The sun is high in the sky, and the birds continue to chirp annoyingly, so I take a rock and throw it at them...making them fly away. The bruises on my body heals quickly...too quickly, like always, leaving behind only the blood on my skin and my torn clothes. Without looking back I begin to run toward the forest, ignoring the big house behind me and the angry voices who were screaming and calling my name.

I continue to run, and in the end I arrive in a small grass field hidden behind many trees. There is a small pond in the center and a tiny hut made of wood near it. I walk toward the hut, knowing that no one will disturb me here, because only I know this place...this is my secret hideout and those bastards abusers don't know about it. I may not be a woman like they want, but they can't enter inside these grass fields surrounded with my fear...because my hate for them is too strong.

It starts to rain so I quickly enter the hut, closing the door behind me, but then I freeze because I see a boy sleeping on my bed. he's sleeping deeply, but I can clearly see his cat ears and the bruises on his body...so similar to mine.

I sigh exasperated and move closer, noticing a small folded yellowed sheet of paper in his hand...so I lean closer and grab it with curiosity. I open the sheet of paper, seeing that there is a beautiful woman's drawing on it. This portrait is obviously really old, but it's still well kept. Then the boy wakes up hissing like a cat, and jumps, taking back his drawing from my hands scratching my cheek.

I stumble back growling annoyed, but when the cut heals himself under his eyes he stops to hiss, and looks at me surprised <<so you're a yokai too>> I glare at him <<you come in my hideout and you hurt me, what's wrong with you? And what is the big deal with that drawing? don't tell me that she's something like your mother...pathetic>> he frowns angry <<i'm not a stupid gray existence! This stupid woman was only a weak human>> I shrug and take a small box hidden under the bed, throwing it at him. He takes and sniff it curious <<what is it?>> I roll my eyes <<an ointment for bruises, you don't look like an oni...if you were one, you wouldn't need it as much. How did you get in here?>> he looks at me raising an eyebrow <<from the door>> I groan <<i mean how did you pass my fear? I impregnated this place with my feeling, making it a private refuge>> he frowns looking at the blood still on my clothes <<emotions like that can't stop me...you and me are similar>> I cross my arms looking at him skeptical <<similar? Oh please...>> he interrupts me <<i can see it in your eyes...a deep resentment. Maybe for the people who did this to you. You could get revenge, you know?>> and he grins. I feel a strong aversion for this opinionated guy, who does he think he is?! He doesn't know anything and he can't tell me what to do! However...i can't lie to him, I wonder why.

I pass a hand in my hair annoyed <<revenge mh? It doesn't sound so bad, but I already tried that...everyday. Those bastards are way too many and I'm only one>> but the guy stands up, showing development muscles under the violet bruises and the torn clothes <<but you still try every day right? You want your revenge>> I nod grumpy <<of course, and they will beat me up more because of that...but well, it doesn't change anything, they'll do it anyway because I'm not a female demon>> I shake my head, changing the subject <<you talk big but you're no better than me, look at yourself>> he shrugs <<what do you think? we're demons...people hate us>> and he puts a hand on his hip <<at least you're still a kid, but you are not different...i'm like this because i'm alone too>> I look at him curious <<so you're an old yokai? Why are you whining like that if you're an adult?>> he changes the subject <<you said that you want to get your revenge, but you can't...i can understand very well your anger and your pain>> and he releases his fear. I tremble feeling a burning hate, a sad melancholy and bitterness...we're really similar.

I frown <<so? Do you want to sit here feeling sorry for ourselves?>> but he shows me his claws <<you said that you can't obtain your revenge because you're alone, right? But now we're two. Tell me boy, what's your name?>> I grin intrigued <<Kaoru, and yours?>> the guy smiles, and his appearance changes...transforming him in a little girl <<Mikio. With this appearance they will lower their guard, and we can attack them by surprise>> I widen my eyes <<you're a babaneko>> he nods <<then, you're with me?>> I chuckles <<with this look they will think that you're a female oni. The Nagumo family will let you enter in the house immediately>> he nods and we go out, beginning to walk toward the Nagumo's house. Mikio chuckles <<you can pretend that you found me in the forest...and they will welcome us inside>>

...

The walls and the floor are covered with blood, while its sour and metallic scent permeates everything. I watch almost nauseated Mikio, who is standing above a servant. Mikio with a quick movement, shoves his fingers into his eyes and rip them out. The man screams in agony and passes out from the pain, but Mikio ignores him and eats his eyes...then he points his claws to his chest and rips it open, snatching his heart and eating it right there.

Mikio then left alone the body and look at me <<you didn't tell me that there was a gray existence here, what a lovely surprise>> and he puts a hand on his chest...where he keeps hidden the portrait <<in fact, I haven't seen one in a while>> I walk toward him, kicking the corpse of the old head of the family...a old bastard who always liked kids too much, he died too quickly.

I point toward the gray existence's corpse <<his name was Nobu, he was only a servant. The family was so desperate that one of their sons breeds with a human, to obtain a female half oni...so he was also beaten up because he was not a woman, but he was a bully and a bastard. I don't care that you killed him>> Mikio nods <<you surprised me, all those who watch my meals run away screaming or they faint on the spot. We demons are not delicate or frail creatures, but you're really something despite being a kid>> I put away my sword <<i'm not deny that I'm surprised, the babanekos normally doesn't eat corpse's parts...but you did, I wonder why>> he turns serious <<I'm different from the others. Let me ask you a question...what does it takes to fall in love?>> I look at him puzzled <<eh? What kind of question is this?>> he chuckles <<sorry, I forgot that you're still a kid. I doubt you ever loved someone so badly...in such a deleterious way>> I shake my head, remembering for a moment the only time when I was happy...years ago <<i don't know if this will answer your question but...there's someone I care about. I'm talking about the only survivor of the Yukimura clan, besides me>> Mikio crosses his arms <<so this person is your relative mh? Well, I wasn't speaking about that kind of love, but about the one that there can be between a man and a woman. it's something powerful and passionate...but it's also cruel and painful. It's a matter of seconds, maybe you're walking and then your eyes stop to watch a girl who is nearby. Your eyes and her eyes look at each other and it's done...that woman has your heart in her hands, and she can do whatever she wants with it>> I frown without understanding what he want to say <<so...something like that happened to you, and now you eat the eyes and the hearts of the gray existences?>> he nods <<it happened to my origin, you must know how we babanekos can be born, because you recognized me>> I nod curious <<from humans' envy>> he grins <<normally yes...but not me. Let me tell you a short story...>> he begins to walk around the room, hitting Nobu's body every time he walks closer to it <<a hundred years ago, there was a painter...a poor pathetic human, who lived a miserable life. One day he left Edo, and he went to Kyoto in search of fortune. He lived there with a friend, who was also his workmate...but everything changed when his friend found a painting>> he laughs out loud and continue to speak <<the painter was a coward, so his friend went alone inside an abandoned mansion outside the city, to search for precious objects. In there, a long time ago, lived a beautiful woman, with miraculous healing power...and this power attracted a lot of attention. The girl was kidnapped and no one saw never her again...for a fact, everyone believed that she was kidnapped by a demon. Nobody knew what really happened in the end, but the painter's friend found the painting and decided to kept it for himself...maybe because he realized that the woman of the painting was the girl of the legend>> he snarls amused and annoyed <<the painter was enraptured by the beauty of the woman, and he convinced himself that she was a goddess. The days passed quickly but he kept thinking about that woman's face, and before he knew it he began to desire her>> he spits on the ground upset <<he of course knew that she was long dead, and he became like an empty shell. He let himself be corrupted by his desire and one day...he killed his friend and he stole the portrait. He ripped his eyes out, so that he could no longer look at her...and he ran away. In the end he began to also hate that woman, and he killed himself. In his last moment, he thought of all the lucky men who could meet such beautiful and powerful women, like goddesses and female demons...and he cursed their children with mixed bloods. I was born in that moment...to take revenge against that woman who destroyed his life and the gray existences>> he laughs with an acid voice <<but I can't kill a woman already dead...so I'm doomed to search for her endlessly, without peace. The only thing that helps my soul is killing the gray existences, destroying their chances to love>> he stops and looks at me <<so kid? Can you say you felt this kind of love? I think not>> I shrug <<the painter was really an idiot>> Mikio laughs loud <<obviously. This is my hate...because I can't kill that woman with my hands. The only thing I can do is survive and kill the results of the unions between humans and supernatural beings. You heard my story...so now why don't you tell me yours?>>

