I slowly open my eyes, still feeling sleepy...but someone continues to shake me gently <<Riko...wake up>> and I sigh annoyed. Chizuru smiles at me <<sorry, I know you're tired, but it's already very late. You need to get up>> and she stops shaking me. I sit up and push away the blankets...looking outside the window. she's right, judging by the light it's really late.

Chizuru stands up <<yesterday you came home practically at dawn, you must have been really tired. I brought you lunch earlier, but I couldn't wake you up>> I smile amused by it, remembering that someone tried to wake me up earlier...but I ignored her and continued to sleep. I look at her <<sorry, but yeah...i was really tired. What time is it?>> she helps me to get up <<it's almost dinner time, but Inoue-san asked me to ask you if you'd like to bring dinner to Okita. After all, he needs to go on patrol in a little while...so I'm sure that he'll wakes up soon. Like this...you can eat together, and he surely won't forget to eat like some days ago because he was in a hurry>> and she points toward two full trays on the floor, near the door.

I nod glad <<why not?>> and I get dressed immediately. Chizuru chuckles <<I see you're really awake now. Oh right, also Nagakura and Harada asked me to ask you if you want to drink with them tonight>> I nod, and finish to wash my face in a bucket full of water in the corner of the room <<well, I have slept until now and I'm certainly not going to bed early>> but I look at her...wondering if she gets lonely when I'm out at night <<you know Chizuru, if you want you can come and have fun with us sometimes. You don't have to drink if you don't want to, but we can keep each other company and have fun. I'm sure that Nagakura and Harada will be glad to spend some time with you as well>> and I smile...imagining Chizuru having fun with us. She smiles but shakes her head <<thank you, but I need to finish some things, and also Hijikata will be working late tonight, so...I...>> and she blushes. I grin, knowing that she only wants to spend some time with Hijikata <<i understand, I suppose you will prepare him tea and organize his documents, right?>> and she nods, smiling pleased. I finish to tie my hair and turn serious <<how is Kondo-san?>> Chizuru also returns serious, and the smile on her face disappear <<he woke up, this means that now he's stable, so...we moved him to Osaka castle. Now Dr Matsumoto is there with him and is taking care of him>> and I sigh relieved...Dr Matsumoto is a great doctor, and Kondo-san is in very good hands.

Chizuru takes the two trays and gives them to me <<here you go>> I thank her, and after say goodbye I go outside.

I immediately go toward Okita's room, and when I arrive I knock gently. No one answer, so after a moment I enter inside slowly...seeing that Okita is still asleep in his futon. I smile amused, and close the door without making noises...and then I put on the ground the trays.

I move closer...seeing that he's on his side, with an arm under his head...because his pillow is at the end of the bed, next to his feet. I giggle quietly and kneel down...seeing also that his loose hair are covering half of his face...he's so cute, like a big baby.

I lean forward...to see him better. His face right now is so...I don't know how to describe it. I already saw him sleeping a lot of times, and every time I really like to see his sleeping face. I don't know why, but I could watch him for hours.

I mumble amused <<if only I still had my phone I could have taken a picture of him...>> but then an arm grabs my waist, and pull me in the futon. I yell surprised, and I close my eyes before my face crash into the futon...that thank god is soft. I hear a laugh, and the arm around my waist turns me over, making me lie in the futon <<well Riko, I'm surprised. So you're really that type of girl? Were you planning to attack me while I was sleeping? Or were you making naughty thoughts?>> and he chuckles again.

I widen my eyes and blush, feeling embarrassed and surprised <<what?! don't be an idiot! I was just...!>> but I stop speaking when I realize that Okita was watching me with an amused smirk...and we're in a strange position. he's above me...and his hair are falling around his face in a way that make my heart beats more quickly. His arm is no longer around my waist, because now his hands are placed on the futon...with my head between them. he's supporting himself with his arms. I also feel his knees touching my legs, and I figure out that he's on all fours above me.

I immediately feel my cheeks burn, and the rest of my body becomes stiffens. I even feel my ears turns red...but I ignored it and pretend that everything was normal <wh...what the hell are you doing? If you were awake you could have told me>> and I put my hands on his chest...trying to push him away. Okita smirks more and pinches my cheek...without moving away <<tell me Riko...what's a picture? Were you planning to attack me with it?>> and I realize that I'm unable to push him away...so I give up.

I push away his hand from my face and giggle <<attack you with it? No no. A picture is...how to put it? It's kind of like an instant portrait. With a picture you can capture everything you want and save it for later. Like this...you can look at it whenever you want and remember the moment. So I wasn't planning to attack you>> but he smirks more <<then...what did you want to do with that picture? don't tell me you wanted to capture my face and watch it later, do you like it that much?>> but I sigh, and press my index finger on the tip of his nose. He looks at me with surprise, but I answer <<of course I like it. Your sleeping face is really cute you know? So I wanted a picture. When you're awake you never make expressions like that, so I like it because it's like seeing another side of you>> and I smile happy <<you look so peaceful when you're asleep, and this is why I like to be your pillow so much. Thanks to that I can see those expressions on your face many times, but with a picture...I can see them all the time. This is why that it's a pity that I don't have my phone, and also I like that you...ah!>> but out of nowhere he presses his hand on my face, covering my mouth with his palm and my eyes with his fingers. I immediately closed my eyes in reflex and shut up, but I hear him moving and sigh exasperated <<you didn't come here to take pictures anyway, so why are you here?>> and he moves away his hand. I groan, and notice that now he's sitting beside me with a pouting face. What's his problem? Why now he's upset? he's the one who asked me what's a picture and why I wanted it. I don't get it.

