drifting apart
Y/n POV
I reached my home as i hung my head low and came out my car. Just then my phone rings. I pick up with out even seeing as i was pretty exhausted.
"Hello"
"Hello ma'am it's me you have given me xxx-xxxx-xxx number and i got some shocking information about it"
"What is it" all my tiredness flies away as i stood with all my senses.
"_first of all they may have highly secure connection. Because it took me four days to hack it. They are bouncing they connection and we can't find the location..but finally we able to and you know what"
"What tell me"
"This thing is
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This is all a trap ma'am for you and him. And if you want i can complain-"
"No don't do anything. I will handle this. Thank you so much" i cut the call as i look at the old conversation. uncontrollably tears whelmed in my eyes. I was sobbing.
How could all this happen...how i let this all...why do it always have to be me...why only my happiness goes through all this...now everything is clear but this-......this could be my only chance. Okay then
I came in as mariya give me a glass of water and i smile at her. She takes away my purse as without even saying anything i go towards my room. I turn on the light as i sighs but as soon as my eyes laid on front it's popped out. My heart again start getting tingling sensation as it's thumping. I clenched the fabric of my dress.
"What are you doing here?" I speak with a stern voice. As he was looking at me tilted his head slightly with glitter eyes. Like he was crying. His eyes sparkle as i can see all my galaxy in his eyes. His eyes speaking all the emotions without actual words.
Ahh....Jimin how much I'm regretting now......i seriously want to hug you tightly i wanna to lost in your presence. But i can't.
He changed his angle as he looks at me with adorable gaze. I try to keep my stern face.
"I was waiting for you. You say you give me chance to explain my self. So I'm here" he continues to came forward as i move back until my back touch the closed door.
"I don't wanna any explanations" i said as i look away. He close our distance as i move my head back. I feel a lump in my throat.
"But you said you will listen to me" his voice sounds wobbly as he was trying so hard not to cry. I look at his eyes which is glitter.
Please jimin please don't make me weak.
"Okay say what you wanna to say but do you remember what you say. If i dont want any relation with you. You will go" i said as i look at my feets. He hums as i pushed him as turn my back eventually my eyes began to sheds tears. i wipe them away.
"I know you will think that i was probably lying to you I'm don't love you" i close my eyes as i bite my lips to control my sobs.
"But believe me i always loved you with all my heart. I know that i messed up all the time. I may not be a idol boyfriend but believe me i always love you with all myself. I tell you everything clearly.... I always act like i don't care of anything. I don't care about any person. It doesn't matter to me if i break girls heart i don't care about there feelings. But believe me you are different. I will not do anything that hurts you. You change me y/n. I can never think of anything else but to be with you."
I always believe in you Jimin...... I never felt this kind of owness. You make me feel special.
Yes i..... Bet on you honestly. My self respect my ego hurts when you said that. You are the first girl to reject me. So i was so angry. And i bet on you. But when i started to know you. When your little things makes me laugh. When your caring personality fills my heart with happiness. I don't even know myself that i was falling in love with you. Day by day each day i was seeing myself loving you deeper than accepted. And i feel like you are the only one i need. And when you are with me that my whole world is stopped. You are my world y/n. I don't wanna know anyone except you. You finally confess i was over the seventh cloud. I was so so happy.....y/n i will do anything to be with you but please don't leave me.... Please and your presence makes me forget about bet. I forgot the bet when you stubbornly takes me to treat my bleeding plam. I never experienced that y/n. No one showed me that love...... no one. You are first one to moved my heart" he says as i was still have my back towards him. I was sure that til now i was crying badly. Tightly clenching my chest as it's really painful. I can sence his voice tembles as he was trying hard not to break down. I pressed my lips in thin line to suppress my sobbing. I huffs out as i wipe my tears and looked at him. I look at his eyes. It's feels like he is on the verge of tears.
I sighed as i look at him with annoyed face. I rubs my temples.
"You explained and i listen now.....i don't want anything from you please go now" i says as i rolled my eyes.
"Y/n" he whimpers as a tears escape form his eyes. He looks shocked and hurts.
Ohh.....Jimin.
"Y/n please don't be like this.... I really love you. Please give me last chance" he moved closer to me taking my hands in his hands.
"Jimin we are over please go" i take away my hand as i signal him to go out. I turned to go but he back hugs he.
Ahh....please don't make this so hard for me.
He tightened his grip as i try to not to break out. He encircle his arms. My crying heart finally find peace. His body reflecting warmth. I let out a shaky breath when he rest his head on my shoulders.
"P-please don't do this to me.... You know I love you so much. I will be broken without you." He sobs as i feels my shoulder getting wet. He was literally shaking.
I'm sorry... I'm so sorry jimin... I can't do anything.. I have to do this for mom.... Maybe we didn't mean to be together.
"Leave me Jimin"
"No....please y/n just give me one last chance please" he spin me around as his forehead touch mine. His teary eyes looking at me but i was looking down.
"I know you are lying. Please don't do this with you with me-" he chocked his words.
"I'm not lying...i can't give a chance to cheater".
"Y/n-"
"I'm going to get married in one week Jimin" he froze as he moved away form me. He looks stunned as he harshly wipe his tears.
