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LUCY's POV

I LET out a frustrated sigh before I pressed the backspace on my keyboard. I've been repeating the same act for almost five times and I'm getting irritated. I just got a call from Aries and she told me that I only have two days to finish my draft or else my vacation leave won't granted.

Well, as of now, I really don't care if I'll be granted that leave. I wasn't even sure if I wanted to go with him. I brush my fingers through my hair before I blew through my mouth.

I'm confused about his action. He told me countless times that he loves me – but as of now, I'm not sure if I'm going to believe it. His action is opposite with his words.

I didn't bother looking at him when he I heard the door of this room finally open. I instantly smell the scent of beer but I just fix my eyes on my laptop, "Why are you still awake?" he asked me softly.

"I have deadline" my voice sounds dead.

"C'mon let's sleep together" he said – I felt him touch my shoulder which I instantly remove and look at him. I saw confusion written all over his face "Vanilla—"

"Again, I have deadline" I repeated "I need to finish this."

"You can do that tomorrow" he said softly – he was about to reach my cheeks but I immediately stood up and put a distance between us. I saw an emotion flashes on his eyes "Do we have a problem?" he ask me calmly.

"I don't want to talk about it, Natsu" I hissed "Leave me alone." I tried my best not to shout on him. He didn't say anything instead he just stare on my face as if he was trying to read what's on my mind.

After a couple of second, he let out a sigh and nodded. He did what I asked him to do. Without even saying anything – he went to the bathroom, clean himself and went straight to bed.

This is what I want and I should be happy because he did leave me alone. But... I'm not gonna fake it.

Its hurt but I can't blame him. He doesn't know what I feel just like I don't know if his feelings for me is real.

I FEEL so nervous while waiting for her to finish reading my draft. I don't know why I'm acting like this maybe because I wasn't confident with my own draft or maybe because while doing that draft I have a heavy heart.

"Lucy is everything okay?" Aries ask me frowning. I gave her a confused look but my lips remain sealed "Well, this is not so you. You look so stressed and I feel like you can't comprehend your own thoughts. Is everything okay?"

I chuckle nervously "Everything is okay." I lied "Maybe I'm just stress because I need to finish this draft as soon as possible."

"This is not the first time that you submit a draft like this, Lucy" she reminded me.

"I know" I sigh, "But this is the first time I submit a draft where I remember my past."

"Is there a problem with it? I mean, I know you want to remember your past and now that you remember it. It seems like your memories are giving you stress"

"It is" I say truthfully "And to tell you honestly, I haven't remember everything in my past. I just remember some but not that much"

She gape at me "Does your husband know about it?"

I shrugged my shoulder off "Not sure" I mumble under my breath. We never talked about it and I know he doesn't want to talk about it.

It almost feels like he doesn't want me to remember everything in my past.

"WHERE have you been?" he asked me the moment I entered their house. He was frowning at me which also makes me frown. I didn't answer him, and just walk pass to him and went straight to our bedroom, "I'm talking to you!"

"And I don't want to talk to you!" I said without looking at him. A gasped escaped my lips when all of a sudden he grab my arm and force me to stop from walking "What the hell!" I curse under my breath.

"Let's talk, please" he beg.

"I don't want to talk!" I said as I remove his hand on my arm. I didn't bother looking at me and went straight to our bathroom inside our bedroom. I heard him knock but I just refuse and continue stripping my clothes off and stand on the shower.

"Lucy!" Natsu pounds on the door. I turn on the shower. The door rattles "Lucy, open the damned door. We need to talk!"

"Go away!"

"I'm not going anywhere unless you talk to me."

Suit yourself. I wanted to yell that but I don't want to disturb his parent even more. I climb into the shower, effectively blocking him out. After I finished my routine. I unlock the door and open it to find Natsu leaning against the wall opposite, his hands behind his back. His expression is wary, that of a hunted predator. I stride past him and into our luggage.

"Are you ignoring me?" Natsu asks in disbelief as he stands behind me.

"As if" I murmur sarcastically as I search for something to wear.

"Lucy—"

"I don't want to talk about it, Natsu!" I hissed when I finally loose the ounce of my patience "Go ask your ex – girlfriend or Ellie. I'm sure they both have the answers"

"What the hell are you talking about, Lucy!" he ask disbelief "Tell me if I did something terrible"

I laugh sarcastically "Wow" I mutter "I am willing to talk to you two days ago. I asked you about that girl named Lisanna and you refused. When we arrive here, Ellie told me that you married me because of the Heartfilia Empire. Like damn! As in wow"

"What the hell! That's full of crap!" he curse, "Vanilla, Listen—"

"I'm not interested"

"I love you"

"I don't know if I'm going to believe you" I said truthfully. I saw pain cross on his eyes as he stare at me but I just continue "I'm confused. I don't know what to believe. I don't know if you are doing this because of the Heartfilia Empire. I don't know if you are just using me or maybe I'm just a hindrance on your happiness."

