kabir's POV

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It is not easy to deal with heartbreak and is even more difficult when the person whom love the  most in this whole entire world left you behind without thinking for a second. It is a feeling which one never wants to experience ever......

The moment Naina left I didn't stopped her as I wasn't able to think straight. I held my head in my hands and I didn't even realize that I was crying. I was crying because I broke her trust. She was the best thing that happened to me but I myself ruined it with my own bare hands! Naina left me.... She doesn't want me to touch her. She botched everything that we ever had. The pang in my chest is increasing that even after rubbing it badly I am not feeling relieved. This is for the first time I am in a lot of pain and nobody is there for me. I couldn't take this anymore...

I got up from the floor wiped my tear stained face and went towards the kitchen where we kept alcohol. We both never used it but now I need something to soothe myself just for now I want to forget everything, want to be numb of every emotion that is going on in me right this moment. Everything is hurting soo fucking much that I just want to everything to end. The moment I took a sip I felt good, I felt relieved and within few minutes the whole bottle was empty. I didn't know what time it was and didn't even bothered to check, for me my whole world is gone. Everything is ruined and I ruined it. I wasn't paying any attention to anything my phone was vibrating continuously but you know what, i don't care about anything. I opened another bottle and just when i was about to gulp it down I froze....

"Please kabir don't do this to yourself" somebody said but i couldn't make out who it was. But the voice looked familiar. I kept the bottle down and rubbed my eyes to get a better view then i saw Naina was standing there crying. my vision was blurred but i know and i can recognize her it was Naina.....

"No no please don't cry baby. Please Naina don't cry" i said to her and stumbled the moment i stood up but she was quick as she catch me from falling.
"I knew it you will never leave me." I said to her holding her hand.

"What are you doing to yourself Kabir?" She beseeched.

"What am I doing Naina? Please don't leave me.. I cannot live without you. Please" i said to her and hugged her but she didn't hug me back.

"No Kabir I can't live with you anymore. Please keep your hands off me kabir." She said but I tightened my hold her.

"No way. I promised I will never let you go." I whispered in her ears. She flinched when my lips kissed her neck and she pushed me soo hard that I stumbled back.

"Don't touch me! I hate you" Naina yelled and was gone.

"Naina " i said but soon realised that I hallucinating. She doesn't want me to touch her. She left me..... I slept on the floor itself but my head was hurting badly...... after that i didn't remember a thing as i passed out....

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Next morning when I woke up my head was hurting soo damn much that I wasn't even able to sit properly. After taking good twenty minutes I finally realised that I slept on the floor and then everything came to me. What happened yesterday?  Naina left me and i didn't stopped her instead I got drink!
Right now seriously I hated myself more than anything. How could i let this happen? I held my head in my hands and thought I can never even think of cheating Naina. She is the only person in my life whom I love soo much that even the thought of her being with someone makes me furious and sick. I should have told her about Avantika! But I never thought She will stoop so low just  to prove that she still has feelings for me. I should've cleared everything to her  when we first met in my office But as i said she is a very cunning woman and knows how to manipulate things.  The moment I wanted to talk about Naina to her she immediately switched the topic telling me about her life. She told me that she loves me a lot and that decision of hers of leaving me was very kiddish and she wasn't cognizant of what she was doing at that time.  I mean that happened 8 years ago God damnit. According to her I am still where she left me waiting for her.  I know why she wants to be with me just because now I am a successful man and have loads of Money. That rapscallion destroyed my relationship with Naina and she has to pay for it.

When Naina was with me everything was fucking perfect infact if there is a word more than perfect then this was it. I know i sound a little cheesy but hell I don't care anymore.  She is the best thing that ever happened to me and i being the asshole that  I am ruined it but i know I have to fix everything but lack the courage.

I was missing Naina that Is definitely an understatement! I need her soo much but her phone is switched off. Firstly she was just not picking my phone but now she has turned her phone off damnit. I made my way towards our bedroom and the first thing that I saw was how messed up everything was. Our closet was open but was empty.  Only my clothes were there,  everything that was of Naina was now gone!

I opened one of the drawers and took out our wedding photographs. She just look like a Angel... my Angel I thought....

As of now I am watching our wedding video! How come she is just soo beautiful? It should be illegal to be this Much beautiful. It is said that a girl looks the most beautiful at her wedding but I know one thing Naina looks exquisite everyday. She is natural and I always feel blessed to have her until now. I didn't even realise that I was crying like a baby. Another thing I don't care that since I am man so I cannot cry this is not the truth whenever I feel like crying I cry. I don't understand that if men cries why is this such a big deal? Don't they get hurt or they don't have a heart? I don't get this. Right now I am a mess I know but I cannot help it. With my one hand I am holding a liquor bottle and with the other I am pausing the video again and again to take a better look at Naina. With that I didn't even realise when I drifted to sleep repeating one name over and over that is Naina... my love my life and my wife.....

I cannot let this happen. I have to do something. I will not be able to live without her. She is my everything. My body my soul all belongs to Naina. I want to her back. I promised her that I will never let her go. But I winced in pain when I remember those painful words that she said,

"You know what Kabir I don't want this and don't you dare touch me. I am feeling soo filthy, dirty right now that I am hating every  single moment when your hands were on me and till now those were the most blissful moments of my life but now they are the most worst part of my life and I never want your hands on me again ever! So don't touch me!"

She said these words with soo much venom that my heart was ripped apart listening to her.

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I don't know what day it is or how much days its been since Naina left me but one thing which I am soo sure is of that I am still in hope of everything being a dream that anytime Naina will come and wake me up by showering her sweet kisses and just for more I will pretend that I am still in my deep slumber....
But nope this is not a movie where in the end everything becomes okay this is fucking reality of my life in which I myself fucked up everything.

"Kabir" someone yelled my name. I think again i am hallucinating or I am still drink but nope someone Is indeed calling or rather I should say calling my name over and over that it is giving me ear pain. Slowly I made my towards the living room and what I saw was something I surely wasn't expecting. There stood my whole family. Maa, dad, Arav bhai they all looked furious but worried as well. I froze thinking about how am I going to Explain everything to them? How will I tell them that because my own stupidity Naina left me......

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