You know that feeling you have that everything is going to go to shit and you won't be able to do a damn thing about it?

Thats how Taehyung feels right now.

Driving back to drop Jisoo home after the awfully awkward dinner, well it was awkward after Jungkook left, he couldn't help but keep thinking about ways to tell Jisoo that he didn't want to marry her.

Another thing that had him perplexed was how Jin had patted him on the back and said, 'thank me later baby bro'. He couldn't for the life of him understand what Jin meant. And he sure as hell hopes that Jin didn't mean it in a positively encouraging way for his and Jisoo's relationship.

That would be fucked up because Taehyung is irresistibly and utterly in love with his hyung's bestfriend.

The car stopped outside Jisoo's mansion, well, her father's mansion, though they both didn't make any effort to get out. Taehyung couldn't take the silence anymore so he turned around to look at Jisoo, who was busy staring outside the window, looking at sky.

'Jisoo.... I, uh, I wan-', Taehyung began before being cut off by Jisoo.

'I always wanted to be in love you know? It always felt like a dream whenever I read books about it. The thrill of being with one person for the rest of your life, the fear of losing them. I always wanted to experience that'

'What are you saying Jisoo? I'm afraid i don't understand?'

'How does it feel to be in love, Taehyung?', Jisoo asked.

Taehyung was confused, but he didn't let it show on his face. Surely, Jisoo hadn't picked up on his emotions regarding Jungkook right?

'What?', he asked.

'Come on Taehyung. Any idiot can see that you are whipped for Jungkook. So how does it feel to be in love? Be honest '

Taehyung chuckled nervously. Ofcourse. Who was he kidding? Ofcourse even Jisoo knew. Hell, Jungkook knew too. How fucking obvious was he being that literally every fucking human knew about his feelings!

He sighs at his own thoughts before answering softly, 'It feels empowering. He is always my first thought, I wake up and I think about him first. Every single decision I make involves him. Even when I'm not dating him. Even when I know he isn't mine. It feels good to love him. To make him happy. Seeing that smile on his face makes my day, even better if I was the reason for that smile. It hurts too. Not gonna lie. But the pain is so sweet that it doesn't matter. He can hurt me and break me but I'll still love him. He.. he is my life and I'm not even ashamed of giving him that much power. I wouldn't change it for the world'

Jisoo sat there smiling widely at the man beside her. It felt enchanting to hear about love from a different person's perspective. The love that Taehyung is describing right now seems so pure, so real. It was hard to believe that a person could love another like that. Give someone else that much power over themselves.

'Then why are you being an idiot? If you love him so much, why are you trying to get married to someone else? ', she asks softly, even though she knew the reason. She wanted to hear about it from Taehyung.

Taehyung huffed, slightly annoyed with himself.

'I'm stupid. I misunderstood something. And I, I just.. I was scared. Scared that Jungkook would know how I felt and that I would lose him. I can't bear to lose Jungkook's friendship because I couldn't help but fall for him. When I saw him in someone else's arms, I just broke. I thought I wouldn't. But I did. Then grandfather came with your proposal so I thought why not? It will make grandfather happy because he wanted me to get married and it will help me get over Jungkook. And maybe hide what i felt. It was stupid of me. Honestly. I now know that nothing can make me get over him. I'm so sorry for dragging you in this mess Jisoo. It was selfish and you never deserved this. I'm so very sorry.'

Jisoo saw how Taehyung was bowing to her in his seat. For a second she wished Taehyung wasn't in love with Jungkook. He would have made a perfect life partner. The man was so humble. So... different.

'Its alright. I forgive you. But you need to go talk to Jungkook. Don't let you fear stop you from making a grave mistake. You never know. What if he feels the same way? And even if he doesn't, your friendship will not change. I'm sure of it. You and Jungkook looked so close. Its hard to break that kind of bond. Go for it Taehyung. Don't be a coward'

Those words lit a fire in Taehyung's heart. Coward. Was he really a coward for not voicing out his feelings? But.. Jungkook already knows right? So should he go for it?

