You know how I said there may be a love making chapter? There was going to be.

Keyword being was.

For some fucking reason, I literally CANNOT do full smut in this story. I think I tried once before and ended up basically abandoning it for a while because I just couldn't. I don't know what it is, but something stops me from doing so with this particular story.

So, there's not gonna be any smut. Don't be too disappointed, I did see in the previous a/n that I might not do it, and I have ultimately decided not to.
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Onto the 'something else' part of this a/n. Because I didn't write anything on my or her message boards yesterday (I had ALOT on my mind, specifically with his tf imma get my shit together ooft), this is gonna make up for that.

Okay, SO, MangaAnimeGirl is my girlfriend and I'm pretty sure most of you already know that (and if you don't...y'all needa learn to check my message boards, because sometimes I have important stuff to announce and this was one such important announcement). It has been five days but I am completely and utterly attached to her. This morning I fell into a hole, and she knew as I had kinda told her, and all she did was send me a small message and all of a sudden BOOM I'm well enough mentally to write.

I really just want her to know that I support her, and that I love her so much that it physically hurts being so far apart from her. I will admit, I have nearly cried myself to sleep because all I wanna do is hold her close and cuddle and kiss her and do all that sappy shit like stay indoors and watch Netflix with snacks (well, she could count as a snack herself because damn...*whistles* she a whole snacc lemme  tell you that right now) or something or maybe even just go for a fucking walk whilst holding hands, idk.

She is on my mind 24/7, and that is no fucking joke, I'm being 200% honest when I say that. I can't stop thinking about how much I just wanna hear her voice, or see her gorgeous face or hear that loud, bubbly laughter and how I just wanna hold and protect her when she cries or when she's sad. I woke up stupidly early yesterday morning, I think it was, and I messaged her on insta and I was so tempted to call her just so I could hear her voice. I love her so much, you guys probably don't even realise how much I do. It's more than just dedicating cute little messages to her, it's a physical need to have her near me but she's on the other side of the world and it hurts like hell but I won't let that distance tear us apart, so these cute dedicating messages and the video calls on Instagram will have to do.

I know you're gonna read this Angel, and I hope you realise just how much I love you 😘 I really hope we can meet in real life one day soon, and I know you really wanna come and visit me. I hope that day comes sooner than either of us think because fuck, I wanna be able to hold you close to me baby girl ❤️

Okay, that is all. If you read all that without wanting to puke because of the sweetness, then well done you 👏👏👏👏

*Edit 28th Feb, 2020: I'm still madly in love with her and it's been nearly a year and two months, don't come at me-