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MAHIR'S POV

Post our marriage I took her to her Dad's place knowing that he must be worried. Don't think that I did it to clear the chaos that have caused as the 'soon to be bride' was missing from her engagement, because I knew Yuvi would have managed it anyhow! Evrything was pre-planned. From kidnapping bela to getting her married to me; yuvi was envolved with me in the planning since the beginning. I had no intentions to harm her father anyways, but when she denied for a proper talk, I had nothing to do but threaten her.

When it comes to you, i become a psychopath bela!

Yuvi told hers and his dad that they don't want to get married as me and Bela both have realised that we can't live without each other. Adding to it, he even bought a 'paid chick' to show them that he'd found his love of life.

When me and bela entered her house, her father came running at the entrance; and bela hugged him, clutching his sherwani and cried like a little girl.

'where have you been child? You know, i was so tensed.' Her dad told her caressing her head.

'Are you ok dad? Are you hurt anywhere?' She said checking him on his arms and everywhere.

'I'm absolutely fine!' He replied confusingly.

'Dad..Mahir!' She hesitated to told him that we have married again.

'I know child, you married him. Yuvi told us that you guys have now finally realised your Love towards each other and that you'd like to give your relationship a chance again' Her dad said and now Bela looked at me as she was now sure that things were pre planned between me and Yuvi. I know bela, you must be cursing yourself for trusting yuvi by now because trust me I know that dickhead very well.

I giggled at my thoughts but covered it up by bitting my inner cheeks.

'You're not angry on me?' She asked her father like a kid.

'Why would I be beta? You know when you asked me to sent him divorce papers, I was mentally praying that may god show some miracle and you guys get together again; because I know nobody can take care of you more than Mahir. I'd liked him since the very first day! He said now patting my cheeks and caressing Bela's head.

I was serious now.

I will stand upto your expectations dad! Hell, I will allow tears to come into her eyes now, except if thats of happiness.

I smiled in affirmation to what dad said.

Yes! Dad!

He is even my dad too now.

Bela looked at me and I know what she must be thinking. Flashes of me being with another women must be coming in her minds and her eyes teared up. I internally sighed thinking about the pain she must have gone through.

After sometime, dad did her vidaai and now we're heading to my home.

OUR HOME!

Everyone was literally so happy seeing her back. Dadi, was literally squealing like a kid to see bela again. There were questions obviously but I gave them the same answeres.

And this is how it went.

We entered our room.

Not we, it was only me who entered because bela stopped at the gate itself.

BELA'S POV

I just couldn't entered the room where I have once saw my ex husband inside other women. Flashes of that drastic scene played on my mind continuously and I couldn't control a loud sob that escaped my mouth.

I'd be sharing this room with him again!

My feets stumbled and I was going to fall when Mahir held me, but I swayed away his hands.

'Dont touch me!' I said crying miserably.
'you wanted me to marry you right! Look I did, but don't you dare expect anything from me!' I spatted my anger and wiped off my tears.

This man, doesn't even deserve my tears.

I see his expression changing into hurt but I seriously don't care now.

Let him go through the same pain with which I had to go through when he was ignoring me.

I went to the washroom and cried my heart out.

You can't even count on the loss I'd to go through because of you Mahir.!

After having my heart out, i changed and entered the room to saw mahir arranging pillows on the bed.

'Ok don't look at me like that bela! I know you will take the right side, see I'll shift to the left.' He said moving some distance towards the left.

But I ignored him. I took my pillow and arranged it on the couch. I then switched off the lights and called it a night.

You really think i'll share the bed with you Mahir. Didn't I told you not to expect anything?

And this is how things went between us; it's been nine months to our 'so called marriage' already. But that didn't mattered to me. We may pretend to be a 'so much in love' couple when being infront of everyone especially his dadi., but nonetheless I've been treating him as he is a stranger to me.

Ignoring him to all the extent,
Hurting him in every possible way
and rejecting every thing he'd to me.

You need to bear the fruits of the seed you sowed mahir! The seed of hatred will bore you nothing but hate. Even if you water them with your so called love!

MAHIR'S POV

It's been nine months to our marriage. But we'd not even talked for three minutes!