Yeah. He is going for it. For the first time in his life, Taehyung is gonna say fuck it and go chase his dream. He was tried of running from his feelings. Tried of hiding it.

'Thanks Jisoo. Thank you for understanding,' he smiles at the girl who smiles back and gets out of the car.

Maybe it was Jisoo's words which cleared a lot of doubts in his mind but whatever it was, it made Taehyung change the direction of his car to Jungkook's place.

Also, he made a mental note to thank Jin. He was damn sure it was Jin who told Jisoo about his feelings, maybe his brother wasn't as stupid and gullible as he thought.

Taehyung stood outside Jungkook's condo, his hand raised to ring the doorbell but he was hesitating. The what ifs in his head getting the best of him and he was soo afraid. It was one thing to get rejected but losing your friendship over feelings was so damn devastating.

His doubts got the better of him as he turned around to go back to his car. He halted as he heard the door open, catching him off by surprise.

'Taehyung?', Jungkook's voice called out softly.

Taehyung didn't want to turn around. He didn't want to face the man he had come to love more than himself.

'Are you going to keep running away from your feelings?', Jungkook spoke again.

Taehyung slowly turned around to face him, his heart beating so loud that he was sure the raven head can hear it.

He shook his head to indicate a no, which bought a smile to Jungkook's face.

He walked towards the door as Jungkook stepped aside to let him in.

All doubts vanished from Taehyung's mind as Jungkook suddenly pushed him against the now closed door, caging him in between his arms.

'Tae', Jungkook's breath touched Taehyung's lips.

'Koo?', Taehyung was unsure about what was happening.

'Fuck it', was the last words that left Jungkook's mouth as he crashed his lips onto Taehyung's.

It was bliss. That's the only way to describe it.

The kiss was passionate and so full of need. Over time, the two had grown too accustomed to each other's lips that not being able to kiss for so long had made them miss it more than anything.

This kiss was led by Jungkook, who bit lightly on Taehyung's lower lip, asking for entrance. It was granted because ofcourse, Taehyung was whipped for the man. Entering the warm cavern of Taehyung's lips, Jungkook felt relief flood through his body as the sweet taste of Taehyung filled his taste buds.

They had to stop after a few minutes of making out because they had to, well, breathe. Jungkook had his forehead on Taehyung's, both of their eyes closed. Jungkook's hands were on Taehyung's waist, while Taehyung's were tightly fisting Jungkook's shirt.

'Tae, we should talk first', Jungkook whispered after a few seconds.

Taehyung couldn't bring himself to reply as his mind was still numb from the feeling of Jungkook's lips so he just nodded.

Jungkook took Taehyung's hand in his own and led him to the sofa in the living room. He then went to grab two soft drinks and handed Tae one, while opening the other as he made himself comfortable next to Taehyung.

They were both silent for a few minutes, drinking slowly. Taehyung was trying to organize his words carefully in his brain, which wasn't really working out right now.

Jungkook, on the other hand took this time to stare at Taehyung. He was admiring every part of Taehyung's gorgeous face, the unusual monolid and double eyelid that for some weird reason made Taehyung look so fucking good, the mole on his eyelid and his nose, a slightly lighter mole on his lower lip. Taehyung was like an expensive piece of art. So fucking perfect like he was not even real. Like he was just a figment of Jungkook's imagination. Ofcourse, Taehyung was not perfect but for Jungkook, he was 'his perfect'.

'How long have you known?', Taehyung asked Jungkook.

Jungkook didn't need to be explained in detail about what Taehyung was asking. He knew this would be a question.

'I found out at the beginning of this year. Jin may have let slip that you loved me when he was drunk'

Taehyung widened his eyes comically. 'How the hell did he know? I never told him'

Jungkook laughed at the expression on Taehyung's face. 'He heard you talking to Jimin once.'

'Oh. ', Taehyung softly replied. 'How do you feel about it? Do you hate me now for falling for you?'

Jungkook smiled, his genuine bunny smile.

'Pabo. Why would I hate you for loving me when I love you myself?'

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