"A good person? Well... I don't really like that term. Because to me, it just seems to mean someone who's good for you. And I don't think there's any one person who's good for everyone." 

I always expected to be discovered at some point in my life. 

I had lived my whole life believing that I would die at a young age surrounded by people I did not know..people I didn't even want to know. 

I had known that to be my fate ever since I was a child..and I accepted it. I had no qualms with the way I was destined to die. I have no desire to try and save myself if that time comes. 

Do I want to die?

I suppose not. 

Would I worry about death?

Never. 

The humans believe that there is some kind of peace that comes with death...I have no way of knowing if that is true or not, but I don't expect it to be. Life is full of death and blood...why would death be any different?

Humans certainly are strange...they claim to have a connection with one another..their emotions are what make them different from the Titans...

In all honesty, it makes them worse. 

People only have conversations because they wish to state their opinion. They act as though they are listening, when, in all reality, they're just waiting for their chance to speak. 

At least the Titans do not pretend to be something they're not. 

Someone once told me that humans are the most intelligent life form on the planet..

I think that is a shame. 

Humans? Intelligent?

If they truly are the most superior, then why do they behave worse than the monsters they fear?

Is it human nature to think wisely and yet act so foolish?

If that is the case, I cannot say that I envy the human race...Not that I particularly envy anyone. When I was young, envy was all I ever knew...that and hatred..

Now, I don't feel anything--at least I don't think I do. Why should I waste my time holding onto my emotions?

Emotions are what defines humanity and separates them from monsters...

Emotions make a human...

But, who says I want to be a human?

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You were dead silent as you stared at the man in front of you, eyes empty and void of any kind of emotion. 

He stared right back at you, never even blinking as he watched you carefully. 

Eren stood in the corner of the room, his eyes full of some unknown emotion as he rubbed his neck, the tension in the air probably getting to him. 

You assumed that he believe you were angry with him for acting so foolishly...

In reality, you didn't feel any particular emotion towards him...only to yourself. 

You were stupid enough to save him...again. 

You should have thought more carefully. In the back of your mind, you knew that any kind of bodily harm to Eren would only cause him to turn into a Titan...which would provide an even greater distraction for you to get out of that place and never return. Levi would be forced to take actions well, which would mean you had to put in virtually no effort at all to run back out and be where you were meant to be. 

But, you saved him. 

You were shocked at the thoughts that flashed through your head as you jumped off the building. 

If you let him fall--if you let him transform...Levi would have no choice but to take him out...and Eren would be killed. 

 You used what little power you'd manage to keep stored for your escape on him...

It was stupid on your part, but you couldn't change the past...there was no point in you worrying about your actions now....You had much bigger things to deal with. 

Those things being Levi.

The black-haired man sipped from his teacup, holding it by the rim as he savored the flavor. 

You completely ignored the steaming cup in front of you, eyes watching him emotionlessly. 

It was a silent showdown...

You were waiting for him to speak. 

He was smart. 

He knew that his silence was only going to cause you to grow more annoyed with him. 

You didn't think that was possible, though. 

The way he looked at you when he saw your power...he seemed so mug even though his face never once showed a single emotion...You just knew he was silently basking in your stupidity. 

You couldn't blame him though. 

If you hadn't screwed up, this wouldn't be happening. You'd already be on your way over the walls...and he'd be too far behind you to even dream of catching up with you.

But, of course, something went wrong...Or rather...you did something stupid again. 

Eren was definitely on edge. The silence seemed to be more a torture to him than you...which wasn't surprising. You were used to only hearing the sound of your breathing. You and Levi could play this game until the sun rose and you had a feeling that neither of you would be the first to speak. 

"Why are you being so silent?" Eren asked, annoying and fear lacing his tone. "Aren't either of you going to say anything about what just happened?"

Levi's cold eyes turned towards the young cadet, face never once showing any sort of emotion.

"What's the point?" He asked. "I have a feeling that she won't tell us anything."

You raised your eyes to his, tilting your head as you cocked your brow. 

"Honestly," Levi sighed out. "You're proving to be more useless by the day...Every time we think we are getting close, you cut us right back off."

You remained silent, turning your head to the side. 

You knew he was right. You were being useless...Did you care? Absolutely not. 

Did these humans seriously consider themselves worthy of knowing the secrets of the world? They must be delusional. They're all weak. Every single one of them...Stupid and naive fools with big hearts and tiny brains...living a life of short happiness with an even shorter lifespan. 

Pathetic. 

