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Y/n POV
After a drastic shock and weird realization eventually i came back to the hotel. Thank god i don't have to face any one of them. Closing my door i sighs and lean on it. I chuckled on my own Faith.

What should i call this day. A great day because i know i have feelings for him. Maybe so stronger....maybe love. Or i call it worst that on the same day my heart is aching so much. I can feels it ripping apart. What should i do??? What should i do??
I slide down while leaning on the door and sit on the floor. gripping my hair tightly in frustration. I try and try so hard to control myself but eventually tears are rolling down. Why everything has to be like this.? Why can't i just go and Tell him everything. But also i don't have enough courage to say this in front of him.
"Y/n y-you are so p-pathetic...... So so p-athetic....... Its h-hurting right..... You k-know why its h-hurting..... You k-knew very w-well..... But j-just you are so s-stubborn that y-you can't a-accept it...... You know very well this feelings....... Just you e-ego is coming b-between.....pull yourself together y/n....yeah I'm y/n." I says as i talk to myself. I always talk myself when ever i need support. Since the start I'm alone. I only had myself to motivate me. I sighed as i wiped my tears harshly and go to freshen up.

*morning*

I get up with bloodshot eyes. Applying eyes cream and freshly bath and dress up. I go out. Sparing a glance at jimin room. I found it a bit awkward. And show weird butterflies in my stomach. I start walking straight but then someone grabbed my wrist. With Widen eyes and slamming heart. I turned around to see jimin smiling cutely. I smiled and try not to look at him because of yesterday incident. I don't have enough courage to see him. I feel scared.
"Morning y/n. Let's go together I'm so hungry" he says as we all know his habits he didn't let me say and drag me along. What i say i like this possessiveness. Like he is claiming me. Dancing internally we reach the lobby. We mia see us she immediately came forward and hug Jimin as he also wrapped his hand around her. I feel a pang in my chest. But i try to cover it up. As i free myself from jimin grip and go towards sooha. She immediately smiles. I placed my head on her shoulder.
"What happened bossy are you off mood?" I shook my head. I can't tell her because she is over the way top and it can't even think about the telling her.
"Let's go everyone. Today is party and then the biggest day." Mia say cheerful. We all head to oir company.
Throughout the day whenever i see jimin with mia. I feel like a vage of fire. But i can't do anything.

Aish why you are not a bitch mia.

I seriously ripped her head if she is a vamp like in dramas but she is so sweet. Maintaining my professional looking face. I do work.

"Let's go and have lunch together" sooha said as i Whines because my work didn't complete yet.
"Guys workaholic is back" sooha said as i heard few whines from sooha and yoongi as well as Taehyung.

"Let's go please I'm really hungry" Taehyung said. With a pouting face.

Geez this boys and there pouts.

"Ok fine" i huffs as we all Stand up to go.
"Guys me and Jimin are going out for important work. So we can't join" mia said as i turn she gave a apology smile. Jimin has an amused expression as he himself doesn't know about it.

Is she going to confess to him.

My heart is beating faster. I already forgot to breath. Chewing my inner cheek. I nods. She came forward and hugs me.
"Y/n I'm going to confess to him wish me luck" she whispered in my ear. I swear i couldn't hold my self anymore. Everything is finished. She is going to confess to him.
"B-but-" i hardly whispered as i cut off my breaking voice and nods. She goes with Jimin. I saw jimin and mia going. He is going away just like now. He will go with her forever.

Gulping saliva down. I cleared my throat. "g-guys i just remembered. Mr kim want to talk to me. I can't go I'm sorry" i said As i go away from them. I heard few Whines but i can't just concentrate on one thing. Quickly went out when i see jimin and mia were sit in a car and go. Wiping my tears. I return to my cabin.
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Evening.
I heard a knock on the door as i glance over phone 7:56 pm.

Its too late.how much i worked.

Stretching out my tiredness. I say "come in" in raspy voice. As a bunny like man come in with a goofy smile on his face. I smile as shook my head.
"What are you doing here? Kookie" i said as he give me sheeply smile and plopped on couch.
"I'm here to pick you up noona" he said as he drinks water. I look at him in confusion.
"Don't tell me you forgot about party?" I gave him apologize smile. And nods , he shook his head.

