A ChanLix filler cuz why not

Felix couldn't sleep that night even if he wanted to, and he really did. God, he just wanted to fucking sleep but his mind was wide awake and he heard faint sniffling coming from behind him. Chan hadn't exactly stopped crying, and it was hurting Felix's heart. Because of their Mate bond, they could feel each other's pain whether it be physical or mental. 

"W-why wasn't it me instead" Chan whimpered softly.

He didn't think Felix was awake and could hear him, but all of a sudden a very upset hybrid had turned him onto his back and was now straddling his hips.

"Don't you dare say that" Felix growled out, "Do you have any idea what that would do to me if you had actually fucking died!? I wouldn't be here right now, we wouldn't have a family, and everyone would be devastated! HOW DARE YOU EVEN THINK THAT!" Felix grabbed Chan by the front of his shirt, shaking him back and forth, "I'm glad it wasn't you...do you not care about my feelings?" Felix stared deep into Chan's eyes as he spoke.

Chan felt a fresh wave if guilt wash over him, and he buries his face in Felix's chest and continues to silently cry.

"I do care about your feelings, please don't think I don't. Felix, you're my husband; it's my responsibility to care and love you" Chan leaned away to look up at Felix.

"So that's all I am to you then...a responsibility" Felix spat, turning his head away.

"Lix, you know that's not what I meant baby" Chan sighed, his eyes drying, "you're a strong, independent person who is loved by a lot of people, especially me" Chan sighs, "you have no idea how much you remind me of Jisung"

Felix frowns.

"This isn't about Jisung, this is about us, and you staying alive" Felix huffed.

"I know babe, I know. But, you and Sungie are alike in a few ways. You might not see it often but Jisung is selfless and caring. He would step over burning hot coals and would swim through electric eel infested waters for anyone, including Minho" Chan smiles, "and I know you'd do the same. Maybe not for anyone, but you get my point" Chan chuckles.

"....you changed the fucking subject" Felix hissed, very displeased with Chan's attitude towards their earlier conversation.

"Lix, babe, just let it go-" "no, I'm not gonna let it go!" Felix whisper yells, "so, you still wish it was you dead instead of them him?" Felix growls low in his throat, huffing as he crawls out of Chan's lap and off the bed, "I need space. Get some rest" Felix mutters.

Before he could walk away, Chan calls out to him.

"Lix, i-i'm sorry" Chan sounds so hopeless, and it takes everything within Felix to continue walking away, to have his space to calm down.

The two spend the next few hours apart, both unable to sleep...

Hnnnng can't go a hot minute without writing in angst whoops