"I get it. Your dad. He is behind all this..tell me he is pressing you right. Just tell me once i will do anything to cancel this wedding" he cupped my cheeks as he touch our noses. I close my eyes feeling my heart ripping apart.
I'm so sorry please forgive me and forget me
"No I'm doing this with all my will....now leave me" i pushed him away as he grab my waist harshly. I gasp. His grip is so tight.
"Ahh jimin you are hurting me"
"And you know how much you are hurting me. My heart is hurting y/n. I can't takes this longer please" he shouts as he glaring me with tearing eyes. His eyes clearly show the fear of leaving me. I pushed him away with all my forces.
"Leave me alone. I'm fed up of you" i yells as his back hit dresser hard. His eyes widen but next change to dark. He jolt up to me as he harshly grab my jaw.
Jimin....i know I'm hurting you so much...please let me feel your pain.
"Now you says the the truth. You fed up right. You fed of me. Do you think it's all a fucking game. Do you think playing with my emotions is good y/n" he pushed me back as my head bang to the wall. I bite my lips as i feel my head spin.
"Yes I'm fed up with you. Do you think i want to be with someone who broke so many hearts. Do you think i gonna believe you. When you says you loved me" he turned towards me with aggression. It's his love that comes out in the form of frustration and anger.
I'm sorry i don't mean anything. Please forgive me.....god
"Do you think you are doing anything different. You also do the same as Me you also played with my fucking heart." he Yells as he lowered his brows glare me with disgusted and venomous expression. He twisted my arm behind my back. As i wimpy in pain. It hurt seeing his love slowly turning hate. But I can handle his hate rather than seeing him broken.
"So what i played with a player don't you think it's a great pay back" i laughed, he instantly leaves me as he slowly makes distance.
"Right you never accepted me as whole me. You always have that right... player thing.... I was stupid. Stupid thinking all this is love. Not that was your bloody drama" he shouts as i flinch.
"Thank god some one gives you brains. Of course I'm playing with you. I wanna see how it's feels to be playing with someone heart and a player like you is a best choice. I thought you will be okay with that but...you fall for my fake love boy" i says as look straight into his eyes they were swollen red. He laughed as he came closer so closer glaring me. Our breaths are heavy as they are mingals with a hate and guilt. My nose is touching his cold one. He is harshly grabbing both of my shoulders and pinned me on the wall.
"You disgust me. I hate myself to loved you. I hate the time when i meet you....i hate you" he said in low voice before jolt out of my room.
And i fall on the floor. Clenching my knees around my chest tightly.
"JIMIN" i sob harder and harder, but he never turn.
"J-jimin"
I want his warmness around me. But i only received darkness when he had to leave me. Pain the loneliness I'm right now. The pain that I'm suffering because i give pain to the one i loved most. Guilt, guilty because i left him heart broken. I hurts a angel heart. I made him suffer.
I chocked my breathe as i was struggling for air.
"J-jimin....I'm s-sorry... I'm so sorry... Please f-forgive me. I never do this if i had a choice..... I don't have any..... We only have t-that much time being with each o-others....i hope you forgive me....please forget about me think me as a bad m-memory" i whisper as i shutters every word. I never thought that i would feel so strengthless. The emptiness I'm feeling right now. I feel like someone is squeezing my heart tightly. Ripping apart my limbs.
I feel like throwing up. My bile reached to my throat as i runs towards bathroom and empty my whole stomach. Crying hardly i just settled there. After a sometime i take showers as soon as i came out of bathroom i feels room is spinning as within a second darkness engulfed me.
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Jimin POV
I came out as soon as that words left my mouth. I rest my hand on my car door.
Stupid ass how can you...how can you say that you hate her.........you are so stupid you have to apologize her not to make her angry....i will go and apologize her right now.
I wiped my tears as i takes steps towards her house but i stop..... I stopped as soon as her word ringing my mind.
I'm fed up with you. Do you think i want to be with someone who broke so many girls heart. Do you think i gonna believe you. When you says you loved me
Tears again wimpy well in my eyes as her word piercing my heart.
"JUST STOP....JUST STOP IT" i yell covering my ears to avoid that voice but no matter how much i tried. It never stopped.
No she loves me she is just angry and hurt.
But she said.....I'm just a game for her.
She is lying. I know she loves me.
But she is just playing with you.
I finger comb my hair back as my knees week. I feel a tons of weight on my shoulder. I fall down as i sit on my knees.
H
ow can you think that you can play with me.......i never trust on any girl....i was right girls only know how to play with heart....every girl......but why I'm feeling like so lost first time....how can i get out all this
I know how.........................
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Ok guys i guess I'm so so emotional right now. When I'm writing it i don't know why but i crying. I can feel y/n pain, her dilemma, her guilt and i can also feel jimin broken heart pain, his losing strength and his suffering. I don't know I'm cursing myself. So many times i think let fuck her father. I will make jimin to listen to her cries. You don't believe me i seriously write that but i have to delete it. After so much effort i can finally complete it. I am happy and little bit sad also.
Ok enjoy and vote and comment also. Let me know do you cry or are you strong hearted.
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