"Actually yes." He stood up before grabbing my hand.

"Let's go and I'm sure you didn't buy anything for the party right" he said as eyeing me from side. I look down. I don't even remember about the time how could i remember about the dress or anything. Honestly i want to distract myself from jimin throught. Thinking about mia confess him. And what if he accepted it. Would always tearing me up. So i better not to think about it.

We sit in as he drives. I don't know how but maybe its mia's car. I also have no idea how he knows about the mall. As he parked the car i jump out and began to walk in. I bet this must be most expensive malls. We walk in as jungkook literally drag me in cafe just to buy his favorite drink and i take one of mcflurry and exited. While roaming around i see many clothing sections but i didn't like anything. Jungkook thugs my coat and ask me."like anything ?" I shook my head while pout. He dropped in hand over my shoulder. "Let me choose a dress for you noona" we go in a store its really good all types of clothing. Jungkook drags me to party section as he roam around with slightly pout. As his finger brushed the dresses. I watch most of the girls are checking him out.

Of course after all he is my bunny.

"Hey kookie i think you may make lot's of fans here. Look they are looking at you" i pointed at all the girls. He looks at them before he quickly stood up right behind me. Probably over towering me. He look at them with scared eyes. I almost chuckled.
As kookie finally found a perfect dress. Its a brown color dress with Velvety texture. A lose knot on the side of waist. Its really pretty.

"Noona that's finally." He says as i chuckled. We made up to the counter. He literally begged me to let him pay. But i can't. After all he is like my little brother how can i let him pay. Pinching his cheeks.

"No kookie i can't let you pay. You are just like my little brother. How can i let you pay. Now lets go and find your outfit" i said. He hugs me.

"Thank you for giving me a big sister. My family is complete. Noona can we buy matching outfits. It would be so nice" he said as he tightly gripping me. I nod as i ruffle his hair.

"Thank you noona. You are the best. I love you so much"

"I love you too kookie. Let's go" i said as we go in another section. Kookie Whine as he wants to pay for his stuff. So, i let him. We reached the hotel i hurried up to my floor as i passed jimin room. I stood straight. My heart is beating uncontrollably as i heard a feminine voice more like mia voice.

They are here....is that means she already confessed to him. And he accept her........now what.

I quickly went in my room. As tears rolling down my cheeks. I pressed my plam on my mouth tightly to suppress my sobs. Plopping down the bed.

"W-why e-everytime....its h-happen to me.....w-why everytime i-i....l-like something t-take....a-away f-from me....w-what should i d-do n-now. I heard a buzzed on my phone. Its a massage from kookie

Kookie🐰🍪
Get ready I'm waiting for you noona at lobby come fast.

Y/n
I'll be there.

Pushed myself away from the bed. I stepped in side the bathroom room. Stripping off my clothes. Standing under warm showers. I let all my tears flow down. I don't wanna feel like this. Its breaking inside. I just wanna go away from this pain.

After getting ready. I go out i try hard not to look at his room. And to my luck he is not even there. I sighs and go in lobby. I was looking down when someone tap on my shoulder. I turned and my eyes went widen.

"Woah you look so handsome kookie" i exclaim in happiness. As he shyly look away while scratching the back of his neck.
"Thank you noona. You look stunning as always" he give me cheesy smile. As we make our way to the party. In the way i was only looking out of the window. Jimin's face is coming in front of me.
"Noona are you okay? You seems like distracted somewhere?" I shook my head as he said, he placed his hand on my hand.
"Noona you can tell me. Come on I'm your kookie" his angelic voice is melting in my ears. Unintentionally tear slip down my cheeks. He immediately break as we feel a sudden jerk. He place his warm finger under my chin and make me to face him. With alot of courage i opened my eyes to meet his hell worried one. He looks so worried. His eyes roaming around my face. He extends his hand and wipe my tears away.
"What happened noona? I know i we don't know each other long but you can trust me. I will listen everything without any judgment. But if you are not comfortable then its okay take your time. But please don't cry. I will also start crying. And musca flows when i cry. Its disgusting" he makes a weird face. I chuckled and placed my hand over his.
"Its not like that.i trust you kookie. It just i myself don't know how to explain. Actually i can't even explain myself the same scenario. I can't admit a simple thing. I will tell you everything when its right time" he gave small nods as he started to drive.

