Chizuru puts a hand on my forehead and smile <<good, your fever is going down, looks like you're tougher than I thought>> I shrug <<you told me to stay in bed and rest, so I didn't do anything else>> she smirks <<oh? But you don't seem happy by your tone...so what would you rather do?>> for an instant I thought of Okita, but I quickly ignored it and shake my head <<nothing, I'm just bored>> and she chuckles. Rikuo wakes up, and he groans because of the fever. Unfortunately, unlike me, he still has a high fever. He looks at us <<what time is it?>> Chizuru takes the cloth on his forehead, and wets it in the bowl of water near our futons <<it's almost dinner time, you slept all day...but it's a good thing. You can recover only if you rest properly>> and she puts again the wet cloth on his forehead. He sighs and look at me <<you're lucky you're almost healed>> I smile and fix his blankets <<don't complain too much, because there is someone who has the right to complain more than you>> and I pats his head chuckling <<poor Shiro...he takes Karasu Tengu away so we can rest in peace>> Chizuru nods <<this morning, he took Karasu Tengu and Mana away. Apparently they went to visit the city>> Rikuo frowns worried <<and they're not back yet?>> she shakes her head <<don't worry...like I said, it's almost dinner time. I'm sure that they'll be here soon>> but Rikuo frowns still worried. Chizuru continues to reassuring him...but I didn't listen.

I can't stop to think about Okita's illness...i know that we can't change the past, but maybe I can ask Chizuru a favor about this. I promised not to tell anyone about his tuberculosis, but I'm pretty sure Chizuru already knows about it.

We know that sooner or later everyone will find out about his condition...but we are doing everything to keep it hidden for as long as possible. We don't know how much time is left, so...if only I can get some medicines from the future...

...<<Riko?>> I jump surprised, hearing Rikuo's voice calling me. I smile apologetic <<sorry, what were you saying?>> he frowns <<are you okay? You look worried. it's not like you to be so pensive>> I sigh and pass a hand between my loose hair <<don't worry about me, just think about healing. Chizuru? Can I ask you a question?>> she nods <<of course>> i take a big breath and i look down <<i was wondering if you could get a medicine for me, from the future>> Rikuo widen his eyes more worried, so I quickly raise my hands <<it's not for me, I swear. I'm fine, if anything...i believe that my body is already okay. My fear is no longer a problem for me, so I'm better than fine>> Rikuo looks at me tired <<for god sake...you had me worry for nothing. Still it's not fair, you're already okay and I'm still like this. I don't even remember that I transformed last night. The last thing I remember is that we were talking...but then I fell asleep and woke up this morning, feeling worse than yesterday>> I chuckle knowing that he's not really angry with me.

Chizuru smiles amused <<Rikuo...your sister Is no luckier than you. it's only that she accepted her powers first with her mind, and then with her body. Remember...our mind is what control our body, not the other way around. A demon can't fight with only his body, and if one day you'll learn to fight also with your mind then...you won't get sick every time you use your fear. I know that it's a bitter truth, but you're not human...your father's blood runs through your veins, and that makes you a gray existence. You can't run away forever from what you are, I can assure you...because I tried to do that when I was young>> Rikuo pulls his covers over his face angry <<for the millionth time...i don't want to be the third. I don't even want to be a yokai. I...i only want to be a normal human>> and he sighs really tired.

I pull away the blankets from his face, seeing that he was falling asleep once again. The wet cloth had fallen from his forehead, so I take it and put it on him again. I gently caress his head, whispering with a soft but bitter voice <<we will never be normal humans...i know that it's difficult to accept that, but Chizuru is right. I hope that one day you will understand>> and I sigh. Chizuru nods with a small smile <<yeah, but don't forget that you two have also your mother's blood inside you. I am a full demon, but you two can live between humans...you only need to understand that many humans hate us, so it can be really dangerous for us. I know that this is not what your father wanted for you two...but your safety comes first>> I pat her shoulder <<don't worry, I understand. If we want to live like humans, we must be able to defend ourselves...so before making a choice we need to know how to control our fears>> she nods <<i'm happy to see that you understand. When Hagoromo Gitsune will be dead then you two will be free. Now about your request...>> she crosses her arms <<i'm really sorry but I can't get that medicine for you, but you should already know this. In this era the tuberculosis is deadly...and we can't do anything about it>> and she smiles apologetic. I bit my lip disappointed <<i know, but...i had to try. This is really unfair and he deserves better>> she makes a bitter smile <<you're right, and now you know how easy it's to get attached to the captains of the Shinsengumi. I'd like to help them too, but even If I could...I don't have enough flowers. I have only two flowers by now...and if I let you go, then you'll come back to give the medicine to Okita and we will be stuck here forever>> I widen my eyes surprised <<oh, I thought that you had more>> then..i can't really do anything about it, and in a few days I will finally go home. Grandpa, mum and the others are waiting for us. I miss them so much...but I don't understand. Why I'm feeling like this? I should be happy right? But what I'm feeling now is not happiness.

