If you're new here... Welcome!!!! This is my face

this is me today shopping for a graduation dress. I must admit that I like this dress even though that I usually dress in a gothic/punk style as you can see from my gloves

And this is a screenshot I took of boombayah from blackpink when I paused the video.

Anyways let's skip the introductions and get to the point...

I am fucking ugly and I'm gonna die alone~!

I don't know who this is but I like his entire being nonetheless...

BUT WAIT. LOOK

HE TURNED INTO THIS WITH MAKEUP. I NEED EVERYTHING HE USED TO FIX MY FACE

HE LOOKS LIKE A MOTHERFUCKING KPOP GOD. ME LIKE ASIAN MEN. THIS IS WHY IM GONNA DIE ALONE (if anyone can find me a cute date that would be appreciated so I can pretend that I'm not gonna play Skyrim alone in Valentine's Day) IM ASIAN, I PLAY VIDEOGAMES, I LOVE COMICS, I WATCH ANIME AND K DRAMAS, I READ MANGA AND... I READ IN GENERAL OK. I LIKE KPOP JPOP AND CPOP AND I LISTEN TO BABYMETAL( my favorite is Gimme Chocolate!) I MISSED MY GRADUATION MASS BECAUSE PEOPLE MAKE FUN OF ME BECAUSE I CAN'T PRONOUNCE THE R IN SPANISH ( native language) BECAUSE MY GRANDPA GOT A CHEMICAL IN THE VIETNAM WAR( The teacher said that they made fun of me because they " admire me" and those comments are so harsh that I almost became suicidal) I ONLY HAVE 2 FRIENDS IN MY GRADE( both 8th grades)  AND MY BEST FRIENDS (apart from my best best best friend that I know physically in my grade called Jaytzel, which is ironic my name is Itzel and we're both identical in personality... except she doesn't listen or know anything asian like me and she was born December 29 while I was born December 26)  ARE 2 GRADES AHEAD OF ME. IM SO LONELY MADRE MÍA VOY A MORIR SOLA CON UNA OBSESIÓN CON EL K-POP( OH MOM IM GONNA DIE ALONE WITH AN OBSESSION WITH K-POP) AND IM THE ONLY ASIAN IM MY FAMILY IN THIS SIDE OF THE WORLD ( I live in the Caribbean) you know some of the people I pm with are better [and cheaper] than therapy. Sorry if I annoy anyone it's just that I only rant to people I trust. It's really hard for me to open up to people.

I think that I'll never find someone that can protect me, that is sweet and considerate and that can make me laugh when I'm sad that actually likes me genuinely and not because I'm a human encyclopedia. Maybe they exist but I don't know when I'm gonna meet them. Who am I kidding they exist but I'm never gonna meet them and they aren't gonna like me.

Sorry about the rant. As an apology here are some hot people

That is all from my miserable life for now. Until the next time if I ever have more time.