I sigh and sit up, pointing toward the trays <<I came to bring you dinner and keep you company. I woke up a little while ago too, and since you have to go to work soon...I can stay with you until then if it's okay>> and I smile happy at him. He sighs amused <<do as you wish>> and he takes the trays. He gives me mine, and takes the one without green onions inside the rice. I bit my lips, trying not to laugh...and we start eating.

After a minute Okita turns serious, and asks <<how's Kondo-san? Have you seen him?>> I shake my head <<no, but Chizuru told me that he woke up. He was moved to Osaka castle, and Dr Matsumoto is looking after him. He's in good hands, and with time he will recover>> ad Okita nods, relieved. We didn't speak for a moment, but then he sighs <<this mean that Hijikata is in charge of the Shinsengumi at the moment, at least until Kondo-san returns>> I look at him curious <<you don't like it?>> but he shrugs.

I continue to eat, thinking about last night <<hey Okita>> he looks at me <<mh?>> I frown <<when you'll find those bastards who had hurt Kondo-san...can I come with you? I don't want to stop you or steal the pleasure to kill those sons of bitches, but...>> I sigh furious <<Kondo-san was always nice and kind with me...and I want that those bastards pay for what they did to him>> and I angry bit one of my onigiri. Okita raises an eyebrow <<so...are you asking for a first row seat?>> I nod <<yes, and I hope we find them at night...like this they will see me in my other form, and they will understand that they fuck up. They pissed off an ayakashi, and now I want to make them tremble with fear before their end. So yes...when you'll find them, take me with you>> and I stare at him.

He looks at me for a long moment, frowning and thinking about something <<you once said that...Kondo-san reminded you of Rihan. Is that why you're so angry? If it weren't for that...I bet you would have tried to stop me already>> but I shake my head <<no, you're wrong. it's true that...in the beginning Kondo-san reminded me of my dad, but now, after all these years...Kondo-san is Kondo-san, and no one else. He is the man who always treated me and Chizuru like guests and never as prisoners, and I can't forget that. he's also the same man who gave dango to everyone, even to Tadashi when he came to play with us. He also...comforted me when I thought you hated me because I'm a gray existence> and I cross my arms, looking away shyly <<also I...I don't want to see you suffer, you know? Kondo-san is like a sweet and kind uncle to me, and I would suffer if something happen to him...but you have known him longer than me, and I can't even imagine how much you care for him...and how much you'd suffer if you lose him>> I look at him <<this is why I want to come with you, and also...if any demons appear and try to interrupt...I'll take care of them. So please...>> and I wait for his answer. He stares at me for a few seconds, but then he says <<do as you like, just don't get in my way>> and he finished to eat. I nod, and also finish my dinner <<okay>> and I smile glad.

I look outside the window, seeing that it's almost sunset <<i should probably go and let you get ready. you'll be working until dawn today, right?>> he nods <<and with some luck I'll find someone to kill>> and he smirks. I roll my eyes and take the two empty trays <<yeah yeah, have fun. Then now I'll go, I bet Nagakura and Harada are already waiting for me>> but he looks at me with curiosity <<Sano and Shinpachi? Why?>> I shrug <<they asked me to drink with them tonight>> but he frowns <<since when do you like sakè so much? Or is it because you enjoy their company?>> I look at him puzzled, not understanding why he's angry now <<well...they're my friends, and I like to drink with my friends so...why not? They like to listen to my stories about yokai...especially Nagakura. He always wants to know about yuki onna and others female demons. And about sakè...it's not that I like it that much, but I always drank it with someone. At home I often drank it with grandpa, and when he wasn't around...there was always someone else to keep me company. Kejoro...Hihi...Shoei...even Zen. it's just that...drink alone it's sad. that's why>> he frowns more <<you want me to believe that you're okay to drink with anyone as long as you have company?>> I bit my lips <<it's wrong?>> and I look at him <<if you want...one of these days we can drink together. After all, I love your company, and I can also steal some sweets from the kitchen. How does that sound?>> he continues to frowns...but in the end nods. I smile <<perfect, it's a promise then! See you later>> and I go away.

...

The wind is cold, but pleasant...and the moon is high in the sky. I remain sit on the entrance of the magistrate's office in my night form...watching the sky with my arms crossed. At home I never seen so many stars...it's beautiful. When I return home...I'm sure I'll miss a view like this. I sigh relaxed...happy to be able to see a sky like this, but then I hear someone coming closer from outside the headquarters.