...

I shake my head...why am I thinking about that time? The sun is going down and that idiot is late...like always.

The forest around the small temple is silent, but we decided to meet here because it's a secluded place. Mikio this morning wrote me a letter...that was a surprise, he's always busy with his hunts and hates wasting time. I groan annoyed...I hope at least that this is important.

I hear a rustle and turn around, seeing Mikio with the appearance of a young girl, with black hair and brown eyes. I snap my tongue <<you're late, it's the second time...you were late also yesterday night in Shimabara>> he chuckles <<it that how you greet an old friend? For what you knew I could have been killed yesterday night>> I roll my eyes <<if you're here you didn't attack the Shinsengumi's men, and I remind you that you wrote me a letter. Now get to the point and tell me what you want, Kodo is waiting for me>> he turns serious <<i met her. That bitch eavesdropped us, so it's best for you If you don't go around too much>> I look at him puzzled <<you didn't kill her? Seriously?>> he grits his teeth furious <<i tried! But someone helped her...another demon. You were right...she looks just like her, it's almost unbelievable. I can't wait to kill her, and eat her eyes and rip open her chest stealing her heart>> I groan annoyed <<someone saved her? Shit, who was that bastard?>> he shakes his head <<i don't know, but he was strong. I bet that he's not from here, I never met him before and he looked pretty young. Maybe if you'll see him you can figure out who he is...because you traveled everywhere searching for your sister. If only you hadn't left so early yesterday night...>> I frown <<what exactly are you accusing me of? The plan was to find you something to eat to raise your fear, to prepare you for the fight against Riko, or I'm wrong? We couldn't fight the Shinsengumi anyway, you still don't have the strength>> he crosses his arms angry <<i know that! And on top of it, your sister took my painting>> I grin intrigued <<ohh? Then that naive girl can do something, I'm surprised you let her steal it...the idea of killing Riko must have distracted you a lot>> he scratches his head <<maybe...but your sister not only forgotten you but she's also a thief, I understand now why you love but also hate her so much. But the point is that it's thanks to you that I found Riko. When you wrote to me, telling me that you saw her...I didn't believe you in the beginning, but last night when I met her...well, you were right. she's maybe her daughter or something like that...and she's a gray existence. So the legend about that woman was true...a yokai kidnapped her>> I sigh annoyed <<you can kill her any time you want, I don't care. That bitch will learn not to get too close to my sister...she's not her family>> Mikio chuckles <<jealousy is a nasty thing, but for once it's fun to watch it>> I glare at him <<shut up, now we have another problem. Now killing Riko will be even harder. She was already vigilant because Kazama is after her, but now she also know she's our target>> he smirks <<don't worry, I have an idea>>

...

Riko pov

The sun shines on the garden, but Chizuru continues to cleans the plates at the well <<and tell me...Wakana-san is really that clumsy?>> I laugh helping her <<oh yes, mum is really something. She has good intentions, but every time she goes into the kitchen she breaks a lot of plates...so we always need new plates. But I'm happy...every yokai in the Nura clan respect her, because she's human but she's still the lady of the house, and she was my father's wife. she's always so sweet...i miss her>> I shake my head forcing a smile <<well...after her, I will be the next lady of the house, until Rikuo gets married of course>> she looks at me <<what do you mean?>> I look around us, checking that we're alone <<it's a little complicated, but...my grandpa is the lord of all yokai and my father was his heir for many centuries, but now we need a third heir...the third commander of the pandemonium>> she widens her eyes shocked <<you?!>> I put a finger on my lips <<shh! Keep your voice down please...but no, it's not me. My father made some arrangements in case he died prematurely...but there is a problem>> I look at the sky sighing <<me and Rikuo aren't half demon like him, we are for the most part human>> she looks at me with curiosity <<in fact, you don't heal quickly like me>> I smile a little amused <<not all demons regenerate, you know? it's just a trait of you oni>> she nods slowly <<so...>> but a scream interrupts her <<ah! This is...this is unconscionable! Never, in all my...!>> and we look toward the voice. Itou walks shocked toward our direction with his arms crossed. I chuckle, but Chizuru asks <<Itou-san? Is something wrong?>> I groan...why did she call him?

Itou frowns and look at us <<yes! Yes, I'd say everything is wrong! Why should I be made to bare my skin in the same room as those...those savages?!>> Itou did his best to collect himself, shakily adjusting his hair and clothing before he speaks <<it's that man's fault, he's claiming to be a doctor. it appears that Kondo-san met and invited him. Now that doctor is conducting...physical examinations>> with a disdainful sniff, he glared pointedly across the hall, towards the area he'd just left <<that hairless monster! Ehm, I mean that doctor...he demanded I remove my clothes in front of everyone! When I refused, as any decent man would, he tried to remove them himself! By force! And the rest of them just...just stood there! What sort of uncultured savages are they?!>> I begin to laugh really loud, holding my belly, and Itou looks at me angry <<there's nothing to laugh about!>> but Chizuru asks <<what's this doctor's name?>> and Itou thinks about it for a moment <<i believe he called himself Ryojun Matsumoto>> Chizuru widens her eyes and begin to run toward the hall <<i'm going to go watch the physical examinations!>> I quickly run after her <<ah! wait a moment Chizuru!>> and also Itou tries to stop her, but we continue to run.

