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Sebastian POV

I watched her carefully as she stood from her seat behind the desk and walked towards a file cabinet.
For the past hour, (Y/N) has been working with us in creating false files for each of us.
But my thoughts drifted elsewhere. The young lord and myself were discussing a slight problem, during our time at "the mess hall", our return to England. As much as I hated thinking of it, I knew he was right, we needed to return, so I could devour his soul once and for all. The brat finally achieved his goal. Although, I admit that if it weren't for this contract, I never would have met my mate and I would be the same demon, the one I used to be before I met her.
Therefore, I can't bring myself to tell her that we must leave.
What if I can't return after I finish with Ciel? I love her too much to let her go.
"Is that all?" asked the young lord in monotone.
"Yes. Oh and act normal okay? If they ask anything about you, remember about what we put in your file alright?" (Y/N) responded before turning around to face us. I smiled slightly as I scanned her form.
Her stance was stiffened, her arms crossed over her chest, back straight, her eyes calculating and soft but with an edge to them.
The moment that she became captain, I knew she would be great at it. She is strong enough to do it.
"Yes ma'am!!" saluted the three servants.
"You're free to go eat. And if you see the rest of the squad, tell them that I want to speak with them after dinner," (Y/N) said.
"We'll tell them, yes we will!!" said Mey-Rin and walked out the door, Finny and Bard following her.
She noticed we were not following the other three and spoke up.
"Is something wrong?" she asked, her head tilted ever so slightly in an adorable matter. I felt myself blush slightly and I turned my head to the side.
"Yes. But I'll let Sebastian talk. I'm hungry and I wish to go eat," said Ciel in a bored tone as he stood up.
"Oh and Ciel? No acting all proper okay? It will draw attention," I heard (Y/N) say.
"How exactly do you expect me to act?" He retorted.
"Spend time with Eren and the boys and I'm sure something you'll pick something." He then walked out the door, muttering something under his breath, leaving us alone.
The moment the brat stepped outside I felt her gaze on me. If it were someone else I had to tell this to I wouldn't care what they thought, but this is (Y/N)
"Sebastian? You okay?" she asked, walking around the desk and standing in front of me.
"Yes, I'm perfectly fine (Y/N)," I responded in monotone, my eyes following a bird flying outside.
I breathed in slowly and exhaled before she slid her hand up my chest and caressing my cheek, making my heart beat faster.
"You're not fine. Something is wrong. Why won't you tell me?" she asked in a softer tone. I kept silent, looking for the correct words I could use to tell her.
I felt her soft hand tilt my chin downwards so that I could meet her gaze. Her (E/C) eyes scanned my face for something. I refrained from leaning down and kissing her lips and telling her everything would be okay, but I knew that would be a lie, one that even I couldn't believe.
"Are you mad?" She whispered and stepped even closer, wrapping her arms around my waist and burying her face in the crook of my neck.
I couldn't stop my arms from wrapping around her smaller form, placing my lips on her hair, and I inhaled, breathing in her intoxicating scent.
"What aren't you telling me?" I heard her mutter against my skin, a shiver racing up my spine at her touch.
I sighed and stroked her hair with one of my hands.
"No matter how hard I try I cannot bring myself to avoid you," I muttered.
She pulled away slightly and looked up at me.
"Sebastian?" She asked, slowly unwrapping her arms around me, although I mentally begged her to not let go.
"The young master and I were discussing a few topics and...we talked about returning to England," I spoke as softly as I could, knowing what she was capable of if she got mad.
I felt her tense in my arms.
"What?" she whispered and tried to pull away from me but I wouldn't let her, my grip tightening even more.
"You understand don't you, my love?" I said rather quickly. "Just as you have your duties here, we have ours back there."
She remained quiet. Her eyes giving away nothing at all. But I knew she was deep in thought. Please say something, I thought.
"Okay," she finally spoke up after what seemed like hours.
"Okay? Are you angry?" I leaned down, trying to kiss her in a soothing manner but she pulled away. I could feel my heart break at her behavior toward me.
"No, I'm just very busy. So if you'll let me go," (Y/N) struggled against me.
"I was afraid you would act like this-"
"Act like what?" She interrupted, glaring at me.
"Like this! You're going to act so cold toward me-"
"I'm not!! If you want to leave that's fine with me. I'm not going to stop you-" I couldn't take it anymore so i leaned down and placed my lips over hers. She inhaled sharply through her nose and froze again.