I look toward the noise, surprised to see Okita and two other rasetzu with him. I stand up and walk toward them...but the two rasetzu immediately run away, probably toward their rooms. I look at them going away and frown worried <<it's still a few hours before dawn, what happened?>> Okita comes closer <<three rasetzu from my unit lost their minds. I killed one, but those two regained control>> and he points toward where the rasetzu disappeared, inside the headquarters. I frown more <<I see, then you brought them back...but what about the rest of your unit? I already know you're not so stupid to leave them wandering around town alone, so...>> and I waited for his answer. He rolls his eyes <<I left them with Heisuke. He and his unit were patrolling near us, and tonight I still haven't found anyone else to kill>> and he sighs annoyed. I roll my eyes, understanding that he accompanied those two only because he was ready to kill them.

I grimace <<okay, so now what are you planning to...?!>> but then a loud noise interrupt me. We widen our eyes surprised, realizing immediately that it was the sound of a gunshot, and we look toward the exit, knowing that it came from outside. In the following moments there were other sounds of gunshots in a row...almost as if they were provoking us. Okita grounds his teeth furious, and I take a long breath...knowing that surely the shooter is also the bastard who hurt Kondo-san.

We look at each other for a second and we start running toward the exit...but someone runs after us. Chizuru calls our names worried <<Okita! Riko! No stop!>> but we ignored her and continue to run...leaving the headquarters behind us.

We continue to run toward the source of the noises, ignoring Chizuru behind us, who was yelling at us to stop, but then...I feel something strange. I stop, and Okita and Chizuru do the same with puzzled but serious faces. Okita looks at me for a moment, but then he turns toward Chizuru with an irritated face <<why did you follow us?! it's dangerous. Why didn't you stay at the magistrate?>> Chizuru jumps surprised and tries to answer, but I raise my hand stopping her <<this is not the time to fight>> and I look at Okita <<she's here now...so she has be careful>> and I look again at Chizuru <<understood? Stay close to Okita, and listen to him>> and I walk away...toward a different direction.

Chizuru calls me worried, and Okita asks <<where are you going?>> but I don't stop and keep walking <<I'll catch up with you later>> and I run away...jumping on the rooftops. Like this they won't be able to run after me. I don't know what I'll find further ahead, but it can be dangerous...and I don't want to put Chizuru in danger and slow down Okita. He needs to kill the people who hurt Kondo-san, and when the others will find out that we ran outside they'll come looking for us...so we don't have much time.

I continue to run, following that strange feeling... jumping from rooftop to rooftop, but then fifteen shadows appear out of nowhere and attack me. I immediately jump down from the roof, dodging their sharp blades...but one manages to cut a little my cheek. I grimace...feeling a slight pain thanks to the cut, and I look up toward the rooftop. Fifteen pairs of ravenous red eyes are looking at me, and at my blood with hunger...rasetzu. I take out my sword, knowing that it won't be an easy battle...but i'm ready.

They are not the source of what I was feeling a moment ago...so this mean that there is also another danger besides them. It would be easy to use ougi meikyou shisui sakura and kill them all, but...if I do that, I would get too tired, because that technique is really strong. If the rasetzu were the only enemies tonight...I would have done it without problem, but I need to save my energy for the real fight. After all, they aren't from the Shinsengumi...and this means that someone else created them and brought them here to fight. Maybe Kaoru or Kodo. But I will think about that later...now I need to fight, win and go back to Okita and Chizuru's side!

I take a big breath and look at the rasetzu <<bring it on!>> and I run toward them.

Chizuru pov

I continue to look worried at Riko, who was running away. In a moment her figure disappeared, so I try to run after her, but Okita grabs my arm...stopping me <<where do you think you're going?>> I look at him puzzled <<with Riko...of course. We can't let her go alone>> and I try to move away and free my arm, but he tightens his grip. I frown not understanding why he's stopping me <<Okita?>> but Okita doesn't answer...he just continues to look where Riko disappeared. After a moment he mumbles <<tsk, that stupid>> and he lets go of my arm.

He frowns and starts running again toward the gunshots noises. I look at him shocked and follow him asking <<wa...wait a moment Okita! And Riko?! Do you really want to leave her behind? it's too dangerous! She said to me that at night there are many...!>> but Okita stops and interrupts me <<demons. I know>> and he frowns <<so what? If you follow her...what do you hope to accomplish? Kid...I understand that you don't get it, but if you think about it for a moment you'll understand that I don't have time to waste listening to your complaints>> and his cold eyes make me freeze. He frowns more <<Riko is crazy, we all know that...but she's also a woman who is far too stubborn to die. Only I can kill her, and she knows that very well...so there's nothing else to say. If you can't keep up with me then go and hide somewhere. I don't care...just stay out of my way>> and he runs away again. I widen my eyes surprised, and follow him...understanding what he was trying to say. He won't follow Riko because...he trust her. He knows she's strong, and if we finish what he wants to do then...we can go and help Riko, right?