Chizuru stops surprised at the entrance of the common room. I reach her <<don't run away like that>> but she doesn't answer, so I follow her gaze and I stop stunned.

All the Shinsengumi's soldiers are in line in front of the doctor, but they're all shirtless!

I blush chuckling, and Chizuru covers her eyes. I look around, seeing that Okita, Hijikata and others are missing...i wonder why. The doctor finished checking Nagakura <<all right, next>> but Nagakura didn't move <<whoa, hold on there, doc! You gotta get a good look at this!>> and he raises his arms, showing his muscles. The doctor shakes his head annoyed <<no, you're quite fine. Healthy as a horse. And I've seen quite enough, thank you>> and Harada annoyed screams <<you're holding up the line Shinpachi. Get moving, okay?!>> and I see a long scar on his belly...i wonder how he got it.

Nagakura continues to insist and Saito frowns <<a medical examination is for finding problems, not showing off. Now move>> and Nagakura upset stands aside, but when he walks near Harada they begin from nowhere a competition of poses, showing their muscles.

I laugh and walk closer <<more than a medical examination. It seems to me a competition for showing off>> Heisuke widens his eyes <<Riko-chan?! What the hell are you doing here?!>> I grin <<why? you're shy?>> Harada laughs and ruffles my hair <<shouldn't you be the shy one in a situation like this? you're a girl after all>> but Nagakura slaps my back laughing <<face it, you're here to see the results of my training! Look here and don't be shy!>> and he continues to show off. I laugh shaking my head <<ah no, I just followed Chizuru>> and I point to her, seeing that she's still at the entrance. Saito sighs crossing his arms <<you two shouldn't be here anyway>> I shrug <<you're not naked. Harada for example is always almost shirtless, so I don't see the problem>> Heisuke laughs <<you got a point>> as Chizuru comes closer I look at Harada <<i was wondering...how did you get that scar?>> he puts a hand on his hip <<this? I tried to commit seppuku>> I widen my eyes shocked <<what?!>> and also Chizuru looks at him incredulously. Nagakura laughs <<but it didn't work, right Sano?>> and Heisuke nods grinning <<well, you left your mark>> and they laugh together.

I sigh exasperated <<how can you joke about that? But...damn Harada, really? Not everyone can do such a thing and talk about it>> he smirks crossing his arms <<what can I say? They accused me that I would never have the courage to do it, I had to prove them wrong>> I roll my eyes. Chizuru looks curious at the scar <<the cut is not precise, so it's true that you did it yourself>> Heisuke widens his eyes <<woh, you can tell the difference?>> she nods <<of course, Riko's scar is more precise...ah!>> she claps her mouth shut but we all freeze.

I frown angry <<Chizuru! I asked you to don't talk about it!>> but Saito says <<women don't need to do seppuku, and from what Yukimura said a moment ago, it's clear that someone did that to you>> Heisuke frowns turning serious <<you have a scar like Sano?>> but Nagakura tried to break the tension with an unconvinced laugh <<i'm sure Chizuru-chan was just exaggerating, right?>> I look away biting my lip, feeling Harada's eyes on me <<who did it?>> I cross my arms knowing that I can't avoid the subject now <<it was a sword...but I don't know who she was, so don't ask me anything else please>> Heisuke tried to insist <<but...!>> I interrupt him <<don't get me wrong, I'm proud to have this scar...because I got it protecting my brother, but I don't want to show it to anyone>> Saito nods <<if you don't want to talk about it, we will respect your wish. After all, it's an old story>> I nod grateful <<yes...thank you>>

...

The medical examination ends and I go back to my room, leaving Chizuru with the doctor, because they want to speak alone. Dr Matsumoto is the person that Chizuru was searching for when she arrived in Kyoto. Chizuru's father told her to search doctor Matsumoto if something happened to him, and she did that...but she didn't find him until now.

I arrive in my room and sit on the floor bored, but then a familiar voice nearby says <<isn't a little early to sleep?>> I turn around quickly, seeing Okita at the room's entrance <<Okita?! Where were you? I was looking for you>> he grins crossing his arms <<mmh who knows, I heard that you and Chizuru-chan went to the medical examination>> I hide my embarrassment with a cough <<well yes...but I was trying to stop Chizuru, but this is not the point. Where were you? You still have a bad cough, I'm surprised that Hijikata allowed you to skip the medical examination>> he sighs <<i don't care about Hijikata, it was Kondo-san who invited the doctor here>> I nod and smile at him <<i bet that Hijikata will bother us later, for this and also because I switched the salt and the sugar in the kitchen. Oh and I put some honey inside his tabi, he will find out when he will wear them>> he chuckles <<so you have been busy>> I nod chuckling <<of course, everyone was busy and it gave me the perfect opportunity. In fact, I was looking for you to ask if you wanted to help me>> he shrugs <<and now what do you want to do? You're waiting for your pranks to drive everyone crazy?>> I nod happy <<i have nothing better to do>> he walks closer <<then...why don't you prank those boring monks? it'd be fun...i bet that Yuichi is only pretending to be so calm, he must be like Hijikata>> I shake my head and stand up <<i really shouldn't do that. I bet that when Yuichi gets angry he's worse than Hijikata...and I don't want to mess up>> he frowns disappointed <<you're no fun>> and he begins to walk away. I stop him <<wait, do you want to eat some dango with me? I don't want to be alone>> he chuckles amused <<and what do you want to do in the meanwhile?>> I grab his sleeve <<come on... just sit down>> he looks at me for a moment, but in the end he sits down <<i hope for you that you have many dango>> I smile and nod <<of course>> and I run inside my room, taking some sweets from my closet...where I hidden them.

