TW: Mentions of cheating and abortion (nt between taekook)
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'Why would I hate you for loving me when I love you myself?'

Taehyung let out a surprised gasp. The words of Jungkook's 'confession??' ringing in his mind as he pondered over it for second.

'You what? ', he asked, just to be sure he heard it right.

Jungkook smiled, taking in the way the elder was looking at him, his eyes full of surprise.

'I said, I love you just like you love me hyung. I can't hate the man I'm crazily in love with'

Taehyung blinked. Once. Twice. The man in front of him didn't seem like the same Jungkook he knew. It was like someone flipped a switch, changing the love hating Jungkook into a whipped Jungkook.

'You didn't believe in love before. What changed?,' Taehyung cautiously asked, his gaze never wavering from Jungkook's.

'Ahh', Jungkook snorted. He was amused by the way Taehyung was staring at him, wide eyed and pouted lips. 'I never said I didn't believe in love. I just didn't want anything to do with it before. Love broke me once, I wasn't willing to take that chance again'

Taehyung was taken aback by that answer. For 3 years, he had thought Jungkook was a non believer. But now he realizes it was more than that. Jungkook did believe in love, he was just too scared to indulge in it again.

'Oh', Taehyung said after a few seconds of silence.

Jungkook chuckled, his eyes sparkling with adoration for the beautiful person in front of him.  He could never get enough of seeing Taehyung. It was like he had his whole world infront of him. Kim Taehyung had become his world and he fucking didn't regret it. Not even one bit.

'Honestly Tae, I've been thinking a lot about my past recently. I think I wasn't in love', Jungkook mused, his mind wandering back to his past, 'no. I know i wasn't in love. I was just in love with the idea of being in love, you know'.

'Why do you think that Kook?', Taehyung asked. He was genuinely curious about Jungkook's past. The man in front of him was a mystery that Taehyung had been unable to solve. And right now, he wanted to know the real Jungkook. He wanted to know everything about Jungkook. He wanted to understand him, unravel him.

Jungkook smiled, ' I think its time I tell you my past Tae, if you are willing to listen'

'Tell me Kook. I wanna know everything. I wanna know you, all of you'

Jungkook hummed as he gathered his thoughts, 'Jennie and I were childhood friends. My parents were friends with her parents. We were pretty inseparable. Always doing things together. She was my bestfriend'

Jungkook laughed as he remembered all those times he and Jennie had gotten into trouble together.

'She asked me out first. We were seventeen. She said she liked me for a while and that she wanted to give us a try. I agreed. She was my bestfriend, I already loved her like a friend, so I figured why not. We were together for 4 years. I was happy with her. She became that person I always found comfort in. I thought I loved her. And I guess I did. But not like I was supposed to. Not like how I feel with you'

Jungkook looked at Taehyung as he softly smiled. It was true. What he felt for Taehyung was much more stronger. He hadn't feel that with Jennie. Not even 10% of it.

'I met Jin hyung through Jennie actually. Her parents were partners with Jin hyung. For a Singapore deal or something. Jennie introduced us. One day, Jin hyung called me. He congratulated me. I didn't understand so I asked him why. He said he saw Jennie at the pregnancy clinic. I didn't even know she was pregnant. So I called her and she didn't answer. I went to her house and-', Jungkook's breathe hitched as he remembered that day. Taehyung gently slipped his fingers into Jungkook's hands, squeezing it gently, offering support.

'S-She had given me an extra key so I entered the house and i heard moaning. My feet moved on auto pilot and I opened the door, only to see my bestfriend naked underneath with Jennie on top. They both were naked and covered in sweat, fucking each other. My rage knew no bounds. I don't even know what came over me. I nearly killed Yugyoem that day. I asked Jennie about the pregnancy and if it was mine. She said yes. It was mine but she had it aborted. Without even telling me about it.'

Jungkook chuckled , the sound void of any emotions.

'I called Jin hyung. I knew that i needed someone to hold me back before I killed both Jennie and Yugyoem. Jin hyung got me and he just- he saved me from myself that day Tae. I realized just recently that what I felt that day was betrayal, yes, but it was only because Jennie betrayed my friendship. Yugyoem betrayed my friendship. I wasn't hurt because Jennie cheated on me and because I loved her. No. I was hurt because she broke our friendship. I was hurt because she killed my child without even giving me a chance.'

Taehyung felt his heart clench. Suddenly it all made sense to him. Why Jungkook was so closed off. Why Jungkook was so afraid. He had his trust broken once. He had his heart broken twice. By his bestfriends.

It must have been devastating.

Jungkook used his fingers to lift up Taheyungs chin, making direct eye contact with the elder.

'Tae. I realized I didn't really love Jennie like I thought. I was just in love with the idea of being in love.  You made me realize that. When I started falling for you, I tried everything to stop it. I was so scared. But as soon as I saw you pulling away from me, the fear of losing you just became unbearable.  You make my heart beat Taehyung. You make me feel things I have never felt before. You, you are the cause of my euphoria Tae. You are the cause of my happiness.'

Taehyung's eyes watered as he heard those words. Oh how long he had wanted to hear that. How long he had loved Jungkook from the sidelines.

'I am inevitably and utterly in love with you Kim Taehyung', Jungkook breathed out, his voice heavy with emotions and his eyes sincere.

Taehyung let out a laugh that sounded like a sob as he hugged Jungkook, squeezing tightly like his life depended on it.

'I'm in love with you too Jungkook.  Fuck, i love you so much it hurts '

Jungkook felt like he had just been given everything he ever wanted. Which was true, for a year now all he had wanted was for Taehyung to love him. He had just wanted Taehyung.  A future with Taehyung.

'Be mine Tae', Jungkook said as they broke apart, his eyes glistening with unshed tears and his hands caressing the elder's cheeks.

Taehyung smiled back, 'I have always been yours Kook. Even before you realized you loved me. I have always been yours'

Jungkook crashed his lips against Taehyung's, bliss filling his entire body. The kiss was passionate, tongues tangling against each other as he poured every ounce of love and affection into the kiss. Taehyung was the same, he too kissed with the same force, the same emotions.

Finally they both were together. Finally they had what their hearts desired.

Finally.