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Taking a deep breath and holding kookie hand frimly i walk in. First thing came in my mind is.

I really don't know that there is so many people working on this project.

I greeted by alot of people. I approached Mr kim and greetings each other. Jungkook hugs him as he ruffles his hairs.
"Don't mind ms kim. We are just like a family" Mr kim said. As i smiled and shook my head. But my eyes are only wandering to a special one.
"I know Mr kim that you are so close to them and please call me y/n we are not in any meeting here." He gave a small nods with his dimples smile. I leave them there as i go towards bar to grab some drinks.
"A very good evening beautiful lady. What would you like to try"

Lady

Gulp down the saliva. Blinking away the tears. I say.
"S-something that makes me forget the pain please" he gave me a small nod with a smirk.

Seriously Jimin is the only one who could look cute while smirking.

I gulp down the werid concoction and it goes down to burning my whole esophagus.

(A/n : esophagus is the food pipe which carry food to your stomach from your mouth. Here is the end of bio classes)

First i would spit it out but after some time my mind seems lighter just like air. I feel relaxed. Pain is decreasing Its feel like my body is numb. Then i ordered more. With each shorts my pain is going down. I maybe have 15+ shorts. i can only sees blurred. Smiling half. I layed my head there. I feel tap on my shoulder. Parting my lashes only half with blurred vision and teary bloodshot eyes.

I look at the person. Blonde hair with a cute crooked smile and he is looking at me passionately with his brown almond shaped eyes.

Jimin

I smile half as a tear skip my eye. He sit beside me. I really can't see clearly but he is jimin.
"W-why" i said in broken voice. He rises his brows as he placed his hand on my shoulder. I shrugged off his hand.
"W-why j-jimin? Why everytime i..I'm experience t-this. W-why do y-you come in m-my life. W-why you m-made me experience all t-those things. W-why do i...i have to g-go through all t-this pain... Its fucking p-painful...you k-know..i-its h-hurting like hell here" i placed my finger on my chest.

"W-why you m-make me feel s-special when you are a-around. Why you m-make me feel i-insecure. When y-you are with a-anyone else. W-why is t-this all h-happen to m-me." I said as tears started uncontrollably i didn't wipe them.
"You want me to answer. You yourself know it. why tell me?" He say in his soft smoothing voice. I sobs.

"I....i d-don't know"

"You know y/n. Admit it" he cares my cheeks. It feels so soft and feather like touch.
"Because. M-maybe i..i loved you." I whispered slowly to myself as i finally admitted it. I know everything but my fear can't let me admit my feelings. I love him so so much. I wipe my tears "b-but its not n-now you p-probably with m-mia....i...I'm h-happy for both of y-you" i shook my head to look at him. But he is no where to be found. I look here and there but it was like he just disappeared. I looked at bartenders.
"Where is t-the b-blonde haired g-guy gone?" I questioned him. He just tilt his head at right.
"Who guys mam? Whom you are talking about?"

"T-the one who is t-talking with me just n-now!" I said as he shook his head.

"Mam no one is here. You probably drunk." I shook my head as i take another drink.

No he is right here. I just now confessed. He probably mistaken. He will be around.
I stand up as i stumble on my steps.
"Mam you are a tipsy. Let me help you"

"N-no im not. I...i c-can handle myself" i start walking as much as i can stable myself with blurred vision. I reach out in some kind of hallway. There i saw two figures hugging each other. They seems quite familiar. When the girl removed her head from male shoulder and i saw her face. I was completely frozen. Its mia and jimin. They are hugging each others. Fresh tears start rolling down my eyes. As i walk towards them but I'm still behind wall. They looking at each other with a kind of love and passion. I try to console myself. That friends hugs each other. Isn't a big thing but what i hear next broke me completely.

