Hamza paced the hall at the house as Umme Khultum sat coloring.It was already 6 o'clock and Nazmeera was not home.This had been the way she would be coming home and Hamza was annoyed by it.Since Yusuf had popped up Nazmeera had barely given him any time.

It was annoying him and putting him on the edge with the fear of losing her.He needed to speak to her before he decided that swearing Yusuf was the correct option.Hamza heard the door open and Umme Khultum got up to run to greet her mother.

Hamza heard Nazmeera's yelp of surprise as Umme Khultum probably ran into her.Their voices were hushed as they came into the lounge and Nazmeera sat Umme Khultum down,with a wrapped box in her hands.

"As salaam mu alaykum Nazmeera."

Nazmeera looked at Hamza and smiled as she glanced down at her daughter who begun to unwrap the gift paper.

"WA alaykum mu salaam Hamza.Sorry I'm late.I had an urgent meeting and then...."

"You had to meet up with Yusuf so you got late,right?" Nazmeera shook her head at his tone and looked down again when Umme Khultum let out a scream of joy.

"Mama,this is so cute." In Umme Khultum's hand she held a Lego box and Nazmeera nodded her head.

"Yes it is.Uncle Yusuf said that it's a early present for you." Hamza clenched his jaw at her words and stormed into the kitchen with Nazmeera looking at his back with a sigh.

"Umme why don't you go to your room and open it up.I'll come play with you now now."

"Okay mama.Tell uncle Yusuf I said jazakallah."

"I will sweetheart." Umme Khultum walked to her room and Nazmeera made her way to the kitchen where she found Hamza sitting on the floor drinking water.

"Hamza..."

"What Nazmeera?" He stood up and Nazmeera would have been taken back by his harsh glare bust she was not.In a way she deserved it and now she had to do her part of explain to Hamza why she had been so late the entire week.

"I have some explaining to do."

Hamza rolled his eyes,"No,you don't.I don't want to hear of how amazing your week with Yusuf has been." Nazmeera almost flinched at Hamza's tone but she caught herself at the last moment and walked forward only to lean on the opposite side of the counter.

"Yusuf was not here just to meet me okay.He wanted help planning out the venue and other things for his wedding.Its not been amazing,it's been tiring."

"That doesn't cover up the fact of why you slept in the lounge and in the other room when you would get back!" Hamza gave her an accusing look and Nazmeera took a deep breath.

"I didn't want to disturb Umme Khultum and your sleep because I was finishing up work.Its not that I didn't want to sleep in the room with you and Umme Khultum,I would do my work and by the time I was done I'd be dozing off Hamza."

Hamza moved forward to lean forward against the counter,"Oh so now I'm Hamza,what happened to Mr.Sulaiman?How are we going to work this out now that you working almost full time?How are we going to ever mend this broken relationship?Or is it that you don't want us to mend our relationship?"

Nazmeera closed her eyes as she recalled a conversation she had,had earlier that day with Yusuf.

Nazmeera and Yusuf walked into the office,they both took their seats as they discussed some final decisions regarding his wedding.

"So what's going between you and your hubby now?" Nazmeera gave him a small almost sad smile.

"We together but not together.I mean we together cause of Umme Khultum but we not together as spouses should be.I just don't have it in me to trust him,Aamanah even my aunt and uncle."

Yusuf nodded his head slowly,"Why can't you trust your aunt and uncle?They haven't done anything to you?"

Nazmeera glanced down,"I just feel like somewhere it is their fault for getting me into this marriage with Hamza.First my aunt swore me in because of whatever they ever did for me and then Aamanah used me to stay in her marriage with Hamza.That day if Aamanah hadn't spoken bad about me which caused me to leave,she would have told them that Hamza slapped her and I feel like they would have found me at fault,which mind you I was because I never told Hamza I'm doing his work so he misunderstood everything.So I  a way I almost ruined their relationship while my relationship was sailing smoothly.Right now I'm just so confused as to what to do about this whole relationship.I want to make it work but I'm so damn scared that I've been hurting every single one nonstop." Nazmeera stood up and begun pacing,"You should have seen the look in their eyes when I spoke.I'm just so confused even though I've left everything in Allah's hands this fear has gripped me so badly that I cannot stop trying to protect myself and my daughter.To them I might be the bad one but to myself I am just doing everything to protect myself.Does that make me the bad one?"

Yusuf shook his head,"Nope,it doesn't make you the bad one but if you don't give them a bit of a pathway into your life they going to misunderstand your hurt for hate.I know you want to protect yourself and Umme Khultum but just try to pull your walls a bit down.Not all the way,give them a hole and see if they willing to dig crater.Remember that this time you have your support system and that you have an opportunity to rule your life the way you want to not under any conditions that they put for you.Hamza is your husband as well and you have a right over him.When shove comes push take a stand and say that's enough.Until you don't give them a chance you won't be able to know if it's all worth it.Dont give up before you've tried."

Nazmeera opened her eyes and she walked around the counter to stand in front of Hamza,she touched his arm lightly,looking him in the eye,"Yes Hamza,I want to make our relationship work.I know up until now I haven't been exactly welcoming to any attempts that you have made but now I am going to try to give us a chance.I am going to try to make our relationship work.You have to understand though,I'm not the Nazmeera who left years ago.I've got a stable job from 9-5,I work late nights at home but I try to spend time with my family when the weekend comes.I am no more going to take any insults lightly and when it comes to having you to myself I will be selfish.I have learnt to fight for my rights and I'd be damned if I don't.I need you to understand where I'm coming from as well and I need you to understand that now I will fight for you through thick and thin.I won't run away when I feel like I'm going to lose everything.I will stay and fight.If you don't like it tough luck,I'm staying." Nazmeera took a deep breath," I do love you but now I want you to love me as much as I love you without taking Aamanah's rights.Aamanah is your wife no doubt and feel free to share the world with her but what happens between you and her stays between you and her.What happens between me and you stays between us.This time I won't make any exceptions unless it's dire.Yes,there will be times when Aamanah and myself will have family days when we all will be together.I'm putting all my trust in this relationship now Hamza Ibn Abeed.Don't make me regret it."

Hamza stood as still as a statue.He could not believe what he was hearing.She was really giving their relationship a chance and she was so damn close.Ya Allah he could not be any happier then he was at that moment but all he could do at that moment was stand with his jaw touching the ground and his eyes wide.

Hamza snapped out of his daze and in his state of happiness pulled Nazmeera closer to him for a hug.Nazmeera want stiff in his arms but Hamza ignored that,closing his eyes and enjoying just how close she was to him before kissing her forehead.

"Jazakallah ya Nazmeera.Jazakallah.I will make sure that you don't regret your decision.I agree to everything you say.You have made me the happiest men on earth.I won't do anything that will make me lose you."

Nazmeera felt tears cloud her eyes and she blinked them away as she tried to relax in his arms.His scent that she could only associate with him,that gave her the comfort of home,pulled her in and she sighed.

The winds outside rattled in joy as they danced around the setting sun who cursed his luck at having to miss the start of something new,seething that he hoped His Lord would make more beautiful and filled with happiness.
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As Salaam Mu Alaykum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatu

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