Rikuo, in his sleep, grabs my hand mumbling with a soft voice <<big sister...>> and he continues to sleep. I look at him a little amused... we were forced to grow fast after dad's death, but right now he looks so small and vulnerable. I need to stay at his side...he needs me and I need him, we are a team, but...right now, I wonder if there's more besides this.

Chizuru smiles a little <<he can be really cute when he's asleep, like my dear Shiro. When they're sleeping their faces are so relaxed...it's almost funny>> I nod, forcing a smile on my face...but right now the last thing I want to do is smile.

She sighs <<well, at least you're practically healed. Why don't you stretch your legs a little before Karasu Tengu comes back? I bet that if he see you walking around he would panic, so it's best for you if you go now>> I roll my eyes <<like always>> and I gently free my hand from Rikuo's grip <<but are you sure? Now that I'm okay, I can watch Rikuo for a few minutes if you want. I know you and Hijikata are not a couple yet, but wouldn't you like to talk with him? At least for a moment. he's still Shiro's father...and the man you still love so much. How can you stay in this room knowing that he's so close? You have the possibility to talk with him again, but you're spending this precious opportunity at our bedside. You can...>> she stops me putting a hand on my head. She smiles sad <<thanks but i can't. you're right, he's here...but he's not my husband, and he's still not Shiro's father. There is another me here, and she will be really happy with him...but I already lived that life. I accepted my husband's death a long time ago, and talking to him now would only be painful. I don't want to live a wishful illusion...so thank you but no>> and she pats again my head a couple of times.

I frowns <<is that why Shiro went to visit the city with Karasu Tengu and Mana? You sent him away, at least for today, to make sure he wouldn't suffer>> she didn't answer but send me away with a gesture <<don't ask pointless questions, you have something else to do right? Go now, before Karasu Tengu comes back>> I nod slowly and go outside.

I start walking without a real destination...both Chizuru and Shiro are going through a bad moment. Chizuru has the love of her life in front her, but she can't stay with him...and Shiro is forced to pretend that his father is not here. I can understand what he's going through, but at least my dad is not living with us under the same roof.

They lost him a long time ago, but at least they already accepted it and can move on. they're so strong...<<ah!>> suddenly Yamazaki comes out from the kitchen, making me leap back surprised. He looks at me and widen his eyes <<Nura-san? I see you're feeling better>> I nod a little nervous <<yes, I'm alright now>> he nods with a serious face <<and your brother?>> I shake my head <<he still has a fever, so Chizuru is looking after him. You seem troubled, is everything alright?>> he sighs <<there are a few problems at the moment, but after what happened it was to be expected>> I frown, feeling guilty <<i'm sorry for that, is there anything I can help you with?>> he shakes his head <<thank you, but it isn't a good idea. The monks and the onmyoji have been discussing with Kondo-san and Hijikata-san since this morning. They are really furious, and your presence would only make it worse>> I purse my lips feeling more guilty. He crosses his arms <<but there is one thing you can do>> I look at him hopeful <<what is it?>> he waved his hand, gesturing me to follow him inside the kitchen.

We enter inside, and Inoue-san smiles at us <<oh Nura-san, what a pleasant surprise>> I tried to answer, but Yamazaki puts a tray of food in my hands, silencing me. I'm pretty sure that it's someone's dinner, but why did he give it to me?...Wait, there is also a medicine next to the food, closed inside a piece of paper. Yamazaki sighs annoyed <<if you want to help, you can try to bring him something>> I look at him puzzled, so he adds <<it's Okita's dinner. This morning he too woke up with a fever, but he refused to eat and take the medicine I brought him...but maybe he'll listen to you>> I grip with more strength the tray <<i don't know if...>> but Inoue-san puts a hand on my shoulder <<excellent idea Yamazaki-kun, Souji can be really stubborn but maybe he will listen to Nura-san. Lately he has a really bad cough, and I'm really worried. He should rest, eat and stay warm or he will never recover>> I bit the inside of my cheek to keep quiet, because I know that a hot meal and some fever medicine won't help him. However if it's true that he refusing to eat, I must absolutely try to convince him...but what can I tell him? He hardly listened to me even before this mess.