"I love you jimin" i heard mia saying , they are still in each other embrace. Jimin is holding her so tightly. I try to control myself but i can't. Then he hugs her.

Everything is finished.

My heart crumbled at the sight.

One sentence broke my heart everything is turn into pieces of glass that shattered mercilessly. All my hopes all my love and assumptions are broken all at once. My trust is broken. I'm broken.

Just like paralyzed, my boby is not moving. Like I'm frozen on the support. I even can't figuring out what going in my surroundings. Its feel like numbness. Blank stares towards the couples who is hugging each others with a passion and love. My head is throbbing. I can't even explain how bad my heart is aching. Its like its gonna explode. My little escaping sobs can clarified how much pain I'm experiencing right now. My throat feels dry as i gulp servel times to keep it hydrated.

They parted away and mumbling something but i can't hear anything. I can't do anything now. Everything is out of control. I just want go out. My sight become to blurred again as black out for once. I want to move out. Its suffocating here. Stumbled on every step. I came out of hallway. My heels aren't helping.

On the way i stumbled on someone but i didn't care. Moving out in freezing nights as its winter time. Its like freezing to death. But it smoothing down my burning heart. The whole street is quieter. Pin drop Silent every where. Each and every moment make me remember his face, his smile, his eyes, his affection. I don't wanna feel like this.

I reached my hotel as a lot of people is watching me. I open the door of my room and get in. Leaning my whole body to door as my knees Lost control. My body lost the stamina to hold itself. The next second i clash on the hard cold floor. Tears fall freely and uncontrollably. As i didn't let them to control. I surrender myself to my depression and miserable life. Letting it out all i just want cry out everything. Hugging my knees and dropping my head on my knees as i pressed my body to a corner of a room.
"I.....i l-lost h-him. Once a-again. H-he will be g-gone away f-from me. Its so f-fucking p-painful. I'm s-so so p-pathetic. W-why i h-have to f-feel so s-sad. C-come on y/n. G-get your s-self together. W-what i do n-now. I h-have to g-get out of t-this. Its so s-suffocating. I'm s-suffering. I can't b-breathe. W-what to d-do." I'll cry while hugging my knees Until there is no any tears left. I laying down on floor a baby position and just starring at the outside. The night seems like never ending cold stormy night. The storm which reflect exactly Like the storm inside my heart. I try to stand up but i end up falling on the floor. Alcohol is taking over me. Then grabbing the edge of my bed i try to stand up and walk over the gallery. Pushed open the sliding glass door. I walk out. The night is so cold but it easy my burning heart. I shivers as cold wind hit my body. But i don't go inside. I slide down along the railing and sit hugging my knees. Leaning my head on the glass door i closed my eyes. But soon all the incident is playing in my mind. I can't let it out. Soon enough my soft sobs could be heard.

"W-why can't i f-forgot all this. What s-should i do now. It s-seems l-like never e-ending pain. I w-want to get o-out of it. I h-have to." My vision starts to get worse as it spinning around. I sigh as i close my eyes and lay there.
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Here, this guy who try to seduce me even in this killing stomach ache.
Just look at his innocent smile. If i die please someone file case on him.

Ahh you are my pill. But please i can't with your smirk. My condition is worse please. Have a mercy on me.

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Morning guys its 5:04 am here. I couldn't get sleep because of my stomach pain. Ahh its really painful. So, i try to distract myself and do something so i write the chapter. Hope you guys enjoy it and please vote also. Love you guys take care of yourself and your family. See you in next chapter.

Guys just now i had a heart attack. Its 5:39 in the morning. I was about to publish it but its not publishing. I was so stressed then i uninstalled it and reinstall it. And then i forgot the goddamn password. And its only buffering and worst the net is full. I was literally crying like my eyes are puffy. I was like what happened to my story my followers. They will be disappointed and how i tell them wattpad being the bitch. I'm crazy that Jimin and y/n story left incomplete. And then thank god i restart my phone and in a blink it start working. I really don't know what is relief if its not this. And in addition my stomach pain is disappeared.
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