I could feel her slowly reciprocate as my lips moved against hers. She kissed me back with force and she wrapped her arms around my neck, pulling me closer. I love her. I love her so much. Her presence enough was intoxicating, but her lips brought me to the brink of madness...every kiss of ours meant everything to me. However, I knew I had to pull away.
"Please understand. Trust me, I don't want to go but-" (Y/N) interrupted me by suddenly pushing me away.
"It's because of Ciel's soul. You still want it. And you won't stop until you get it isn't it? Is it really that worth-"
She suddenly stopped talking and I knew why. A large crash was heard, and before I knew it, a large boulder crashed through her window.
I could have stopped it. I could have saved her, and yet I stood frozen as I watched it hit her and crash through the wall behind us, taking her with it.
"(Y/N)!!" I shouted after it stopped flying through the air. I ran towards her direction with my demon speed and looked frantically for her when I realized where she was.
Her whole body was crushed underneath it. Oh no...
I pushed it off with ease and almost choked at the sight.
I could hear shouts and footsteps heading towards us but I ignored them.
Her whole body was covered in her blood, especially her face. A large cut ran from the right side of her collarbone, up her neck and half of her left cheek. Parts of her clothing were shredded.
I fell to my knees and placed my arms underneath her limp body, bringing her closer to me until her head rested on my chest.
"Oh please no. You can't leave me," I whispered against her hair, squeezing my eyes shut as I could hear her faint heart beat.
"Sebastian!! What happened?!?" shouted Armin behind me.
"I'm not sure, we were discussing until we heard a large crash and that boulder crashed in, hitting her," I responded as I stood and walked towards the hallway. A group of soldiers gathered around the mess the boulder left and I could hear gasps and whispers as well as shouts at the sight of their captain near death.
"What the hell happened here?!?" I could hear the commander's voice shout as he neared the scene, pushing through the cadets with Levi behind him. He froze at the sight of (Y/N).
"We need to get her to the infirmary!!! The rest of you go to the sight where the boulder came from!!" ordered the commander before I ran at a dangerous speed towards the infirmary.
I ignored the stares of the soldiers running past me and hurried to the infirmary where I saw a nurse walking inside the room.
"Excuse me!! Madam!!" I shouted as I neared the entrance.
She turned and looked towards me, her eyes widening behind her spectacles at the sight of (Y/N) in my arms.
"My goodness!! Come!! We need to treat her immediately!!" she said and rushed inside as I followed her.
The room was empty except for a few injured soldiers resting in white beds.
"Right here!!" She motioned at a bed on the back side of the room. As I placed (Y/N) atop the bed, I heard her whimper in pain. My heart broke at the sight. My darling was in pain and I could not do anything to stop it.
The elderly nurse placed a few bottles atop the table beside the bed before standing straight and looking at me.
"Cadet, you will have to step outside for a moment while I treat her," she said. I sighed and looked down at (Y/N)'s bloodied face and her deep cut.
"Of course, my apologies," I bowed my head before reluctantly walking out, the nurse closing a curtain behind me for privacy.
I felt my hands clench into fists as I stepped outside the room.
I knew that it was no accident that a boulder hit her all of a sudden. But I also knew I could have saved her. I could have sensed the boulder and acted on it. But I stood frozen and watched her get hurt.

Reader-chan POV

Darkness was the only thing I could see before light slowly spread across my vision. I blinked once. Twice. Before looking around.
I was home. I was in the small living room, on the chair where mom and I would always sit.
In fact, she was sitting next to me, her arm around mess she pulled me closer. I smiled in content and snuggled closer to her as I heard her laugh softly. I looked up at her warm eyes and hugged her tighter.
In the back of my mind, I knew I should remember something and for some reason my whole body slightly ached but I didn't care, my mom was here with me. I looked up and saw dad sitting on his chair near the fireplace, reading a book.
He noticed me looking at him and looked up, his gaze locking with mine. He smiled at me and I stiffened.
What? Why was I acting like this? He's my dad!! Why-
I froze. Everything I knew rushed through my head and I realized...this was a fantasy...
My mom died years ago and my dad went missing after he injected me...
Wake up! I thought, squeezing my eyes shut.
This isn't real. Face it, she's dead and he's gone.
I opened my eyes once more, slowly.

Done!! Please review guys and happy new year!!