I continue to follow Okita with difficult, because he was running very fast. But out of nowhere we see a figure runs and disappear in an alleyway. Okita yells <<hey, you there!>> and he immediately runs after that person...disappearing in the same alleyway. I stop surprised for a second, but then I rushed to follow him. I run into the alleyway, finding immediately Okita in front of me.

I stop, almost colliding against him...but then I saw who is in front of him and turn pale. Okita looks at Kaoru with hatred <<should I say long time no see? or kill you immediately for the last time? But before that, tell me...was it you who shot Kondo-san?>> and he glares at Kaoru.

I gasp surprised <<Kaoru? What are you doing here?!>> but Kaoru smiles, mocking me <<so kind sis. Last time me and Mikio almost killed you and your friends...and it's always thanks to us that Okita now is a rasetzu, do you remember that? And yet here you go calling me only Kaoru...without even a single insult. You don't even look at me with hatred...you're always so naive and kind, I can't stand it>> and he looks at me with furious eyes.

I bit my lips...remembering what Kaoru did, but also remembering that he's still my brother. I can't forgive him for what he did, but...I can't hate him. Okita didn't even blink and continues to looks at him with hate <<answer my question, or do I need to make you talk? With my sword of course. You already know I'm capable of it, and even your friend learned that...after he hurt Riko>> and he narrowed his eyes in a threatening way.

Something passed inside Kaoru's eyes, but in the end he just sighs <<I admit that Mikio was too impulsive. His obsession for Riko killed him, just like the human who was obsessed with Yohime. He was an idiot, but...it wasn't supposed to end like that>> Okita looks at him with glacial eyes <<he brought that on himself, and now it's your turn...but first...answer my question>> but Kaoru smirks, mocking him.

I ground my teeth <<why are you here Kaoru?! What do you want this time? If it's my death you want then...you don't have to hurt Riko or Okita!>> and I take a step forward. Kaoru glares at me <<I don't have to hurt Riko and Okita? You really don't understand>> and he sighs annoyed <<you are so stupid. I want to hurt Riko and Okita because of you! You have forgotten me! And you also replaced me with Riko!>> I bit my lips, shaking my head <<no it's not true! Please Kaoru!>> and I put a hand on my chest...feeling hurt and sad. Kaoru snaps his tongue <<not true? don't lie! Riko is not just a friend to you. You think of her as a big sister, don't you? She protect you and help you...and listen to you. it's nauseating to see you both living happily with humans as if there's nothing wrong>> and he looks at me with disgust <<the humans destroyed our home and our lives...but you forgot everything. you're unbearable!>> and he frowns really angry.

I tremble, without knowing why...it's true that I forgot my past, but...what can I do about it?

Okita tried to speak, but I answer before him <<it's true that I don't remember anything, but even if I did...our house wouldn't come back! That's the past, and I'm sorry I don't remember anything, but Riko...she taught me to value the present and not be afraid of the future! With her...I know that everything will be okay! >> and both Okita and Kaoru look at me with surprise.

Kaoru growls furious <<that's the past? don't speak as if it doesn't concern you! Is Riko your hope? that's what are you saying? Then I'll take her away from you! I'll kill her right in front of you even for Mikio! And I'll also kill Okita too! Because he killed the only friend I had in the world! You three will pay for his death! And then Chizuru...when you will be completely alone, you will understand that only I can take care of you. You need to suffer more little sister, and in the end you can choose...join me and let's be a family again or die by my hand>> and he frowns serious.

I tried to answer, but Okita stops me stepping forward <<do we have to listen to this crap much longer? Answer me, or I'll cut you down immediately. Was it you who shot Kondo-san?>> and he pulls out his katana...ready to fight.

Kaoru looks at him and sighs <<you're accusing me without evidence? Why are you in such a hurry? Or maybe...>> he smirks <<is it because Riko isn't here? Let me guess, she's in trouble again?>> and a shiver runs down my spine. Okita's eyes narrow more for an instant...but Kaoru saw that and sighs <<of course. it's a pity, I wanted to try and kill her myself. That's why I didn't tell anyone who she really is...or every demon would try to hunt her down and kill her or capture her. I admit it would be fun to watch, but like this they would take away the pleasure of kill her myself, so...>> but Okita interrupts him with glacial eyes <<you done? I already told you...answer me or shut up and die>> and he frowns more angry.

Kaoru smirks <<oh right, you asked me a question. You want to know if I'm the one who shot at Kondo Isami, right? Well, the answer is no. but wait, I think I do remember...I ran into some men from the Guardians of the Imperial Tomb>> I frown puzzled <<Guardians of the Imperial Tomb?>> and Kaoru nods << they wanted to avenge Itou. You remember him? The man you deceived and murdered? Unfortunately, they didn't have the courage to attack the Shinsengumi or the magistrate's office. So I may have suggested they wait on a particular road, on a particular day>> and he smirks in a cruel way.

