LEVI'S POV

It's been only an hour and I've asked myself at least one million times the following question: why the fuck am I holding Eren's hand? By now I should probably be beating his ass for not skating too well and yelling at him but surprisingly

I kind of find myself enjoying the warmth of his hand because it's soft and nice to hold on to; unlike other girls it makes me a bit happy-

I mentally slap myself. No, this isn't right at all; to society two guys holding hands means they're either brothers or just

gay.

And I'm pretty sure I am straight...hopefully. I mean, of course I've had a few girlfriends from time to time and for some reason I'm still a virgin. I guess when the time came I just wasn't up for it.

Holding hands in the skating rink shouldn't be labeled as homosexual, right? All I'm doing is just holding his hand because this fucking brat has no idea how to skate because he has never done it before.

Yet I can feel the homosexual atmosphere tense up.

And I'm pretty sure he's straight as well because he keeps trying to avoid my gaze when I talk to him and his face is as red as a girl's period which I kind of find pretty damn cute-

I trip and fall and slide on the ice.

"Levi, are you alright?" Eren asks while his eyes widen.

"Y-yeah I just don't feel too good right now."

"Whoa," Eren says, "you stuttered!"

"No I did not. Shut up."

He offers me his hand so that I could easily get back up again but I just look away get up myself.

"We'll continue number three some other time, okay? Let's go home for now."

---TWO WEEKS LATER---

"Can we go to the amusement park now? You said we could go almost a week ago and it was your idea to complete the list anyways," Eren whines.

"If you quit bothering me about it maybe," I answer as I sip my tea.

"Do rollercoasters actually have loops in them? Because if they do I don't give a fuck if I end up throwing up all over the place."

"Twenty cents, Jaeger, pay up."

He groans in response and flicks two dimes into the money-filled jar which is now a quarter full.

"Okay we can go now if you promise not to be an annoying little brat in the car," I say as I start getting up.

"YES," he yells, "FINALLLLYYYYYYYY!"

"Shut up."

"I CAN'T WAIT."

"Okay get in the car then-"

"YES, SIR."

He is such a child.

---

"When I was a young boy

my father took me into the city

to see a marching band.

He said 'son, when you grow up

would you be the savior

of the broken

the beaten and the damned?'"

"Levi, could you change the song please?" Eren asks and rolls his eyes.

"Why? My Chemical Romance is amazing."

"It reminds me of some dick I used to know," he explains with a frustrated sigh.

I just nod and press a couple of buttons to change the radio station and the speaker immediately blare with the heavy sounds of dubstep.

"Good. You have a good taste in music I see," Eren mumbles and dreamily looks out the window and watches small specks of snow collect on the pane, "what do you will happen if there is too much snow in the amusement park?"

"Some rides will probably be closed like all those stupid kiddy rides but I doubt the Hellevator will."

"What's a Hellevator?"

"Oh you'll see," I say casually, "you'll see very soon"

"Haha you're scaring me a little."

"Good. That's what I intended to do."

"Will we able to go on the Ferris wheel too?"

"Tch isn't that for kids?" I ask and roll my eyes.

"Well you tell me I'm a kid and I can't go on alone so we're definitely going on."

"You always have to have it your way, don't you?"

"Yes, sir!" he answers cheerfully.

--- Time skips bc paragraphs about driving is hella boring---

"This place looks so big," Eren says with his mouth open wide when we arrive at the park and enter the line up. There is snow but now a lot so I guess that means most of the rides will still open then.

After paying for tickets, Eren dashes through the gate and starts making a run for it.

"Levi, look! Is that the Hellevator you were talking about earlier?"

I look up at the sky to see some tall, red machine with seats attached to the sides in pairs of four going slowly up then violently zooming towards the ground again.

"Yep," I answer.

"I don't want to go on it."

"Too bad. We're going. Come on, Brat, let's go.

I look over at Eren and he looks more afraid than some little girl getting a flu shot for the very first time. His expression amuses me a lot; his lips are shaking a little and his hands are in fists.

"We can go to the Ferris wheel right after if you want," I say and cross my arms, "don't be such a child."

Eren's mouth opens slightly but he quickly closes it but finally speaks again, "alright but I'm gonna blame you if I end up throwing up."

"Deal," I say with a small smirk.

It takes me a while to urge Eren into his seat by threatening and black-mailing him and it's pretty cruel but it's also embarrassing to see that twelve year old children are going into their seats with no fear at all in their eyes when Eren is very close to adult-hood and looks as if he's going to piss his pants at any moment.

"Everyone buckle up their seat belts if you wish not to be hurtled into the air two hundred feet above the ground and splattered into the pavement!" the speaker announces, "now hold on tight because y'all are gonna have one hell of a ride."

At the mention of being thrown into the ground from high above the sky, Eren starts shaking uncontrollably and nervously grits his teeth. The ride slowly starts to rise from the ground and our feet are dangling in the air.