She'll keep herself drowned in work. She would left for office early at six and return late night and I would be snoring by then.

Tho, I tried not to but then this fucking sleep overpowers my trials everytime!

I know what you're trying to do bela. You are repeating the same thing which I did to you a year back. You're ignoring me.

I sighed sadly at it.

Wish things were normal between us.

Wish I could have never betrayed you Bela.

I again sighed at the thought that we may share the same room, I may have sealed herself with me by my title, but our hearts were miles distant.

I would do everything a girl ever want her partner to do but then she was least bothered.

But not today. We'll definitely have a talk today bela.

I sat on the couch knowing that she would never take the bed and even if I sleep she will wake me up so that she could have her sleep.

Intelligent I am!

Why is she talking so long today? It's already 11:45 pm and I began to get tensed.
I began to walk to and fro in th room. I could have gone to search for her but I don't even know her office name! What a responsible husband, I am! I dialled her number many time but she didn't recieve.

I layed on the couch after sometime hoping that she would be back soon.

But then this sleep shit. Argh, you overpowered me again!

I groaned in my sleep due to the pain in my neck and pulled the comforter closer.

Wait-

Where did this comforter came from?

I opened my eyes to realise that it's already morning.

Great!

I'd plans to talk to bela at night, but then I slept!

That too on the couch where I couldn't even fit properly. But then I smiled realising that bela covered me with the comforter at night.

You agree or not; you still care for me bela! You do!

But...Where did Bela sleep then?

She would never take the bed I know, Neither she would sleep anywhere else as Dadi might take things wrong.

I looked beside to feel guilty again.

She was sleeping on the floor, only on a single mattress and it's chilly here.

She yawned and stretched her arms when she felt the sunlight on her face. She has always been an early riser, definitely not like me.

'ptch, bela..you shouldn't have slept there. You could have woke me up!' I said waking up with a jerk only to hiss with the nech pain; grabbing her attention, to which she looked at me.

'you could have not slept on the couch; knowing that you can barely fit there.' She replied picking up the mattress.

'i was waiting for you bela and i don't know when this sleep overpowered me.' I said getting up.

'waiting for me? why?' she said grabbing her clothes to get freshen up, but never looked at me.

'we can have a talk!' I said getting close to her.

'please mahir! i don't want to have any talk! you'll be hurting yourself again and again expecting something from me' she said showing her hands to me.

and I just stopped in my tracks.

you've messed it up Mahir, pretty bad!

I looked here and there to blink back my tears and I found a packed suitcase near the table.

'are we going somewhere?' I asked her.

'not we, its only me who is going' Bela snapped.

'where bela?" I asked in a low voice.

the fear of loosing her shook me from within.

'singapore! me and my team need to be there by tomorrow morning. we've a meeting there.' she said opening the door of bathroom.

'we can go together you know; even I'm leaving for singapore by evening. dad said to have a look at the work there; this is what I've been wanting to talk about last night' I lied, because I wanted to have her with me all the time and there's nothing wrong checking up the work there, since it's been long anyways. I'll inform dad about it.

'where's your bag then?' she at first frowned at my statement but thrn I guess she caught my lie.

'we owe a farmhouse there, so I guess I must be having some clothes plus it's only a two day trip right?' you better arrange me some clothes by the time I reach their shaan!

'business trip!' She rolled her eyes and corrected me to which I just shrugged my shoulders.

I saw her figure retreating towards the bathroom. I peeped to make sure she is in
I then rushed to the dad's room knowing that bela would take time.

'Dad, I've to say something!' I said barging inside his room to find him sipping his morning tea and no doubt he has a newspaper in his hands.

'what is it mahir?' He asked keeping the newspaper aside.

'i guess we should have a check on singapore branch' I took the seat beside him.

'why? Anything wrong there? You got any notice or something?' He frowned.

'no..Nothing like that...I just....you know....it's been long....so I...' why the hell am I fumbling?

'i went there last month only. Everythin is running smooth there. I don't think they need me now at the moment.' and he took back his newspaper again.

'not you dad. I'll just have a look there.' I insisted again.

'why don't you check upon London branch? That would be good.' he said

'but I want to go to Singapore dad. Even bela is leaving at night for Singapore and...' dad cut me off from my statement.

