So here's me leaving school hopeful of a future which of course plenty of people have said I wouldn't have one. Can you guess who?! If you said bullies you'd be correct!
I attended my first college, a childcare course. I was determined to make a difference. I had an interpreter and when it came to the coursework it seems I still struggle, I struggled with homework whilst at school and had to do all my homework at school. I was disappointed at college that I wouldn't have the same level of support that I had at school. I had one to one lessons and homework help. I even had a writer and personal assistant. ( not that I needed a writer all the time, it was hard to watch the signer and write things down at the same time) basically I could not multitask.
So in the end I failed the course why? Because I struggled with my writing and struggled to understand what we were supposed to do.
So I tried course number 2 it was an entry to employment course. I loved it we had trips out and stuff. But then one day we went to a bowling alley they had agreed a taxi there and a taxi back because it's too far for me to walk. It's bad enough that I struggle with hills and get back pain and muscle pain whilst walking! I can mange short distances but the bowling alley was too far!
They threatened to take my phone off me and they made me walk there and back!
So in the end I left and I attended another college. It was a similar course I loved if that was until sports day arrived. They have tons of disabled people there not as physical as my disability but I was forced to take part and I hated it. I love English and drama that kind of thing. Anything creative!
So I left because the next year the course was all sports!

I decided to give the first college another chance and they put me on a course where they gave the wrong information about slices of bread and stuff in maths.. And they made us cut out things and stick things down what we would like in our bedroom. It felt like nursery! One of the students was really bossy and told me I had to stay in the room on my breaks! I wanted to go to the games room!
I felt really intimidated of the students on that course they had worse disabilities than me. If anything it made me sad and feel bad about my own disability. I know it sounds selfish but I feel comfortable with people that don't have a disability aside from deaf people of course.

I then went to a third college and I loved it! It was a college and a building site I actually got a grade from my childcare course and I did a food hygiene course and I finally got certificates! Unfortunately I had to leave early and I didn't get the grade I wanted. Why? Because of bullying again. I was threatened to be thrown out of a first floor window because I was asking about her favourite band ndubz. I didn't really know who they were and stuff. Of course my purse got stolen and one day I left to go home and the door is a glass door with green edges someone put a sand bag under that green edge and I tripped over it. I was the last to leave.
I guess at this college I must have been vain because this is where I met my first boyfriend and all I got was lies and he wanted a sex buddy obviously. He now has a kid he doesn't even see.. So obviously I picked an idiot there didn't I?!
I met my second boyfriend when I finished all three colleges. It was amazing but it was hard to be able to organise things with him. Eventually he decided he'd had enough and has to dump me three times on the phone (I was on a pay phone and I couldn't hear etc) so he asked our mutual American friend to tell me. Eventually he dumped me himself on Facebook. He knew I hated that as my first boyfriend posted a status "I'm so glad to be single" first I heard! 😡
And so I met my final boyfriend on a dating site (the same as the last) and it went well but it was never gonna last. He wanted sex I didn't and I spent the night at his one night hoping we would have a cuddle like a normal relationship but we didn't. Instead he slept downstairs and a few weeks later he emailed me and dumped me on the day of my driving test. Later he tried to get back with me but I was having none of it. He's now engaged with a kid I didn't even know about.
I went to a disabled charity called Mencap hopeful for a job or something! They managed to get me work experience at the local McDonalds I was rubbish in the kitchen because of my poor circulation and I was sneezing constantly. So I tried the tills and making drinks occasionally I forgot the ice! They constantly made me clean instead and afterward they told me they didn't have any room to hire me and whilst I was there they'd hired others instead!
So I tried an open day at asda and o wasn't very good at that either, they said that you'd have to stack shelves also not just being on checkout (which with my disability I wouldn't be able to do.
I've helped out with a deaf charity playing with the kids and getting everything ready and stuff like that.
And I've had work experience at a nursery. Aside from that I've never had any help to be able to do anything.
I'd love to be an interpreter but they do the courses only in the winter which does not help my poor circulation.
You'd think people would bend over backwards to help you achieve your dreams but instead they place brick walls.