I'll never forget that feeling

Like I was no good

Like I couldn't do it for you

Like the way that bitch could

And it's all because you lied

Loved you more than ever

More than my own life

The best part of me I gave you

Yeah, I would sacrifice

And it's all because you lied

- Beyonce

Roc

It's two AM. I just took Hailey home with the rest of my kids. They knocked out sleep right now. I'm sitting in my room, staring out the glass doors of my balcony. For some reason, the Ocean view always calms me down. That and my weed. I grab my phone and go to Dee's number. I got it from Miracle earlier. I press the green button. It starts ringing. "Hello?" She answers. She sound like she still been crying. "Dee..." I start. It's a long silence. "Hello? You still there?" I ask. "Yeah." She mumbles. "Can we talk?" I ask. I'm sittin here playing with a pen top. You know how you get on the phone and start doing weird shit when you nervous about the conversation? Yeah... it's one of them things. "Why?" She mumbles. I sigh. "We both was wrong. We just need to gon head settle it. It ain't no going back in time, it is what it is." I say. "Okay. Where's Hailey?" She asks. "Sleep. Don't come get her. Let her sleep. Can you come over so we can talk?" I ask. "I guess." She mumbles. "I'll text you the address." I say. "Aight." She mumbles. I pray things don't go downhill from here.

Dee

I just pulled into the spiral driveway to the big three story house in the hills. Since when has Chres had money long enough for this?? I turn the radio off and get out. I walk past the large fountain in the middle of the driveway then up to the porch.

I take a deep breath then ring his doorbell. I step back and look down at my muk luks house shoes. The door opens. I look up at him. He's standing here in a versace robe, staring me in my eyes. He looks so different. He was handsome but he's beyond that now. "Hey..." I mumble, moving hair behind my ear. "Come in." He says, Stepping out my way. I step in and look around. His house is giant and amazing. "How many rooms?" I ask. "Six." He answers. I nod my head. "So... Where's Hailey and CJ?" I ask. He walks up the stairs. I follow him up. He opens a room up. It's a spiderman themed room with a King sized bed in the middle of the floor. CJ is knocked out in it. He leads me to another room then opens the door. It's a Little Mermaid themed bedroom with two twin beds in the floor. His daughter Jayla is in one sleep and Hailey is in the other. He closes the door. "I gotta get her own room. What kinda stuff she like?" He asks. "Um... She likes Pink Zebra print and the lion king." i say. He nods his head. "Follow me." he says. He leads me up a small flight of stairs where's it's two closed doors. He opens one. I follow him in the most beautiful master bedroom I've ever seen..It looks like it belongs to a Pharoah. I sit and stare out the window at the view. "So..." I start. "Come out here." He says, opening the balcony doors. I follow him out there and sit, staring at the beautiful view. "Its beautiful." I say. "Listen, DeErra I want to apologize. I was wrong. I know it's been years since we were eighteen but I put you through so much shit and I know it still bothers you. I'm so sorry for leaving you up with my son all those nights and I'm sorry for all the times I've ever disrespected you and fucked you over. I'm sorry I got ol girl pregnant on you. And I'm so sorry about earlier today. I should have never put my hands on you. I still can't believe I did that." He says. I shake my head. "You know, I find it hard to trust what you say. You always lied to me, Chres. How am I supposed to know you sincere? Are you even for real?" I question. A tear rolls down my face. "I am, Dee. It's no point in playin around." He says. I look at him. "Its hard to trust you. I want to believe you but it's hard!" I break down. He wraps his arms around me.

Roc

"I understand. But just know, I'm a changed man. A better man." I say. A comfortable silence falls over us as I hug her and she lightly cries.

"I loved you and you shitted on me, Chres." She breaks down. "I know, I know and I'm for real. I ain't gon ever hurt you again." I say. It's like now that we here, my emotions just came back ten times stronger. I grab her hand. "I'm so fuckin sorry, Dee. You forgive me?" I ask. She nods her head. "Yes. Do you forgive me? I'm so sorry for keeping-" I cut her off. "Shh... I deserved it bruh." I say. "No one deserves that." She says. "Don't worry bout it bruh. We gon make it right. We gon make this thing work." I say. She lays her head on my chest and silently cries. "Can I ask you a question?" I ask. "Sure." She mumbles. I take a deep breath. "Do you love Royal?" I ask. "Yeah." She answers. "You love him like you love me? I know you still love me." I say. "Chres... Don't do that." She says. I hold her. "I didn't ever stop loving you." I admit. She doesn't say anything. I never thought we would share this moment again.

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