LUCY's POV

I REMAIN myself mute as I listened to him order our coffee. I really don't know why I agree on this – I mean, I promise to my editor – in – chief that I'll visit our office after the convention but here I am having a coffee with a person I left six years ago.

He clear his throat to get my attention so I look at his face "Are you alright? You seems spacing out. Is there something wrong?"

I shook my head instantly and place my elbow on the table as I lean a little – turning my head on the side where I could see the people outside the coffee shop "I'm fine, I'm just thinking about my work"

I didn't hear anything to him so I frowned and turned my head to see him – only to find out that he was staring at me with those unknown emotion on his eyes. I clear my throat "You too. You seems spacing out too. Is there something wrong with my face?"

He shook his head a little "Well, you look different"

"Different?" I said confused.

"You look beautiful, Lucy" he sincerely said which makes my eyes wide – I open my mouth to say something but my own words vanished on my throat "I'm sorry. I know I took you surprise" he said and there I saw pain crosses on his eyes.

"How's life?" I said changing our topic.

"Life is still the same. My life is probably revolve around my office and do some shits," he said "I – I just want to know... why?"

"Why... what?" I said confused.

"Why did you left that day, Lucy?"

I stare on his face and remain myself mute. I don't know how to answer his question. I just stare on his handsome face like I'm memorizing each part of it. His face looks matured but still handsome.

I open my mouth to say something but the waitress interrupt us by serving our coffee and a slice of cake. Natsu murmurs his 'thanks' to the waitress but his eyes never leave my face. I clear my throat "I don't know, Natsu"

"What do you mean you don't know" he asked frowning.

"I woke up that day without anything to remember. I don't know who I am... I don't know those people who keep on asking me 'how are you?', 'are you alright?' and 'are you hurt?' I don't even know you until now and I shouldn't come with you but here I am having a coffee despite the fact that I should make my way back to our office"

"Your parents died, Lucy" he said making my heart clench in pain for unknown reason "Your mom died after a year that you left – and she was looking for you. After that, your father died because of his cancer five years after you left," I know pain crosses on my eyes as I stare on his eyes "They asked me to manage your company until you remember everything—"

"I don't remember everything in my past, Natsu" I said "And if I remember my past – I still don't want to manage that company. I love my life now. I love my job. About Mr and Mrs. Heartfilia. I'll visit them, don't worry"

"I'm not forcing you—"

"I know... but you said that they wanted to see me." I mumble "I'll visit them but I'm not sure when"

My eyes got widen and a gasp escaped my lips when all of a sudden Natsu reaches my cheeks and gently caressed it. My eyes never leave his face and I didn't remove his hand on my face, "Lucy—"

He was interrupted by a sudden call of his phone and when he check the caller I saw the name 'Levy Mcgarden'. My heart clench on unknown emotion – I bit my lower lips and divert my attention on the other side while Natsu answer the call.

"I'm somewhere away on my office now, Levy" I can feel the irritation on his voice but still I didn't look on him "You just fucking call me to say that. I'm not... You should check it properly."

I can feel his heavy stare on my face but I just busied myself on my sight – seeing "Just fuck off, Levy"

I couldn't hear anything after that – and I felt Natsu hand on my hand – so I turned my head to look at him "I'm sorry about that" he mumble sincerely.

I shook my head and smile "Its okay," I sigh when his phone rings again "I think, we should probably go. Your girlfriend keeps on calling you and my editor and chief is waiting for me in the office"

"Girlfriend?" he asked me confused.

"Your girlfriend keeps on calling you."

Natsu laugh – amuse is really visible on his eyes as he look at me "I don't have a girlfriend"

"Then wife?"

"How I wish" he shook his head as if he remember something "Are you jealous?"

"Why would I be jealous?" I asked innocently. I check my phone when its suddenly vibrate – I bit my lower lips when I saw Ares message. I inhale sharply before I held his gaze "I have to go" I said before collecting my things.