'Oh! Now I see why you're insisting me to allow you. It's because she is going now you also want to go. My son is definitely a gone case!' he said smiling and pat my head to i don't know why I blushed.

'Theres nothing like that, I just want to be a responsible son..you know..' I guess I'm getting improved in my lying skills.

'dont teach your dad, son!' he said helding my shoulders but the very next moment he got all serious.

'i know there's somthing wrong between you two; but I even know that my son is smart enough to tackle that anyhow right?' He just said it out and I nod my head.

My father knows me so well.

'Dont let her go son, she is a gem!' i know that dad.

I hugged my dad and left his room. I know there's no need of packing since I've already lied about the clothes to bela. I went to the garden area and called shaan so that he could manage me some clothes till the time we reach. After then, I booked my tickets too, luckily the tickets for the business were available.

........

We landed on the Singapore airport. The journey was silenced as usual. Bela kept on switching between reading novels and listening to music while all I did to steal secret glances of her beautiful face.
As I was about to get into the car, my phone beeped with the message from Kuhu.

'I know bela keeps you a lot busy and you don't even have to time ask your sister if she'll be coming over home in her vacations or not. *sighing emoji* dad informed me that you're going to Singapore right, I'll be there by evening too. I won't give you any 'we time' with bhabhi in your so called business trip. Take it as a compensation for forgetting your sister *winks*'

Darn it.

Like father, like daughter.

Why don't they leave us alone.

Incase I've not told y'all about Kuhu, she's my sister who has been living in New York for her studies since five years now. And she visits us for a month every year at this time. But I've literally screwed myself, for forgetting about it.

'we don't have all day Mr. Sehgal! I need to wrap up my work as soon as possible. Get into the car or else I'm leaving' Bela said not even looking at me.

I hopped into the car and we left.

I saw bela asking the driver to take her into the 'xyz' hotel after they dropped me into my farmhouse.

'bela why you're leaving? We can stay here. There are many rooms in here bela. We'll be living in two separate rooms. Please, stay!' I literally begged to her and pleaded with my eyes.

I know I've screwed it bela, but please give me a chance.

'Thats not needed. I've booked a room for myself' Bela turned me down.

'Even Kuhu will be here by night. Please don't go. I won't even barge in your room without your permission bela. Please!' I literally requested.

Bela looked at me for once and I know that my puppy eyes worked somewhere or the other because next I see bela sighing and getting down from the car and asked the driver to leave after she took her luggage and paid him.

'Tell me the way to my room fast! I need to change and report to the office asap' Bela said looking at her wrist watch.

'After you mam' I bowed dramatically to which bela rolled her eyes and went inside, followed by me ofcourse.

The whole day passed and I fulfilled my promise of not bothering her.

It was 6 pm. We were all at home from our works. Even kuhu has arrived. We had a little talk and I was pretty happy to see
how well bela gelled with kuhu in only some hours.

All of us retarded for our rooms by 11 pm. Me and bela were living in separate rooms obviously, after all I've promised her.
It did pained not to have her with me for the night, unlike back in India where we atleast used to sleep in same room; but I know this too shall pass soon.
Kuhu did asked the reason and bela calmly told her that she'll be working till late night today and I need to sleep or else I'll end up having a very bad headache tomorrow morning.

Bela may hate me but then she gets me out of questions everytime.

I opened my eyes late night, feeling some sort of uneasiness within me. I searched for water to find the empty jug at the table. I sighed and went to the kitchen to get some water and quench my thirst.

I don't know what got in me that I literally had a sudden urge to have a check upon bela while I was going in my room.
I looked at the gate of her room and found it slightly open. I peeped inside to see an empty bed. My skin on my forehead curved into a frown and I went inside. I know I've promised not to barge inside without her permission but then I need to make sure if she's fine or not. Where will she go this late?

Her wardrobe and even the gate of balcony was opened and I saw bela in a state ive never wished to see her in, since our marriage.

She was crouched at the corner, her legs hugged her chest and face buried in a piece of cloth that she'd clutched tightly.
Last but not least, she has been crying miserably.

I literally rushed to her not caring for the fact that she may lash out at me for breaking the promise I made. I can easily tolerate her anger but then she's my first priority.

