Hey,

I am so anxious right now as for another semester will start soon. I mean, thinking that 'soon' is tomorrow already makes me extra anxious! I feel like I'm gonna get crazier.

Am I overacting? Uhm...maybe? But thinking that I have to start everything again in few hours makes me nauseous! Thinking that I have new teachers and then I'll face my classmates again. I mean, I am already used to staying at home all day and now I am being dragged to go to school once again.

Thinking that I am away from my comfort zone, changing from what I am used to, it makes me insane and think a lot of crazy stuff. Yes, change is inevitable, but it is scary. Like, SCARY! The horror is comparable to Insidious' demon scene on the first film. That's scary, right? I wasn't able to sleep properly for days when I watched it.

Anyway, let's go back with the new teachers. The word 'NEW' just makes everything worse as I don't know what to expect. Can't I just have some of my older teachers back? I don't have issues with some of them, but others can enjoy their time away from me—I mean, us. BUT THEN AGAIN, I don't have a choice! So to the NEW ones, I hope everything's going to be alright. I hope it would be easy for me to figure out their style and personality. And I also hope they're gonna be generous with scores:).

And about my classmates, I am close with few of them, and I talked with some of them—you know, groupwork stuff. But, with most of them? I can't even talk about homework, favorite color, and even about the book I just read! I just really suck with socialization, I guess?

Well, I do enjoy being a wallflower. You know, watching everyone socialize. Judge them silently and hope that they won't approach me.

But then I also think that I should also learn how to come out from my shell, right? In order to live a good life, I should be able to ask a person about directions comfortably. And to widen my connections to conquer the business world?

Wait. What? Don't mind me, I'm just already sleepy.

Anyway (again), I am also content with my friends. I mean, they are the best. I could not ask for more. I am able to break the glass that surrounds everytime I'm with them.

I don't talk a lot, though. But they have a lot of stories and I love listening to 'em.

I just hope I can talk about my crushes...but I can't.

Well, I guess I have to end it for tonight. Good night!

-Eid