Okita continues to look at me <<you're more pushy than usual today>> I sigh, looking away <<sorry...it's just that Chizuru, in front of the others, accidentally mentioned the scar on my back. They didn't ask too much, and they promised to don't ask anything else>> he grins a little <<but I could do that you know?>> I shake my head <<you could ask, but I don't have to answer you>> he eats a dango <<then...i should kill you>> I chuckle a little <<even then you wouldn't have any answers. You know, it's not that I'm ashamed of it...for me my back is alright just like this, it's just something very personal>> he sighs disinterested, but his tone of voice betrays his curiosity <<but if I remember right, last night didn't bothered you>> I look at him annoyed <<oi, don't say something like that, If someone hear you they will misunderstand the situation>> and I change the subject <<earlier Dr Matsumoto tried to undress Itou, you should have seen it, he was so angry>> he narrowed his eyes <<mmh, you're avoiding the matter. Every day you become more mysterious and suspicious>> I look at him without understanding <<what do you mean?>> he takes another dango <<answer me if you can...how many secrets do you have?>> I freeze really surprised, feeling also a little guilty <<wh..what do you mean? What secrets?>> he grins <<oh? you really think that we didn't notice? it's obvious you're hiding something, and I hope for you it's nothing that can harm the Shinsengumi...or you already know what I will do to you>> I nod slowly, looking at my feet <<i..i know. It's because I know about the originals, like I said that night with Sannan-san, right?>> and I quickly eat another dango. He crosses his arms <<that is Hijikata's problem, but it's evident from the beginning that you know more than what you say. I also bet that you told something to Chizuru-chan, because for a while before speaking she looks at you>> I whistle <<you're really sharp, but don't worry...she doesn't know much, and the last thing I want is putting the Shinsengumi in danger>> I look at him <<so you're telling me I should spill my guts? Are you that curious?>> he looks at me in the eyes <<after what happened the other night in Shimabara, I find it funny how you're still playing dumb, in addition you were sending many letters to that Osen-chan>> I frown <<so? What do you expect? Everyone has secrets...and I also have them, but I swear on my life that I'm not a threat to the Shinsengumi. If this will change then...i will go away, disappearing from your lives>> he rolls his eyes <<then...it's useless to swear on your life, because you won't pay with it>> he stands up and put a hand on my head smirking <<so don't forget what you just said. If you break your promise...don't run away from me, because I will kill you>> I widen my eyes...feeling a soft sensation in my chest. Why am I so happy right now?

I smile without knowing why, and I'm not so sad anymore <<i will still fight back, and it will be a tough fight for the both of us>> he nods satisfied <<yeah. And now...>> he grabs my wrist, pulling me on my feet <<i think Hijikata's poetry book needs another reading>> I giggle <<why not? How about we hide it in a tree this time? I saw a perfect swallow's nest near Yuichi's room>> be begins to walk, pulling me with him <<just don't get caught by Gen-san this time, he understood right away that I was with you and he gave us a huge lecture>> I roll my eyes <<how was I supposed to know that Heisuke stole all the rice in the kitchen to make a really big onigiri for Chizuru? If I'd known that I wouldn't have gone into the kitchen to hide>> he laughs, but he suddenly stops and begins to cough really bad, leaning forward tightening his hand around my wrist, and with the other he covers his mouth.

I widen my eyes alarmed <<Okita!>> I quickly put a hand on his back <<please hang in there! I'll get someone...!>> he squeezes my wrist, stopping me from going <<no!>> and he lets me go, turning his back to me covering himself. I tight my lips into a thin line <<o..okay>> his cough is getting worse...

He stops and i sigh shivering a little <<later...why don't you let the doctor take a look at you?>> he sighs <<yeah yeah, now we're in the middle of something...come on>> he grabs again my wrist and begin to walk pulling me with him.

I didn't ask anything...i'm really worried, but everyone has their secrets...right?

...

the next morning Kondo-san calls every soldier in the common room, so me and Chizuru wake up early to make breakfast for everyone. After that we reach the others, and we wait to hear what Kondo-san has to say. I yawn and Chizuru chuckles <<you came back really late last night>> I shrug <<if Hijikata can't stand some harmless pranks it's not my fault, he yelled at us for hours>> she sighs <<i think that you and Okita-san should stop with all this pranks, and why are you always picking on Hijikata-san?>> I giggle covering my mouth <<why? you're worried for Hijikata?>> she blushes <<n..no...i mean...you know...>> I laugh slapping her back a little <<don't worry, you don't need to answer>> she looks at me curious, but then Kondo-san begins to speak <<we shall spend the entire day cleaning!>> from the men arose a roar of protest, but me and Chizuru look at each other and laugh. Apparently yesterday Dr Matsumoto scolded Kondo-san because this place is a mess, and many soldiers are sick or injured. So today we have to clean up the headquarters, and prepare a room that will be an infirmary.

Everyone continue to complain, but in the end they start to work, and in no time from the headquarters rose up so much dust that everyone sneezed. We divided the work and some soldiers began to clean the floor, the shelves and everything else inside. Outside another group was washing the clothes, the dishes and every little object we have around.

Me and Chizuru finished cleaning the kitchen, and I went toward the common room for help. But then I hear Heisuke screaming <<ahhhhhh! A rat!>> and a dozen men run out in panic from the common room, including Nagakura. Saito was cleaning the engawa nearby and he looks at the scene sighing.

I look at the men running away surprised, but then I begin to laugh hard and I enter the common room. Harada is the only one inside, and he has a broom in his hands <<i will say nothing...but damn, even the monks are laughing like crazy, we can hear them from here>> he's right, in the distance i can hear many people laughing. I chuckle <<you can't blame them, I dare you not to laugh seeing men so big and strong run away from a little mouse>> he laughs a little <<you got a point. Did you need something? You and Chizuru need help cleaning the kitchen?>> I shake my head <<we finished, so I came here for help. By the way...did you see Okita around? I wanted to tell him that there's work to do outside, all this dust is not good for his cough>> he frowns worried <<oh Souji? he's not cleaning, Hijikata sent him to rest...well he tried, we don't really know where he is>> I sigh sad and worried <<he's really good at hiding, even I can't find him. so...do you need a hand? In the end the others left you alone, and this is the largest room in the headquarters...i doubt that you can clean it only by yourself>> and I see the little mouse disappearing behind a piece of furniture. Harada smiles and ruffle my hair <<sorry about the mess, it must have been hard for you and Chizuru to clean this place alone until now>> I shrug <<now everyone know how dirty this place is, me and Chizuru did our best but we're only two>> he smiles kindly <<well, maybe we should help clean every day from now>> I nod grateful <<i'll hold you to that>> and then Heisuke and the others come back.

Heisuke smiles at me <<Riko-chan! Are you here to help us?>> I grin <<you want me to protect you from the little mouse? Luckily I didn't tell you that yesterday in your room there were two rats near your bed>> he turns pale <<what?! Why didn't you tell me?!>> I laugh <<calm down, I'm messing with you...maybe>> and I continue to clean whistling. He sighs <<you're even worse than Souji>> I turn around shaking my head <<no it's not true, he's better than me>> Nagakura frowns puzzled <<it's not a compliment you know? You two continue to prank Hijikata together at least once a day, and in the remaining time you pick on us. You two alone are terrible, but together you are unbearable>> and Yamazaki who was walking nearby answers <<you can say that again>> and he continues to walk, going away.

I raise my arms giving up <<okay, but we're not so bad>> but then, with the corner of my eyes, I saw Dr Matsumoto and Okita walking off somewhere together. When did the doctor arrive? I have a bad feeling.

Quickly I throw the rag in my hand to Heisuke <<i'll be back, I want to see where Chizuru is>> and without waiting for their answer I run away.