I gasp <<then...you!>> but Kaoru continues to smile <<oh, don't misunderstand. I didn't mean for him to be hurt. I just never thought the chief of the Shinsengumi would be such an idiot! Only three guards? Why, he was practically asking to be shot!>> but Okita immediately snarled furious <<damn you bastard!>> and I see his body tense to attack. His hair turns white and his eyes red, but Kaoru snaps his fingers with another cruel grin on his face. A group of rasetzu appeared from the shadows, and in an instant they surround us.

Me and Okita stop for a moment, stunned by surprise, and Kaoru took the opportunity to put some distance between us. Okita sighs really annoyed, and looks at Kaoru with a cynical grin on his face <<that's a pretty obvious trap>> and also Kaoru smirks copying him <<oh, somebody's just sour grapes. Your lives are in a precarious state, so...ah?>> but then he stops. I also feel something strange...and terrifying.

it's almost like the air is rarefied, and the shadows are more dark. I start to tremble, and claps my hands on my chest...having a hard time breathing because of the heavy air. Okita looks at me stunned <<oi, what's wrong?!>> but I didn't know how to answer <<I...I don't know. There is something wrong around us...but I don't know what's that. The air...it's hard to breathe, and...I feel afraid, no...terrifying by something. I don't know how to explain, but...it's strange. I hate this sensation but...it's so familiar. can't you feel it too?>> but Okita frowns more and slowly shake his head. Kaoru also starts sweating cold and looks towards the west <<this fear...this is bad. Who knew such a powerful demon was hiding in this city?>> and I follow his gaze. Fear? This is the fear of a demon?!

Riko pov

The rasetzu falls dead on the ground. I groan tired and take my katana back from the body, seeing that it's covered with blood. I turn around, looking the last two rasetzu still alive...who were looking like crazy at the blood on me.

I feel my left arm throb with pain...thanks to a deep cut above the elbow. it's not a serious wound, but it's still bleeding and it's hurt like hell. I guess I'll have to stitch it up later...damn, I hate when I need to do that, but until then I can manage.

I spit blood on the ground, feeling also pain on my cheek where one of the rasetzu hit me with a lucky punch. After all...these rasetzu are not normal, and this fight is really difficult. Earlier I found out that I can't kill them just by cutting off their heads, but I have to stab them in the heart. This is why they were able to injure my arm and punch me...and I'm also scratched everywhere thanks to that. Fuck.

The two rasetzu look at the blood that is dripping down my arm, and they laugh again like crazy. I take a long and silent breath...knowing that in a few second they would attack me again, but then...a heavy and powerful fear fills the air. I immediately raise my sword...feeling threatened by this strong power, but the rasetzu...they look around smiling happy.

I look at them in shock, not understanding how is possible that they now are ignoring the blood that is dripping from my wound, but then...a dark figure appears behind them.

I widen my eyes stunned, but the woman ignored me and walk toward the rasetzu. They immediately run in front of her, and kneel on the ground with happy faces. I frown, looking at that creepy scene, realizing that this person is for sure the one who created these rasetzu.

She smiles with love, and caresses one of them on the head <<good job my dears, but that's enough for now>> and she looks at me <<good evening Riko-chan>> and she bows her head a little, greeting me.

I narrow my eyes, without lowering my guard <<Ava...so in the end you're a yokai. What are you doing here?>> and I clearly feel the powerful fear coming from her. She sighs, but continues to caress the rasetzu <<oh, I suppose you're still offended by the way I behaved the other day. I apologize, but you see...it was just a misunderstanding. I knew from the beginning that you are a gray existence, just like me...but I underestimate you>> and she smiles <<you're really powerful, after all you were able to kill my children all by yourself...without getting hurt too badly. Amazing...it's not easy to impress me, you know?>> and she rotates the open umbrella placed on her shoulder.

I grimace, and look at her with suspicion <<so you've been watching me? Or maybe... your target was Chizuru?>> she half smiles, and her sharp nails begins to play with the rasetzu's ear, scratching it. The rasetzu stayed still, and continues to looks at her happy. I watch the scene and frown, bothered by it...why they are so obedient and fascinated by her? I don't understand. she's hurting him but...it's almost as if he doesn't notice it.

Ava looks at me again and smiles happy <<you're also really sharp...incredible. I never met another gray existence like you, I'm so happy. You and I are more alike than I thought>> and she chuckles <<I'm really old, but I never met someone at my level, this is why I'm very happy my dear. This country is a rat hole, with small ayakashi who dreams to be strong and powerful...but among them now I found you, a unique being that had caught my attention>> and her voice becomes deeper.

I glare at her and snap my tongue <<you and I are alike? don't make me laugh, if you really think that...then you're just a fool. I'm not someone who need to use something so awful like the Ochimizu, and furthermore...i'm a Nura. You're not japanese, so maybe you don't know this surname, but it's only means that you're not at my level. It doesn't matter if you are strong or have a strong fear...we Nura are proud yokai who live with humans, and our honor tell us to protect the weakest. If a human freely choose to drink the Ochimizu then...I can't do anything about it, but I surely won't offer it to them! And I don't like tormenting people like you!>> and I look at the rasetzu at her feet. She's still scratching his ear, cutting his skin over and over again...preventing it from regenerate, and now her fingers are covered with his blood.

