The next morning I sit comfortably at the table and ate my breakfast, I drank my coffee and I completely forgot what had happened.

But then.. Yesterday was the worst day of my life how could I forget something like that? I wanted to get up but then I got dizzy and suddenly tired.

I slowly sit back down and stroke my head that was in so much pain , all the rage in my head . I was dizzy . I got a headache pill and took it, then I sat on the sofa and fell asleep again for 2 hours.

After the 2 hours I slept I took my iPad and picked things I want to do in the days before I die.

I had no motivation to do anything all day. It rang and I sauntered listlessly to the door? The guys ? What are they doing here again?

I opened the door

"Where have you been today Jimin hyung?" tae asked me worried.

Was today something special? I looked at him asking .

Yoongi Said  "You missed our training,"

. The only thing I could say was 'sorry I was too tired'

They nodded sympathetically and we all sat down together on the sofa. "

Taehyung said ,
,Jimin if you don't tell us what's going on, I'm going to freak out," .

I breathed in and out deeply. At some point I had to tell them. So I started telling them that I haven't been feeling well for several months and that's why I went to the doctor and that's when I was diagnosed with cancer, well imprecisely being lung cancer, breast cancer and colon cancer.

Tears welled up in my members' eyes. They all hugged me and cried and cried how sorry they would be. ... but it wasn't their fault, why are they apologizing all the time?

I was overthinking too much .

We all cuddled for a while and after that I shared my suggestions with them.

They said they would do anything with me since it's my last days.

I didn't even think about doing something with my family because they never cared about me anyway. Our first trip would start tomorrow.

Since I've always wanted to go to Thailand, we quickly found a hotel there and also a perfect flight there. Everyone went home and packed their bags the same way I did.

I packed the essentials and went to sleep even though it was only 7 p.m. I felt more tired than ever. I see my death getting closer and I couldn't tell how much longer I had. But I hoped that I still had enough time to spend the last days of my life with the people who were close to my heart.