Jazakallah for each and every readers support,utmost patience and immense love for this book and its characters.Jazakallah for trying to understand this almost foreign concept of polygamy and its effects.

If I ever though any means have offended,hurt anyone's feelings or insulted you please find it in you to forgive this author of yours.

Yes there were times where I got mad and wanted to give up but your support kept me going.Jazakallah for that support.

Nazmeera,Hamza and Aamanah have all grown as characters and now we back at the start.

Book 2 will In Sha Allah be out sometime after Eid if everything goes as planned.

I love you all

Jazakallah for the duas for my good health

I won't say jazakallah for the daggers that will be thrown my way as soon as you guys realize how bad this chapter gets

Take care and have an amazing last week of Ramadan.Keep me and the Ummah in your duas.

Jazakallah.

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P.S.THERE IS A BIT OF MATURE LANGUAGE

Hamza sat on the couch bouncing his leg up and down,his eyes fluttering to the door every two seconds and his mind full of sorrow.He was a dumb thing who could not even explain himself properly and right now they were paying for it.

It had been a two weeks since the whole incident happened and Nazmeera had practically made herself scarce.She would leave early in the morning and come back late at night once Hamza and Aamanah were in the room.She would sneak in to see the children when she thought they were asleep,caress them for a while and then leave.The only way Hamza knew this was because he watched her and he did not miss the black circles under her eyes or the fact that she seemed to have been loosing weight.He needed to fix this and with Aamanah gone to the her paternal tribe taking the children along he could do just that.

Hamza watched as the door handle twisted and in walked Nazmeera,he was quite sure that if the lights had been on and she had seen him she would have turned to walk out the door.Right now he was covered by a blanket of darkness that lifted once she switched on the lights.

When Nazmeera's eyes fell on him they widened a bit and she winched.

"Hamza."

"Nazmeera."

There was silence for a few seconds before Nazmeera put her bag on the table and turned to face Hamza.

"Where's Manah?" Hamza stood up and Nazmeera watched his movements like a hawk,waiting for him to do something irrational.

"Gone to visit Abi and Ummi Jameel you would know that if you were less scarce." Hamza was not accusing her he was just making a point and Nazmeera nodded a small,sad smile on her face.

"Unfortunately I've been quiet busy this few weeks,gosh I haven't even been able to have a decent cup of tea." Hamza watched Nazmeera remove her shoes and avert her eyes whenever he tried to make eye contact.

"So you being scarce has nothing to do with what happened?" His eyebrows lifted when Nazmeera rolled her eyes at him shaking her head.

"Nope,I've been busy.As for what happened well you were right I was taking up much of Aamanah's needed time with the twins so this gave her the perfect time to be with them.Isn't that what you wanted?"

Hamza ran his hand through his hair,"When I said that I never meant that you must stop feeding the children or even coming to spend some time with them while they awake.I just meant that Aamanah was feeling that you get more time with Umar then she does and it made her seem a tad bit insecure over her child perhaps only looking towards you for comfort."

Nazmeera folded her arms over her chest,eyes narrowing and leaning against the table,"And she couldn't tell me this herself but rather she made you her mouthpiece?I mean would it have killed her if she told me herself instead of using you to tell me."

"Aamanah never told me to tell you that in fact she wasn't going to tell you at all I just thought that perhaps I could speak on her behalf." Hamza realized that he had raised his voice and lowered his tone,his eyes begging her to understand,"I know that the carelessness of my words hurt you....."

"No Hamza." He looked at her shocked as she stepped forward,"Your words wasn't what did the damage.In fact I could careless about what you said.What hurt me was the fact that Aamanah felt that way,you said that you felt like Aamanah wasn't getting enough time with the children when in fact you were lying because Aamanah must have been the one who said that.What hurt me was the fact that you were willing to lie for her to me instead of just ripping the band aid off and telling me the truth.That's what hurt Hamza that a woman who I consider closer to me then anyone in the world could not tell me just how she felt,instead you felt the need to lie.You think I didn't notice the longing looks she'd give Umar or the possessiveness in her hold when he wouldn't quiet down and I'd reach for him.I am not stupid Hamza,I know what's going on around me.So basically the only one at fault here was you lying for her and that's what hurt.Well I wouldn't say hurt,I'm just effen disappointed that I've become such an outsider to you and Aamanah that you had to lie to me."

"You not an outsider Nazmeera." Hamza defended but Nazmeera let out a humorless chuckle.

"If I was not an outsider then you wouldn't have lied to me the way you did you gullible fool." Nazmeera turned to walk away when Hamza strode forward and grabbed her arm turning around.

