happiness.

"You always know how to make me feel special," I said as I gave him smile while we were waiting for Safiye Sultan who was also accompanying us.

"Because you are special, God sent me you when I needed you the most and now you are here making my life more perfect than I could ever imagine it would be," he said while looking at me in my eyes while we heard footsteps as Safiye came. I bowed to her and then we sat in the carriage which would bring us to Humasah's palace. Her palace was the mansion on the Bosphorus and it was really beautiful.

We entered inside and as Iskender and Safiye went to hug Humasah I bowed to her and stood by the side. Zulfikar was standing there also.

"I am happy we are all gathered here. I hope those beautiful moments would never go away and we can always live peacefully like this," Humasah said and she even gave a smile to me which was weird since her latest opinion on me, but she was the person who would give everything to her family and she made sure her loved ones are protected.

We sat to the table which was in the middle of her living room and I sat next to Iskender while at the opposite were Humasah, Zulfikar and Safiye Sultan.

"I hope the two of you are happy in your marriage," Safiye Sultan said as she looked at her daughter and son-in-law being so in love with one another. The two of them couldn't stop looking each other like they just have fallen in love.

"How cannot we be happy Valide Sultan, I am the luckiest man in the world when I have beautiful and good in heart Ottoman Sultana as my wife," Zulfikar said smiling to Humasah who was always really touched by her husband's beautiful compliments.

Sometimes I wish that I could be married like the two of them were. I always imagined beautiful family while I was married to my husband and we have many children, but I knew I would always now be in harem. I loved Iskender and I didn't mind being in harem but only thing that was different was that he could have another women beside me. Even though he doesn't have now, sometimes made me afraid if he would have in the future.

"We are missing only one person still," Humasah said as she was really often looking at the doors if someone would arrive. I had no idea who she was talking about.

"Who?" Safiye asked and then at that moment young man with curly black hair arrived inside.

I had no idea who he was because I haven't seen him any time before neither in the palace nor around Iskender because if he was one of important people to him then I would see him for sure.

"Sehzade Osman, welcome," Humasah said and Zulfikar stood up to bow to him so I did the same because he was the prince and I was just the consort and I had to follow the rules. I saw Safiye looked at Humasah not in a good way, and Iskender seemed to be really anxious in this moment.

"Your Majesty uncle Sultan Iskender, I am grateful you allowed me to finally get out for at least one night to spend time with my family," he said as he bowed to Iskender and then I knew he was the one of Ahmed's children Safiye has talked about. I didn't know much about him but I knew they were locked in the palace so they couldn't riot and take the throne.

Iskender looked at him very weird way, and then looked at Humasah. He just nodded him after which he sat but he seemed to be really surprised with his arrival that I was sure he didn't allow him to come here, but Humasah did this.

"I am grateful you are here with us Osman. Being always in palace with your brothers must be exhausting but you know those are the rules and they have to be followed," Humasah said. Humasah seemed to love him a lot but at the end those were children of her nephew Sultan Ahmed.

"Sultanim, you have no idea how exhausting is for me to be with them when only thing they wish to is to see their mother Kosem Sultan. She always sends letter to them in which ones she promises them one day they will be at the throne, so they turned now against me," Osman said and I knew those moments of peace were over when she is in the Old Palace planning to do all of those things. I had never even seen Kosem but as much as I knew she was the woman everyone should be afraid of because even if she was locked in the Old Palace she had strong network from which she has sent all of those letters.

"She won't be able to riot since Iskender is on the throne," Safiye said looking at her son with so much of a proud but I saw something is worrying her a lot and that was fear that someone would dethrone him.

"How is your uncle Mustafa?" Iskender asked him totally ignoring his mother's comments. I really saw he is not feeling well on this dinner and I knew he would wish to leave as soon as possible.

"He has mental problems, it's so hard for him so I try to accompany him as much as possible. But while he is locked, there is no way he would become better," Osman said and from his words I heard this as an excuse about which he would beg Iskender to free them.

"I thought maybe I could get some province and go there same as Prince Mustafa, because that way we wouldn't be locked and would have more freedom," he said and I knew I was right.

"No, that is not allowed to you," Iskender said seriously and really harshly on him. He didn't even want to listen to him anymore so he stopped eating.