"Is everything alright?" he ask me. I nodded. I was about to stood up when he suddenly hold me on my hand. I look at his sad face "Will I able to see you again"

"I don't know" I murmur "Excuse me." I said leaving him again. I heard him calling my name but I pretend not to hear him,

That's right... I can only pretend... I can only pretend that my heart doesn't remember him. I can pretend...

MY EYES were a little swollen when I check it on the mirror on the following day. I stayed the whole night crying for unknown reason. I don't even remember how I fall asleep last night. I sigh, before I summoned myself to do my morning routine.

I don't feel working this day.

I was wearing a grey turtle neck partnered with a black leather jacket and grey ankle pants paired by a white shoes. I don't feel like wearing a heels or a boots today. I tied my hair into a tight ponytail and applied some light make up – just to enhance my features.

I notified my friend, Ares about my arrival at work and she said that I owe her a strawberry cake because of what I did yesterday. I told her that I'll buy her some other time and she said 'it's okay'.

When I arrived at Forever Young building located somewhere in Tokyo, Japan. My colleagues greeted me and congratulate me on those article that I wrote months ago. I just gave them a smile and excuse myself and went directly towards our boss office where I saw Ares waiting for me.

"Good morning" I mumble before I sit right next to her.

"I want to ask you a question about why you suddenly cancelled your appointment here in the office yesterday. But I feel like you don't want to talk about it – so I'll just shut up" she said.

I pouted my lips "It's not that I don't want to talk about it" I said, "I'm not ready to open up. My make – up will be ruined"

Aries laugh on me but didn't say anything in return. After five minutes our boss named Pierce Tolentino "Sorry for the inconvenience, ladies" he said as soon as he sit on his swivel chair "Anyway, this meeting won't take too long since I have to fly back to New York"

Aries and I nodded "First, I'll congratulate you Aries for managing this branch very well. I don't have any problems or complains about you as the editor in chief on this branch. Second, your article Lucy Heartfilia is doing great. Some of your stock holder even congratulate you for being one of the top ten best journalist of our company."

"Thank you, Sir" we both said it.

"Anyway, this meeting is about you Lucy Heartfilia. One of our clients ask you to do a musical video for their company"

"Musical video?"

He nodded "Yeah the themed of it is a wedding," he shrugged his shoulder and explain the whole planned about the musical video. Our boss even shows us the proposal and what will I do in the video "So what do you think?"

"Okay, Sir" I said "I'll do it"

His lips twisted into an impish smile "Great" he said "I'm sure this project will surely benefits you in the near future"

Benefits?

My heart suddenly beat so fast. I couldn't even focus on the meeting and I didn't notice that it was done. I put my hand on the head when the rush of memories flashes before my eyes, "Lucy are you alright?" I heard Aries said before I felt her hand touched my shoulder.

I lift my head to meet her gaze "I – I'm fine" I lied.

"You don't look fine" my boss said.

"Y – Y – Yeah... Can I go on the washroom?" I said – they both frowned and I didn't waited for them to respond.

I instantly locked the washroom and wash my face as if it will help me to ease the pain it brings as memories flooded me.

A tear escape my eyes when his face flashes before my eyes. I can feel my heart clench in pain when I slowly remember how my sister died, my parents, my friends, and most especially him...

...

I remember the man I love.

At the moment, everything feels safe. Because of them. Because everyone besides me.

I CAN feel the pain all over my body but what's really pain me even more is the hot liquid that running down on my thighs. My whole body is aching and I can't even move a single thing... but I know... I know... it's too late.

...

It's too late for the baby.

...

For our baby.

"I'm sorry" I mumble, "I can't save you, baby" I said and tried so hard to move and touched my belly but I failed.

My sobs turned into a loud cry. I heard someone knocking at the door but I refuse to open it. I can't... I can't believe I just forget it...

My heart hurts – and I can't even do anything to remove the pain. I brush my both hand on my head as I cry even harder. Crying should alleviate the pain... but it was wrong. Crying doesn't help anything.

It doesn't help.