I follow Dr Matsumoto and Okita into the courtyard, hiding behind a wall eavesdropping and leaning over a little to see what happens. They stop in the corner and the doctor looks really serious <<i'll be honest with you, Okita. You have tuberculosis>> I freeze, covering my mouth. A shiver ran down my spine, and suddenly I felt very, very cold.

Okita makes a bitter smile...he's not surprised <<i had a feeling that was it. The real thing, huh? The famous disease>> I continue to listen, shaken and shocked...he knew it! And he didn't say anything! I know that his cough wasn't normal but...

Dr Matsumoto crosses his arms <<you aren't surprised?>> and Okita shrugs <<well, it's my body. it's hard to imagine a cold would last this long>> I know! But...i can't accept it!

Okita crosses his arms <<gotta tell you though, i'm not used to getting health advice from doctors, you know?>> and he chuckles a little, trying to relieve the tension. The doctor looks at him irritated <<this isn't a laughing matter>> and Okita stops, but continues to smile <<don't be fooled, i'm scared shitless, believe me>> his tone is light-hearted...but his eyes are cloudy. The doctor sighs <<the best medicine for tuberculosis is rest...i suggest you leave the Shinsengumi and eat nutritional foods to keep up your energy>> but Okita turns serious <<sorry, no can do>> I widen my eyes stunned...what the hell is he thinking?! Also the doctor thought the same thing judging by his face <<<look, this is serious. If you don't deal with this...you might be fine now, but eventually you won't even be able to get up from your bed>> for a moment I imagined it...but quickly I shake my head refusing to think about it...because it makes me feel a great sadness.

Okita doesn't give up and shows his stubbornness <<then i'll be here until then. I put my sword before my body, even if I cough up blood>> I pass a hand on my face, trembling a little...knowing that he's serious. The doctor looks at him in surprise <<why are you so desperate to stay here? If you don't want to do it for yourself, at least think about the people who care about you. I am not only speaking about Kondo-san, but also about the others Shinsengumi's captains. I also heard that you and that girl, Nura-san, are friends...what do you think she'd tell you if she knew?>> Okita frowns <<i'm the Shinsengumi's sword, me being here is my everything. I'm here to kill anyone who stands against the Shinsengumi, nothing more...so leave her out of this. Besides, even if I die Riko has her nice little family that is waiting for her...so she wouldn't care about this>> I bit my tongue to not run toward him and scream in his face that he's a stupid moron. How can he say something so...so cruel? Idiot! Idiot! Idiot!

Dr Matsumoto in the end sighs <<i understand. If your condition worsens, then you may end up causing trouble for your friends. You understand that, don't you? If you insist on staying, then you must agree to do as I tell you. If you won't, then I'll tell Kondo-san about your condition...I think we both know what he'll do>> even I know what he will do...he would force him to leave the Shinsengumi, because he cares about him. Okita sighs <<man...this means i'm gonna have to take some really disgusting medicines, doesn't it?>> I roll my eyes and the doctor begins to lose his patience <<of course>> but Okita continues to joke <<man, sucks that it's you that found out>> and I also shake my head exasperated. If only I could go back to my time...even just for a couple of hours, so that I can take some medicines for him. If I remember right you can't fully heal from tuberculosis, but the people don't die anymore for that.

Okita's grin becomes smaller <<look, doctor...please don't tell Kondo-san and the others about this, okay? Promise?>> Dr Matsumoto thinks about it for a moment, but in the end he nods <<well, i suppose there are...certain things that not everyone needs to know. There's something else I've been keeping secret, I just can't bring myself to tell Chizuru...>> he looks at the sky <<there's a...rumor that Kodo is working for a group of extremists. Same of the imperialist ronin. How could i tell her that?>> I jump shocked, feeling sad for Chizuru. In fact the Chizuru from my time never talked about her father...maybe because she is ashamed of him because he made the Ochimizu and...for this.

Okita smiles a little <<well, sometimes you get the bear...>> the doctor finished the phrase <<and sometimes the bear gets you. Yes, I know. Well, i'll be around more in the future, to come by and check on you. Don't push yourself too much, all right?>> Okita nods thanking him and the doctor goes away.

The courtyard fell silent and I lean my back against the wall...feeling my head spinning, and something strong and breathless grabbing and squeezing my chest...it's so painful. Why?! why am I so useless?! I can never save the people I care about! I'm really doomed to watch all those I love suffer and die without being able to do anything?

I feel my eyes burn...but I fight back the tears, closing my eyes and covering my mouth. Is it because I'm neither human or Yokai? it's my punishment for being weak? dad...you were a half demon...i wish I could talk to you so much, but I know that I can't. it's really cruel, you're here...in Edo, but I can't even see you. I might ignore all this and still go to Edo now...at least to save Okita, but...I know really well that grandpa and dad are powerful, but they aren't magicians. Probably they don't even know how to send me back in my time. Miracles don't happen. And furthermore...how am I supposed to look dad in the face when I know what's gonna happen to him? Knowing that I failed him, because I can't even protect mum and Rikuo like he asked me.

<<Riko-chan, you can come out now>>

his voice stops the whirlwind of thoughts in my head, and shyly I lean over the wall, seeing that he was already looking in my direction. He smiles and sits on a bench nearby, patting the spot near him <<it's all right, come sit down over here>> I walk toward him, keeping my face down wiping the tears with my arm. I sit down, speaking with a low voice <<it's not true...that I wouldn't care. I should beat you up just because you dare to think something so stupid and mean>> he chuckles without joy <<you really believed the crap that doctor was saying? Come on, i really look like i'm sick?>> i didn't answer...i know already that he's lying, but he continues <<man, that doctor sure is a jokester. How often does someone sick look this good?>> but then he drops the facade and smiles sad <<you won't tell anyone, right? If you tell anybody, then i'll probably have to kill you after all>> I try to answer, but my voice didn't come out so I just grab his hand. He jumps surprised, and looks down at our hands, but I say <<only...under two conditions>> he grins a little <<i'm listening...>> and he squeezes my hand...maybe because he saw the tears at the edge of my eyes. I look at my lap <<first, you must take all the medicines the doctor will give you, without complaining...and if you're feeling unwell you need to warn me. Second...>> I raise my head a little, looking at him in the eyes <<don't give up>> he widens his eyes surprised. For a long instant no one says anything, but in the end he makes a bitter smile <<let's pretend that this joke is true...i would be doomed. Only a fool would think that he could get away with it>> I shake my head angrily <<no! it's not true! I'll do everything I can to find a solution...you please, just promise me that you'll resist as long as you can>> we look at each other for a long time, but in the end he nods <<as you wish. You surprised me though, you didn't try to convince me to leave the Shinsengumi like the doctor>> I snort still a little angry at him <<don't joke too much about this, I'm still angry...because you said that I wouldn't care because I have a family. But...i can understand your desire to make yourself useful and fight with the others. I can understand it really well>> he looks at me curious <<mmh, I wonder if it's true>> I shrug <<it is...and thanks to this, I know that it's no use asking you to leave the Shinsengumi. If I was in your place I would stay here>> he grins a little <<and yet here you are, which means that you left what's important to you...you can't really understand me>> I shake my head <<it's not like that. I was forced to leave. I don't know what happened to Kana and Yura...but this story is much bigger than you think>> he looks at the sky <<another secret of yours I presume>> I nod and I also look at the sky <<maybe...i could tell you my secrets someday. No, I will do it sooner or later. I'm not so stupid to think that no one will never noticed anything, but...i just hope that you won't look at me differently>> he look down with a strange expression <<i wonder when it will happens, because it doesn't matter how I look at you...i don't change my mind so easily. I will kill you if you underestimate me again>> and he chuckles. I feel my heart beats really loud against my chest, and a single tear falls on my cheek. he makes an odd, crooked smile and wipes my tear with his finger <<you got scared for a little joke, you're really strange>> I sigh exasperated <<i won't tell anyone. About your illness I mean>> he nod grateful <<thanks Riko-chan>> and he lies down, putting his head on my legs <<today the sky is really blue...i can see it really well from here, so let me watch it>> I gently caress his head <<okay...rest a little. Until the others come looking for us>>

