When I sleep at night Stone, I think of you.
                  I think of you laying right beside me smiling. Because no matter the circumstance, whenever you were with me, all you wore was a smile.
            I loved your smile, I loved the way you looked at me with such heartfelt passion. That weakened me, but oddly strengthened me more than anything.
     I took a picture of you. When you were smiling like that, you didn't notice, you just thought I had some funny shaped light box. And in the midst of you ranting, I snapped it.
           How could one live with such happiness, and not regret? You went away from time and created your own. It was never too late, nor ever too early, it was just now. In the moment, you never gave too much in the past or the future.
          Because you didn't care. I still have the picture and every night that we are apart I watch it, and I just stare at it in hopes that maybe if I believed hard enough, if I allowed my heart to long for you hard enough, that you'd return.
      I thought that time would erase you, erase you from my heart, as well as my mind. But it hasn't, you are the first person besides my family that I have ever truly loved. With the beat of my heart, that sounded like a million drums every time you came near to me.
         The weakness of my body, that shook of trembles when you spoke kindly to me. The neverending, earth wide smile that stretched to eternity every time your eyes would stray unto me and never leave.
Because when you looked at me, your eyes seemed to believe that I was the only person in the world. Like we ran the earth with just our witty attitudes and odd humor. There belonged, no one else but us, as we ran around the city sneaking into clubs, and pubs, picking fights as if we were Rambo.
              You were my Rambo.
You are my first love, and to see you again would bring me to my knees. And when I fall you'd fall just as low, if not lower, and you would crawl to me, and lay there. "You gon get up yet, or do I have to throw you over my back, and jump buildings like King Kong? That'd cause a disturbance, maybe then they'd give us some free food. Right?"
You also were a bloody damn idiot.