"Still," Levi continued. "I don't think you can deny it any longer...After what happened out there tonight, there is no way for you to lie your way out...which I don't think you'd try to do anyway... I don't think you would want to put forth the effort into concocting some ridiculous lie."

He wasn't wrong about that. You wouldn't lie...Such a bother to make up a story. 

"The Commander has been informed of tonight's events..." Eren told you, eyes searching for your own. "There is no getting out of this...There's no dodging your responsibilities. You're out in the open...once the Military Police learn of this, you could be reassigned to them."

 Once again, their arguments were met with silence. 

Responsibilities? 

You had no responsibilities to this place or these people. You thought you had made that abundantly clear to the young Cadet...Apparently not. 

God, these people couldn't take a hint. 

"Do you not comprehend what is happening here?" Levi asked, a slight tone of annoyance lacing his voice. "Every second that you choose not to cooperate, more people are at risk of being eaten alive. People are dying--Good people are dying. And for what? More knowledge about how to defeat those monsters....Do you know how many people would give their lives to know the things that you do? Do you realize how stupid you're being by acting like a brat?"

"Captain-"

"People have lost their homes." The gray-eyed man continued in a venomous tone."And here you sit with all the answers...as silent as a mouse, unwilling to open your mouth even if it could save humanity."

You tilted your head. 

"How foolish." You deadpanned. "I told you...I don't care what happens to humanity. You knew that when you asked me to come here. You've known since the beginning that I would not help you...and yet, you get angry when I stick to my words....I don't owe you or humanity anything. If you are going to be angry with someone, be angry with yourself for putting your faith in someone who couldn't care less if you died tomorrow." 

The sound of the chairs legs scraping against the wooden floor caused Eren's body to jerk in surprise, his eyes widened as he watched his superior stomp his way over to you, hands balled into fists by his side. 

You only raised a brow at his display of aggression, a cold shooting to the ends of your fingertips as you awaited his inevitable attack.  

His fist slammed into the table in front of you, eyes never once showing any other emotion than rage. 

"Countless people have died..." He breathed. "Waiting for someone like you to appear. Numerous soldiers and civilians have had their lives ripped from them because no one knew how to get rid of the Titans....and now, you show up, knowing all the answers....and you think that I will allow you to remain silent?"

Your body stiffened as he leaned forward, his hair hanging over his eyes. 

"You will tell us what you know..." He started, "Or I swear to god I will break every bone in your body until you do."

You only stared up at him, your own face never changing. 

Broken bones? That didn't scare you...It was clear that this man only perceived you as a bratty child with a small amount of power....he was underestimating you. You'd been through much worse than anything he could do to you...He didn't scare you...Not even in the slightest. 

"Humans are so emotional." You breathed in annoyance. "You all say you want peace and harmony, but at the end of the day, you always resort back to violence. You haven't evolved...not even a little bit. You should control yourself."

Levi glared at you, taking a step backwards slowly. 

"I'd expect you to say something like that." He deadpanned. "I knew you were cold from the first time I met you...I just never realized how truly unhuman you are until this very moment...You're just as bad as those walking giants."

"I never claimed to be good." You stated. "If you are trying to make me feel bad, I'm afraid it isn't going to work. I've heard all the sob stories I can take."

"Sob stories?" Levi repeated. "Those are people's lives...stories are the only things some people have to remember their family by...They are what helps people move past and forget their pain...I wouldn't expect you to understand...Someone like you could never understand the suffering and turmoil that people have gone through-"

"No, I can't." You interjected. "Something as trivial as that brings people such great despair? You're right, I don't understand it. I will never understand it....and, frankly, I don't care to."

Eren watched you in stunned silence, his mouth hanging open in absolute shock. Sure, he had known that you were unfeeling...but he never could have guessed that you would say something so cruel...Were you truly so heartless. 

Your words...They made him angry with you...How on earth could you allow such filth to leave your lips? You couldn't possibly mean that. 

"You may want to move past or forget your pain," You continued. "Personally, I don't want time to heal my wounds. You may think you've removed the pain or forgotten it...but that's nothing more than stagnation. You can't move forward without pain."

Levi remained silent as you spoke, his eyes drifting down to your hands briefly.

"What kind of human could say such things?" Eren whispered from the other side of the room, his eyes full of rage as he stared at you. "How cold must you be to be so cruel without even thinking?"

"Humanity..." You breathed out. "...is not just defined by being human....Humanity is the love for mankind and a compassion for the monsters....So, you see...One can be human...and yet...

not have an ounce of humanity."

A/N,

Wow. This chapter went pretty dark...

I love writing in this book and I hope you enjoy reading it. :)

I love you!

-Max