...

Dr Matsumoto kept his word and didn't tell anyone about Okita's illness. However, when he learns that I also know about his condition, he tries to make me talk with Okita to convince him to leave the Shinsengumi. I, of course, didn't accept it because I know that it would be pointless. Eventually the doctor surrenders and hands me a long list of medicines, telling me to make sure Okita will take them. In the end Dr Matsumoto goes away, and Okita looks at the medicine's list with a skeptical gaze <<i wonder why I have a hunch that all those medicines will have a bad taste>> I roll my eyes <<don't be a baby, and remember what I asked you>> he sighs <<yes yes, you don't need to repeat that every time...or you'll be like Hijikata>> I half smile <<oh please, I'm not so grumpy. Now...we need to buy those medicines without letting the others see us>> and I fold the list, hiding it inside my clothes <<i'm certain that Yamazaki has something inside the new infirmary, but if we take something from there he will notice immediately>> he nods <<of course>> and after looking at each other for a second, we turn around and together we run outside the headquarters...toward the market.

We walk quickly, knowing that we don't have much time before someone will notice that we disappeared. Okita walks with his arms crossed <<in the end you're really hypocrite you know? You claimed that everyone have their secrets, but you didn't think twice about eavesdropping a private conversation>> I blush shamed <<sorry, I didn't expect that it was about something so...i mean, you know already>> he looks in front of himself <<how many times do I have to tell you? It was a joke>> I sigh <<well, that's a way to put it, but your joke sucks...we're better at pranking Hijikata. We need to improve everything else>> he grins amused <<mmh, I don't think so>> I try to answer, but a familiar voice stops me <<Riko! Souji!>> we turn around and I smile seeing Tadashi running toward us. I quickly hug him <<what are you doing here?>> he shrugs <<i have to buy something for my mum, but I'm happy to see you>> I chuckle ruffling his hair <<so you're a big boy now>> he's not so little anymore. Tadashi smiles happily <<yeah! I'm a man now, like my dad>> Okita smirks <<really? Because a man won't run to Riko every time he wants to play>> Tadashi frowns <<but it's because she's Riko! She knows many games and she's kind. You should play with us more often Souji>> I look amused at Tadashi <<he has to work too, you know? But I will speak with him later> and I wink at him. Okita rolls his eyes <<don't you have to go back to your mother?>> Tadashi nods <<yeah...but you have to promise me that you will play with us next time>> I cover my mouth chuckling, but in the end also Okita smiles because he's just messing with Tadashi...those two always play together at the headquarters. Tadashi hugs both and then runs away <<I will come and play soon!>> and he disappeared.

I smile putting my hand on my hips <<he's always so lively>> Okita shrugs and grabs my collar, pulling me with him <<come on...>> and we continue toward the market.

...

We returned back quickly, but the sun is already setting. We notice immediately that the others have finished cleaning the headquarters, so I send Okita away, to hide his medicines before someone sees us. If Chizuru saw them she probably would figure it out...because his father is a doctor.

Okita disappeared inside the building and I sigh sad, dropping my smile. He's dying...i can't just accept that. I have to find a solution but...<<Riko?>>...

I jump surprised and turn around, seeing Tadashi behind me. I widen my eyes <<Tadashi? Why are you here? Is everything alright? it's really late, you should be at home young man>> and I walk closer. He doesn't respond and continues to look at his feet, so I kneel in front of him worried <<you can talk with me, I'm here for you>> and I caress his head. He doesn't respond, but I freeze, finding a knife pointed at my throat. Tadashi grins <<you fell for it like an idiot, but I couldn't miss a chance like this>> I look at him with cold and furious eyes <<i'm surprised that you're still in the city...Mikio>> he chuckles using his real voice <<you send after me those oni from Shimabara. They're strong, but you're really naive if you thought that I would give up only for that>> I growl at him <<if you did something to Tadashi I will...!>> he interrupts me <<if you want the child back, come to the Fushimi Inari temple, inside the street of the ten thousand torii...come in an hour>> and he runs away before I could do anything.

I clench my teeth furious...i was so stupid! I thought he and Kaoru left the town, because Osen-chan and Kimigiku are looking for them. Mikio is not a powerful yokai, and now he kidnapped a child...it's a really dangerous move. In the past many demons kidnapped and ate human children, but humans become really violent and vengeful this way. Grandpa explained to me that there are still yokai who do that, but they are really few, because it's extremely dangerous. There is the risk of becoming everyone's enemy and target...and Mikio just did that. He really wants to kill me so badly? I can't understand, but it's not important now...i have to save Tadashi!

I run inside the headquarters toward Yuichi's room, but when I arrive I see him, Hijikata and Kondo-san drinking thè and speaking together. I don't stop and without saying anything I run toward my room. Chizuru is inside, and when I enter she jumps surprised <<R..Riko-chan?>> I grab her shoulders <<listen to me! I need you to do something important for me. I don't have time to explain, but now I will go to the Fushimi Inari temple...I have barely one hour already>> she tries to speak but I interrupt her <<you have to give a message to Yuichi from me. Tell him that the babaneko is back, he kidnapped a child and if I don't go now...he will hurt him>> she turns pale <<wha...don't go! it's a trap!>> I nod <<i know! But the child is Tadashi, I can't wait for Yuichi to finish his chat with Kondo-san and Hijikata...you can. When he will be alone tell him about this>> and I let her go. I tie my sword better on my hip, but Chizuru runs in front of me <<you can't go alone, I will come too! We can ask help, the Shinsengumi's captains will help us...i'm sure>> I shake my head irritated <<you know we can't involve them! Now step aside!>> she trembles a little, but in the end she moves away. I nod at her <<i'm counting on you>> and I run away.