I frown worried, but Inoue-san smiles at me <<you and Souji are friends, so don't worry too much, and with a little luck he'll listen>> I nod, feeling more confident. This is the perfect opportunity to talk to Okita, and...i want to ask him what he really thinks about this whole story.

I nod and look at Inoue-san and Yamazaki <<i will do my best>> Yamazaki nods <<thank you. Now I will also make dinner for your brother, so he can regain strength and heal>> I bow my head grateful <<thank you, but now he's sleeping>> but Inoue-san smiles <<it's not a problem, we will give his dinner to Chizuru...the Chizuru from this time I mean, so she can keep it safe from Nagakura-kun and give it to Rikuo when he will wake up>> I chuckle and nod <<perfect, then I can bring dinner to Okita without worrying for Rikuo's food>> they nod and I left the kitchen.

I walk nervous toward Okita's room. I feel like I have a boulder inside my chest, but I can't ignore him forever. I don't have much time and we need to talk.

I stop in front of his door, seeing that inside the lights are off...is he already asleep? Well, I hope not. I put the tray on the ground, and i slightly open the door whispering <<Okita?>> but he didn't answer. I peek inside...seeing someone lying down in a futon, in the center of the room. I open the door completely, noting that he pulled the blankets over his head...so that I can't see his face, but I have a feeling he's not really sleeping. I take the tray from the ground and I enter inside, closing the door behind me with my foot. I walk quietly toward him <<Okita?>> but he didn't move, so I sit near his futon and put the tray next to it.

I sigh and raise my hand, moving it toward him...but then he pushes away the blankets and sit down with a pissed face. I quickly take my hand back, jumping in surprise...but he looks at me with narrowed eyes <<what are you doing here?>> he's paler than usual, but his face is a little red because of the fever. I look down, feeling really small under his gaze <<Yamazaki told me you're not feeling very well, so i brought you dinner and some medicines>> he frowns <<why do you care?>> I bit my lip...struggling to find my voice <<i know that...in the last few days...unpleasant and annoying things have happened because of me, but...>> he sighs interrupting me <<unpleasant and annoying things? Funny, to me they seemed more that unpleasant and annoying...little vice-commander>> I frown, not finding funny how he emphasized with his tone my title. He's mocking me, but I'm not here to play.

I take a big breath and calm down <<listen to me please...i'm really sorry for what happened, but I already explained why I didn't told...!>> he interrupts me again <<i don't care about your excuses, so shut up because I don't want to hear them. After all...soon you will go home to your happy family with Rikuo, and you two will live happily...at least until that fox tries to kill you again>> I cross my arms, more angry and hurt <<i wasn't going to say other excuses...i just want you to understand>> we look at each other...he's really angry, I can see it from his eyes...but there is not only anger inside of them, there is something else beside it, but I can't figure out what it is.

He scoffs <<understand what? there's nothing to understand. You finally have the opportunity to leave, and Kondo-san would never stop you. So you will take this opportunity, and you will go back to your normal life with your brother...and then you can forget everything that happened here>> I widen my eyes really hurt, but he doesn't stop <<so why do you care if I eat or not? We both know that Yamazaki's medicines will never help me>> I snap my tongue more irritated <<i know! that's why you must take the medicines Dr Matsumoto gave you. You need to take your medicines after every meals...but if you don't eat you can't take them. This is why I'm here...you promised me! You must respect my two conditions>> he shrugs <<it won't help anyway, so you can stop pretending to care about me...I don't need your pity. Go back to your brother...the sooner he gets better, the sooner you can return home, and hang out all night together in your demoniac forms. Go away, I don't need you...or are you so stupid that you don't understand what I'm saying?>> he smirks <<or maybe I should just kill you, like I promised you in case you became a threat to the Shinsengumi. But If I do it now, Kondo-san wouldn't be happy...so just go away>> I widen my eyes shocked and hurt. It's like when we first met...when he was mean and cruel without reason.

