Listen to the above song while reading. And it is so amazing.

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The rim looks farther away today

On the court, I heave a deep sigh

A boy who's terrified of reality

But his heart is at peace

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I am unable to reach my happiness. I am terrified of what the real world is and I know that mentally, I wouldn't be able to face reality. However, I know that my heart is in the right place, as it knows where it belongs; it is simply the fear of the unknown that keeps me from coming to terms with his emotions.

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Saying everything in the world will work out

Shouting uselessly

But the world actually gives me horror

If it's that way, stop

The thoughts that fill my head

Instead of the ball, I throw my future

The horoscope that others paint

Disqualified from the criteria of success

Thanks to you the worries spread like cancer

God damn it

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The things I don't know fear me and like Jimin said, "...if I start getting pessimistic, I just can't stop these bad thoughts" (Burn The Stage ep.3). When one is pessimistic, a battle goes through their minds. My fears with the unpredictable future, leading me to more fear, which begins to make me want to throw away my future. I don't want to face my worries, because I know with my mind how many obstacles and difficult emotions there are when it comes to moving on from youth. Anxiety, euphoria, and depression are all emotions that I must face, to name a few.

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The wiggling dreams

The dribble that quickens, a heart that becomes happier

I think this moment will be eternity

But the night which came from the sunset

If it comes again then this reality becomes a bit worn away

If I come to my senses again I become more terrified

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With the future, it is expected that every kid HAS to know where they are headed in life. And while that may bring motivation to strive for what you really want, the early pressure that gets burdened on a kid can negatively impact how they actually decide to face what they're striving for. Kids don't want to think much into their future, because then when they have "lived up to their dream" that may not even be THEIR'S, they regret not living in the moment and doing things that they're allowed to do in this age.

Today's society is very quick to judge the actions of someone without fully understanding why they might have performed unwanted action, to begin with. For instance, if a person in their 20's, whose sitting at a headquarters as a manager, ever does something like watch teen dramas or attend an event at Disney parks, they would be considered "out of their mind" because of what they're doing. This moment in my life where judgment isn't an issue for me and neither are the barriers of anxiety and depression that I face when trying to take a step towards my future. When I play basketball, all I can feel is pure bliss; and maybe even euphoria. Everyone has a certain activity that makes them feel young again, and they can find what it is based on their pure emotions, not focusing on anything else but their heart.

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I get terrified again at my own image

The sense of reality that looms

Others have run ahead of me but

Why am I still here

Breathe breathe

Or dream a dream

My heartbeat has stopped now

Paddle again

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Even though I might have felt euphoria at the moment, that was when I was moving, and when I was moving, so was my life. Basketball allows me to escape from my fears and worries, and simply live in the moment. When I am not moving (not playing basketball), the fears, anxieties, and worries creep up on me though, so moving is all that I feel I can do for myself to live in youth a little while longer.

As my dreams are faced with judgment, it feels like I can't breathe, because the more I listen to my heart, the more negative emotions wrap around my head. Soon enough I completely stopped listening to my heart, resulting in my heart dying out, as it feels it has no purpose if it's trapped around negative emotions as well.

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Living while ignoring being caught up in the weak double standards of others

And like the sunset on the court

The sun will set on your life

What am I doin' with my life

This moment

It will never come again

It won't come to me again

Am I happy right now?

That answer is already fixed

I'm happy

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Everyone wants to hide in the clutches of youth (like how Yoongi is contemplating how he feels while playing basketball) even if they're already in adulthood; or on their way there. I am not happy or tired of myself "cowardly" not knowing what my dreams are.

I realize what really does make me happy, and my anxiety starts to go away, just like euphoria, as I finally know that it's okay to not have my future set out for me already. I am still young, and I need to embrace that. Like Bangtan's said to ARMYS before, "Wherever you are right now, you're just taking a break/Don't give up" ("Tomorrow", Dark & Wild).