"Don't you dare walk away from me Nazmeera!Let me bloody explain myself!" Nazmeera felt her blood boil and she pulled her arm out of his grasp,fighting off the urge to smack the living shit out of him.

"I think you've explained enough.Get the hell out of my sight." Nazmeera tried to walk away again but Hamza pulled her back.

"Stops trying to f^^king walk away dammit!Stop overreacting and let me explain myself." Nazmeera turned away and glared at him,the burning rage inside of her threatening to explode like a volcano.

"You think I'm overreacting?Well your explanation can bloody as well go to hell then Hamza.I'm done with this you acting like you innocent you've always done things unintentionally and then come back wagging your tail like a damn dog apologizing and thinking oh Nazmeera is good hearted she'll forgive me.Well news flash darling that's not going to happen today so get out of here faster then a bullet train."

Nazmeera turned away and stormed to her room with Hamza on her heels.As she attempted to close the door,Hamza pushed it open and grabbed her by the shoulders,pulling her in for a kiss filled with fury and anger and very other emotion he could convey.

Nazmeera knew she should have fought harder when he pounding fists went limp against his chest,as he laid her on the bed and as he proceeded to make love to her throughout the night but dammit being in love made you soft and there was nothing she could tell him to stop him.

Hamza glanced around the room trying to find Nazmeera before he got up.Hamza took a bath and changed, walking downstairs to see an empty apartment.

His shoulders slumped and Hamza made his way to Aamanah's apartment where he heard voices coming from the room.

".......Thank you so much Nazmeera for taking over Hamza's work,it means so much to me." Hamza stopped in his tracks as he heard Aamanah say that and he frowned,work?

"Oh come on he deserves to spend this time with you and the children."

"Yeah but I was afraid that if he goes back he won't have that much time with the children."

"Don't worry.For the next few weeks his free I made sure of it."

"You a star Nazmeera.Honestly you doing this means a lot to me."

"Oh come on you'd do the same for me hey."

"Yeah but you doing his work as well helping around here means so much to me and I can't be more thankful that you actually took over for the time being.Thank you for doing this for me."

Hamza moved away confused by what he had heard.He walked away to the balcony and pulled out his phone,dialling Muhammad's number.

"As salaam mu alaykum boss."

"Wa alaykum mu salaam Muhammed.How's work?"

"It's great." Hamza heard the hesitation in his voice but decided to probe a bit deeper.

"You must send all my work to me today."

There was a silence before Muhammed spoke in a timid voice,"Sir there's no work.Everything's been done."

"By who?"

"Uhmmm..." Muhammad's hesitation irritated Hamza,"By who Muhammed!" He demanded.

"Mrs.Nazmeera." Hamza gritted his teeth in fury,cutting the call.

Now the past weeks made so much sense.Nazmeera was doing his work.Nazmeera lied that she was doing her own.He told Nazmeera that her decision of wanting to give Aamanah time with their children was right not realizing that she is actually sacrificing her time to do his work so that he has enough time with the children.And the worst part?Aamanah knew and did not bloody tell him.This made him furious.No wonder Nazmeera was angry.Aamanah had done her wrong first by asking her to do his work and then to tel him that she wants extra time with the children.

Hamza heard footsteps walk out of the room and he his behind the curtain,hearing the door open and shut.

Hamza stormed towards the room and Aamanah lost her smile seeing him so furious.He pulled her out of the room and into the lounge,Aamanah gasped at his behaviour as he stared her down in the lounge.

"Hamza...."

"What the f^^k Aamanah!" Aamanah was taken back at Hamza's attitude and she stood up.

"What happened Hamza?Why are you furious?"

Hamza laughed humorlessly,"Should you really be asking me that Aamanah?Should you?Don't you know why I'm furious?"

Aamanah shook her head,"I don't."

"Well then let me tell you.You told me that Nazmeera was spending too much time with the children and that you were worried they'd get too attached to her and on the other side you tell her to take my work load which keeps her busy.Why would you lie to me if you already made a plan to make sure that Nazmeera won't be around?"

Aamanah's eyes filled with tears at his accusing tone,"But Hamza I...."

Hamza held up his hand,"Don't you dare give me excuses Aamanah.I don't want your damn excuses.I can't believe that you would behave so selfishly."

"But Hamza...."

"Why would you do that Aamanah?Are you so jealous of Nazmeera that you'd ask her to do that.You know she already doesn't get enough time with me now and whatever time she does you've taken that from her."