I though he was angry because I hid the fact that I'm a gray existence...and I was ready to accept it. I know if I hadn't been here, Hisao would never have attacked them...so it's okay that he's angry. However, I can't accept the fact that he is implying that I'm pretending to care about him. He already tried to do this when we found out about his illness...but I didn't shut up that time and I sure won't do it now either!

Yes...his words hurt me, but I'm not trying to help him out of pity, I only want him to live as long as possible...but for do that he need to take his medicines!

He can mock me, threat me to kill me and be an asshole...but I won't allow him to insinuate that It's okay for me go home and forget about him and the rest of the guys of the Shinsengumi! The thought of never seeing them again is already something hard to accept...and now he's practically saying that the only important thing for me is to go home and have fun with Rikuo.

I love my brother and my family, but this doesn't mean that I won't miss Okita and the others! I will miss everything! My time spent preparing meals with Inoue-san and Chizuru...Kondo-san's kindness...Nagakura's funny behavior when he's drunk...Harada's kind gestures as if he is an older brother...Sannan-san and Yamazaki's advises...Hijikata's angry screams and...of course my time spent with Okita, making pranks and having fun.

I will miss everyone, and I don't even get a chance to explain everything and say goodbye to Heisuke e Saito, because they're not here.

Because of all this I'm feeling so...so angry and sad. I just wanted to explain how much important he and the Shinsengumi are to me!

I bit my lip and jump on my feet <<fine!>> and I run toward his wardrobe, opening it. I push aside his clothes, revealing a lot of medicines hidden under them. Each dose is closed inside small pieces of paper. I take one and throw it at him, screaming <<do whatever the fuck you want! But you're the stupid one if you still believe that I'm pretending to care about you! I already told you that I'm not doing that! And after all this years, you really believe that I could ever forget you and the others?!>> and before I knew it, tears were streaming down my cheeks...but I didn't stop <<let me tell you the answer...it's no! I will never do it! it's really so hard to believe that I care about all of you?! There won't be a day that I won't miss you! so...>> I take a big breath, covering a sob <<you can keep being an asshole with me as much as you want, but don't you ever say that again...or I will never forgive you! You bastard!>> he looks at me stunned, but when he tried to answer I continued to speak <<one more thing! I don't know what is your problem with Rikuo, but there's nothing wrong if I look after him...it's my duty, because I love him and I'm his big sister. you've seen what we've been through...and you know why we need to stick together. Many demons outside our clan want us dead...and I...>> I cover my face crying and trembling <<i'm so fucking scared...i'm terrified that they're gonna kill him just like they did with my dad. Everyone outside my family hate us, only because we are gray existences, and also because in our veins runs Nurarihyon's blood...>> he stands up and tries to speak with a serious face, but I shake my head and run away yelling <<i don't care if you hate me now because of it, but we can't change what we are!>> and I quickly run outside, leaving him behind.

I arrive inside an inner courtyard...quite distant from his room. I fall on my knees and keep crying in silence. I don't know If he tried to follow me, but I don't really want to face him right now. I need to calm down, and I can't do it if he's here.

But then i heard someone come closer, and I quickly cover my face, trying to hide the fact that I'm crying. Harada's worried voice reaches my ears <<Riko?>> I widen my eyes surprised and turn around, seeing also Nagakura with him. They frowns seeing my face, but I wipe my tears away with my sleeve...or at least I tried <<w...what are you doing here?>> Harada walks closer more worried <<we saw you run here, what happened?>> and Nagakura cracks his knuckles <<yeah, tell us! i bet that those monks said something mean to you. They're a pain in the ass since the incident with that Hisao, but now I'm going to punch them for you>> I widen my eyes and shake my head <<i'm grateful but please...don't do that. They didn't do anything to me>> I shrug <<they never liked me, but it's normal. They don't even dare talk to me...they're too afraid>> I try to smile without success <<it's not a big deal>> Harada shakes his head <<if it's true I will speak with them later, you did nothing wrong. However, if they didn't do anything...why were you crying?>> I sigh tired <<don't worry about it, but I'm sorry>> he raises an eyebrow <<for what?>> I look down ashamed <<i heard from Yamazaki that...the monks and the onmyoji are really angry because of what happened. Since the beginning, they were forced to host us...and now they're furious because Hisao and Kiku attacked this place aiming at my life>> and I slowly stand up.