I kneeled beside her and rested her head on my chest. My eyes pooling with tears.

'Bela? Why are you crying?' tho, I was panicking I still managed to ask her, but she kpt on crying

'Tell me something bela. You're scaring me. Did someone told you anything? Did I do something bela? Tell me please but stop crying. Look I'll do anything to compensate the mistake; but please stop crying.' I told her slightly caressing her head but all on vain. She was crying nonstop. Infact she clutched my shirt in her palms.

'Its been year Mahir!' Her voice came out as a whisper still shaking.

'One year for what bela?' I asked being confused but didn't got any reply. I looked down at her and found that she has already passed out. Her body was burning with fever maybe because she's been out without any warm clothes.

I scooped her in my arms and took her inside with me. I then rushed to the kitchen and got some ice water with a cloth.

Doctors won't be available at midnight, I knew that. I looked at her hand and saw that she was still holding on to the cloth tightly. I took it from her hands and saw that it was a pink baby shawl. I frowned and kept it on the table. I'll ask bela about it tomorrow.

This is how the night passed, me trying to cool her temparature down by cloth and ice water and she murmuring something under her breath which wasn't audible to me tho I tried hard but couldn't. I didn't realise when I slept beside her on the floor with my head Beside her hand.

I woke up early next morning and the first thing I did was to check if her temperature got normal or not. Next I left her room or else she would just burst out at me.

BELA'S POV

I woke up with a slight headache and my eyes paining. Last I know that I got reminded of 'IT' and mahir trying to console me when I burst out crying. I look around to see if he's with me or not but I guess I expected too much. Why would he be here? Once a douch; always a douch!
I thought to myseld and sighed.

I searched for my phone on the side table to dial vish as we've planned out something for today; but hand landed on a bowl that had a cloth in it. I frowned not getting why it possibly be here?

Later my thoughts were brushed off when Vish herself dialled me. I had a short convo with her about the things we need to carry and then I went to the bathroom and got dressed up.

I picked up the shawl that I was holding last night and my tears betrayed me again.
I somehow composed myself, shoved the cloth in my handbag and left my room.

I saw mahir sitting on the dining table talking to someone on call. As soon as he sensed me, he cut the call and came near me.

'Bela we need to go to the doctor' He told me.

'Why?' I asked confusingly.

'You were high with fever yesterday night bela! Doctors weren't available last night. We need to get you checked' Mahir told with....

Concern?

'There's no need. I'm all good now' I said ignoring him and heading towards the gate.

'where are you going bela? Atleast have some rest' I heard him say.

Just before I could say anything, vikrant called me.

'yes vikrant..I'll be there in 30 minutes.....' I cut the call and left the house before answering him.

MAHIR'S POV

Who the hell is this Vikrant?

I know I shouldn't be acting like a possessive husband but then bela should have stayed at home and have some rest than going with this Vikrant.

Is it too important to her that she literally ignored me and went on just a single call from him?

WHO IS HE?

With these questions in my head, I decided to follow her!

You call it jealousy?

Yes! I'm jealous!

I made sure that my car is at a decent distance from her's or else she will find out that I'm following her.

Her car stopped at a flower shop!

Flower shop?

she'll really take flowers for that vikarant douch?

Who is he to her?

The curiosity was killing me from inside.
The feeling of her being with other man caused a havoc inside me and my blood boil.
I really now realise how she must have felt when she saw me fucking Anushka.

I gritted my teeth in thinking about the pain she had to gone thru because of me.

I came out of my trance when I saw here leaving the shop with a bouquet of red roses in her hand, which took me to another flashback.

'Red Roses? Not bad! But then roses have got thorns baby!'

This is what I said to her right? How could you Mahir?

I began following her again, her car halted at a house where a man and a women got inside her car and they drove again.

Where are they leaving to?

And where is that Vikrant?

Who are these people?

They drove for another 10 minutes with me following them and again there car stopped at another unexpected place.

A GRAVEYARD?

WHY?

This is Singapore right? She doesn't have any of her family member who died here, neither do I have any.

Who died then?

And why is Bela looking so gloomy now?

Her eyes were puffed red as if she has been crying the whole time when she was in the car.

