Okay, holy shit.

No words can begin to piece together what just happened there.

When Cameron came out of the bathroom, I knew something was bothering him. We've been best friends for 19 years, I would think that I'd know when my best friend was feeling off.

But, holy shit.

Finding out he's been curious about his sexuality and then immediately after making out with my neck?

Have I been fucking oblivious this entire time?

Cameron has always just been so...full of jokes and care-free. How was I supposed to know that he's been serious about this? About me?

Was he serious about me or just wanting to explore his sexuality?

Do I feel for Cameron in that way or did that just feel really really good?

Fuck, I'm confused.

And to top it all off – the one person who has been making me the most confused for the entirety of my life – just walked in to witness it all.

"Well, well, well. What do we have here?" Hayden slowly and confidently enters the room. He's wearing his staple black T-shirt and black joggers, but this time, he's sporting a rainbow pick in between his lips.

"Get the fuck out, Hayden." Cameron bites, hurriedly shifting his towel on his lap to hide his hard-on.

I know I should do the same with mine in my shorts but I can't bring myself to move.

I'm frozen. I sit there, mouth slacked open, watching Hayden stroll over to Cameron's desk. He smiles slyly, before moving some papers and sitting his ass down right on top of the desk.

He rests one leg on the ground and the other on the desk chair, stretching him out effortlessly.

"Yeah, I don't want to. It's much more interesting here." He winks, shifting his eyes from his brother to me. "What were you two up to?"

Cameron leans back on the bed, held up by his elbows and blows some hair out of his eyes. "Nothing." He mutters.

"Nothing?" The corner of Haydens lips perk up. He plays with the pick in his mouth, biting down and making a clicking sound as he flicks it against his teeth. "Because it sorta sounded like you two were kissing." He bites.

I swallow deeply. Is that jealousy on his lips? Why does that make me so damn horny? I'm all type of fucked up. I drop my legs on the floor off the edge of the bed and cross my ankles to try and stifle the boner aching between my legs.

I sneer at him. "We weren't kissing."

His gaze comes back to mine. "Really? Hm. I was scared I was going to miss my little brother's first gay exploration experience."

"We've done stuff around each other." Cameron says, shrugging his shoulders.

"Yeah, but have you two done anything together? That's completely different." Hayden answers.

Cameron and I share a glance at each other before looking back to Hayden. That small smirk turns into a full blown evil grin now on his face and it sends chills up my spine.

"I want to see it." He says.

"What?" Cameron sits up. "No. Get the fuck out, you perv."

"Sure. I'll get out and tell Mom and Dad that their little Golden Boy has been spending his free time exploring his dick with his best friend. I bet they'll love that." He says, looking at us both.

"Why the hell would you go and do that?" Cameron scoffs.

Hayden shrugs, leaning his elbow on his leg. "I want to see it." He repeats, playing with the pick again.

Cameron narrows his eyes at his brother but reluctantly turns his eyes to me.

"Can you...do this for me?" Cameron says in a hushed voice. "He won't stop until he gets what he wants." He sounds so desperate, needing me to do this for him.

Those words hit me right in the balls. Damn.

I hate how much this whole situation is turning me on.

I look down at his puffy, pink lips, glistening, waiting for me and feel my heart beating faster. I glance over at Hayden sitting on the desk, dark in all black, patiently waiting. The heat building in this room is driving me insane.

"Do it." He orders from across the room.

I obey. I lean in, pressing my lips to Cameron's and holy fuck, does it feel good.

Immediately, I feel that heavenly tingle erupt throughout my whole body. Excitement rolls through me as he wraps his hand around my neck to pull me in closer. I lean over him, taking him deeper like it's the last kiss I'll ever have.

I had no idea how good this would feel and now that I've had it, I never want to give it up.

He tastes so much like Hayden, only sweeter, like candy instead of smoke.

He slips his tongue past my lips and I happily slide him my own. Our tongues tangle with each other and I feel ready for more.

I need more.

I open my eyes to see Hayden still watching. His expression hasn't changed but feeling his eyes on us lights me up even more. We connect eyes and it sets me off.

I moan, closing my eyes again, releasing myself to the pleasure I'm feeling from Cameron's mouth. I can feel how easily he's handing himself over to me. He's allowing himself to feel this with me and I'm doing the same. I roll on top of him, wrapping my legs around his waist. I can feel his dick underneath his towel and it lights me up inside.

"Fuck yes, Asher." He groans into my mouth. I slide my hands into his hair and get lost in the soft, damp waves.

He grabs my waist and pushes and pulls my hips, helping me grind against him. It feels so fucking good against my dick.

I suck on his tongue which makes him smile into my mouth. He playfully bites my lip in return which makes me smile in response but we keep going. Even in this heated exchange, he still makes me laugh.

I can't believe I'm kissing my best friend and it feels this fucking fantastic. Why have we waited for so long?

"Ash" He breathes. "We have to stop." He grabs my waist hard.

"Dammit." I sigh. "I know." I sadly slow down our grinding and I immediately feel an ache in my balls. I was so close I could cry. "That's the hardest thing I've ever had to do." I pant, leaning my head on his forehead.

"Same." He breathes, giving me a quick kiss on the lips.

I nod my head before sitting up. I look down at him. His beautiful body is trying to catch his breath beneath me. I run my hand down his chest and over his abs.

"I've got to talk to Lex. I don't want to start this...I can't be a cheater and I've already done too much." He sighs, looking away from me.

I frown, rolling off of him and sliding beside him on the bed. I put myself into his line of view so he can't hide from me. "You're a good man, Cameron. You didn't do anything wrong. Blame Hayden if you've got to." I laugh softly.

Cameron smiles at me. "But," Realization washes over his features. "I wanted to do that. If I'm being honest, I've wanted to do that for a very long time."

My smile falls. Guilt taking over. How wrapped up in Hayden have I been to not realize that my best friend has been struggling with this for however long and I haven't even noticed?

"It's not just a crush?" I ask, nerves rushing through me.

He slowly shakes his head. "I don't believe it is. No."

A warmth of happiness fills my chest...but I'm also aware that a hint of sadness joins in too.

What does this mean for Hayden and I? Is there even a 'Hayden and I'? Am I ready for whatever it was to be over? I feel a gut wrenching pain at the thought.

"I'll go talk to her. Everything will be okay, like you said." Cameron nods, quickly dropping a kiss on my lips before scrambling to his closet.

My eyes drop on the vacant desk. I'm not too sure at what point he left during that kiss but for his sake, I hope it was before the dry humping began.

Cameron is brave enough to go have a serious talk with Lex.

I've got to be brave enough to have a serious talk with Hayden.

A/N : Oh, my poor baby Cameron. So great for him to finally tell Asher how he feels but...he's not the only one who has to confess something, is he?