Harada smiles and pats my head <<you don't need to apologize, you're not the one responsible for this attack...if anything, it's our fault for not be able to protect you against that snake and his friends. You even fight and save us all, so be proud of it>> and he smiles <<the important thing is that you and your brother are okay...you've been through too much to be so young>> Nagakura nods <<yes, it seems that being unlucky is a feature of your family, so it's not your fault!>> I grimace...chuckling a little. Was that a compliment? Well, I know that he meant no harm. If anything, he's funny and naive like always. Actually...both are behaving like usual, and this make me sigh relieved.

Harada slaps his head <<idiot, does that sound like something nice to say?>> Nagakura puts a hand on his head <<auch! Come on Sano, I didn't say anything wrong!>> I laugh a little, making them turn toward me. Nagakura points at me <<see?! she's smiling, so it was okay!>> Harada rolls his eyes, and I wipe away the last tears on my cheek <<well, I have to admit that we Nura have very bad luck...but I still consider myself pretty lucky. it's true that Chizuru planned this whole mess, but something could have gone really wrong anyway...so I'm really lucky to be here and to have met the Shinsengumi>> they smile happy and pleasant.

Nagakura then says <<wait a moment, you still didn't answer...who made you cry?>> I sigh scratching my head <<oh...it doesn't matter>> Harada crosses his arms <<no, it does matter or you wouldn't have cried, and if a woman is crying it's a man duty to console her. If you don't want to talk about it it's okay, but if you need us...we're here for you>> and he pats my head again...as if he was my kind older brother.

I look at him for a long moment...but in the end I sigh and begin to speak <<it's about the fact that I'm a gray existence...>> and I look down feeling a little shy. Harada sighs, closing his eyes for a moment <<so someone really said something to you>> I bit my lip <<well...he just said some mean things to me, and I'm sure that he hate me now>> I gently push away his hand from my head <<he told me to leave him alone and go back to Rikuo. He also said that I was pitying him, and that in a few days I'd be gone so he don't need to listen to me>> I clench my fists angry <<he also said that once I got home I can forget you all...but I could never do that! I care about everyone here, but I also have a duty toward my family...but he doesn't seem to understand it. My dad is no longer here, and I have to protect what he left behind>> I put a hand on my chest <<Chizuru showed me that I can be strong, and I finally have the strength to be what I want...but this doesn't mean that I forgot all the years I spent here with you all. I'm a gray existence and I'm proud to be one, I don't care if some stupid monks say something mean about me...but I admit that the Shinsengumi's opinion about this matter is something really important to me. In fact...I'm so relieved that you two are behaving as usual around me>> Nagakura crosses his arms <<demons and gray existences...bah! I think it's all a bunch of crap. you're still you and Chizuru is still Chizuru, right?>> Harada smiles and nod putting an arm around his shoulder <<i see that you're not a lost case after all, and you're absolutely right>> Nagakura smiles <<but I have to admit that Riko's demoniac form is really cool and hot!>> I blush shocked and flattered <<wait, what?!>> Harada rolls his eyes <<i take back what I said, you spoiled the moment because you don't know when to shut your mouth...but I have to admit that you're not wrong>> I blush more embarrassed and slap their chests with my hands <<ah stop it you two! now you're just making fun of me now>> Nagakura laughs and Harada smiles <<well, it doesn't matter what you are, because in the end you're a strong young woman who love her family, that's all, and there's nothing wrong with that. don't forget it...you're you and no one else>> and Nagakura nods <<but if someone is mean with you, send him to us and we will change his mind>> and in the end he laughs, confident in his ability.

I smile at them <<thanks guys, I'm sorry that my time with you it's almost over...i will really miss you>> Nagakura frowns <<well you can stay here if you want>> I widen my eyes, feeling my chest tightening for an instant.

Harada sighs <<Shinpachi, don't make it harder for her>> and he looks at me <<but of course, if you ever want to stay you'll be welcome>> I open my mouth for answer him...but I don't have an answer. I blink a couple of times...what can I say?

