Clarke knew that there was a slight chance Bellamy could be gone for good. She knew she would have be level headed and not let her heart take over her actions if what she thought came true, she knew it would be a struggle to be strong if he didn't come back...she knew that she would have to keep everyone safe but without his help this time. Clarke knew all of these things....yet some part of her also knew there was absolutely no way she could possibly accomplish these things because of one small fact.

she was in love with him.

Clarke was brought out of her thoughts as echo comes barreling into the room. "We need to leave....now, i will not just sit here on my ass not knowing if Bellamy is alive. I dont know how you all are just acting like everything is okay" Clarke brings her hand to her head, stressing she closes her eyes trying to find a moment of clarity to think like Bellamy would in a situation like this. She racks her brain on how to think clearly...she finds herself genuinely astonished at how she's managed to even breathe properly.

Again Clarke is interrupted from her thoughts as a glass Echo throws down shatters across the wooden floors. "none of you care!! YOU DONT GET IT. I LOVE HIM" by now Echo has fallen to the ground with tears threatening to release from her eyes, Echo looks around, hopeless at the feeling of not being able to have Bellamy by her side. Clarke knows the feeling all to well, she gets up from her wooden stool and walks towards the center of the cabin 'Come on Clarke....be strong...be strong for him' she thinks to herself finally making eye contact with everyone around her. "Echo i know its hard....but you're not the only one who wants to find him" Echo scoffs, turning away from the group she leans her head against the wall of the cabin to look out into the wilderness surrounding them..as if to keep her mind at bay.

Raven sighs from across the room deciding to join Clarke in the center. Squeezing Clarke's hand Raven clears her throat "Clarke is right Echo..we all want to find him. But to do that we have to think clearly and come up with a plan to get him off Bardo" Trying not to sound too distraught Clarke swallows the growing lump lodged in her throat as she turns towards Hope "You said you had away into Bardo earlier when we came here..I dont suppose you still have access?" Hope shakes her head in response. Clarke begins to worry even more than before...she's begging at this point. Begging anyone who's listening to give her the strength to find Bellamy. Clarke thinks back to when they last saw eachother...him holding onto her so tight..for a moment she thought that it meant a little more than friendly comfort..but Clarke knew not to get her hopes up again, she missed her chance to say anything when Bellamy went into space without her. Of course Clarke knew it had to happen..she knew there was nothing to be done at that moment.....so why did she feel so...hurt.

"Clarke..you okay?" Clarke is shaken from her thoughts yet again at the sound of Raven's voice. "Mhm..yea..um yes i was just thinking of an alternative plan..." Clarke thinks back to how they got here..the eligus suits helped them travel into the anomaly..so maybe if Raven and Gabriel spent some time fixing the suits, they could all swim down and travel into Bardo. She smiles a little...realizing she could be one step closer towards Bellamy. "Okay i think i have a way..Raven, Gabriel you two will sit down and study those eligus suits we wore on the way here, see if you can fix them up for a few of us to go" Raven nods walking over towards a table, grabbing two suits leaving the other for Gabriel.

Clarke turns around facing the rest of her friends "okay now we have to decide who will go" immediately Echo stands up "i'll go" Clarke nods warily. "okay so that means Hope and Echo are taking two.." Clarke stops momentarily before continuing her sentence...will Bellamy even be alive when she gets there...will he be okay? Clarke feels sick just thinking about what could be happening to him at this very moment...wanting to just sit down and cry for a week. "Raven will take last one" Echo voices out. Clarke snaps her head up at that giving Raven a glance, noticing that Raven was already looking her way. "Echo..i think it would be better if i took the last one..Raven got pretty beat up not to long ago..the trip could be dangerous for her." Raven looks down again nodding along with Clarke's words "yea Clarke is right..i dont wanna risk it..plus i have Emori, Hope and Gabriel to keep me company." Murphy gives her an offended look. "And the cockroach" she smiles at him and he chuckles.