I saw bela and the other women with her covering their head with the scarf they were wearing; and they went inside.

After making sure that they were inside and not watching over me, I went inside too.

There were many people at their dear one's graves and I don't know why my eyes got teared up.

It's been so long since I've visited my mom's grave. Yes, a grave; she was a christian.

My eyes searched for bela in the little crowd here and there she was knelt on her knees near a little tomb.

I couldn't read out the name that was written near the tomb but by the way bela was crying over there made me sure that the tomb was of someone very close to her.
The other woman beside who probably appeared as Bella's friend tried her level best to console her but in vain.

Bela was a crying mess and it pained me a lot to see her in that state but then I didn't go to her because I guess she needs her space.

Later I see a Father asking them to join their hands for a pray.
Bela then silently kept the flower bouquet on the grave, wiped off the tears and left along with the other two with her.

She didn't bought them for some Vikrant or whosoever!

Whose grave is that?

The curiosity pulled me near the grave when they left. It appeared as a new born baby's grave and now I could really read out the name.

MAHIRA SEHGAL?

My eyes popped open and it felt like the ground swept off beneath my feet. My mind began assuming things that I don't really want to.

'What are you doing here?' I heard someone say but I was sure that it was addressed to me.

'You..you were with bela right? Tell me whose grave is this? Why was bela crying so much?' I told the same woman.

'Its none of your place to know! Did you get that? Now leave! You are now one to even come near this grave!' she spatted her anger on me.

'Why? Who are you to stop me haan? I saw bela here and when she can come I can come too; I'm her husband after all!' I spatted back.

'Tell me then! Where were you when she needed you the most haan?' She said looking at me eye to eye.

'What do you mean?' I frowned

'Remember a year back when you abandoned Bela just because you'd enough of her? She was preganant that time!' She said shooting daggers to me from her eyes.

'She was pregnant?' I repeated but it only came out as a whisper and my eyes welled up with tears.

She was pregnant!

And I just asked her to leave like that!

'Yes, she was pregnant; with your child. Child of a cheater!' That sounded harsh but it was true.

'Where is my child? Tell me. I want to see her please' I pleaded to her.

'when she left your home, she told her dad that you guys don't see any future with each other and that you both want a divorce and then she left her house and told her dad that her job request as an interior designer at singapore has been approved. You know why she did this? Just because she didn't wanted her dad to know that she is preganant or else he would have thought ill, about you!' She said.

When Bela said that she'd loved me, she meant it! You loved me this much bela, and I couldn't return back even a percent of it.

'Then She came here, it's only me and my husband who knew about her pregnancy after bela; only we knew her story. First thing she did after coming here was to get herself checked with the best doctor. She wanted your child to be absolutely fine! And then her life took another turn. She was informed that her pregnancy has severe complications; and that there are least chances for the baby to survive. They suggested her to go for the abortion. You could've seen here that time! She was broken beyond repair' Even her eyes welled up by the time now.

My bela needed me the most that time; and I was nowhere with her.

'But you know what? She didn't lose hope! She tried to keep herself healthy for the baby. And with these nine months passed.
Doctors told that there are no chances for a normal delivery. She had to go through scissor. And like this the baby was born, it was a baby girl. Bela couldn't even hold her child. Baby was taken to the nursery immediately because it had difficulty in breathing. The baby was kept in glasses and bela would cry everytime thinking about it. She kept praying for the safety of her child but it her prayers weren't accepted. Three days! Just after three days of birth, The baby passed away.' She said as a lone of tear escaped her eye.

It was a girl.

A baby girl.

I couldn't even see her.

I feel like a loser today, and I was already shedding tears by now.

'And there you stand now! Infront of her grave!' She said pointing at the grave which was inked as MAHIRA SEHGAL.

'She named her Mahira?' I asked her, sniffing.

'When I told you that she loved you, she really did. She named her child on your name' I looked down at the grave and clenched my teeths in pain.

'Mahira had a genetic disorder Mahir. Doctor said that only the father of the child can save her in this case. But you were nowhere. Bela even tried reaching you but then you were busy in your own world.
Had you've been with bela that time, Mahira could've been celebrating her first birthday today.' She said looking at me with anger and went inside the church.