Harada smiles with gentle eyes <<you don't need to answer>> but then a familiar voice yells nearby <<Riko-sama?! Where are you?!>> I sigh already tired <<it seems that Karasu Tengu is already back>> Harada chuckles <<is he always this perky?>> I frown <<why do you think me and the others always run away when he's around? he's able to make really long lectures about everything. he's almost worse than Inoue-san>> Nagakura turns pale <<what?! Worse than Gen-san?!>> I shrug <<well, you saw him. he's an old little crow always on edge. He's like an old uncle for everyone at home, but of course in the end everyone love him...it's just that sometimes we need a break from him. he's always on our tails because he's trying to keep us out of trouble...but of course he fails every time>> Harada laughs <<we've noticed>> and Nagakura nods amused.

Karasu Tengu flies in the courtyard <<there you are!>> and he comes closer sighing relieved. I smile at him <<jeez...take a breath, I'm okay>> he frowns <<i can't with you outside! You should be resting in you room>> I roll my eyes and put a hand on my hip <<Chizuru said that I'm okay, so I'm getting some fresh air>> but Shiro jumps in the courtyard and helps me <<if my mother said that, then Riko is alright>> and he quickly puts a hand on my forehead <<<yes...your fever is gone>> and he takes back his hand. I nod, but he snaps his tongue and whisper to me <<your cheeks are wet...have you been crying?>> I widen my eyes surprised, and i quickly wipe my face, removing any trace of tears before Karasu Tengu sees them. I also remember again Okita's words and what happened, feeling immediately as if a knife stabbed my chest. His words hurt me a lot, but even though I'm mad at him...I could never hate him, and thanks to that, now I can feel only a great sadness.

I feel again my eyes becoming wet with tears, but I blink refusing to cry again in front of Harada and Nagakura...and if Karasu Tengu and Shiro saw me cry it would be a problem. Karasu Tengu would want to know what happened, and he would never leave me alone again...on the contrary Shiro might get angry.

Karasu Tengu crosses his arms <<i don't care if you no longer have a fever, you should still be inside. it's cold out here>> and he turns toward Harada and Nagakura, looking at them with disappointment <<this goes also for you too! I don't care what you are doing out here, but with clothes like that you will get sick for sure. I don't want any more sick people around, so go inside now>> Harada and Nagakura jump surprised. They look at each other stunned, but Karasu Tengu yells angry <<what are you waiting for?! Go inside now! I don't care if you are humans, for me you are still kids and I will not hesitate to punish you if you do not behave!>> and he begins to pull at their clothes...trying without success to pull them inside the temple. Me and Shiro look at Harada and Nagakura's shocked faces and we laugh out loud...and for a moment I forget my sadness.

Harada looks at us <<Riko help us!>> but I shake my head <<sorry, but I can't do anything. Follow him, or he will never leave you alone>> Karasu Tengu continues to pull angry <<come on!>> and Nagakura tries to take a step back, but Harada sighs and begin to follow Karasu Tengu inside, pulling Nagakura with them.

I look at them amused...it seems that Karasu Tengu already feels responsible for them because they're young...in fact, I think he likes them.

Shiro taps my shoulder <<we should go inside too, dinner is ready and Mana is waiting for us>> I nod and we follow the others inside.

When we arrive in the common room, I saw that everyone was already sit in their place...ready to eat. Only a few people are missing...the two Chizuru, Rikuo of course, Sannan-san, Okita and Yamazaki.

Okita...I quickly shake my head refusing to think about him...i can do it later, but for now I want to eat in peace with the others.

Mana looks at me with worry <<Why the long face?>> I shake my head and sit near her <<don't worry, I was only thinking about something>> she raises an eyebrow <<about what?>> I shrug. Shiro sits at her other side <<as far as I'm concerned, she can think about what she want, the important thing is that you're not planning another prank>> I chuckle <<unfortunately, I'm a little short of ideas at the moment, besides...i don't want to risk being scold by both Karasu Tengu and Inoue-san>> Nagakura frowns <<it would be a nightmare>> but Inoue-san sighs <<if you were more responsible I wouldn't need to scold you>> Karasu Tengu, who is sitting next to Inoue-san, looks at him surprise and happy <<finally somebody who have common sense around here>> Inoue-san smiles grateful at him, and they begin to talk together like they were old friends.

