Something is wrong with me.

Twice now, I've given this lady my bike keys and allowed her to drive the only thing I deem precious to me, trusting her when I've let no one near it. Not even Hobi. Well, hmm, the first time, I had little choice. I was drunk off my ass, and I'm sure I was suffering from a concussion, but I knew I couldn't make it anywhere alone.

I push my limits often, but I wouldn't coin myself as suicidal.

This time it was all to satisfy a curiosity. Never am I in the presence of such rare creatures as her. She took the bait, so I had to reel her in. I want to know what it is about her that gives me nightmares. I know my dislike for her is unjust. Contradiction marches into my thoughts, conflicting me about her, but I don't need to be rescued; she wanted to do with me-I know it.

Perhaps I don't dislike her. Maybe I'm just unsure of her like she is of me. Should I try to get to know this fairy tale that keeps haunting me? Simple enough, right? She stopped the bike and slowly pulled into a building. I believe it's the same building she brought me to the first time. Her home. She brought me to her home. Is there a catch to this?

She shut down the bike and turned to me. She felt so warm, and I'm not used to feeling this good without putting something in my system to make me or hmm, by other means of methods.

Through the darkness of my helmet that I allowed her to wear this time, I could imagine her eyes, probably filled with wonder or doubt, on her behalf, of course. Does she even know what she's inviting, having me here with her?

I let go and unclasp the helmet, removing it from her head. I was right-her eyes filled with wonder. There wasn't a trace of doubt in them, but something else was there. Something I can't quite figure out. "Thank you. Come with me; I want to show you something." She spoke low and handed me my keys before getting off. Era walked out of the building and down a side street next to it. I followed her quietly as she led me into the unknown. Where the hell is she taking me?

Soon we came upon a brush of trees. Evenly placed along concrete paths were street lights circling the area. She began her trail onto it, and I continued following her. The flowers blooming around were shadowed, but it wasn't hard to imagine the beauty that lied in this place. Who knew this was behind her building? She stopped on top of a small bridge and sat. Her short legs dangled off the sides of it as she held onto the railing. Should I be concerned about my life? I sat next to her and watched her stare out into the stream. I turned to it as well, watching the moonlight mirror in it.

"Do you hear that?" She asked.

I'm not sure what I should listen to. There was too much chaos in my mind for me to concentrate on anything. "No."

Her quiet scoff echoed the air. "Close your eyes and listen."

I did as I was told. I give her too much freedom by telling me what to do. However, I think I could hear what she did. There were hardly any sounds of traffic though I know they surrounded this small heaven of nature. The warm wind blew slightly, and the water rushed over the rocks in the creek beneath us. I concentrated on this. Every voice, every thought that hammered in my brain was soon drowning out. All I could hear was our surroundings. For the first time in a long time, my mind was clear.

"I come here sometimes to breathe. Life can get so overwhelming, and we can only take so much. Maybe this can be your place to breathe too." Her voice, sweet and warm, just like her touch. I opened my eyes to see her staring back at me, a tiny smile on her lips.

A resounding thud against my chest jarred me. This weird feeling has been happening to me all night, especially when I'm around her or from just the sight of her. What is this? The minute my gaze fell to her lips, the thud pounded more against me. My body felt as if it was crawling, and it was making me cold. What is happening? I shook my head, hoping to shake the feeling. Whatever this is, I want it gone.

Suddenly there was a flash in the sky. A storm was on the rise, and I felt like it was a perfect distraction to escape. I can't do this, whatever this is. I got up and walked away. The minute I did, I heard her get up as well to follow me. "Don't!" I turned and yelled at her. An onset of fear glistened in her eyes, and my chest thudded again. I have to get the fuck out of here. I turned away and headed back down the side street, got on my bike, and left without a second thought.

Something is definitely wrong with me, and it's her fault.

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