...

The sun goes down completely, and the darkness covers the forest...a perfect night for demons. I arrive at the temple of Fushimi, and go inside the street of the ten thousand torii. Mikio, with his true face, is waiting for me further ahead <<just in time, I was beginning to think that you wouldn't come>> I glare at him with hate <<where is Tadashi? If he's hurt I...>> he interrupts me waving his hand <<if you want that brat follow me, he's not my prey>> and he begins to walk.

I look around, knowing that if we go inside the forest Chizuru and Yuichi will not be able to find us so easily...but I don't really have a choice. I follow Mikio, being careful not to stumble into the roots because of the dark. I put a hand on the hilt of my sword <<why you kidnapped an innocent child? If you wanted me so badly, there were other methods less devious>> he laughs loud <<less devious? Let me guess...you inherited this good-nature of yours from that woman>> I take the painting from my clothes and shove it to him <<do you mean her right? Why do you hate her so much?>> he stops and angrily rips the painting from my hands <<as if you could understand...you were born from a woman, like most of the other creatures>> he finishes to speak and we arrive in a small clearing with a cliff. Tadashi is tied up and unconscious near the cliff.

I scream worried sick <<Tadashi!>> and I run toward him, taking him in my arms. I shake him calling his name many times, but he didn't wake up. Mikio sighs annoyed <<oh stop it please, he's only asleep. Now come...come and fight me, you offspring of that woman. I will kill you and finally have peace>> I untie Tadashi and lie him on the ground, unleashing my sword <<you're only...a pathetic demon with no honor...devoured by your reason of being as if it's a curse. It will be a pleasure to kill you, for Tadashi and those poor women you tortured and killed>> he frowns grinding his teeth <<how dare you? You...a stupid mixed blood who hides behind its human blood to live in peace. you're only a stupid, ignorant gray existence...the result of a rotten and repugnant union>> I tighter the hold on my katana, ready to fight <<all you can do is complain and whine because we gray existences are born, but your hate is for Yohime...a woman that lived two centuries ago. I'd like to see if there can exist someone who understands your madness>> he grins, but his eyes are almost sad and with a strange yearning inside <<Yohime mh? So this was her name. The daughter of a noble...beautiful and powerful, so much that even the demons wanted her>> and he laughs.

I look at him completely disoriented, but he laughs more <<good...after so long i finally learned her name. For this maybe I can tell you an odd story before I kill you. In the end, I feel like I'm talking to her, and she needs to know what she did. You both are so beautiful and desirable...like a cold autumn morning still tied to the summer>> a chill ran down the length of my spine, seeing not only hate in his eyes but also a strong lust.

He looks at my face and laughs louder <<yes...that look on your face, I waited many years to see it. you're scared and you despise me. I can't wait to eat your eyes and rip open your chest...and finally that painter will have your heart and I will have my peace>> I look at him more scared and shocked <<you're insane! You and whoever that painter is!>> he grins <<right, the dear painter...let me tell you his story...>>

Chizuru pov

I run toward the common room, in search of Yuichi, but I find there only Harada, Nagakura, Heisuke and Okita. I quickly catch my breath and ask <<where is Hijikata-san?!>> they stop doing what they were doing, and stand up quickly. Harada frowns worried <<what's wrong?>> but I don't answer and run away, toward Yuichi's room. I quickly open the door's room, finally finding him and the others. Hijikata jumps a little and frown at me <<oi, what do you think you're doing barging in here like this?>> I ignore his question and speak with Yuichi <<the Shimabara's murderer! Riko is chasing him!>> all of them exclaim surprised, but behind me I hear someone else jump and gasp so I turn around. Harada, Heisuke, Nagakura, Saito, Inoue-san and Okita are looking at me with really serious eyes. Yuichi quickly stands up <<what the hell she's thinking?!>> I look at him in the eyes <<that man kidnapped Tadashi! The child that always comes here to play with Riko...i'm certain that it's a trap! I know I shouldn't ask you this, but please...help her!>> Hijikata takes the situation in his hands <<Heisuke, go to Yamazaki and tell him what happened. Kondo-san, you, Gen-san and Saito will stay here and protect the headquarters...you as well Souji>> but Okita frowns <<no i won't stay here, I don't care if he's the geiko from the other night...but I've been looking forward to kill him>> Hijikata frowns angry, ready to answer him, but Harada stops him <<Hijikata-san, this is not the time to argue!>> and Hijikata snorts <<do what you want, now come one!>> and he begins to run toward the exit with the others...also with Yuichi, and I follow them without hesitation.

Riko pov

Mikio finishes speaking, and I look at him shocked and horrified <<wha...what?! All of this because of some stupid obsession?>> he chuckles <<obsession, you used the perfect word for it. That painter would sacrifice everything again just to be in my place, and speak with you. But only the thought that in your veins there is the blood of another man beside hers...makes me want to kill you more, because you're not her. I bet you're the result of that woman and the demon who kidnapped her, I'm right?>> I shake my head angry, grandpa is not like this <<he would never do something so horrifying like kidnap a woman and forced himself on her! he's kind and sweet...he's not a monster like you think. You, on the other hand, could have become someone good and honorable. But in the end you choose to be devoured by an unfulfilled desire...only to increase your power. If you wanted power, you could have joined a pandemonium...but you didn't, and now I will never forgive you for all the innocents you've killed>> he snaps his tongue <<you speak exactly like a human. We demons are evil, cruel and ruthless...we don't fight for justice or other noble motives>> and he unsheathes his katana, which was tied to his hip <<but I will make you understand>> and he runs forward raising his sword. I will prove to him that my human blood is not something bad! And I will beat him even like this!

Suddenly his fast movements become slower...no, they're not slower, it's me...i'm faster. I easily block his sword with mine, and with a grin I push him away attacking him. He dodges my sword, but I cut his cheek a little. He jumps back and looks at me shocked, passing a hand over his cheek, but then he becomes more furious <<this doesn't prove anything!>> and on the small clearing falls a dense fog that covers our feet. I smirk understanding that it's fear...our will are fighting with us <<we will see>> and I run forward, attacking him.