I look at them amused...it's appears that they are already friends. Even Kondo-san looks at them amused, but after a few moments he turns around and look at us <<so...you three grew up together, right? What is like growing up in a pandemonium?>> Mana shrugs <<it's no different than growing up in any other family...it's just that this one is a lot louder and troublemaker than the others>> I nod laughing a little <<we, Rikuo and two more boys are the only kids in the house. We grew up surrounded by many demons much older than us, and for this reason we kids stick together right from the start...we are practically brothers and sisters>> Shiro nods and put his hands on my and Mana's shoulder <<and since I'm the eldest...I have to chase these two anywhere and try to keep them out of trouble>> I playfully slap his hand away <<look who's talking, you can pretend to be the good guy all you want, but in the end you always end up being our accomplice>> Mana smirks <<she's right, you can't win against us and you know it>> Shiro growls annoyed <<it's because of this behavior that the adults of the clan keep saying that it would be better if they lock us in our house...at least until we're responsible enough to stop getting into trouble every day. Karasu Tengu is one of those who agreed with that, because he's always worried for us, and he want to keep an eye on us all the time>> Mana rolls her eyes <<i refuse! it would be hell...the only two funny people in that house would be Hihi and Wakana...besides Nurarihyon of course, that old man is hilarious>> and she challenges Karasu Tengu with her eyes...she also makes appear her cat ears and tail, probably for emphasize her words.

Karasu Tengu rolls his eyes <<stop whining! you and Riko-sama get in trouble every day only for fun! If you stay at home it'll be a lot easier to protect you...but lucky for me, my children, Kubinashi, and some of the others demons always help me keeping an eye on you. Yokai children are rare, and we must protect our kids until they can stand up for themselves. When you will grow up and act like adults I'll leave you alone>> in the meanwhile Nagakura tried to touch Mana's ears with curiosity, but she slaps his hand away with her tail without even blink...and Harada, after seeing the scene, shook his head amused.

Mana crosses her arms <<i highly doubt it, we're not the only ones who are constantly watched by you. I remember you that you always run after Nurarihyon...you always yell and lecture him as if you were his mother, and he's definitely not a child. Why don't you just relax? Chizuru is here, and I bet if we cause trouble she'll ground us...again. She can be really scary when she wants...and I don't want to upset her>> I nod and Shiro sighs annoyed <<no kidding...she can be really strict>> and he crosses his arms.

Harada laughs <<and Nurarihyon? What kind of person is he? From what we've seen, he's a very reckless and stubborn man>> Karasu Tengu frowns <<you can say that again, he's even worse than those three>> and he points at us <<each time he disappears from home, and we find him inside our neighbors' house stealing food and tobacco. If he's not around stealing food, then he's at home doing pranks with the kids>> and he sighs really tired.

Kondo-san laughs <<it seems that at your home no one ever gets bored>> but Hijikata growls and shake his head <<just the thought of the mess inside that house gives me a headache, but...i want to know something else. Nura, what really happened at Shimabara? Now it's clear that behind the murders there was a demon, otherwise it would not explain why you offered to be the bait. He is also the one who kidnapped that child called Tadashi, to lure you into a trap>> I frown with a serious face <<you're right...that bastard is a babaneko called Mikio. there's not much to say, he's a shape-shifting yokai born from a man who was in love with Yohime. That man was crazy in love with Yohime, but his lustful desire for her turned into hate...and Mikio was born from this hate. After his creation, Mikio wandered around for many years, killing every gray existence he met>> they frown, and Inoue-san asks <<but why he killed them? The gray existences didn't do anything to him, right?>> I snap my tongue really irritated <<for revenge. The man who created Mikio knew that my grandma went away with a demon, and he couldn't bear it. He realized that if Yohime ever had a child with my grandpa, that child would have been a gray existence, and for this reason he began to hate them>> the silence fall over the room.

Karasu Tengu massages his forehead with an annoyed face <<i see you've been able to get into trouble even here. It wasn't enough for you to attract the attention of a demon as dangerous as Kazama Chikage? Now there is also a babaneko who wants you dead. Ah, at this rate I will have a nervous breakdown>> I cross my arms angry, and tap my fingers on my arm <<you talk like I did it on purpose, but believe me when I tell you it's not like that at all! When Kaoru Nagumo saw my face, he called immediately Mikio because they are friends...and Mikio ran here to kill me. He found out that I was here under the protection of the Shinsengumi, so...>> I clench my fists frustrated and angry <<he chose to use a more slimy way to get to me>> Harada frowns really angry and upset <<he killed those women in Shimabara for this...sick bastard>> Nagakura nods, putting a hand on his friend's shoulder <<and that was a low blow, but at least now we know why we couldn't find him>> Kondo-san nods with a serious face <<yes, but why he killed those poor girls?>> Shiro sighs, trying to control his anger <<because they were gray existences, and also because the news of the murders would have reached you...and consequently also Riko. Me and Mana tried to do something, but my mother stopped us, because apparently that shit events were supposed to happen in any case>> I tight my lip into a thin line...not happy at all, but by now I know that there was nothing we could do...because we can't change the past. I'm just really sad for them...and I will never forgive Mikio.

