•Liyah•

It's Been A Month Since I've Talked To Kevin. I've Called, I've Texted, Stopped By His Job, Almost Did Everything. Except For A Pop Up At His House. Last Time I Went To Someone's House Uninvited, I Saw My Fiancé Having Sex With My Mother On The Kitchen Table. "Liyah, Asia Need Changed And I Need To Be Leaving Out Now," AJ said Handing Me A Crying Asia. "Asiaaaa, Stop Crying. Daddy Will Be Back." He Said Running Out Of The House. I Looked At The Baby In Front Of Me. Asia Marie Parker. My Momma's Youngest Child. My Boyfriend's Biological Child. Where Did This Start? How Could I Be In This Position Again? I Told AJ About How My Ex-Fiancé Jordan Claimed That Asia Was His Child. AJ Went And Took A DNA Test And Asia Came Back 99.9 % AJ's Child. So My Mom Lied To Jordan About Asia's Being His, For What? To See Me Hurt, To Once Again Take Everything I Loved Away From Me. Jordan And I Were Together For 11 Years, Since We Were 12. Middle School Sweethearts. He Was There When My Momma Ran My Daddy Into Depression And Later Killed Himself. He Was There When The Doctors Told Me It Was A 86 Percent Chance That I Would Never Have Kids Of My Own. But I Guess In That 14%, I Was Actually Cooking A Bun In My Oven . I Rubbed My Stomach And Realized That This Was Really Happening. I Finally Got Out The Zone And Changed Asia Diaper. I Put Her On Some Clothes And Decided To Take A Trip To Kevin's House. I Laid Asia In Her Car Seat And Carried It Out To My Car. I Strapped Her In As The Wind Blew My Dress Around. My Dress Flew Up And I Quickly Gathered It And Held It Together. Maybe This Is A Sign To Show Me That A Pop Up Is A Mistake. I Got In The Car Anyway.

Once We Made It, I Unstrapped Asia And Took Her Out The Car. I Carried Her Up The Steps As I Heard Tank's "When We" Play From Kevin's Apartment. I Hesitated To Knock On The Door. "I Could Be Aggressive, I Can Be A Savage, I Just Need Your Blessing, Say That I Can Have It." The Song Played As I Knocked On The Door Loudly To Be Heard. The Music Was Being Turned Down. I Heard Scrambled Feet And Then The Door Opened Partially. "Hey, I Just Wanted To Stop By And Tell You Some News," I Said Shifted Asia And My Weight To My Left Side. Kevin Looked Behind Him And Then Back At Me. "What Is It Liyah? I Don't Have All Day. I'm Busy." He Semi Yelled. "I'm Pregnant And It's Your Child." I Blurted Out. "You Sure It's Mine And Not AJ's? Yea I Know About Y'all. That's My Twin! How Could You Think I Didn't Know?" I Looked At Kevin With Tears Streaming Down My Face. I Felt Horrible. But I Blamed Jordan For Ruining Me. He Hurt Me So Much That I Damage Everything I Touch. "I'm Sorry. I'll Go." I Turned And Begin To Walk Down The Steps. I Heard The Music Start Back Playing. " Face Down, Ass Up. Back, Back Back It Up." Then I Heard Laughter Over The Music Which Made Me Cry Harder. I Reached My Car And Buckled Asia In The Seat. I Started My Car Up Just As I Received A Message On My Phone. I Ignored It As I Made My Way Back To AJ's House. Once We Arrived Back At The House, I Put A Sleeping Asia In Her Crib. I Went Into The Living Room And Found AJ's Weed Stash And Rolled Me A Blunt. "Whew, I Need A Break," I Exclaimed Lighting The Blunt And Searching For My Phone. I Unlocked My Phone Just As AJ Walked In The Front Door. "Liyah Don't Open That Message In Your Phone!" He Screamed As I Stared At The Message Kevin Sent Me. "Man I'm Too Late", He Said Walking Towards Me. Tears Escaped My Eyes As I Stared At The Video Of Kevin And My Brother Kissing. The Video Played. "Face Down , Ass Up. Back, Back Back It Up." Then Kevin Kissed Terry And They Both Started Laughing. AJ Grabbed The Blunt From Me And Put It Out. He Sat On The Couch As I Stood There. "Come Here Baby.", He Motioned. I Slowly Walked To Him And Stood In Front Of Me. How Did I Know To Trust Him? He Slept With A Woman Old Enough To Be His Mother? He Fell In Love With His Brother's Girlfriend And He Is The Twin Of The Man Who I Was Going To Kill Soon. AJ Pulled Me In His Lap. I Laid There And Cried Myself To Sleep.