"What makes you think that way?" he mutter "It wasn't like that. What do you want me to do in order for you to believe me?"

I shook my head confuse "I don't know. I honestly don't know" I shrug, and Natsu moves quickly across the room towards me. I whirl around, stepping back as he reaches out "Please don't touch me" I snap and he freezes.

"Let me show my love for you, Lucy" he begs.

I shook my head "I don't want to get hurt" I say truthfully as my own vision clouded with my own tears. He blinks at me, shock "Please don't hurt me"

He step forward as he reaches on my cheeks – gently wipe the tears that cascade down my cheeks, "I won't hurt you" he whisper – as he started to plant sweet little kisses on my expose shoulder. I know blush engulfed my face as he slowly close the gap between us... until our lips finally pressed together.

"Natsu..." I breathe between our kisses.

"I love you, Lucy" he murmur and before I even answer him. He hungrily pulled me close and kiss me. I can feel his tongue roaming around my mouth which instantly make me groan. I felt him wrapped his arms around me – pulling me close as if I wasn't close enough.

My hands clasped to his chest as I responded to his kisses. He slanted his head and took my mouth for a hungry kiss as his hands dug on my waist, holding me firm.

I can feel the hunger in his kisses, the frenzied want to conquer, and I didn't mind one bit. My back automatically arched when his kisses went down on my neck – I can feel his tongue dipped and taste the dents of my collarbone. I raised my hands and tangled my fingers through his hair, pulling him closer to me as if we're not close enough.

The next second, I have his mouth again with him emitting a guttural sound... almost a growl. I clash my tongue with his, opening up more to him and giving... giving more.

I heard his soft growl and in the next second I found myself being carried by him. I immediately hugged my legs around his waist when I felt him move to our bed. I look at him with hooded eyes, my mouth parted when he remove the towel that covered on my body and without breaking our eye contact, he parted my legs and touched me there.

His finger worked me with feather touch, sliding on my wet and sensitive core. He started raining tiny kisses on my body until he reach my breast. I gasped his name in delight when he took one breast in his mouth and suck... hard.

He continue worshiping my body with each flick of his tongue and graze of fingers. I grasp on the sheet with both of my hands, my body having a mind of its own is moving with his hand that continued to send an intense wave of electricity all over me.

He tug my peak with his mouth, his free hand snaking up on my other breast, rolling the peak on the pan of his thumb. I can feel my bell starting to quiver my undeniable desire.

Too much, it's like fire is igniting around us. Faintly touching us both, every touch, every kiss it send me to the great lengths and I can feel something building inside me.

My lips parted and my eyes snap open when I felt something else there. I look down and I almost shattered in pleasure when I saw him there.

"N-No ... st-stop ..."

He look up to me and smiled playfully. He flick his tongue on my wet core, teasing me. I can feel the circular motion of his tongue and I buck underneath him when he push it inside me. My left hand went down and I tangled my fingers through his hair. He massages that sweet, sweet spot deep inside me.

Still looking at me, he pulled his finger out of my core. I groan in protest, feeling the emptiness that his touch left me with. But it wasn't long that I felt something on my entrance... hard and warm. My gaze went down, seeing him for first time after six years of not having 'this'

He's beautiful. It was long, thick and angled... veins running from its hard length. He was perfect. So perfect.

"I love you." He whispered, his voice rough.

He didn't give me a chance to answer him when he slowly entered his hardness on me. my lips parted at the intrusion but I didn't stop him and instead I open my legs to accommodate more of him.

"Aaah!" I moaned, and his lips are on mine, again as he slowly, so slowly, lifts and rocks. I throw my arms around his neck, surrendering to his gentle rhythm and to wherever he'll take me.

I flex my thighs, riding him. He feels so good, leaning backward, I tilt my head back, my mouth open wide in a silent expression of my pleasure, revealing in his sweet love making.

"Luce... I love you" He breathes and he leans down, kissing my throat. Holding me tight, slowly and easing in and out pushing me. Higher and higher.

My body quivered when I reach my climax, clenching on Natsu's length making him growled out my name as he reach his own peak, filling me with his warm release. He pulled out of me and I can't help but wince. At the next moment I felt his hand on my cheek. I look to him and he smiled at me, not his playful smile, 

"Vanilla... I love you. I'm not doing this because of your family business. I'm doing this because I love you. I'm sorry for acting like a jerk couple of days ago. I just... I don't want you to get hurt. I know Lisanna is a hard topic for you. That's why, as much as possible I want to ignore it"

"But it is part of my past, Natsu. I want to know everything I forgot"

"I know" he pauses "And I'm sorry for not understanding your situation"

For the first time, after that incident on that café, I finally got a peace of mind. Natsu's words makes me at ease and relax.