I crouched down and took some soil in my fist from the grave. I closed my eyes as the flashbacks began to play.

'please don't abandon me like this Mahir. I've something to tell you!'

'You can't kill me Mahir I've already died twice, once when you left me and other when.........leave it, you don't need to know that'

'Its been a year Mahir!'

Wish I would've listened to bela when she said that she has something to tell me.

I closed my eyes as my hold on the soil tightened and sobbed.

I've never cried before; but today it feels like I've lost everything!

I kept sobbing holding onto the soil tightly. Bela became preganant with my child; she tried her level best to tell me the same but I didn't pay any heed to her.

How can you stoop so low mahir?

I could have saved my daughter but...she's gone now!

'I'm sorry!' I wisphered to looking at the grave.

Bela named her Mahira! My daughter was named on my name and I know that Bela you did this because you've loved me too much.

It was dark already. The sun was set long back. I don't know for how long I've been crying at her grave now. I've completely lost as a father today!

I lied down beside her grave and began caressing it.

I could'nt hold my child but I can feel her here.

I wiped off my tear when I felt someone caressing my head; I looked upto see the church's father kneeling beside me.

'She was God's belonging here, and God took her back. Don't be sad child.' He said to coo me.

'But I couldnt take here of His Belonging Father. I'm a very sinful person. Only I could save her but then I was nowhere' I said getting up to sit.

'It was all written in your fate child, we can't do anything about it' He said

'You don't know father. I've been very bad to my wife as well. I abandoned her on the day, she came to told me that she's preganant.' I said holding my head.

'Look child. Whatever it is, it's the matter of you both. I know you're talking about bela. She used to come here daily but then stopped since nine months. She's a nice child, son. Go to her, she needs you know!' Father said to me with a smile, tapped my head and left when some business called him inside the church.

Now that I know everything, I don't have courage to face you bela.

I left the graveyard not before kissing my mahira's grave. I began driving not knowing where to go. Definitely not home!
I began thinking about all the sinful things I did to bela in the past. From abandonding her for literally no proper reason, to making her suffer without her fault, to forcing her in a marriage with me. My trance broke when I see my phone's screen flashing Kuhu's name. I ignored it four to five times but when it became nonstop, I gulped the lump in the throat and picked it up.

'Mahir Bhai? Where are you haan? Do you know the time? It's midnight already. You weren't picking up the calls. You know I even called at your office, they said you didn't go there today? When will you be home?' Kuhu began shouting at me.

'i won't come home' I said in a low voice.

'what do you mean by I won't come home' I heard kuhu and then it was silence for a while.

'Bela...' I whispered knowing its her. She took phone from kuhu. Tho, she didn't said anything, but I can recognise her even with ghe way she breathes.

'When will you be home?' She asked me in a gentle voice.

'I'm sorry Bela' I said and my eyes welled up with tears.

'Mahir...' before she could say something I cut it off.

'Here me out love, for the last time please.' I pleaded.

'I'm sorry for all the pain I've ever caused you Bela. I'm sorry for pushing you away at the time when you needed me the most. I know I'm very bad Bela but I love...Aahhhhh......' I never realised when I came onto the highway driving senselessly kn ghe road and a truck coming towards me hit me with a strong force that I literally lost my control on the breaks addkinf to it I wasn't even wearjng my seatbelt and this terrible accident happened.

I was thrown at the side out from my car due to the force with phone still on my hand but the hold was loose; bela was still on call with me and I heard her screaming my name but all I did was to blankly stare at the phone.
I saw the truck driver coming to me but before my mind could process further, I blacked out.

If this is the end, I'm happy with it.
A sudden death is far more better than dying in guilt evrysecond.

I'm sorry bela!

A TS BY @BEHIRSLAYS_

PLOT BY samaera202

ow it feels to get an update after almost a month? I'm sorry.
Okay so this was what I've planned for forbidden union's climax.
I'm sorry if you guys are disappointed at it :(
This is the longest cahptwr I've written with more than 5k words!

To all those who are ok with the ending; you can now remove this book from your library. *Laughs*
And for all those who wants a happy ending; I guess I'll be looking at it soon!
*Winks*