It's been 5 years, finally, I am here, at my land ...at my hometown ..at my home country ... even though I feel so happy to be here ... I am afraid ... I am so afraid ... I don't know how I am gonna face things.

When I was so heartbroken because of my first love ...god gives me something more valuable ...god gave me someone who is loving me, who will love me till my last breath.

I would like to consider him as god gift for not ruining my best friend's life. ...yes, I changed addressing him as my love a long back. It was my first step for myself ...for my betterment.

After two years of being together, when my love come up with a suggestion of meeting my bestie one last time ... I disagreed ... I was totally against it ...it was not like, I am afraid of the thought that I will fall for him  ...but I am so afraid to face him.

What will I say, when he ask where was I in the last 5 years ...why didn't I call him ...why did I message him ...why didn't I contact him ... I have nothing as an answer ... I don't want to make him guilt of my feelings. I don't want to make him feel pain. I don't want to make him a reason for our broken friendship.

No, our friendship is not broken ...it cant be, I will never be.. even though it hears in my head ... I am afraid ... I am so afraid ...what if, he stops talking to me ....what will I do, if he acts like, he doesn't know me... I am afraid of his reaction... I can't handle that ....not at all.

But after my love's confirmation, I got little courage ... I got little guts ... I got little confidence to meet my bestie.

It was my love who did all the things for our meet-up..who contacted him first ...who helped me to reach the venue ...

Now he is sitting beside me. He was upset ...he was so upset and mute. He didn't talk to me  ...when I tried to talk ...he was so silent ... I was on the verge of giving up. My eyes filled with tears ... I cursed my decision to meet and when I was about to go, he hold my hand and grabbed me for a warm hug.

He was crying ...he was crying like a small child who lost his favourite candy ...seeing him like that my eyes were also in tears... I could feel what would he had gone through from that single hug.

I felt like a selfish person ...yes, I was so selfish ... I was damn selfish. I only thought about myself when I left him. I didn't even try to think about him. Just like he was my whole world, I was also his whole world ....his only relation ...his only relative ...how could I be so selfish.

I was so wrong. I thought, his love will never make him miss me. Her care, concern and love all will help him to forget me... I was wrong ..! ...why couldn't I understand ... I was his only relation ... I was his best friend ....whenever he wanted emotional support ...he used to come to me ... whenever he misses his family he comes to me ...

Now I have no words ... literally no words ... I prepared a lot of things to tell him ...but now, seeing him in this way ....only asking apology was in my mind. But I was too embarrassed to ask that too.

He was the one who helped me in the past, he was the one who gives all the love and care ...and when he needed that in return I simply left him... How selfish was I

After having a warm conversation, I went to his house, and met his love and their little cute girl who has my name ...she is so adorable ...so lovely.

Later that night, I called my love ... I thanked him for giving me my biggest happiness ...thanked him for making me feel less guilty .... thanked him for giving me more peace ...and I finally said the three magical words ..which I didn't tell him in the past two years ❤️

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