Taehyung steals glances at Jeongguk as the two of them get ready for bed. Jeongguk throwing on a hoodie and a pair of shorts to sleep in. He turns and catches Taehyung looking at him.

    "What?" He asks walking over to where he stands in the doorway of the bathroom.

    "Nothing," He says bringing his hand up and cupping Jeongguk's face in his palm. Running his thumb over his cheek, his face flushed slightly from the wine they were drinking a little while ago.

Jeongguk smiles, slipping his arms around Taehyung's waist. "Tell me what you're thinking?"

Taehyung, instead of answering, leans in and kisses Jeongguk. Closing his eyes and deepening the kiss as he wraps his arms around his neck. Jeongguk kisses him back, smiling into the kiss a bit. Though his smile fades when Taehyung steps forward, forcing him back until he's falling on the bed.

Taehyung straddles him without breaking the kiss, his hands traveling down his chest until they reach the hem of his hoodie. Jeongguk allows him to pull the article of clothing over his head, only breaking the kiss for a moment.

Taehyung's heart hammers against his chest as he removes his own shirt as well. He kisses Jeongguk again, his hands roaming his torso.

Jeongguk hums into the kiss when he feels Taehyung's hands roaming his body, he breaks the kiss first. "Taehyung,"

"Hm?" Taehyung hums as he kisses down Jeongguk's jaw, trailing down to his neck and shoulder.

Jeongguk's eyes fall shut as his mind goes blank at the feeling of Taehyung nipping at his neck.

Taehyung pulls his own shirt off before diving back into the kiss. He takes Jeongguk's hands and places them lower on his waist, moving his hips downward to press against Jeongguk's.

"T-Tae," Jeongguk says gripping Taehyung's hips to stop him. "Hold on a second."

"I want you, Jeongguk," Taehyung says, his eyes still closed as he kisses Jeongguk again. "Please, I'm ready. I promise, I'm ready."

Jeongguk curses under his breath as Taehyung continues to grind down on him, his grip on his waist not budging.

"Gguk?" Taehyung says stopping after noticing Jeongguk's hesitation, taking his face in his hands and looking down at him. "I want to take this part of my life back, Jeongguk. I think I'm ready to now, with you. But I want you to be ready too. So if you aren't we can stop. I won't be upset, I promise."

"Are you sure?" Jeongguk asks looking up at him.

"I'm sure," Taehyung nods. "I'm ready."

Jeongguk nods, his body relaxing and becoming less tense. "Color?"

"Green," Taehyung smiles. "You?"

"Green, yeah," Jeongguk chuckles breathlessly. "I'm green."

"Good," Taehyung says before climbing off of Jeongguk and standing. He walks over to the nightstand, patting the spot on the bed in front of the headboard.

Jeongguk moves back into the spot, sitting against the headboard as he watches Taehyung pull out a condom and lube.

Taehyung laughs when he sees Jeongguk's eyes linger on the two items for a few moments. "Are you sure you're ready?"

"No, yeah," Jeongguk says quickly. "I'm just...processing."

"Well, can I suck you off while you're buffering?" Taehyung asks tilting his head, he's pretty certain he sees Jeongguk's soul leave his body after the question.

    "You're going to kill me," Jeongguk says as Taehyung laughs at him.

    "Are you holding back?" Taehyung asks, even though he can tell he is.

    "Am I?" He asks as Taehyung climbs back into his lap, holding him by the waist and looking up at him.

    "You don't have to," Taehyung says looking down at him, running his fingers through the other's hair.

    "I know," Jeongguk says. "I just don't want to hurt you."

"You won't," Taehyung reassures him. "You know I'll tell you if I want to stop."

"You better," Jeongguk says as he kisses him again, their lips moving against each other's slowly.

Taehyung feels that nervous feeling in his stomach as Jeongguk deepens the kiss, letting go little by little as his fingers trace over the scars on his sides. He allows himself to feel everything—everything emotion, every fear, and every insecurity.

Because he knows that he'll never get this moment back once it's gone.

~

"Slower,"

"Mhm,"

Taehyung bites his lip anxiously as Jeongguk positions himself at his entrance. His nerves aren't enough to make him want to back down, he knew they were both too far gone to stop now.

He closes his eyes when he feels Jeongguk finally start to push inside, lowering himself on his lap until he is fully seated.

The length of his arousal is deep inside of him, reaching places he never knew existed. Sending sensations through his body he's never felt until now.

Tears slip past his shut eyes and slip down his cheeks, the salty taste mixing with the sweetness of Jeongguk's lips against his. His back arches as he picks up his pace, his mouth falling open in a gasp as he slowly loses control of all his senses.

He forces his eyes open, his lids heavy as he looks down at Jeongguk with a slack jaw. He revels in every moan, every grunt that leaves Jeongguk's lips as his fingernails dig into his waist. He smiles a dopey smile as he pushes the dark, sweat-soaked hair away from Jeongguk's forehead. The movements of his hips becoming more desperate as he chases his own release.

He reaches between them, his hand traveling down to his soaked heat and finding his clit. The sight alone is enough to almost send Jeongguk crashing over the edge. Taehyung feels his hips jolt, the movement forcing a moan from deep inside of him. He can't even bring himself to warn Jeongguk as his orgasm takes him, a silent scream of pleasure being torn from his throat as warmth travels throughout his body—his eyes rolling back in ecstasy.

He feels Jeongguk trying to stop himself from thrusting up into him, but he couldn't. Somehow, his hands grip his waist tighter. He nods, crying out in pleasure as he urges him on. Jeongguk's hips stuttering shortly after, a strangled moan leaving his lips as Taehyung helps him through his orgasm.

Taehyung whines as he comes down from his high, his entire body screaming in sensitivity as he falls limply against Jeongguk's chest. His face in the crook of his neck as he breathes heavily.

"I fucking love you," Jeongguk says through his own labored breathing.

Taehyung laughs, lifting his head and looking down at him. "I love you too," He kisses him, his lips moving lazily against his for a moment before pulling away. "We should shower before we fall asleep."

"Yeah, okay," Jeongguk laughs before kissing him again.

Taehyung sighs, laying against Jeongguk again and closing his eyes. He was happy, happier than he has been in so long.

There was nothing that could ruin this night for them.