She follows my gaze, and widen her eyes surprised. She takes back her hand, and looks at her fingers covered with blood <<oh, did it bothered you? What a shame...I really love this color. I can't help but want to admire it...to taste it...>> and she licks her fingers with a sinister smirk on her face.

I grimace disgusted, but she moans pleased <<it's in my nature after all, just as it is yours to fight with bravely every battle. It doesn't matter if you end up injured or dead...you fight with determination because you love it. You love the adrenaline...the power and the victory that's...!>> but I interrupt her, already tired by her words <<I fight only to protect the people I love, not for personal satisfaction>> but she sighs amused <<really? don't lie. I know the true...because you are like me. You actually love to fight, don't you? You love to draw blood and see your opponent on the ground...begging for mercy. I can see it in your eyes...they are not the eyes of a normal person. You are an instrument of death my child...an instrument full of hate. You darkest desires...I see them in the shadows of your soul...your black soul, so similar to mine>> and she chuckles.

I tight my lips into a thin line, feeling angry and offended <<you don't know me, and I'm not your child. Now...i'm running out of patience with you, so tell me why you're here. You're interested in me, I get it, but the real question is...what do you want?>> and I raise my katana, pointing it at her <<answer me, or you will taste my sword>> and I glare at her with a serious expression.

She raises an eyebrow <<oh? Okay. After all...I guess you can't fully understand me if I don't explain>> and she also becomes serious <<what I want is very simple. I have a very important goal to accomplish...and it's something I have wanted to do for many centuries. Years ago I met a person, a man, who helped me through a difficult time. That person is an ayakashi, and thanks to him I understood what I need to accomplish my goal>> and she holds out her hand to me <<you want to know what I want, well...I want you. Be my ally and lend me your strength>> and she smiles <<in the beginning I only wanted Chizuru as my ally, because she's a pureblood oni of course. If she train herself she can become really strong...but after seeing you fight, Riko...now I also want you. Together...the three of us will be able to rewrite this corrupt world, ruled only by those pompous pure bloods, and take our rightful place. Beings like you and me only deserve to rule the darkness of this world...because we are pure darkness! And even Chizuru deep down can be like us. Together we will be unstoppable! No one will be able to stop us! And we will achieve everything we want!>> and she takes a few steps towards me, pushing away the two rasetzu.

I puff amused and start laughing with cynicism <<be your ally? And why should I become one? I have no interest in ruling this world, I'm just a vice-commander after all. I don't want to rule and forcibly subjugating other people, so what you are saying it's really dumb>> and I shake my head <<I grew up surrounded by pureblood yokai, and they were good with me...so I also don't have the same hatred for them as you do. I won't say that they all were good people, but...most of them are my family and I love them. I don't know your story, but I don't want to rule over darkness, I'm just happy to use it...and after what you said just now, I'm also sure that I won't ever help you reach your goal. I love both demons and humans, and I will protect the balance between their worlds...so this means you are my enemy>> and I glare at her chuckling. She really doesn't know me.

For a moment Ava seems upset, but then she looks at me with a strange expression <<tell me Riko, there is something else in your soul...something really interesting. Do you know what it is? Your eyes are full of it...all the time. You hide it well, but I've lived too long and I can see it without difficult>> and she smirks <<you have a dark side...really deep. Revenge...it's an obscure emotion, isn't it? And it devours you every day. I'm really curious about it...if you love both demons and humans then, why are you feeling like this? I believe you are lying to me my dear, or...even to yourself. You are the fool between us girl, but don't worry...i'm here, and I want to help you see the truth. You are still really young, but I can teach you and open your eyes>> and she smiles with kindness.

I widen my eyes, surprised and bothered by the fact she was able to read me like this. My revenge...only the Shinsengumi, the oni and the others who came here from the future know about it. I never talk about it with anyone else...not even Zen, so...how did she know? Is she really seeing it in my eyes?

Ava smirks more <<you know I'm right, but now I'm curious my dear...why do you feel like this? Did you lose someone important? I bet it's this. After all, you already said you fight only to protect the people you love. Who did you lose? A sister? A parent?>> but then she puts her hand in front of her mouth <<oh, it was an indelicate question, I'm sorry. You don't have to answer right now, don't worry. We will have time to know each other when you will come away with me, and I suppose that now you still are not really comfortable to answer. However, let me tell you something about myself...like this you'll understand that you can trust me. I know really well what you are feeling, but my revenge...I have already accomplished it>> and she puts a hand on her chest <<i know what does it means to lose someone dear to you...the pain, the despair...it's something impossible to explain, but you will never be able to forget those feelings. My...my entire race has been wiped out by humans, leaving me completely alone>> and she frowns sad <<me...a half-demon, hated by the entire world and abandoned to my fate. I was so alone...so...so alone. Do you have any idea what that feels like? No, of course not. You have a family and many friends, but...in the end people like us are doomed to be alone. Purebloods after all hate when someone inferior to them have more power than them. I saw many demons kill many gray existences for that, you know? And humans...they are just disgusting. They die far too easily...like my stupid father. Humans are so arrogant...they always speak about love and kindness, but in the end they are the real monsters! They don't know mercy...and if they don't like something they just destroy it. Purebloods and humans are the dirty of this world, and only we can stop them!>> and she end screaming with rage...but also with sorrow, and for a single moment I pitied her.