We both move at great speed, attacking and blocking continuously...almost completely at the same level. His sword scratches me everywhere many times, but with a lucky shot I cut the tip of his cat ear...and now his hair is sticky thanks to the blood. He, furious from the pain, punches me in the face hitting me with force. I stumble back, covering my nose with my hand, feeling the taste of the blood in my mouth and a big pain around my face. I move away my hand and I spit on the ground some blood, feeling it drips on my chin. Mikio breaths heavily <<i see that...you know how to fight, but you use only your instinct, scratching the surface of your power>> I cough and laugh a little <<then...if I need only to scratch the surface of my abilities to fight against you, you're really a weak yokai>> and I attack again. He raises his sword, but in the last instant I change attack, aiming from below. My katana cuts his wrist with ease, making it fall on the ground with a thud, along with his katana. Mikio screams from the pain and the shock, and his blood soaks the ground quickly. He stumbles back putting the injured arm against his chest <<you...you bitch>> and he growls like an animal. I raise my sword, ready to kill him, but he suddenly begins to run toward me, and with his only hand grab his katana...to then change his direction and run toward Tadashi. I froze <<Tadashi!!!>> and I began to run as well at full speed.

Chizuru pov

The darkness makes the forest creepy, but when we arrive at the Fushimi Inari temple we didn't find anyone. Hijikata looks around angry <<where the hell are they?>> but Yuichi grabs a piece of paper from his sleeve, and throw it above us <<follow the shikigami!>> and under our eyes the piece of paper turn into a little bird, who begins to fly toward the forest. We look at the bird amazed for a moment, but then we begin to run after it. Yuichi looks at our faces and explain <<this shikigami will lead us to...!>> but then a scream a little far interrupts him <<Tadashi!!!>> I widen my eyes <<it was Riko's voice!>> Harada frowns, and holds with more strength his spear <<stay close to us Chizuru>> and we arrive in a small clearing.

We freeze shocked, looking at the scene in front of us...who lasts a few seconds. The babaneko is running toward the child, who is unconscious near the cliff, but Riko jumps in front of him, with her katana pointed at the yokai. The babaneko can't stop in time and he throws himself against the sword. The blade pierce him in the stomach, making him grunt in pain and surprise. He coughs a lot of blood, but then he kicks both Riko and Tadashi with strength, making them fall from the cliff! Riko quickly grabs the babaneko, and pierce him to the hilt of her sword pulling him with them.

We scream their name and run toward the cliff, seeing Riko looks up for a moment with a surprised look on her face, but then she grabs Tadashi and hugs him, protecting him with her body. She then closes her eyes, and continues to fall...disappearing in the darkness below.

Riko pov

<<Riko!...Riko wake up!>> someone continues to shake me, and slowly I begin to wake up. I feel immediate pain everywhere, and I realize that I'm lying on my back. Tadashi looks at me with tears in his eyes <<Riko!>> and in an instant I recall what just happened. I sit up quickly whimpering in pain, but I ignore it and look worried at Tadashi <<are you hurt?!>> he shakes his head <<i'm okay, but...what happened? I can't remember anything>> I close my eyes for a moment, sighing in relief <<i'm so glad...you're okay>> and I stand up stumbling. I move slowly my arms and my legs, breathing a sigh of relief noticing that I'm really sore but for the most part I'm okay. I look down, seeing that my yukata is ripped in various places, but it still covers me. For the rest I'm just covered with dirt, scratches and bruises exactly like Tadashi.

Tadashi comes closer <<Riko, i'm scared>> I grab his hand, forcing a smile <<don't be, I'm here and I will protect you>> he nod, and look around still afraid <<what do we do now?>> I look up, noticing that we have fallen pretty low, rolling and scratching ourselves against the mountain's wall...i wonder if there is a way for us to go back up from here. I begin to walk, pulling Tadashi with me holding his hand <<we must try to go back to the temple...i think that Chizuru and the others are up there. Well, at least I hope that I didn't imagine them, but don't worry, I will bring you home safe>> he nods, walking really close to me <<yes>> I look at him, but then I trip over a root and fall on the ground gasping in pain. Tadashi looks at me worried <<are you alright?>> I nod, and sit up <<i'm alright, don't worry>> but then we hear a whimper of pain nearby. Tadashi grabs my arm terrorized, and we turn around becoming pale.

Mikio, still with my katana inside his abdomen, is hanging from the branch of a tree. Tadashi screams horrified and I quickly push him behind me, but Mikio doesn't move. I realize that he's out cold...but still alive. I don't take my eyes off him, just to be sure that he doesn't wake up and attack us...but then <<Riko! Tadashi! Where are you?!>> we turn around surprised and happy, it was Chizuru voices! And we can also hear the others calling for us. Tadashi yells <<we're here!>> and I quickly turn around to look at Mikio, but I jump scared seeing Kaoru there now. He grabs Mikio and he disappears looking at us with hate.

<<Riko! Tadashi-kun!>> Chizuru kneels near us, looking at us worried <<you're hurt?!>> Tadashi answers with a trembling voice, looking around himself...probably to see if Mikio is still here. it's a fortune that he didn't see Kaoru taking away Mikio...with a little luck, he will think he imagined everything. Someone stops in front of us, and Tadashi hugs him with tears on his cheeks <<Souji!>> but Okita just caresses his head and leaves him with Chizuru. He kneels in front of me, with a serious gaze and a thin grin on his face <<you're awful, you know?>> I smile a little <<i know, I'm sorry...but I couldn't just leave Tadashi>> but Hijikata stops near me with a furious face <<what the hell were you thinking?!>> and Harada nods crossing his arms <<the important thing is that you both are alive, but it's really a fortune. You shouldn't have come here alone, Riko>> and Nagakura nods, but then he tries to make Tadashi laugh, making some funny faces...but Tadashi just hides more behind Chizuru.

Yuichi whistles and a little shikigami shaped like a bird lands on his hand <<exactly Harada-kun, the important thing is that they are alive, with only some bruises and scratches...but now they need rest. We can argue later, but for now we have to go back...the night is dangerous, especially to some noisy and naive people in the woods>> and he looks annoyed at me. I sigh tired and try to stand up, but the pain makes me whimper a little. I fall on my butt annoyed, but then two strong arms lift me against someone's chest. I blush looking at Okita <<w...what are you doing?>> he raises an eyebrow <<did you hit your head? It seems obvious to me what I'm doing>> and he begins to walk <<or do you want me to believe that you'd rather walk?>> I bit my lip knowing that I can't respond. He grins amused, but his eyes remain serious <<well, you deserve a lot worse than that, but if I do something to you Kondo-san would be mad. you're already in trouble because you ran away without saying anything>> I roll my eyes feeling really tired and... strangely happy. He was worried about me?

Without thinking I put my head against his shoulder, and begin to close my eyes <<i will give to you all my hidden sweets so...forgive me please. I'm sorry...for running here alone>> I close my eyes, seeing for a moment Chizuru and Hijikata walk side by side, Tadashi in Harada's arms and near them there are Nagakura and Yuichi.

Mikio is still alive, and he will come back for me...but for now, the important thing is that Tadashi and the others are alright. Everything else can wait.