Echo's eyes haven't left Clarke once since she stated that she would be joining them. Clarke begins to walk away when Echo starts speaking. "Clarke maybe I should just go by myself..you know..he means a lot to me ..and I think he'd feel better having me around" Clarke feels annoyance creep into her thoughts. Raising her eyebrows Clarke inhales, before letting the air back out in a forceful manner. "What you think your the only one in this whole goddamn planet that cares about him? other people would like to see him
too." Clarke tries not to sound annoyed..she really does out of respect to Bellamy..she's kept in her irritation, but the way Echo was acting all 'high and mighty' just because she was dating Bellamy....was seriously pissing Clarke off. Echo likes to think herself closer to Bellamy than everyone else...but Clarke knows..that she beats Echo in that area..Hell they spent way more time together back on earth than they ever had..not only that? But they also kept their bond secure, sure they had some....bumps along the way but..they never truly lost that connection they began when they saved each others lives back on their day trip.

"Who? you?? are you referring to yourself?" Echo ask, annoyance dripping from her tone. Clarke crosses her arms in response..gathering up all her courage to not slap the absolute fuck out of Echo "Hope is coming to you know" Echo laughs, its filled with disdain. "Clarke..if you were talking about Hope, you wouldn't have sounded so damn offended. You were talking about yourself...as if you really care" Echo mumbled that last part..but Clarke heard it..and it didn't sit well with her. At all. "Im sorry..would you like to repeat what you just said?" Echo stays silent, staring Clarke down. Everyone else in the room has stopped what they were doing and stopped talking, to nervous to make a sound as is if it could set either Clarke or Echo off.

"I said. would you like to repeat that Echo" Clarke is now clenching her fist against her arm letting what Echo said get to her more than it should. Echo repeats what she said..now stepping closer towards an defensive Clarke. "Echo you act like..your the only person in existence to ever understand Bellamy. Its funny considering how a part of who he is now, came from after he killed all those people...back on earth which by the way is your fault, since you practically got Gina killed, congrats..you gave your boyfriend immense amount of pain well done." Echo lunges at Clarke knocking them both onto the floor, Echo begins to punch Clarke across the face. Clarke flips them other grabbing a fistful of Echo's hair and slamming her head back onto the ground. Murphy rushes up towards them grabbing Clarke by her waist to pull her off Echo, while Emori grabbed Echo, the two women continue to stare at eachother intensely. "What the hell is your guy's problem??" Raven yells. Clarke looks away gnawing on her lip. 'Damnit' she thinks 'you were supposed to keep it together..Clarke your loosing it. Head and the Heart Clarke... Head and the Heart. "Your right Raven ..i'm sorry..i let my emotions come before the objective." Raven gives her a knowing look. Echo shoves Emori off her proceeding to storm off into the front of the house. Hope follows her leaving Murphy, Raven, Clarke and Gabriel alone.

After a while everyone returns back to what they were working on before the outburst. Feeling absolutely drained from everything Clarke plops herself onto the bed letting gravity pull her body down until her head connected with the bedding. Raven watches her before deciding to go talk to her, dusting off her hands Raven stands up and walks towards Clarke. "Hey" Clarke opens her eyes meeting Raven's worried ones. "Hey." Clarke breathes out slowly..before sitting up and meeting Raven's gaze again. Raven tilts her head a little before sighing "whats up Clarke..are you okay" Clarke looks down at her intertwined fingers..thinking of Bellamy Clarke takes a while before she answers,
truly thinking... was she okay? "Yea i'm fine Raven ? why" she manages to say. Raven looks off to the side "because you rarely loose it like that...genuinely speaking your the most level headed person i know, i've never known you to snap like that except for a handful of times..so whats really up" Clarke stays silent yet again...Raven was right, she cant just break down like that..its not her..well, minus Russell this wasn't going to be who she was without Bellamy... she was determined to be put together for him..to get him back. "Clarke...i know" Clarke looks up at raven in confusion..knows what? "What are you talking about?" Raven smiles a little before answering. "I know Clarke..and i think Echo knows too..thats why she provoked you and ultimately fought you. I dont think she meant to let it get to her as much as it did ...but anyways, point is...i know Clarke..i know you love Bellamy." Clarke sits there dumbfounded...was it really that obvious?

All the sudden they're cut off at the ground rumbling beneath them as Echo and Hope burst into the cabin. "Somethings happening"