"Eren, calm yourself. It's not like you're going to die."

"Aw man, you just jinxed it," he says miserably, "I really regret going on this thing and we're not even that high yet."

"Eren-"

"Nah shut up, Levi, you're gonna jinx it even more."

"Eren, listen-"

"Jesus Christ I'm scared."

"Eren, shut up and-"

"We're going to die."

"No we're not, Eren-"

"I'm not gonna listen to you, Levi."

"Eren, you little brat listen up," I hiss quietly so the other kids don't hear me,"hold my hand so you don't get scared."

"And what makes you think that will actually legit work?" he asks frantically and looks down with his eyes bulging with fear.

"Because remember when we were at the ice rink? I held your hand and you never slipped again."

Eren's face heats up and turns a slightly dark shade of crimson.

"But people are going to stare-"

"Yes but I don't care," I interrupt, "I don't want you to be afraid. It's pathetic."

Eren bites his lower lip nervously and takes my hand anyway, giving it a little squeeze.

"Look we're already at the top," I say calmly.

"WHAT?"

I'm pretty sure we're so high up that we can almost touch the clouds if we really tried and everything below looks so damn tiny from up here that even a person with really good eye sight would find trouble trying to see the view from up here but even so I could still smell the scent of popcorn wafting through the air which calms me down a bit because I'll admit I'm a little bit scared. At the second that we begin to fall I manage to say something to Eren.

"Eren, you're going to be okay."

"Sir, you tell lies-HOLY FUCK!" he shouts when we violently begin to crash our way back down. We don't reach the very bottom but the ride continuously keeps jerking back up and down all over again and I can feel my stomach shake inside of me. Eren's face is struck with terror as he squeezes my hand even more, trying to shut his eyes but unable to because of all the wind blowing into our faces. Several other kids and their parents scream but I bet everyone on this ride would admit that Eren is the loudest of them all.

"SHITSHITSHITSHITSHITFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK," Eren yells .

"EREN, SHUT UP-"

"DAMNDAMNSHITFUCKSHITDAMNSHITFUCKITYFUCKSHITCRAPFUCKDAMNIT," he screams, "LEVI, I WILL NEVER LISTEN TO YOU EVER AGAIN UGH."

Well he actually did end up throwing up but I'm very glad that he managed to wait until we reached the ground again to actually go running to the washroom without me and I'm pretty sure I lost him.

You know why?

Because I've been waiting almost an hour for him.

EREN'S POV:

My stomach hurts. My arms and legs feel like crap and my brain is making everything so damn trippy like Grisha's drugs. After vomiting all my remaining breakfast, I head out of the room and expect Levi to be waiting there for me because I'm sure he ran after me and followed me so he wouldn't lose sight of me but boy was I wrong.

He isn't there at all.

Panic begins to flood my mind and I start swearing angrily in German as I push through the grounds of children and people who either smell like candy and popcorn or just crack and marijuana. I'm just about to pull my cellphone out of my pocket when I suddenly realize that I somehow left it at home because I'm stupid.

Now I'm in the middle of a people infested place with no one to trust because I can't find Levi. I even head back to the Hellevator but he's still no where to be seen.

LEVI'S POV:

(AN: atm i will be switching between the two of em so uhm try not to be confused amiriteeeee)

I push and shove through the filthy crowd of gross kids and fat people who are stuffing their faces with popcorn or cotton candy.

"Hey, man, watch where you're going!" someone shouts at me.

"I don't give a fuck," I growl as a response because all I care about at the moment is to find Eren and make sure he isn't hurt and that he's perfectly safe.

I bump into many girls who advertise weird crap such as strawberry scented teddy bears or fun henna tattoos and I can tell at least five of them tried flirting with me.

Fucking disgusting.

EREN'S POV:

By now I am in full panic attack mode and trying desperately to find Levi again because this situation just reminds me of many terrible experiences from long ago whom I really wish I wouldn't remember again at an awful time like this. I run frantically around the park and accidentally bump into a few people and I'm just so close to losing hope that Levi would find me or I will find him.

Will he just give up and abandoned me? I wasn't even his problem in the first place and all I've done is being a pain in the ass to him. He probably was waiting for this to happen so he could just forget about me.

I shouldn't be anyone's problem anyways

and that's probably why Grisha disappeared.

LEVI'S POV:

I steal a glance from my watch which says it's almost late afternoon, meaning I've been trying to find Eren for almost two hours now. Shit where could that brat be?

My legs feel like they're about to snap in two and I'm thirsty from all that walking and running but nothing will stop me from finding Eren. I can't just give up on him and bail out.

I sit on a bench for another five minute break when something catches my eye. For a second I think I may be hallucinating but it turns out I'm not at all. My eyes aren't playing tricks with me. Leaning against a cotton candy booth and staring hopelessly at the cady wrapper-filled ground is a brunette with the most beautiful, green eyes I've ever seen.