I though about her words, trying to imagine what she's feelings. Her family was killed, and she's completely alone. No wonder she's gone crazy. I lost my father, but I still have Rikuo, mum and the rest of my family...and imagining them gone it's almost unbearable. I'm not afraid to fight against her, but I wonder...if I was in her place, would I have become like her? no...this is a useless question. It doesn't matter, because I will never let my family die. I will protect them and everyone else I hold dear, and one day...I will kill Hagoromo Gitsune.

I look at her with narrow eyes <<I see, but it doesn't matter. Humans and demons are not perfect, but we have their blood inside our veins and I'm proud of it>> and I add angry <<I don't care if you hate them, but there is something you didn't tell me. Why humans decided to kill your family?>> and she turns pale. I frown <<I think humans are not the real monsters in that situation, or I'm wrong? What did your family do? If the humans were so angry I bet that your family had hurt them a lot>> and she didn't answer, she just bits her lips angry.

Humans can be dangerous, but they don't go after an entire race of demons just because they feel like it. Of course, I haven't forgotten that the Yukimura clan was slaughtered a few years ago for something stupid. But... before that massacre, the humans tried to ask for the help of the oni, and after the destruction of the Chizuru clan they didn't kill the others white oni. This only means that Ava's family did something so terrible to force the humans to rise up and kill them all without mercy.

Ava growls <<shut up! Humans were only food! They were supposed to live under us and nothing more! We were stronger, but those bastards decided to rebel against us! And in the end they killed also the children! We didn't do anything wrong!>> and she trembles with rage. I frown disgusted <<you almost speak like Gagoze and Kiku, and you are pathetic exactly like them. I don't care why your family ate humans, and I'm sorry for the children but I'm happy that they were stopped. And now...I'll stop you, because you are a threat for everyone>> and I tense...ready to attack.

Ava sighs, shaking her head <<i see that your mind is full with poison. it's a pity, but I'll do whatever it takes to make you understand. You said you don't care why my family ate humans, right? Well, you should, because thanks to that we have a really strong fear. I'm not a simple monster after all>> and she moves away her umbrella. The moonlight hits her, and her appearance changes immediately. Under my shocked eyes her hair becomes silver, shining under the moon...and her eyes turns red, like two rubies. From her mouth comes out two long and thin teeth, and her skin becomes more pale.

I stop stunned, but she smiles, showing her long canines <<can you see now? I'm not just a regular demon, I'm...>> but I interrupt her and finish her sentence whispering <<a vampire>> and I lower my katana still in shock. It can't be...they were supposed to be dead, all of them. Not only humans...but even others demons hunted and killed them centuries ago, because they were like beasts. There's no way that even one of them survived!

She closes her umbrella and widens her eyes surprised <<do you know us? Well, I'm surprised, after all we are not well know in this country>> and she smiles pleased <<but if we want to be precise...I'm not really a vampire. You see, my mother was a full vampire, but like I said before...my father was a stupid human, so I'm a dhampir>> and she looks away...almost sad.

I tight my lips into a thin line, raising again my katana. The rasetzu behind her growls menacingly, ready to protect Ava, but she ignored them and speaks again with me <<since you are so sharp, now that you know what I am...can you guess what is my goal?>> but I don't answer. She sighs <<okay, then I will tell you one more thing. Did you know that female vampires do not have venom in their fangs? We are unable to create other vampires. Well, of course if I had a child I would be able to create someone else with vampire's blood, but even if I had a boy he wouldn't be a pureblood, and his poison would not be enough even to transform a newborn. However...I found another way to create other vampires, although this method still has some flaws>> and she looks at her rasetzu.

I frown...realizing what she was trying to say <<you want...to rebuilt your race with the Ochimizu. you're really crazy after all. However...this means that you are working with someone who can make that damn potion. Maybe Kodo Yukimura, since Kaoru was already working with Mikio, and I never saw you with them>> but she just smiles, without answer.

A gust of wind blows between us, carrying around the smell of blood in the air, and she sniff the air closing her eyes for a moment <<this is something I will tell you later, it wouldn't be fun if I tell you everything tonight after all. Now Riko...don't be stupid, and think about my offer please. You are a child really intelligent, and you are powerful enough to be the lady of the night of this nation. You can rule everything, and I can help you, since I'm practically the last lady of the night of my lineage from Europe. We can do great things together, and Chizuru can be like our little sister. it's not so bad, isn't it? I just want back what belongs to me, and a family to share all my heritage. Please help me...we three can create our pandemonium and be a family. We can be happy, and no one will ever hurt us again>> and she walks closer...stopping in front of the tip of my sword.