Aamanah shook her head,tears falling,"I didn't....."

"You know what Aamanah you a selfish b^^ch."

Aamanah gasped,sobbing at Hamza's words and she covered her mouth,shaking her head.Through her tears she saw someone stride forward.

Hamza felt a hand turn him around and his head whipped to the side,stinging.He looked up to see a furious Nazmeera.

Nazmeera had almost gotten into the lift when she realized that her work bag was left in her apartment.She pressed the button for the lift to go to her floor.She got off the lift and entered her apartment only to hear a shout.

"What the f^^k Aamanah!" Nazmeera frowned and went towards the partition where she heard Aamanah,"What happened Hamza?Why are you so furious?"

She heard Hamza laugh humorlessly,"Should you really be asking me that Aamanah?Should you?Don't you know why I'm furious?"

Nazmeera heard the tremble in Aamanah's voice as she replied,"I don't."

Hamza's answer shocked her to the T and Nazmeera put a hand over her mouth as tears filled her eyes,"Well then let me tell you.You told me that Nazmeera was spending too much time with the children and that you were worried they'd get too attached to her and on the other side you tell her to take my work load which keeps her busy.Why would you lie to me if you already made a plan to make sure that Nazmeera won't be around?"

She heard Aamanah try to talk but Hamza cut her off,"Don't you dare give me excuses Aamanah.I don't want your damn excuses.I can't believe that you would behave so selfishly."

"But Hamza...." Nazmeera wanted to step forward but her feet were stuck and she felt her heart break at Hamza's next words.

"Why would you do that Aamanah?Are you so jealous of Nazmeera that you'd ask her to do that.You know she already doesn't vet enough time with me now and whatever time she does you've taken that from her."

Aamanah shook her head,tears falling,"I didn't....."

"You know what Aamanah you a selfish b^^ch."

Nazmeera's blood boiled and she stalked forward.Hamza had nor right to call Aamanah a b^^ch.Aamanah's sobs were glass piercing her heart and Nazmeera passed that partition only to grab Hamza by the arm and turn him around.Without thinking twice she slapped him across the face,her anger getting the better of her.

"How dare you call my sister that!She's done nothing wrong Hamza.I took the decision to take over your work.Aamanah only found out this morning from Zeenat because she overheard our conversation.You should have let her explain you dumb ass." Hamza's face twisted from blind rage to mortified pain.

Nazmeera went towards Aamanah and took her to the room as Hamza collapsed onto the floor.

"I'm so sorry Aamanah.I'm so sorry.This is my fault.This is....I'm so sorry." Aamanah was in torn and as Nazmeera held Aamanah against her she knew that the only person to blame was Nazmeera herself.

Nazmeera got off the bed,leaving a crying Aamanah who reached for her and Nazmeera looked at her as she held her hand.

"Stay." Nazmeera cupped her face on her palms and placed a kiss on her forehead.

"I'm going to be back now now." She walked out of the room and went to Hamza,pulling him up.

"Look at me Hamza." Hamza looked up at her and Nazmeera felt her heart tear a bit at his tear stricken face but she kept her anger at the forefront.

"Go to her and apologize.Go tell her that you sorry.I'm taking the children while you'll talk.Go on your knees if you have to but you better get forgiven Hamza.What you said was wrong,you should have asked first.You should have gotten rid of your damn anger before speaking.Go."

"She'll never forgive me." The almost dead voice that he used,the foregone look in his eyes weakened Nazmeera's resolve and she cupped his face in her palms.

"She might not forgive you now but she will forgive you soon.Just ask her please." She leaned up and placed a kiss to his lips.She pulled back and looked him in the eye before pulling him to the room where Aamanah sat where Nazmeera left her.

Nazmeera left Hamza and went towards the cribs,she gently picked up both babies and laid them in the carriers before exiting the room to her temporary room.

Hamza went towards Aamanah who refused to let her gaze fall on him.He fell on his knees in front of her and his tears fell.

"I...I'm sorry Aamanah.I'm so sorry habibty.I..I'm sorry." Aamanah shook her head.

"You hurt me Hamza.You should have...you should have asked."

"I'm so sorry.I was blinded by rage and I didn't realize the wrong I did." Hamza looked at Aamanah who was still crying,"I..I.."

"You were blinded by your need to be by Nazmeera?You could have asked Wallahi I would have given you an answer.You wronged me Hamza."

"I'm sorry." Aamanah looked away,her tears falling faster and she wiped then away furiously.

"I can forgive you for misunderstanding me perhaps but calling me the B word was too much Hamza.Yes I know I've wronged Nazmeera a lot but I never thought that you'd think so lowly of me."