Did I seriously just think that?

Before I could of anything else, I make my way silently towards Eren and cross my arms and glare down at him angrily.

"I've been searching for you for almost two hours," I snap, "you have fucking idea how worried I was, you brat."

"Oh so you did try to find me. What a relief."

"It won't be a relief after I beat your sorry ass when we come back home."

Although I am mad and tired, I'm glad he's safe.

After eating some cotton candy we decide to go on a few more rides before heading back home becaus the sky begins to grow dark and gloomy.

EREN'S POV:

When we got home I had to pay eight dollars to the swear jar and Levi managed to get away with only paying forty cents. Even though I was lost for a very long time but still okay and safe, Levi is still very mad and refuses to talk to me at all.

"I said sorry like one million times already," I whine, "and for almost a whole month you're the only I've been talking to, Levi, this isn't fair."

"I've been running all over the place like an idiot as an attempt to find you after you ran off to vomit your head off. Couldn't you have at least held it in so that I could catch up?" he shrieks.

"Well it's not my fault that you were born with short legs which makes you unable to run as fast as me."

"Eren, don't you dare start with the whole short legs thing," he growls angrily, "I've been worried sick about you."

"I'm still alive and in one peice so why are you making such a fuss about it? I didn't die out there, Levi, so I don't see why you're so worried. You're just as worse as Mikasa on her period."

"You have no fucking idea do you?" he shouts and without another word, he leaves to go to his room.

I don't hear a door banging against the wall yet because he returns back to say one more thing.

"We're gonna decorate the tree tomorrow," he says solemnly and leaves once again.

I groan and plop onto the couch as I open my phone to scroll through my facebook and instagram feed. Just when I'm about to die of boredom, my phone makes a bell sound and a message pops up.

Hanji: yoooooo whats up, eren? are you doing alright with shorty?

Eren: hahaha no. for 70% of the day all hes done is yelling at me bc i got lost at the amusement park and hes making such a a big deal out of it.

Hanji: he makes a big deal out of everything tbh. okay but the main reason why i texted you at a time like this is because levi's bday is very close.

Eren: rlly? when is it?

Hanji: Christmas day which is in two weeks by now.

Eren: alright thats cool but why are you saying this exactly??

Hanji: he always celebrates alone bc hes such a fucking loser lmao. jk but hes always alone on his bday and locks himself in his room. erwin, mike and me always try to force him to blow out his candles but he wont budge so this year i want you to make an effort to actually hav a decent bday for him okie?

Eren: but what am i suppose to do? ive only known him for only a month

Hanji: it doesnt have to be anything big or extravagant, silly. levi may look like a very scary and hella tough person but even the smallest of things can make him smile. like windex for example :) but pfTT im not saying u should buy a crap ton of cleaning supplies rofl but idek man watch a movie with him, play league with him or whatever, ive known him for a very long time so i hope thats what makes him happy.

Eren: listen hanji that sounds so gay

Hanji: wat does?

Eren: it sounds helluva lot like a birthday date... ._.

Hanji: well youre straight and hes straight, rite? nothing will change so dont worry about it so much xD and since u work at a bakery it will make evrythg much better bc you bake like a wizard so make a good cake for him. he rlly leiks chocolate :3

Eren: haha alright but i swear if he ends up throwing a fit bc he doesnt want to do anything at all for his bday im gonna blame it all on u ;)

Hanji: pFFT sure thing if that makes you feel any better, btw erwin says hi

Eren: k tell him his co worker is acting like a stubborn drama queen princess

Hanji: HAHAHHA XD of course and i should go now bc im gonna go swimming with dolphins :::::))))) see ya later jaeger bomb

Eren: you too hanji

She was right.

He does sound like a fucking loser but there's a reason for everything, right? Maybe he's just one of those people who don't want to be reminded that they're getting older with each passing year,month,week,day,hour, minute and second. I can see his reason for that but it would be excellent to celebrate while you still have the chance.

In this case, I don't think that's the exact reason to why he always spends his birthdays the same over and over and over again but maybe I can perhaps help him somehow.

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AN: gee as i promised id make the chapter more longer the whole story part was 3011 words but hella worth it. im so glad that its finally chp 12 bc one chapter closer to the yAOI MWAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA *claps hands together violently* ik theres probs a lot of typos bc twin is sick and she cant correct this but eh i tried ( i mean i could let her correct but lmao nope bc she needs sleep)

i really loved writing this chp omfg and whoaaa bruh but is levi finally realizing his feels for eren boo? :o

ik holding hands isnt a lot but even tho its my fic and i type it and all that crap but i still have fangirl panic attacks bc im a fcking loser xD

but be patient my cactus children i have the kiss scene planned in my head so it will be very soon *backs into bush* soooooonnnnnnnn

btw dubstep and mcr is bae

anywayssss thank you so much for reading! ily all! <69

-Takeshi who should be doing band hw but ends up writing gay fanfic