I literally have no idea where to start.

Okay, first things first, I'm so tired of hatred. I'm so self conscious at school, everywhere I go, that I just can't take it anymore. I need to learn how to be more confident and say no, because I feel like every kind word I speak feels like an empty promise. My friends and I are drifting away slowly, and they've been with me through so much that I can't let them go.

When I went to confession a few weeks ago, I told the priest that I was holding grudges. He gave me good advice, and even though I don't remember the exact words he said, I vaguely remember the words he spoke being about staying close to the ones you love and start being nice to the person you're holding a grudge on.

Every time I go to church, when the priest asks us to pray an intention, I always pray for these people: Alan Rickman (Severus Snape in the Harry Potter movies), my Papang (grandpa), Solstice (SilverEmpressTLC) , Simone Black (a member of the band GRL who committed suicide), and everyone in the world.

Because think about the things in life that are so simple, so easy to get, yet many people don't have it. Sitting on a chair? Be grateful you have one. Have a phone or mobile device? Lucky you.

You know the hate people give to celebrities? Saying that they're sluts and idiots and such? That's just so wrong. I saw some people hating on Kim Kardashian just because she had plastic surgery. I mean, she just had it because she wants to feel good about herself. Don't we all want to feel good about ourselves at least once in our life?

I really hate hate.