3rd POV

The dorm was quiet it had been for the past few weeks. If there was any noise it was small sniffles or outbursts caused by built up suppressed emotions. Like they were told none of the members went out except when it was time to practice not that they seemed to want to either.

Jimin and Jungkook found the slightest bit of comfort in each other and never separated. They spent most of their time in Tae's room they hadn't sleep in their own room since they found out he left. The sheets need to be washed after so long but they are scared it'll wash his scent away.

Hoseok went through stages before he reached his current state of regret. He denied and deflected, lashing out at the others. He even went crazy for a while when he started pretending none of it happened and Tae was still there.

Yoongi stayed in bed most of the day if he ever got up it was to use the bathroom or occasionally write in his book. Though he'd instantly lose the passion for it, frustrated he would go back to sleep.

Namjoon never really slept unless he passed out and he never ate unless the manager forced him to. He stayed in his studio looking through a book and a photo album that was given to him by Taehyung a while back.

Jin spent most of his time watching the others he felt like if he took his eyes off them they would disappear too. He also thought a lot about the times he noticed things about Taehyung but kept quiet. Like when Taehyung would always stare at Jimin and Jungkook for long periods of time and they would at him. Or how Namjoon, Hoseok, and even Suga would get mad whenever Tae's attention was focused on the two.

Jin POV

I knew. I knew how they all felt about each other and the reason things ended up so bad. Everyone was jealous and all of it fell onto Taehyung. He took the grunt of everything, it only made things worse that he never did anything about it.

He just smiled and seemed to instantly forgive what was done, like it didn't matter. Like... we weren't important enough to even care. Then I read that letter, I was wrong. I was so wrong, he did care he loved us and we drove him away.

The feelings of regret and sadness wont do anything to bring him back nor will it make anyone feel better. Not after what we know now and not after what we did all this time. Worst part is we thought we knew him without realizing we knew absolutely nothing at all.

We knew nothing about the pain he was baring this whole time all alone, us only making it worse. When I saw the bruises I did nothing...... Like always I did nothing. I guess I thought that since I wasn't doing anything major it was fine. I'm so stupid! I should've been better, done better but I can't change whats happened.

I Miss Him.

Namjoon POV

I've been sitting here looking at these pictures for the past.... I forgot how long, I'm not even sure what time it is. The days have seemed to pass uneventfully for a while now so even the date seems to have been forgotten.

Tae gave me this book for my birthday last year, it had pictures from a trip we all took to Hawaii. They are very beautiful and seemed to exude a certain sense of adoration and love. I look at other pictures taken of us quite often none seem to be as sincerely taken as these were.

They say every picture taken is telling a story both about the people in them and about the one who took them. They show how they see things, what it looks like from their view and these pitures gave off very loving feels.

While the people in them..... they're nothing but a lie. I only wish we were as perfect as we came off in these pictures. We always told Tae he was the problem but that couldn't be further from the truth. I wish I could take it all back.

I Miss Him.

Yoongi POV

Never thought it was possible for me to be tired of sleep ,but here I am. Lying in my bed eyes wide open, peaceful darkness too far away for me to reach it. Stuck with unpleasent memories and regretful actions, I can find no release.

Not that I deserve one, as always I've taken something beautiful and destroyed it. I let my emotions control me and rule over my actions. I did things I can only be ashamed of, now I'm here stupidly wallowing in self pity.

I disgust myself, so do the others walking around like the world decided to take a massive shit on them and screw up their lives. When we were the ones taking our problems out on someone who only wanted the one thing we we too cowardly to give him.

I'd be lying if I thought turning time back would change anything what could be different, without knowing what we do know everything would have been exactly the same. We never knew because we never took the time to look past our own problems. All I want is for him to know he wasn't at fault.

I Miss Him.

Hoseok POV

How did I end up this screwed up? Why did I do those things? I didn't want to but I did. I wanted him to pay attention to me, I wanted him to see me. I guess in the end I got what I wanted, he saw me and ended up hating me......ended up leaving me.

I started all of this, I was jealous and I wanted him for myself. Since I couldn't have him, no one could. I let him feel isolated and ignored, I let him feel hated. I thought it was only fair for us to be in pain together rather than to see him happy with others.

But no matter what I did he just smiled, nothing seemed to break him. I wanted him to need me but he only tip toed around me instead. I knew how sometimes he cried when he thought no one would bother to listen, I wanted to comfort him.

I waited and waited for the day he'd break and stop the act, funny thing is when he did I ignored it now he's gone. I'm left with the same ugly feelings I had before and the painful truth left behind by the one I hurt. I'm far from sane, I don't derserve to breath the same air as him.

I Miss Him.

Jimin POV

'Best Friends' Thats what we were supposed to be, I failed at every aspect of it. I wasn't there for him when I should have been, I left him to suffer by himself. He tried to reach out many times but I ignored all his efforts in doing so.

'Selfish' thats the one word I think would best describe my actions. Yeah I made attempts to try and do something in the end but it was useless and selfish. I feel sad and lost like a part of me hadn't realized just how important he was to me.

Now here I am left to pick up the small pieces he left behind and keep them close. I hate the fact that he left and I want to see him so bad , but if I'm honest its a good thing. He's going to be happy again, he wont get abused, he'll smile genuinely again.

He got away from the problem so he wont be so depressed anymore. It sucks but all I want now is for him to be happy, even if that means I'm not there to see it. Though nothing will change for me.

I Miss Him.

Jungkook POV

I call and text hyung everyday, it says he read the first few but now the calls wont go through anymore. I still do it, as if its some kind of ritual, hoping he might pick up one day. His voice I want to hear it so bad, his laugh I miss it, his smile......

I wish I could remember the times he did those things genuinely instead of forcing it. I wish I had noticed everything, I wish I'd have just been honest from the beginning.

Now its too late we chased him away and he doesn't want to see us anymore. He was hurting, enduring everything by himself slowly destroying the him I admired.

He was always so bright and fun he helped me forget everything unpleasent. We had alot of fun together, he was so strange but I grew to like that the most about him. I miss him playing in my hair and fumbling with my ear.

All things I got accustomed to and found comfort in are the same things I said he was being annoying for doing. I was wrong I'd do anything to be able to see him again.

I Miss Him.

3rd POV

"I Love Him"

Awwwwwn Thanks so much for 2k views😆😆😆, OMG I'm so happy. I've slowed down my updates alot, its just that something is about to happen and I'm contemplating wether or not I want the ending to be the way I originally planned it or make it...different. I still think its a good idea I'm just gonna be sad to end it like that, but then I'm like its such a good way to end it though 😫😫😫AHVAAIYRADUAIYAUDTUAIA I feel so irritated😑. Whelp hope you enjoyed this chapter the long awaited meet up shouldn't be too far off. Enjoy~💕