I'm trying to learn

How not to fall so fast

Because nothing I have ever wanted lasts

So I'll look from a far

As I try not to stare

When I see you look over

I'll pretend not to care

But acting isn't a forte of mine

I always give it away in my eyes

Maybe it doesn't come as a surprise

There must be many girls swarming at your sides

I'm sick of feeling like I'll never be enough

Why is having a crush so tough?

Over analyzing everything you say or do

Just to make sure I don't end up getting hurt by you

But in the end that never works

And more then likely you'll be a jerk

Yet something about you seems different this time

I just wish I could read your mind

Then maybe I wouldn't be losing mine

(L.E.)