a/n: Thank you so much for waiting for me to update this book. I'm really sorry it took me so long to update. I probably post another author's note for you to be informed about what happened to me this past months. 

Anyway, I just you guys to know, that I'm not fully recovered for all the stressed that I experience this past months. But, I will try to update each book every week (I hope I can), as much as possible. 

Once again, Thank you so much for waiting. 

Khiegilsan

#BWMB #BenefitsWithMyButler #NatsuXLucy #TheAlmostEndingChapter #KhiegilsanStories

LUCY'S POV

I CAN hear noise but I can't figure out what they meant. Then I heard a familiar sound... a sound that... killed us. I can hear it, maybe they're still shooting us, making sure that we are both dead. How cruel can that be?

We have dreams that we haven't achieved yet. We plan for our future family. But, everything vanishes because of someone... someone who doesn't want to let go.

My eyes blurry – I can see anything but I know, I'm still in Natsu's arms. I can't feel that excruciating pain. Is this what dying feels like? I can't feel any pain... so maybe...

Yes! This is what it feels like.

I felt that my body lift. I started to panic. They're going to separate us. I can't... I can't be away from him. I tried to fight the heavy weight of darkness that is surrounding me but I can't.

"Natsu..."

I love you.

NATSU'S POV

I CAN still feel the pain... but it can't compete with the pain I feel in my heart. I failed to save her... I failed to protect her. What's hurt the most is that we tried so hard. We strive for a happy life.

But it's still not enough. Most people will probably think how foolish our decision was. That way, we can live our life without each other. How can you say you are alive if you are not happy with the decision you made? We strive in this cruel world to be happy not to be miserable. And choosing a life without the woman I love is hell. I never know that it will hurt this much.

It hurts when you almost grasp the future you want but it was suddenly taken away from you. Like you don't deserve the future you want.

"Damn it!" I heard someone say, I felt my eyelids flutter. I slowly open my eyes and I can see my brother's face. Right! I have a family that I disappoint because of my foolish decision. Decision that I'll never regret "You can't die, do you understand?" I heard him shout.

I tried to answer him. To ask him what happened to my wife. I can still feel it. I can still feel the pain that I know she wasn't in my arms anymore.

"You have a wound in your back. Can you still feel anything?" he asked me. I nod, hoping that he will notice my response.

I never see my brother like this. Like he's in too much pain. I can see the water in his eyes but I know he controls himself. My brother was always in control of his feelings, but not this moment. I wanted to apologize to him, I tried to smile at him which made his eyes widen as if he understood what I meant.

After all, he's my twin brother. He knew what I'm thinking. He shook his head as he gave orders to someone. I was put in an ambulance. My brother acted immediately, he put devices that I knew would help to keep me alive. I was hoping that they would move to the nearest hospital but we didn't. It almost looks like we are waiting for something then realization hits me.

We are waiting for her. We are waiting for Lucy.

"Haru... Where is my w-wife? L – L – Lucy" I tried to fight the consciousness that started to leave my body as I asked him those questions.

"She'll be here" I heard someone say as she covered my mouth "Save your energy and stop talking, cousin"

Someone moved my eyes. I can see Grey and Laxus carefully lay something on my side. It took all my energy to turn my head. To see what they put beside me.

And it almost tore me to pieces when I saw her. My tears stream down on my cheeks. I forced myself to reach her hand – and when I did, I squeezed it hoping that she would do the same. But... but she's cold. She's covered in blood. I can't see her breathing and I can see any sign of...

...

Life.

"NO!" I don't know where I got the energy. But I don't care. This can't be happening. She can't die and I can't live. We're in this together. She can't leave me. We made a promise.

"I think she took a shot on her spine. We can't be sure. We're going to the nearest hospital. So hold on brother-"

"She's not breathing..." I mumble I don't know if they can hear me. They probably did because I can hear a faint cry of Wendy. They didn't correct me as if what I said is correct. No! I shouldn't be correct...

I tried to move to reach her. My brother even tried to stop me but I refused. I need to see her face... and that's when it hit me.

I started coughing blood at the same time an excruciating pain hit me, it felt as if thousands of daggers were stabbing me - killing me over and over again. I didn't let her hand go. I hold her hand as I silently vow to her that I will find her in our next life.

"Fuck! We are not in fucking parade Laxus!" Haru yelled angrily. I didn't hear Laxus' response. I just felt like that van was moving fast.

"Not going to... h-hospital"

"Stop being selfish, Natsu!" Haru yelled angrily.

"D-Don't please..."

"You'll be fine. I won't let you die, brother" He said as he held my hand tightly.

"Don't s-save me." I know that I'm being selfish. But is just don't want to abandon the woman I love, "I need to be with her"

I saw pain in his eyes, followed by the tears that he's hell bent on hiding. I know I hurt them, but I can't break my promise to Lucy.

Lucy loves me with all her heart. She's willing to give up her life just for me. I know what she feels. I can't live this life without her. If we can't be together in this life. I... I will find her in the next life that we have.

Then we will be together. I will make sure of it.

I succumb to the darkness with a smile...

...

...

I will find you my dearest Lucy. My wife.

MY HEAD throbbing and I feel so thirsty. I curled in as I coughed several times as if I was gasping on air. I struggled to think of one important thing that I had forgotten. But, no matter what I think I don't remember that thing. That thing, which only made my situation worse.

I slowly opened my eyes as I dazzled for a moment because of the light on this place. I hold my throbbing head, as I look around. What happened to me?

It was as if a faucet full of memories suddenly came back to me. My mouth opened as I watched the memories flashes before my eyes.

That accident, the six years gap, our surprise wedding, the kidnapping, and our dead. I remember everything.

I got up from my seat when I saw the familiar woman walking toward me. She walks while observing the environment. There was a small smile on her lips but the concern was obvious in her eyes. As if she was worrying about something.

When her eyes met mine – my vision clouded with my own tears as if I can't believe this whole damn thing. I'm confused by what's going on but I'm sure of one thing.

She smiled at me brightly "Natsu" I quickly ran towards her and without a word, I hugged her tightly, "N-Natsu?"

I buried my face on her neck as I mumbled, "I'm sorry..." I'm sorry because I couldn't protect you. I'm sorry if I failed you. I tried to swallowed my own sob that trying to escape my lips "I'm sorry, Lucy"

I heard her chuckle but she didn't push me away instead – I felt her hand wrapped on my waist "You don't need to apologize, Natsu. I probably overslept due to fatigue"

I slipped out of my embrace with him for a moment and examined his face. I was confused, looking younger at his face than I remembered. I opened my mouth to speak but was preceded by a familiar voice "Sir, you are awake."

I looked behind me and there I saw Virgo, "I'll just make your tea again."

"Virgo ..." I said in my voice softly but that was enough for her to hear "How many hours have I slept?"

I could feel Lucy looking at me but I ignored her. Because, I started to realize what was happening.

"Two hours, Sir."

My grip on the woman and my arm tightened even more "Natsu, is there a problem?" she asked.

I was unable to answer Lucy's question. Everything that happened to us was a...

Dream.