I didn't put down my katana <<be a family with you and Chizuru? and subjugate the rest of the world? I refuse. Chizuru is already my family, and I won't help you!>> and I try to hit her, but she gasps surprised and dodges it.

She jumps back, returning beside her rasetzu, who were screaming and growling at me angry. Ava raises a hand, silencing them, but frowns with a really serious face <<you're making a big mistake. You and I are the same! Only I can understand you!>> but I shake my head <<you and I are not the same. it's true that I want to kill that woman and revenge my father...but there is something really important that you don't understand about me. Something so important that make us completely different>> and she widens her eyes, surprised and curious.

I look at her in the eyes <<unlike you...I don't live clinging to the memory of what I've lost, because I do the exact opposite. My strength comes from the fact that I count the important things I still have, instead of counting everything I've lost! I fight every day...without thinking about what can happened to me because I have something to protect! I'm not interested in your proposal, because you are asking me to destroy everything I hold dear! You get it now? Not me or Chizuru will ever help you, because we love this world and the people in it! It doesn't matter if they are demons, exorcist or humans...we are ready to fight and protect everyone important to us!>> and I sighs exasperated <<so now come and fight with me or run away and get out of my sight!>> and I prepare myself to fight.

Ava stops with a stunned expression on her face...but then she starts to tremble and grits her teeth with anger <<I see that you still need time to think about my offer. If you want, even that human can come with us, you know? I saw you two together... you and that captain>> and she smirks with maliciously <<I've been spying on Chizuru for weeks, and as a result I've seen everything that happened at the Shinsengumi headquarters>> and I feel a shiver run down my spine. I never noticed her!

Ava smirks <<so this means I know your weaknesses, and I'm ready to use them. I don't have a problem with hurting you, him or even Chizuru, so think really careful now. Will you join me? Or I need to hurt your friends to convince you?>> I growls furious <<I won't let you!>> but she shakes her head <<you can try, but there is something else you don't know. Right now your friends are in danger. I have another pawn tonight...someone who doesn't know I'm behind his actions. Kaoru is really a poor child, but even he can't imagine that I was the one who suggested to those humans to look for him and ask his help>> I frown, not understanding <<are you saying that Kaoru is with Okita and Chizuru now? So? I'm sure that Okita is able to kill him without problem. I don't care if you are using Kaoru like a puppet, Okita is strong, and he will win. I'm sure of that!>> but Ava doesn't even blink <<well, I see that you really trust that man, but he's still practically a human so he's at the mercy of his emotions, like each one of them>> and she sighs annoyed.

I narrow my eyes, not understanding what she was trying to say <<Okita is an amazing warrior, and his feeling are his strength. Don't underestimate him...or you will regret it, exactly like Kaoru and Mikio did last time. Okita doesn't need me, because he will defeat Kaoru, and you...will lose against me, here and now!>> and I take a step forward, tightening my grip on my katana...ready to kill her. The two rasetzu jumps in front of her, protecting her with their bodies, but Ava ignored them <<it was Kaoru the one who helped preparing the ambush where Kondo Isami was shot>> and I stop shocked. I scream angry and upset <<what?! so...this is what you were trying to say?! You used Kaoru's anger and suggested to a group of humans to ask for his help?!>> and Ava smirks, answering my question like this.

Now I get it...this bitch...i'm going to kill her!

Ava chuckles <<oh, your face...yes, that hate...continue like this my dear. Only with that hate you can become stronger. Like I said already...you are like me, but since you won't listen, I'm sure that a little push will clear your mind. After all, Chizuru care about the Shinsengumi, so I just...attacked its chief, but I would never have thought that also you are so fond of him. After our meeting at Osaka's castle I also watched you really closer, and I understood that the Shinsengumi is not only Chizuru's weakness, but also yours>> and she caress again one of the rasetzu.

So...she organized everything. She aimed to hurt Chizuru and take her away from me and the others. This is why she used Kaoru, but...her plan was much more effective than expected. She hurt Kondo-san indirectly, but...that didn't just affect Chizuru. It affected also me and Okita...and she knows that really well. I just hope that right now Okita is not blinded by rage like the other night. I'm absolutely sure he won't hurt Chizuru even like this, but Kaoru is a clever bastard...and this only means that Okita has a disadvantage. On top of that...I can't know if Ava did something else. Maybe...Okita and Chizuru are really in danger. What can I do? If I run to them...I'll do Ava's game, and I already know that it's a trap, but...I can't just stay here and wait.

Ava nods <<now you understand, you are free to choose. You can stay here and fight with me, or...run to your friends and see with your eyes if they are okay. But...we already know what you'll choose, right? Run...fall into my trap and show me a splendid show full of blood and death>> and she laughs.

I grit my teeth...knowing already what I need to do. Ava will surely follow me, but I can't stay here without knowing if Chizuru and Okita are safe. I will bring her to them, but then...I will be there to protect them, so...I won't fail!

I turn around, and without saying anything else I start to run...hearing behind me Ava yelling <<I will give you a head start of a few minutes, use it well!>> but I didn't turn around and continue to run.