The others frown upset, but no one said anything else.

Mana sighs and make her cat ears and tail disappear <<well, the trap worked and Riko went to Shimabara...and you should already know the rest>> Harada nods <<we don't know all the details, but Riko told us something>> I shrug <<yeah, but of course I didn't say everything>> and I cross my arms.

Hijikata frowns again <<then...you're basically saying that this bastard is still out there, and he could attack us at any time>> I bit the inside of my cheek <<actually...in our last battle I hurt him quite badly. I don't think he's dead, but I cut off his hand and I stabbed him in his stomach. We mustn't let our guard down, but I certainly weakened him a lot. Also...like I said before, he can change his appearance, but he can't regenerate his limbs. If you see someone with a missing hand...be careful>> Karasu Tengu nods relieved <<well, at least you did a really good job. Like this, if he attack us, it will not be difficult to expose him. Besides, everyone know that the babanekos are not particularly strong>> and then he looks at Hijikata <<if you are skillful with the sword as I have heard, then you could defeat him without too much effort. Just remember, don't underestimate him...he's still a demon, and he can kill you before you even know it>> Shiro growls <<he's right...demons like him do not give up easily, if he want you dead then he will stop at nothing to get what he wants>> he puts a hand on his mask with an angry gesture <<yokai born from desires are the most desperate, and consequently it is impossible to reason with them...what a pain>> and Karasu Tengu nods, agreeing with his words.

Kondo-san looks at them puzzled and curious <<yokai born from desires...what do you mean?>> but Mana quickly raises her hand <<wait! don't ask them, or they'll explain for hours. In short, demons can be born from a mother and a father as a normal living being. They will inheriting the powers and the characteristics of their parents...like Riko for example. However demons can also be born from human's fear. It's not easy, but there are several methods to create a demon from fear. Mikio was born from a very strong and corrupt desire, and consequently his reason for living is to fulfill that desire...which in this case is to kill Riko and the others gray existences>> and she points at me.

I roll my eyes really annoyed <<i look so much like Yohime that Mikio want me dead, but beyond that, he hates me so much because I'm also my grandpa's grandchild...but luckily he doesn't know that I have a brother, so for now he's focused on find and kill only me>> and I sigh looking down. Harada pats my head <<we won't let him hurt you or Rikuo, don't worry>> and Shiro nods <<same goes for us, you did nothing wrong...and that bastard is only a fool, who has no idea what awaits him if he dare to attack you again>> and Karasu Tengu nods.

Mana smiles at me <<he's right, the important thing is not to die, then slowly everything will be alright>> but Nagakura quickly asks with curiosity <<so how do you make a demon? And what kind of demons are you?>> I half smile <<well, what me and Shiro are is pretty obvious. We both have parents, so we were born like any human being...and Mana is also like us>> but Kondo-san looks curious at Mana <<so your parents are part of the Nura clan? they'll be worried about you>> I froze, and look at Shiro worried. He also looks at me with the same worry in his eyes, but Mana sighs and look at us with an emotionless face <<cut it out...i'm okay>> I sigh, and Shiro shakes his head upset <<it's a delicate matter, you don't have to answer if you don't want to>> and Kondo-san quickly adds with a worried voice <<I'm sorry, I was just curious...but you don't need to answer. If it's a secret I don't need to know>> I bit my lip <<it's not really a secret...but, well...>> Karasu Tengu interrupts me with a really serious face << many years ago, the Gotokuneko's clan was destroyed by the Nura clan. The Second ordered it...and Mana is the only survivor>> Kondo-san and the others widen their eyes shocked, but Mana ignored them and stand up. She yawns <<so tired...i think I'll go check Rikuo and then I'll go to bed>> and without say anything else she walks outside the room.

No one said anything for a long minute, but then the Chizuru from this time enters in the room with a plate full of cups of thè for everyone. She looks at us with a puzzle gaze <<did I miss something?>>