"Valide, Bezmialem, would you like to come with me?" Humasah said as she knew Iskender wanted to have serious talk with Osman and he didn't want to have that in front of everyone. Both Safiye Sultan and I went with her to the upper floor of her mansion.

"Humasah how could you have invited him?" Safiye yelled on Humasah who didn't know her mother would react like this. Humasah was a family person and she loved her nephews also even thought they were locked.

"Valide he is not Kosem's son, we should keep him close to us so he won't riot," Humasah said but none explanation was well enough for Safiye who was really angry. Safiye wanted to get rid of all those princes and Humasah now wanted to get close to one of the princes.

"It doesn't even matter when he without shame asks Iskender to give him some province. I won't allow that because he is threat to my son and I will never allow him or his brothers to even think of making something bad to him because then I will kill them with my own hands," Safiye hissed angrily.

"They are your great grandchildren and you behave like this. When you calm down Valide, then we will be able to talk," Humasah said as she left to another chambers since she was really disappointed with the behaviour of her mother.

"She made such a problem now, I can't stop her from doing things she wishes to and they only lead us to the disasters," Safiye expressed her concerns for me and I understood her in this moment. At the end Iskender was her son and she would do whatever is needed to help him to survive this hell, even if that means killing other members of your family.

"I am sure Iskender will do what is right. He wasn't happy with Prince's arrival and I guess he will return him from where he came," I said trying to at least somehow comfort Safiye Sultan who was really worried and angry.

"I know, but the two of us must act too. I must act because I am his mother and you because you are woman he loves and mother of his unborn child, we must make sure those princes don't stand a chance to inherit the throne one day," Safiye said to me.

"What do you have in your mind?" I asked her.

"Kosem is the biggest problem. She is locked in the Old Palace and still does problems to everyone, if we kill her some of the janissaries might rebel and then they will want to dethrone Iskender and kill me, we must act smartly," Safiye said. She was so worried like she never was before and it was a rare moment of seeing Valide Sultan so worried.

"But then you need to first get rid of people who support her and when she stays alone, no one will be able to riot," I said to her.

"I love how we understand each other. But you won't be involved into this because you will be mother of the future heir of this Empire and no people outside the Palace should have something against you because you should be their biggest hope one day when I won't be here anymore," Safiye said.

"Sultanim, don't think like that, you will stay with us for many more years," I said to her and she took my hand into hers.

"But no one knows for how long, and when I'm not here anymore I want you to be next to Iskender because the two of us think the same and I'm sure you will always lead him on the good way," she said to me.

A hour later we returned to Palace and Iskender went with his horse and he did that whenever he was angry to stop the anger and relax more. When I arrived into the Palace he walked in front of me and he walked really quickly. I wanted to follow him and started going to his chambers.

Aghas on the doors already knew they shouldn't even ask him if he allows me to enter because he ordered them to let me inside anytime when he is alone.

"My love, is everything fine?" I asked as I saw him standing on his balcony. He just sighed and I knew nothing was fine but I wanted to hear those things from him.

"I wish I didn't know aho I actually was. I wish I'm not Sultan of the whole world but rather some slave living far away from the capital. I can't handle this burden the power has given me," he said as his eyes were filled with tears which he always had after the anger. I hug him from his behind and I wish to never see my beloved sad like this because my heart was breaking into million of pieces.

"Life would have been easier to you, but now you have whole world in your hands and it might be sometimes hard for you to make correct decisions but whichever decision you make you know you did your best and that your mother and I will always stand by your side and protect you from all the evil eyes," I said as he turned to me and placed his hand on my shoulders. I saw one of the tears is going down his face and I wiped his tears on what he smiled.

"As a ruler you decide what is the best and no matter what decision you make it will be for the good of you and yours state, and you always have to think about it. Especially into those situations when you are afraid of the riots, you can't live everyday in fear if your nephews would take the throne from you," I said.

"You read my mind, Bezmialem. I am so angry on Humasah for calling him there, but I am even more mad on all my servants who still work for Kosem and allow her to send messages into the palace. Everyone here sells his loyality just for money," Iskender said and sighed. I placed my hands around his back and looked at him for the whole time.

"You won't allow him to go to the province?" I asked him as I still wasn't sure what would he do.

"No, when I get heir I will have to kill them all. For the safety of me, you and our children which would be born," he said.

"And don't regret your decision because today you chose the future of your children instead of future of your nephews," I said and he took me in a warm hug.