Hamza reached for her hands which when she tried to pull them back he tightened his grip,"I'm so sorry.I know I've wronged you but please find it in you to forgive me."

Aamanah looked down at him,"I thought this would happen to Nazmeera.Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined you doing this to me.You've done something for her that I would have thought you would only do for me.You know Hamza?I never thought you'd be able to love after me but you proved me wrong.I was happy but right now I want to convince myself that you actually love her that you fought with me.I don't think you ever fought with her for me like you did right now and that hurts.I feel casted away,I feel like an extra.I feel like I've lost my rights over you.In a second you let go off your trust for me and accused me.I love you Hamza but you took that so far.You've made me the bad person here all because of her,your second bride." Hamza let out a sob.

At the door stood Nazmeera,her he and covering her mouth as tears fell one after the other.Ya Allah what had her presence done.She has become the cause of the destruction of a family.The family she was supposed to save she ruined.She couldn't let that happen.Umar and Uthmaan would grow up in a complete home.She wouldn't let their family be taken away as her own was even if it meant she would have to leave.She would even if it meant leaving behind the people she loved the most.

Nazmeera made her way to her temporary room and looked at the twins.Placing soft kisses on their foreheads,she moved back.She switched on the baby monitor and rushed to her apartment.

In her room Nazmeera pulled out two suitcase's and quickly dumped clothing into them.She put other valuables that she held closer to her heart into the bag and closed it.All the while rubbing her tears away,tears that fell furiously.

Once she was done she pulled out a paper and wrote a shaky note,her tears staining the page.

I'm sorry.I'm leaving I won't ruin your family forgive me.

Nazmeera pulled her bags out of the apartment and she called a cab.She got into the cab,laying her head down,tears ran down and she made dua that her decision would bring happiness.

Meanwhile Hamza sat begging Aamanah for forgiveness.

"I can't forgive you as yet Hamza but if I've learnt one thing from Nazmeera is that everyone deserves a second chance.I will give you that but please never accuse me or call me names like that again please." Hamza nodded and reached up pulling Aamanah into a tight hug.

"Wallah I'll never do it again.I promise with my whole heart.I promise you habibty." Hamza tightened his hold on Aamanah as if he was afraid if he let go she'd leave him.They pulled back hearing cries come through the baby monitor and they looked at one another confused.Wasn't Nazmeera supposed to be with the children.

The two if them walked to her temporary bedroom only to find the children,Hamza took UthmUthmaan and Aamanah took Umar.The two of them looked at one another and walked out of the room.

"Nazmeera?" Hamza called out.No response.

"Maybe she's on her apartment?" Hamza shook his head,"She'd never leave the children alone like that but let's check."

They went to her apartment and Hamza made Aamanah sit handing her Uthmaan as well.He went upstairs and opened the room door only to gasp at the sight of strewn clothing.He saw a paper flapping and he gently toomthe ring off it while lifting the paper.The words on it ripped his heart open.How could she have thought this.

He rushed downstairs and went to Aamanah.He told her to put the children down in the carriers that were in Nazmeera's apartment before handing her the paper.

Aamanah chocked back a sob.

"No.No she can't leave Hamza.Hamza stop her." Hamza wrapped his arm around his wife as he spoke to the watchman.

"She's gone." Aamanah broke down and Hamza held onto her his tears flowing as well.She'd left them and it was his fault.

The sky let put a roar at the sight of the couple and the winds fought against one another at the distress of the love that was being put down.

Nazmeera stood with her hand on the handle of the bag and she looked back,her tears dropping down her cheeks,her heart crying and begging her not to do this.She turned her head to look at the dark grey sky and closed her eyes.

Even though this felt so right why did it feel so wrong?

She had to go,she could not bare this burden.This was right and she had to move far away from what caused her guilt.She ended up like the person she despised the most but she would not do any more damage.Her heart may cry but her head was the true guide at that moment.

“Flight 307 to Canada is set to departure.All passengers please make your way to gate 7.All passengers please make your way to gate 7.Thank you.”

The announcement was made and she wiped her tears away,standing up and begun walking towards the gate throwing one last gaze back at the entrance.Her hope diminished and she walked through the gate leaving her old life behind her.

She hoped her decision brought the joy she hoped it would but why did her heart still wail and why did her blood run cold.

The sky once again scream and trembled in  pain as he watched what happened,the sun held onto her rays in fear of letting the truth come to her and the rain pelted the ground in anguish,crying for the cracks that had came through.

THE END